West Of Here Part 19

flight APRIL 1890 1890.

Catching a heel on the last step, Gertie nearly tumbled face first into the mud but managed not to break stride as she darted off down the alley. Tobin was less fortunate in pursuit. Clearing the steps in a single bound, his boot heels. .h.i.t the mud and immediately skidded out from under him. Rearing backward, his head struck the bottom step with such force that the world flashed white for an instant. By the time he regained his feet, dazedly, Gertie was well on her way. To where, he couldn't say, but at least she wasn't running toward the Olympic. Maybe to that bothersome wh.o.r.e in the colony. There was still time to nip this thing in the bud, and he knew he'd have the opportunity to nip it. One thing about wh.o.r.es, they always came back. Then again, Gertie McGrew was not your run of the mill wh.o.r.e.

Gertie had no intention of returning as she kicked off her heels and dashed barefoot through the darkened alley in the direction of Hogback. She could not tell whether Tobin was pursuing her. Briefly it occurred to her that she might change her course and backtrack to the Olympic, but that would be as good as suicide if Tobin was waiting for her. But for the frantic beating of her life force, she was deaf to the world as breathlessly she crested the hill at a trot, looking vainly back over her shoulder into the darkness. Below her, the lights of the colony bounced about wildly as they drew nearer. She didn't slow her pace until she was well past the boat shed and on the the path to the cottages, where she pulled up briefly to catch her breath. Not until then could she feel the throbbing of her battered face, or the stinging of her shredded feet in the mud. Not until then did Gertie think she heard footfalls giving chase down the hill, and then she hurried her pace once more.

When Eva answered her frantic knocks with a gasp, Gertie practically fell into the house.

"Dear G.o.d, what's happened to you? Who did this?"

"Blow out the lamp," Gertie said breathlessly.

"Whatever for? We've got to -"

"Blow out the lamp!"

Gertie saw the color leave Eva's face as she straightened up and crossed the room hurriedly to blow out the lamp. In an instant the room was awash in darkness, and the world was so quiet that even the beating in Gertie's ears fell silent. Sensing no movement, she was startled to feel the cold flesh of Eva's hand on her elbow and nearly jumped.

"Shhhh," said Eva. "Come."

Eva led her by the elbow through the darkness, into the cluttered little sitting room, which she navigated carefully. Groping her way to the corner without upsetting anything, Eva quietly slid the top door of the dresser open and removed the little single-barreled Derringer. It was hardly more than a pencil gun according to Ethan, but persuasive nonetheless. Shepherding Gertie to the rear of the cottage and out the back door, Eva lifted the root cellar hatch and disappeared down the wooden steps. Soon Gertie saw a flash of light from below, the striking of a match, and Eva's stooping candlelit figure filled the jaws of the cellar, beckoning Gertie down the steps.

Once they settled in with their backs against the earthen wall, Eva blew out the candle, and they sat in complete darkness, Eva clutching the Derringer in front of her.

"What is this about?" whispered Eva.

"Making a difference," Gertie said. "Or maybe just getting killed."

"Shhhh."

From above came dully the sound of the front door swinging open, followed by heavy footsteps proceeding slowly toward the rear of the cottage.

Gertie clutched Eva's arm, and Eva clutched the Derringer still harder in the darkness, so hard that when she heard the sound of the back door closing, and the footfalls descending the back steps, and finally, the sickly creak of the cellar door as it swung back on its hinges, she could no longer tell whether she was holding the pistol at all.

knowing your place APRIL 1890 1890.

Pulling the cellar hatch back, Tobin was greeted at once by a rush of cold earthen air that set his hair on end. What if the crazy wh.o.r.e was waiting for him with an ax down there? Feeling his way down the steps into the stillness of the cavity, he smelled something else - candle wax? He sensed no movement whatsoever in the tiny s.p.a.ce. Arms outstretched, he blindly frisked the emptiness in front of him. He patted around his pockets for a matchstick.

Gertie heard the switch switch of the match and felt the quick acid sting of sulfur in her nostrils, before the flare of the light illuminated Tobin's face unevenly, his eyes black and glossy as obsidians. When he saw the little Derringer pointed squarely at his chest, he sneered. of the match and felt the quick acid sting of sulfur in her nostrils, before the flare of the light illuminated Tobin's face unevenly, his eyes black and glossy as obsidians. When he saw the little Derringer pointed squarely at his chest, he sneered.

"You might aim a mosquito at me," he said. But he was frightened, Gertie could tell. His black eyes were alert.

