West Of Here Part 16

"Paranoid, my a.s.s! Not with the kind of sc.u.mbags that hang out at that place," Randy had said.

How long before Randy started bossing Curtis around again like he had a right? How long before he came unhinged and started taking shots at his mom? f.u.c.k if he was going to watch that bulls.h.i.+t all over again. f.u.c.k if he was going to so much as look at Randy sideways. Especially not on acid. Why spoil one of the few things worth looking forward to? Dosing was the greatest escape yet. Better than sleeping. Better than drawing. Better than huffing. To peak on acid was to forget yourself completely, to turn yourself inside out, to broadcast what little mystery was left inside of you and then walk, and grasp, and wander with childlike wonder through a world of your own creation. That was the main thing, to feel like a kid again. Curtis could remember sitting perfectly still as a child, unfocusing his eyes watching the outer world swirl together in a corkscrew of humming colors. He could remember leaving his body altogether. But that was childhood. Ancient history. Now, he was forever stuck right-f.u.c.king-here, right-f.u.c.king-here, wher-ever that was - a million light-years from the humming corkscrew. But for ten bucks he could get close. wher-ever that was - a million light-years from the humming corkscrew. But for ten bucks he could get close.

Curtis began to effect a quick escape, though not before he fished around in Randy's jeans for his wallet. There must've been three hundred bucks inside. Filching a pair of twenties, Curtis replaced the wallet and smiled inwardly at the thought of KFC and a two-liter bottle of Pepsi. On his way out the door, he s.n.a.t.c.hed a half pack of Salems off the coffee table, along with a waxy red apple and half a Diet c.o.ke.

The rain had let up and the sun was darting in and out of clouds, s.h.i.+ning silver on the wet pavement. The acid began running a cold electric finger up the boy's rib cage and into his throat. Drifting toward the center of town, Curtis felt his eyes begin to outgrow their sockets. His stomach made a fist. The veil of reality began to take on that threadbare look, and Curtis knew that soon he would be able to see right through the fabric. He gave a s.h.i.+ver and fired up a Salem.

There came an instant when Curtis was coming on, when he knew he was about to relinquish his tenuous grip on the ordinary; it arrived as a ticking behind his eyeb.a.l.l.s and a fluttering in his chest and a heartbeat in his skull. The world began to pulse with color, and invisible things began leaving their signatures all around him. And he gave into this slackening perception of the ordinary, so that he might glimpse the world underneath.

Now and again Curtis awakened in flashes and found himself in unfamiliar places - kneeling on riverbanks, riding in canoes, swimming through darkness toward an orange glow. He walked outside of his body and saw things he could not comprehend yet somehow recognized - tiny laughing people made of forest and sunlight. He witnessed himself, s.h.i.+vering on the bank of a river in an animal skin rug, his skin rubbed raw, waiting for he knew not what.

strange ways APRIL 1890 1890.

Thomas slept on a straw mat at the foot of an empty bed formerly belonging to Lord Jim's daughter, Lila, who was in turn forced to share a room with her parents across the hallway. In spite of Lord Jim's entreaties, the boy would not sleep on the mattress and refused to sleep with anything but a goatskin rug, a state of affairs for which Lila chastised the boy endlessly. Some nights, early in spring, when the wind howling off the bay sliced through the thin walls and rattled the windowpanes, the boy awoke s.h.i.+vering and huddled about the flame of a candle for warmth. Other nights the boy was troubled by dreams. One dream in particular would not let him rest.

He dreamed of the Siwash standing in a field at the edge of a high bluff. It was the dead of night in the dream, and the moon cast a purple glow upon his people, who stood expressionless, as still as statues - 132 Indians in all, scattered along the edge of the bluff, with no one stationed closer to the edge than his mother, her braided hair pulled back tight, her arms at her sides, gazing hypnotically over the ledge, where a hundred feet below, a riotous sea pounded the sh.o.r.eline. Behind the Siwash, the mountains reared up like shadows. Indian George stood near the boy's mother. He was wearing a scarf over his face, like he did when he cleaned fish for market. Flanking his mother on the opposite side, Abe Charles, dressed like a white, clutching his rifle, stood stupefied. Stone Face was not far behind Abe. The pits of his face were deeper in the moonlight. He was smiling, just barely. Next to Stone Face, Small Fry, peering out of yellow eyes, was smiling, too. Farthest from the bluff's edge, in the field of long gra.s.s, the boy's grandfather squatted on all fours, his toothless maw wide open as though he were screaming. But the old man made no sound. n.o.body or nothing made a sound except for the waves a.s.saulting the sh.o.r.eline.

