The Very Small Person Part 15

When Ellen came in to put Morry to bed she found wet spots on his cus.h.i.+ons, but she did not mention them. Ellens can be wise. She only handled the limp little figure rather more gently than usual, and said rather more cheery things, perhaps. Perhaps that was why the small fellow under her hands decided to appeal in his desperation to her. It was possible--things were always possible--that Ellen might know something of--of step-ones. For Morry was battling with the pitifully unsatisfactory information Jolly had given him before understanding had conceived the kind little lie. It was, of course,--Morry put it that way because "of course" sometimes comforts you,--of course just possible that Jolly's step-one might be different. Ellen might know of there being another kind.

So, under the skilful, gentle hands, the boy looked up and chanced it. "Ellen," he said--"Ellen, are they all that kind,--_all_ of 'em?

Jolly's kind, I mean? I thought poss'bly you might know one"--

"Heart alive!" breathed Ellen, in fear of his sanity. She felt his temples and his wrists and his limp little body. Was he going to be sick now, just as his father and She were coming home?--now, of all times! Which would be better to give him, quinine, or aconite and belladonna?

"Never mind," sighed Morry, hopelessly. Ellens--he might have known--were not made to tell you _close_ things like that. They were made to undress you and give you doses and laugh and wheel your chair around. Jollys were better than Ellens, but they told you pretty hard things sometimes.

In bed he lay and thought out his little puzzles and steeled himself for what was to come. He pondered over the word Jolly had looked up in the dictionary for him. It was a puzzly word,--Rec-om-pense,--but he thought he understood it now. It meant something that made up to you for something you'd suffered,--"suffered," that was what it said.

And Morry had suffered--oh, _how!_ Could it be possible there was anything that would make up for little, limp, sorrowful legs that had never been?

With the fickleness of night-thoughts his musings flitted back to step-ones again. He shut his eyes and tried to imagine just the right kind of one,--the kind a boy would be glad to have come home with his Dadsy. It looked an easy thing to do, but there were limitations.

"If I'd ever had a real one, it would be easier," Morry thought wistfully. Of course, any amount easier! The mothers you read about and the Holy Ones you saw in pictures were not quite real enough.

What you needed was to have had one of your own. Then,--Morry's eyes closed in a dizzy little vision of one of his own. One that would have dressed and undressed you instead of an Ellen,--that would have moved your chair about and beaten up the cus.h.i.+ons,--one that maybe would have _loved_ you, legs and all!

Why!--why, that was the kind of a step-one a boy'd like to have come home with his father! That was the very kind! While you'd been lying there thinking you couldn't imagine one, you'd imagined! And it was _easy!_

The step-one a boy would like to have come home with his father seemed to materialize out of the dim, soft haze from the shaded night-lamp,--seemed to creep out of the farther shadows and come and stand beside the bed, under the ring of light on the ceiling that made a halo for its head. The room seemed suddenly full of its gracious presence. It came smiling, as a boy would like it to come.

And in a reg'lar mother-voice it began to speak. Morry lay as if in a wondrous dream and listened.

"Are you the dear little boy whose legs won't go?" He gasped a little, for he hadn't thought of there being a "dear." He had to swallow twice before he could answer. Then:--

"Oh yes'm, thank you," he managed to say. "They're under the bedclothes."

"Then I've come to the right place. Do you know--guess!--who I am?"

"Are--are you a step-one?" breathing hard.

"Why, you've guessed the first time!" the Gracious One laughed.

"Not--not _the_ one, I s'pose?" It frightened him to say it. But the Gracious One laughed again.

"_The_ one, yes, you Dear Little Boy Whose Legs Won't Go! I thought I heard you calling me, so I came. And I've brought you something."

To think of that!

"Guess, you Dear Little Boy! What would you like it to be?"

Oh, if he only dared! He swallowed to get up courage. Then he ventured timidly.

"A Rec-om-pense." It was out.

"Oh, you Guesser--you little Guesser! You've guessed the second time!"

Was that what it was like? Something you couldn't see at all, just feel,--that folded you in like a warm shawl,--that brushed your forehead, your cheek, your mouth,--that made you dizzy with happiness? You lay folded up in it and knew that it _made up_. Never mind about the sorrowful, limp legs under the bedclothes. They seemed so far away that you almost forgot about them. They might have been somebody else's, while you lay in the warm, sweet Rec-om-pense.

"Will--will it last?" he breathed.

"Always, Morry."

The Gracious Step-one knew his name!

"Then Jolly didn't know this kind,--we never s'posed there was a kind like this! Real Ones must be like this."

And while he lay in the warm shawl, in the soft haze of the night-lamp, he seemed to fall asleep, and, before he knew, it was morning. Ellen had come.

"Up with you, Master Morris! There's great doings to-day. Have you forgot who's coming?"

Ellens are stupid.

"She's come." But Ellen did not hear, and went on getting the bath ready. If she had heard, it would only have meant quinine or aconite and belladonna to drive away feverishness. For Ellens are very watchful.

"They'll be here most as soon as I can get you up 'n' dressed. I'm going to wheel you to the front winder--"

"No!" Morry cried, sharply; "I mean, thank you, no. I'd rather be by the back window where--where I can watch for Jolly." Homely, freckled, familiar Jolly,--he needed something freckled and homely and familiar. The old dread had come back in the wake of the beautiful dream,--for it had been a dream. Ellen had waked him up.

A boy would like to have his father come home in the suns.h.i.+ne, and the sun was s.h.i.+ning. They would come walking up the path to the front-door through it,--with it warm and welcoming on their faces.

But it would only be Dadsy and a step-one,--Jolly's kind, most likely. Jolly's kind was pretty,--_she_ might be pretty. But she would not come smiling and creeping out of the dark with a halo over her head. That kind came in dreams.

Jolly's whistle was comforting to hear. Morry leaned out of his cus.h.i.+ons to wave his hand. Jolly was going to school; when he came whistling back, she would be here. It would be all over.

Morry leaned back again and closed his eyes. He had a way of closing them when he did the hardest thinking,--and this was the very hardest. Sometimes he forgot to open them, and dropped asleep. Even in the morning one can be pretty tired.

"Is this the Dear Little Boy?"

He heard distinctly, but he did not open his eyes. He had learned that opening your eyes drives beautiful things away.

The dream had come back. If he kept perfectly still and didn't breathe, it might all begin again. He might feel--

He felt it. It folded him in like a warm shawl,--it brushed his forehead, his cheek, his lips,--it made him dizzy with happiness. He lay among his cus.h.i.+ons, folded up in it. Oh, it made up,--it made up, just as it had in the other dream!

"You Dear Little Boy Whose Legs Won't Go!"--he did not catch anything but the first four words; he must have breathed and lost the rest.

But the tone was all there. He wanted to ask her if she had brought the Rec-om-pense, but it was such a risk to speak. He thought if he kept on lying quite still he should find out. Perhaps in a minute--

"You think he will let me love him, Morris? Say you think he will!"

Morris was Dadsy's other name. Things were getting very strange.

"Because I must! Perhaps it will make up a very little if I fold him all up in my love."

"Fold him up"--that was what the warm shawl had done, and the name of the warm shawl had been Rec-om-pense. Was there another name to it?

Morry opened his eyes and gazed up wonderingly into the face of the step-one.--It was a Real One's face, and the other name was written on it.

"Why, it's Love!" breathed Morry. He felt a little dizzy, but he wanted to laugh, he was so happy. He wanted to tell her--he must.

"It makes up--oh yes, it makes up!" he cried, softly.