"While sleek in appearance, Mr... ?"

"John C. Tobin," said Gertie. "And he ain't a mister. He's a no good sonofab.i.t.c.h."

"While sleek in appearance, Mr. Tobin, I'm told that this mosquito stings quite hard at close range."

"For them that can shoot it," said Tobin. "What about you? You ever shot that pistol?" His match was burning low.

"Ask me again in ten seconds, if you you don't back off."

Suddenly, the match flared and the cellar went dark.

"Still got a bead on me, have you?" said Tobin.

Eva kept her pistol trained straight ahead in the darkness. "Try me, Mr. Tobin."

An abrupt sc.r.a.ping of feet on the dirt floor betrayed Tobin's offensive, as he rushed them blindly, tripping headlong into the dirt wall. When he recovered, he lit the second match and discovered that the women were on either side of him, Eva still training the gun on his chest.

"The shovel," she said.

Gertie took hold of the nearby clam shovel and raised it.

"Back out slowly, Mr. Tobin, or I won't hesitate to shoot you."

"John, he doesn't know nothin'," blurted Gertie. "He may suspect, but it's not my doin', I swear! I'm sorry, John."

"Quit apologizing," said Eva, her eyes locked on Tobin's. "You just keep right on moving, Mr. Tobin."

Even as he backed out at gunpoint, Tobin was smiling his cruel smile, first at Eva, then at Gertie, his black eyes laughing. He'd kill her one way or another. If not this moment, soon. And he wouldn't even give it a thought. He'd kill her with no more ceremony than a possum or a rat. That hurt most of all. She raised the head of the shovel still further.

"You're a cruel sonofab.i.t.c.h, John."

"You're a dead wh.o.r.e," said Tobin.

Gertie swung the shovel with an old rage, clipping Tobin on the shoulder. The blow glanced off the side of his face. Dropping the match, he went careening backward into the steps, just as Eva's errant shot rang out, splintering the ceiling above the steps. Eva leveled the pistol once more in the darkness, though the chamber was empty.

Just as he heard the whistle of the shovel, Tobin scrambled to his feet, taking the blow in the back of the leg, as hurried up the steps into the night.

Gertie and Eva listened as his footfalls grew distant, leaving only a dense silence.

"He's right. I'm a dead wh.o.r.e."

"Come," said Eva. She led Gertie back up the steps and into the house to the sitting room, where she lit the lamp and rifled through the dresser drawer for another round of ammunition, fumbling in the quavering light to reload the pistol as Ethan taught her. It was still a mystery to her how Ethan knew such things. Where did he learn to handle a gun or build a cabin? Where did he learn to believe he could tame the wilds or master his own destiny?

When Eva succeeded in reloading the pistol, she pressed it firmly into Gertie's palm, then retired to the bedroom with the lamp. Gertie stayed put, still trembling in the darkness with the pistol in her grip. Maybe it would've been better to get it over with in the cellar. Better to be dead already than to deal with the chilling certainty of death. Maybe she ought to turn the pistol on herself.

Eva returned with a full length camel hair coat, a man's from the look of it. She clutched two short stacks of bills fastened smartly with paper bands. Setting the lamp on the dresser, she draped the coat over Gertie's shoulders, where it hung nearly to the floor. Eva stuffed half the money in the coat pocket, then blew out the lamp.

"Come," was all she said.

She led Gertie out the front door, and down the path toward the heart of the colony. They said nothing as they hurried along. The gaping sky was uncharacteristically clear. The stars burned cold, and somewhere in the distance a donkey brayed.

At the Colony Hotel, they circled around the back to the livery, where a half-breed stable-hand was asleep on his pallet with a pitchfork in his clutches. Only when Eva shook his feet did the young man stir.

"Up," she said. "I'll need a horse and a man to go as far Port Townsend, and I've got money." Eva felt the thrill of decision as never before. She waved the stack of money at the stable hand, who jumped immediately into action. "And boots for the lady," she called after him.

Gertie could not help but notice the change in Eva. "What are we doing?" she said.

"You're leaving."

"To where?"

"To wherever that money will get you. At Port Townsend you can catch a steamer to Seattle. Or San Francisco, or the Yukon, if you get the notion."

Suddenly Gertie was paralyzed by a different kind of fear, not the fear of certainty, but the fear of the unknown - it ran cold through her from the roots of her hair to the bottom of her bare feet. But circ.u.mstances left her little occasion to ponder. Within moments she was mounting a dark red mare with the a.s.sistance of the stable hand, and she found herself clutching the thick waist of a bearded stranger who smelled of campfire, and all of this Gertie acted out mechanically, without a single notion as to her deliverance.