High on a hill, the Belvedere Man stood tall in the moonlight with folded arms. And looking down on the Siwash, he spat on the ground.

Four times the boy had the identical dream.

Thomas was instructed in many things at Jamestown. He was taught by Ida Hall how to milk a goat and to pin laundry on the line like a woman. By Cook Dan Solomon, he was taught how to mend a fence and s.h.i.+ngle a roof. Begrudgingly, Lila taught the boy to lead a horse by bridle, taught him to round up chickens and pin them to a stump, and with an enthusiasm Thomas found unsettling, the girl demonstrated how to behead the hens with an ax, laughing as the headless things darted blindly and furiously about the yard.

The boy had a way with horses, a fact Lord Jim soon took note of.

"They trust you," he told him one day, as the boy ran a hand down the gray mare's neck and withers. "This horse is a good judge of character."

Much to Lila's dissatisfaction, the old man taught Thomas to ride on none other than the gray mare generally reserved for Lord Jim himself. The boy was a natural, though his style was unorthodox. He rode high in the saddle at a canter, like General Custer, with one hand clutching the saddlehorn. The mare was very responsive to the reins, although Thomas hardly made use of them. The beast antic.i.p.ated the boy's every move. Every afternoon, regardless of the weather, the boy rode the mare - through the potato fields, across the creek, into the foothills to the banks of the Dungeness, until the two were as graceful as one.

At the end of each day, the boy was tired in a way he had never been tired. He sat every evening at the table with Lord Jim and his wife, and Lila, who pinched the boy under the table and ground her heel into his bare foot. Thomas did not care for Lila with her pointy gaze and cruel laughter. She often speared food off his plate when her parents were not watching, which Thomas did not mind so much at first, as he hadn't yet developed a taste for Jamestown food. They ate steamed turnips and potatoes and carrots. Lamb, and chicken, and more potatoes. Only infrequently did they eat fish, and hardly ever clams.

After a while, Thomas rarely thought of the Potato Counter, who had not shown his face in Jamestown since leaving him there, and gradually Thomas felt a sense of belonging in the little village. There were no bottles in Jamestown to darken the spirits of the people, no Stone Face or Belvedere Man to threaten them. Save for an occasional stopover by carriage, there were no whites at all in the settlement. The Jamestown Klallam were different from the Siwash Klallam. Lord Jim called them sovereign, which Thomas took to mean that they were like whites. They lived as whites with their eyes trained on the future. They dressed as whites and governed themselves as whites. And like whites they counted.

The Jamestown Klallam went to church daily, congregating in the mud-spattered building at the end of the row. In spite of his initial reluctance to enter its windowless confines, Thomas grew to be comfortable in the place, grew accustomed to the bells, which rang dully and tinnily like cowbells. He enjoyed arranging the candles on the prayer table. Each day he kneeled upon a thule mat before the altar and configured the candles in a manner that was almost symmetrical. Always, he lined the crosses along the outside border, but not quite perfectly straight. And when the Shakers filed in clutching their bells, sober and calm, something happened to them in the holy light of the candles. They began to tremble like horsetails in the wind. They quivered and writhed, as the spirit coursed through them like an electric current, until the bells began to ring of their own accord. And Thomas found that he himself began to vibrate with the spirit.

Daily, Lord Jim sat Thomas down on the dusty floor at his feet and gave the boy puzzles and nettle tea to calm his perpetual fidgeting. The old man's face looked like a plum withering on the vine. His movements were slow and deliberate. His willowy voice burbled on like a stream.

"We do not need Bibles here. The gospel does not require a book," he told Thomas. "It is already written inside of us." Reaching down, he set his palm on the boy's chest and another upon his forehead. "The spirit sings inside of you. It sings in your bones. What does it say? Listen to what it says, Thomas."

Thomas listened for the spirit, which he soon identified as the simmering thing inside of him. Lord Jim urged Thomas to contain this thing, to let it work through him, rather than consume him. The spirit wrote words on the inside of the boy's head. Soon he began to string these words together, and the words set the boy in motion in a new way. He began thinking of things that were yet to happen, goats yet to be fed, fences yet to be mended. His wandering ways ceased. He moved about in his new world deliberately. His feet took him from one place to another, as though there existed nothing in between the two places. Even his mind, when it set to wandering, never wandered far before it arrived at some purpose. When he counted, the numbers became the things he was counting, and he no longer preferred odd numbers to even. A line was no longer a line, but a boundary, beyond which the boy was free to pa.s.s, if he pleased.

Thomas supposed that he, too, had become sovereign.

