My Secret Lovelife 131 Confessions Of Mom

"Mom she said it was okay. And I also need to show that to her. "

While saying that, a shy smile lingered on my lips. At that time I was happy since I had a chat with him regarding the dress. But the worst part was I was too casual with my phone screen on that my mom saw our chat. Mom was alerted.

Moreover Nikki never got rid off her habit of teasing me and explaining to mom about our relations.h.i.+p. But don't misunderstand that she was helping instead she was adding oil to the flames.

Mom took me by her side and closed the door of her room. I felt a deep pain as I had already understood as to why she closed the door.

"I won't be asking you anything for now. Just listen to me. "

"Yes Mom"

"You know why have I taken thirty sleeping pills at that time? "

A sudden throb and feeling of guilt aroused. I knew the reason but pretended about not knowing a thing about it. I had always been like that. Never letting people know about my feelings yet can't hide it from them.

"Yes mom I might be knowing. "

"Since you already know it, it's alright. But don't tell anything about it to Nikki . "

And suddenly tears came trickling down her cheeks. She started wailing.

She sobbed, "Why did he betray me? The man I had loved for so many years. I had been beside him through thick and thin. Why did he betray? When your dad's salary couldn't afford I would work hard and give my best in supporting him. Took care of you two so that he won't have trouble doing his job. I.. I didn't even let him do any house ch.o.r.es just to make sure he remains fit. But what's the use? Now when he gained enough he had.. had to ... spend money for another girl who is just 6-7 years older than you. You know before that day I was so much humiliated when I heard other people gossiping and I really wanted to file a divorce. But thinking about you two we restrained. I really don't know what to do? It's better to have a poor but honest and loyal husband or lover than a dishonest and unloyal partner. "

She was sobbing. I could almost feel my chest hurting the most. But I controlled my emotions, my sobs, my tears, my heartache and patted her head.

"Everything will be fine. I'm by your side. If anything happens tell me. I won't spare anyone. "

"Silly you are still young. "

"But I'm 19 already. "

"Yeah.. yeah 19 but 90 year old granny. "

Even though she was deeply hurt she was trying to make light of the situation. I really admire her strength in handling situations .

"So, I want to say you one thing. I'm a total failure in my love life. And now you are in college with variety of people mixed in coed system so it's normal for a person to have crush on someone. But still one note of advice from this failure yet experienced mom ,never commit to a person until you find that person you like likes you so much that he always stays by your side no matter what. The kind who values and respects you.And also doesn't befriend you only to take advantage of you. You can't always be sure but... use your brain sometimes rather than your feelings. "

"I will heed to that. But I don't like anyone. "

She hugged me..

"I know you like Sky."

That was the moment my heart flinched a beat. I was nervous as to know her verdict . Maybe to break over with him or to avoid him altogether.... It's similar to getting caught while stealing. But in this case I was stealing my ownself.

" You can try to fool but your eyes can never fool me. Remember, since you were a kid you used to be a bit aloof and won't speak out but your eyes expressed what you desired. I know this pair of yours very well. No need to hide it.Moreover I don't know much about him but if you like him you can go for it if you feel he is your chosen one. But first make sure his true feelings towards you. "

All of my anxiety disappeared in a flash. It's feels great to have someone who understands you truly. At that moment I was really at a loss of words. Uncomprehending happiness mixed with sorrow and guilt were pouring into me.

I hugged mom tightly, "Love you mom. You know me really well. " and I wept.

"Silly I love you too.And don't hide everything from me"

"Oh my, it's already dinner time. I have to heat the food. I'm going. Come to the dining room and call Nikki and your dad for dinner. "

"Yes mom. "