Rapidly, Eva issued the rider further instructions, which washed dully over Gertie's ears. By the time Eva turned her attention to Gertie, she found herself at a rare loss of words.

"Go," she said, as much to the rider as to Gertie.

And as the horse set off at a canter, Gertie McGrew offered only the slow, stunned wave of a hand as she looked back over her shoulder at Eva for the last time.

Thirty-six hours later, upon a chill dawn blanketed with fog, Gertie left Port Townsend on the Colonel Thomas T. Aldwell, Colonel Thomas T. Aldwell, bound for San Francisco, wearing a new blue dress of a modest cut, a pair of sensible shoes, and a yellow and blue checked floppy bow. On her hip, tucked securely in a square felt clutch, was ninety-six dollars, two hairpins, and a single-barrel pistol. bound for San Francisco, wearing a new blue dress of a modest cut, a pair of sensible shoes, and a yellow and blue checked floppy bow. On her hip, tucked securely in a square felt clutch, was ninety-six dollars, two hairpins, and a single-barrel pistol.

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the shadow of olympus JULY 2006 2006.

Standing on the narrow ridge with all that he owned strapped to his back, looking over the wedge-shaped valley toward the humbling spectacle of Mount Olympus, Timmon knew, despite the cold reality of death lurking in his bones, that he must cross that threshold to seize his destiny, his nameless creek, his sun-dappled valley, his solitude. Yet standing there in the shadow of Olympus, Timmon was conflicted about his destiny for the first time since he marched out of High Tide Seafood.

For starters, he was out of Snickers bars. Moreover, his crossbow might have been a particle accelerator in terms of his proficiency in operating the d.a.m.n thing. But worse than the bare bones survival stuff was Timmon's lingering uncertainty regarding the fate of the octogenarian hiking party, particularly that little prune-faced lady who p.i.s.sed herself. His fate now rested on her. If she was fine - say, a little dehydrated, or exhausted, or even down with a little myocardiopathy (whatever the h.e.l.l that was), well then, chances were, Timmon was safe. But if if she had a stroke and her face went all paralyzed, or even worse, she keeled over, then Timmon could be up s.h.i.+t creek with a t.u.r.d for a paddle. He had a bad feeling about High Pockets, too, the spindle-legged little f.u.c.ker. He knew the type - Mr. Take Control of the Situation. Mr. Do-Gooder. Mr. Fourth of f.u.c.king July. Timmon saw the way the old man looked at his ink, as though Timmon were some type of common ... well, criminal. No doubt, the old buzzard would tell the authorities everything, embellis.h.i.+ng details to suit his whimsy. she had a stroke and her face went all paralyzed, or even worse, she keeled over, then Timmon could be up s.h.i.+t creek with a t.u.r.d for a paddle. He had a bad feeling about High Pockets, too, the spindle-legged little f.u.c.ker. He knew the type - Mr. Take Control of the Situation. Mr. Do-Gooder. Mr. Fourth of f.u.c.king July. Timmon saw the way the old man looked at his ink, as though Timmon were some type of common ... well, criminal. No doubt, the old buzzard would tell the authorities everything, embellis.h.i.+ng details to suit his whimsy.

Timmon might have stood ruminating on the ridge for the remainder of the afternoon had something not flashed silver from down in the valley. Scanning the basin, he could find no reflective surface to account for such a beacon - only trees, spurs of craggy rock, and the precipitous shale face of the western ridge. But then, just above the tree line, he picked up the broken ribbon of the trail halfway down the ridge, where he soon intimated two tiny figures wending their way up the bald face of the incline some five hundred feet below him. Once again, the silver point gleamed, and Timmon traced its point of origin to the lead hiker. A wrist.w.a.tch perhaps. Carabiner, maybe. Possibly an aluminum canteen.

Instinctively, Timmon squatted for cover. Surely, this approaching tandem were no more than recreational hikers crossing the divide from Sol Duc on their way to the trail's terminus at Crooked Thumb. But they were people. That was the problem. Hadn't he had his fill of hikers already?