One morning, as Thomas was scattering feed for the hogs, he spotted Horatio Groves crossing a nearby potato field on foot. Thomas liked Horatio Groves more than all the Jamestown Klallam, save for his mentor, Lord Jim. Horatio often talked to Thomas as though the boy were not even there. Like Indian George.

Halfway across the field, Horatio dropped to his knees and began digging a hole in the ground with his bare hands. After several minutes, he pulled a small wooden box from the hole and dusted it off. Thomas was squatting behind the water trough now, watching intently as Horatio clutched the box close to his body and hurried on across the field, disappearing into the toolshed behind Cook Dan Solomon's house, where he closed the door behind him. Thomas watched the shed for a good while, but Horatio Groves never reemerged.

Later in the day, Thomas walked to Cook Dan's toolshed to satisfy his curiosity. When he pushed the slat door open on its rusty hinges, a blob of light flooded the little shed, illuminating Horatio Groves slumped in the far corner between a rusted plow and a tiny workbench, clutching a bottle to his chest.

"What are you looking at?" he said bitterly. "Shut the door."

Thomas shut the door but not before crossing the threshold, and now he stood in total darkness with Horatio Groves.

"Don't just stand there," said Horatio. "Speak."

When Thomas failed to speak after a moment, Horatio snorted. "You're not touched by spirits. You're just crazy."

Never had Horatio talked to him like this. Thomas heard a swish and the gurgling of liquid as it splashed against the bottle neck.

"You're nothing," observed Horatio. "Just like the rest of us."

The smell of the whiskey filled the dusty darkness.

"Get out of here," spat Horatio. "Before I wring your neck like an old hen."

Thomas backed up against the door, pus.h.i.+ng it open, and this time Horatio Groves s.h.i.+elded his eyes from the light.

That night, the boy dreamed once again of the Siwash, but something was different. This time his people were not silent. This time Thomas heard the moans of his grandfather, lowing like a wounded bull. He heard Stone Face slurring his speech and Small Fry laughing. He heard the soft, frightened murmuring of Siwash elders gathering at the edge of the bluff.

In the night when the boy awoke s.h.i.+vering and huddled around the flame of his candle, one word was written larger than all the others inside his head as he stared into the flame, and that word was ceqwewc. ceqwewc.

"To undo the damage," Lord Jim once instructed, "first, you must make them see."

greasing the wheels APRIL 1890 1890.

Six dozen strong, eager men with big appet.i.tes, twenty and thirty and fifty years old, gnas.h.i.+ng their teeth, shouting themselves hoa.r.s.e, as they carved and hammered and blasted the canyon to dust for weeks on end. Twelve and fourteen hours a day, inch by inch, they did the impossible: they moved the river. From the vantage of the rip-rap bank, standing astride boulders, Ethan watched his destiny unfold, watched as load after load of gravel came down the mountain by flat-car to fill the breach, saw it dumped into the river by the ton, until at last, on a crisp clear afternoon in early spring, flanked by a foreman and engineers, Ethan watched the debris break the waterline, and he felt his heart thrill as the river began to back up into the diversion channels, creeping toward the flood plain. And still, Ethan was restless, still he yearned for the dam itself, yearned to see its concrete bulk rising from the canyon floor, yearned to feel the surge of the giant penstocks as they inhaled the river, its turbines churning water into luminous dreams. It wasn't enough to divert the river, or even stop it in its course; Ethan longed to see the power of the river transformed, longed to see its wild essence burning incandescent in sitting rooms and stations from Morse Dock to the east end.

And what to fuel these dreams of incandescence, if not the sweat of Port Bonitans? At what cost were dams and nations built? Money. Money for manpower and the infrastructure to support it, money for t.i.tles and acquisitions, and money to grease the wheels of fortune. Money for rails and rolling stock, money to grate inroads and clear timber, money to turn mountains into dust. Money for the great barge-mounted dredges soon to arrive from Seattle, money for concrete and the power to mix and move it. Every steel cable crisscrossing the canyon, every heavy-headed maul hammering the earth, cost hard currency. And the money flowed, arriving invisibly from Chicago to fuel the beast, but never without strings, always burdened by demands and unreasonable expectations. Still, the money came without fail, and Ethan put it to work.

And who to keep this revenue streaming but a man of Jacob's distinction, a Lambert and, by his very birthright, a captain of industry. Who better to see the big picture than a man from the east? Like brothers, they quarreled in the dusty light of the office, to the ceaseless accompaniment of blasting, like distant mortar fire.