Prairie-d.o.g.g.i.ng over the ridge, he followed the slow, steady progress of the two hikers up the switchback and guessed that they would be upon him in fifteen minutes, maybe less. He hunkered in the brush thirty feet off of the trail until they finally came trudging through his midst. They were an oddly paired couple of dudes, that much was apparent at first glance. Timmon guessed them both to be in their late twenties or early thirties. One of them - the lanky one with the feral beard and the unmanageable hair - looked homeless. He was hiking in tennis shoes. He had an ancient olive drab external-frame backpack that had seen better days and an army-issue canteen that looked like someone had kicked it there from Fort Bragg. The other guy was a pantywaist, a real yuppie: fancy hiking gear, head to toe. A lot of Velcro, a lot of zippers, a lot of gadgets strapped to his person with carabiners. His wrist.w.a.tch probably had an altimeter. Timmon caught a brief snippet of their conversation as they pa.s.sed.

"I don't know," the dirty one was saying. "I guess I just figure there ought to be some sort of like, you know, quality-of-life index or something, you know?"

"What a load of c.r.a.p," Fancy Pants said, checking his watch impatiently. "Either you play the game to win, or you're grist for the mill. Christ, is that the type of s.h.i.+t they taught you at Evergreen? It's a wonder you don't live live in a tent." in a tent."

The Dirty One laughed.

Timmon followed the hikers a quarter mile down trail, where they set up camp in a hollow below the ridge. Fancy Pants had a bivouac tent which would have served Sir Edmund Hillary well at eight thousand meters. The Dirty One simply laid out a tarp.

"Pu-leease," said Fancy Pants, beginning to unpack his s.h.i.+ny things and situate them on the ground. "Don't be a b.o.o.b. There are no nations. It's all about money."

"For some people."

"Yeah. The smart ones."

The Dirty One didn't say anything to that. He just lay on his back, with his arms behind his head, and looked up at the treetops.

"It's the same old game," said Fancy Pants. "Get with the program, Woody Guthrie. War is business, face the facts. We need it. You gotta look at the big picture. Seriously, if Grandpa's generation, or even Dad's had been like you, we probably wouldn't even be be here. You don't like it, go stand somewhere else." Fancy Pants started repacking his s.h.i.+ny things. "That's the problem with you people," he pursued. "Your ideas. Heh. This country was founded on one idea, and one idea only." here. You don't like it, go stand somewhere else." Fancy Pants started repacking his s.h.i.+ny things. "That's the problem with you people," he pursued. "Your ideas. Heh. This country was founded on one idea, and one idea only."

"What about the Boston Tea Party?"

"My point exactly."

Timmon hated that smug little f.u.c.ker with his f.u.c.king gadgets. Mr. All the Answers. Mr. Climb Everything Like It's a f.u.c.king Mountain. Guy like that will lie, cheat, and steal his way to the top. Meanwhile, a guy like Timmon had to lie, cheat, and steal just to stay afloat. All because of the f.u.c.king system. Any reservations he had about turning his back on civilization fled while listening to Fancy Pants. Satisfied that the two hikers posed no threat to the pursuit of his destiny, Timmon was just about ready to forge ahead, up and over the ridge, when the Dirty One suggested that they do a little collateral exploration and maybe look for a natural hot spring.

"s.h.i.+t, you never know. I totally keep smelling sulfur. C'mon. We can just leave our s.h.i.+t here."

"I'm not leaving my s.h.i.+t here," said Fancy Pants. "My BlackBerry and all my s.h.i.+t's in my pack."

The Dirty One was incredulous. "What, Bigfoot's going to steal your s.h.i.+t?"

"No," said Fancy Pants, annoyed. "Animals could get into it or something - bears got my iPod at Whitney last year."

"So, duh, we'll tie the s.h.i.+t up."

Timmon decided in advance, even as the mismatched pair hoisted their packs up and over a nearby fir bough, that he would take nothing from the Dirty One. The Dirty One was okay. He didn't play life like a game and he didn't whine about his stuff. For these reasons, Timmon did not even rifle through the ancient green backpack but turned his attention straight to the fancy pack, which still looked brand new, nicer than anything Timmon had seen at Big Five. Bonded construction, urethane mix, external compression straps, binary hip-belt components. Even a load transfer disc. f.u.c.ker must've paid five hundred bucks for the thing. This guy wasn't interested in climbing mountains or communing with nature, thought Timmon. This guy was here to conquer. It even occurred to Timmon that he was doing Fancy Pants a favor, doing the whole world a favor, by stealing his propane stove, his carbon-filtered water system, his Camp Cook's Companion Guide Camp Cook's Companion Guide (featuring over 150 recipes, made from both fresh and dehydrated ingredients - from simple one-pan offerings, to creative Dutch oven repasts!), not to mention his Enertia Trails dehydrated meals - Switchback Spaghetti, Pinnacle Pasta, and Teton Teriyaki. (featuring over 150 recipes, made from both fresh and dehydrated ingredients - from simple one-pan offerings, to creative Dutch oven repasts!), not to mention his Enertia Trails dehydrated meals - Switchback Spaghetti, Pinnacle Pasta, and Teton Teriyaki.

Timmon would teach that little f.u.c.ker about real survival.

In a kangaroo pocket, Timmon found Fancy Pants's wallet. Thirty-six bucks. A couple of credit cards. A f.u.c.king Starbucks gift card - a lot of good that would do him out there. He scattered it all on the forest floor, except the thirty-six bucks. He took the thirty-six bucks. Later, he would ask himself why he took the money if he had no intention of ever returning to civilization.

Just before he took flight, Timmon briefly considered just one peek into the old green backpack, just for the sake of curiosity. But he decided against it, he supposed, because he felt something of an affinity for the Dirty One, maybe the last affinity he would ever feel for anyone. Besides, there was probably nothing decent in there anyway.

At the top of the ridge, Timmon paused for one last look at mighty Olympus. But this time a s.h.i.+ver didn't run through him as he stood on the Devil's Backbone - this time he swelled with courage and conviction. His new fancy pack rested comfortably on his back, so that neither his shoulders nor his lumbar were forced to bear the burden alone. There was still two hours of light left. Not a cloud in the sky. Everywhere the warm smell of fir needles, birdsong, the burbling of nameless streams. Somewhere out there in that big country was his destiny. In between, who knew? Timmon began wending his way down the bald face of the ridge toward the tree line, three hundred feet below.

the wisdom of water FEBRUARY 1890 1890.

Even as the men stood on the ridge looking over the steep valleys toward Mount Olympus, the weather was threatening to take a grim turn. Rolling gray cloudbanks tumbled over the sawtooth range that would soon be christened the Baileys. Mather could not help but wonder at the party's fortunes had they wisely embarked upon this journey in spring rather than winter. But spring was too late. Destiny could not wait until spring.

"Best be getting on," said Mather. "Before our friend Thunderbird comes calling."

And without further pause, the Mather party and their one remaining mule, Dolly, packed tight to the tune of 250 pounds, began trudging through the chest-deep snow, down the bald wayward face of the Devil's Backbone toward the tree line, three hundred feet below.

With the wet wind stinging his face, Mather could not help but wonder where this mythical valley of wide prairies and lush gra.s.ses lay. Might they be buried in the snow beneath their feet? Where was this place where the wind stopped howling and the sun nested in a bowl of green goodness? Would this be the place that would awaken in Mather the yearning to pause, to stop, to settle even? He doubted it, as he was beginning to doubt that such a place even existed. The lay of the land was only getting rougher and more precipitous. Between the ridge and Olympus, Mather counted no less than three steep valleys. And none of them appeared to offer easy pa.s.sage. More disquieting than the terrain was the sleeping wilderness of his spirit, which nothing could seem to stir. While he had little doubt that the pa.s.sage ahead was to be the greatest and most perilous physical challenge of his life, he could not summon the same thrilling intensity he had experienced along the Mackenzie. He was alert, his senses were sharp, but his steps did not spring with aliveness, the cold air did not excite his lungs. Driven not by his customary restlessness, nor by any crowning sense of antic.i.p.ation, Mather led his men into the heart of the Olympics mechanically.

For a day and a half the party battled their way through wet, heavy snow, over rugged spurs, switchbacking up and down heavily timbered inclines - valleys within valleys. This terrain had a strange quality that did not speak to its natural formation the way the Yukon, the Rockies, or the Cascades had.

Haywood was also moved to note the odd topography of the Olympic interior.

27 February 1890 There is an observable lack of uniformity to this rugged terrain that suggests great chaos and upheaval in its past. These mountains do not seem to rise up, so much as explode out of the earth, colliding, as though they were competing for room, all crowding in on Olympus as though huddling around her for warmth.

On those increasingly rare occasions when his thoughts turned to Eva, something bitter began to rise in Mather's throat, not because he would never possess her, and not because he could no longer summon her smell or the touch of her delicate hand, but because, like everything else, the thought of Eva did not arouse him; not even the thought of her swollen belly stirred him. Love may abide in some quieter form, Mather thought, but nothing was more transitory than pa.s.sion.