"Don't be naive, Ethan. You can hardly expect them to provide the capital and not gain by it. They're not a bank, they're shareholders."

"They're investors, Jake."

"Precisely."

"We are the investment." are the investment."

Jacob laughed. "I see. Is that how you see it? I rather think our shareholders are under the impression that a hydroelectric dam is the investment, Ethan. Or, to put it more precisely, the power that dam will one day generate."

"They'll get their share," grumbled Ethan. "That's what they paid for. But no more, I tell you. I don't intend to let them steamroll the interests of this town. Without this town, there would be nothing to invest in. in."

"The town will benefit from the power, Ethan, that is the point, is it not?"

"And what of the profit, Jake? Who will benefit from that?"

"Gracious, you are naive, Ethan. You sound like my sister."

the taste JULY 2006 2006.

If success had a smell, failure had a taste. It tasted like gunmetal, and it was strong on Jared Thornburgh's tongue as he sat in his wainscoted office after hours staring at his half-eaten birthday cake. And what a paltry sight it was on its paper plate: a crumbling mound of angel's food with white frosting and an avalanche of jimmies acc.u.mulating at its base, baby blue and lemon yellow and fire engine red. How paltry all all of it was - the wainscoting, the softball trophy, the gilded plastic nameplate, the Rolodex full of seafood retailers, the f.u.c.king golf poster: of it was - the wainscoting, the softball trophy, the gilded plastic nameplate, the Rolodex full of seafood retailers, the f.u.c.king golf poster: I'D RATHER BE GOLFING I'D RATHER BE GOLFING. The h.e.l.l he would. He hated golf, hated everything about it, hated nothing more than the smug camaraderie of its proponents, the reverence they afforded the game, as though it were sacrosanct, some gentleman's rite of pa.s.sage to walk around in the gra.s.s in a haze of martinis, swinging a club at a f.u.c.king ball for three hours. What the f.u.c.k did Don Buford from Prime Seafood know about sanct.i.ty? And the conversation. Ugh. One-upmans.h.i.+p. Big fish tales. And worst of all, business. Always beneath the gregarious laughter and the conspiratorial back-slapping and the air of nonchalance lingered the bottom line. That had a smell, too. It smelled like fish. His whole life smelled like fish. That was the real bottom line. It didn't matter what appearance he cultivated, what car he drove, what his handicap was, what his wife looked like - the inescapable truth was that it all smelled suspect. Oh, he was fooling people, no doubt. He saw them looking at his wife's a.s.s (though he'd had little occasion to see it himself); he saw them admiring the GL-450 (with unit-body platform for maximum comfort and stability); he saw them looking up with contempt and admiration at his office from the processing line, as though he were the man behind the curtain, heir to the Thornburgh legacy, whose father had been a senator, whose father's father's father had tamed the wilderness, dammed the mighty Elwha, and put Port Bonita on the map. Sure, he was fooling them. But he wasn't fooling himself.

Just look at him now with a f.u.c.king stapler in his mouth (Ha! As if), and even that wasn't loaded. Look at him, alone on his thirty-second birthday, which Janis (being tied up late tied up late at work for the third night this week) completely forgot. And where was the rest of that family they planned? Where was the next generation of Thornburghs to comfort him, those sweet-smelling vessels of hope to ease the discomfort of living? Where were they to loll around at his feet in his hour of need? Janis had grown impatient after three months of trying, until finally she took to grasping his manhood with a sort of ferocity, as if she could scare an erection out of it. And when he finally managed to get over the hump, after eight therapy sessions and some little blue pills, Janis wouldn't have him. She just lay there beside him night after night like ... well ... like a dead fish. at work for the third night this week) completely forgot. And where was the rest of that family they planned? Where was the next generation of Thornburghs to comfort him, those sweet-smelling vessels of hope to ease the discomfort of living? Where were they to loll around at his feet in his hour of need? Janis had grown impatient after three months of trying, until finally she took to grasping his manhood with a sort of ferocity, as if she could scare an erection out of it. And when he finally managed to get over the hump, after eight therapy sessions and some little blue pills, Janis wouldn't have him. She just lay there beside him night after night like ... well ... like a dead fish.

And how sad had the birthday cake ceremony in the employee lounge been this afternoon, that grotesque cake glowing like something radioactive beneath the fluorescent lights. In cobalt blue frosting: happy birthday, boss! executed in a rather austere hand. And the card: no penguin in roller skates, no toad with a crown perched rakishly upon its head, not even a punch line, not even an exclamation point after Happy Birthday. Just Happy Birthday. There you have it. You were born on this day, and here you are thirty-two years later, still disappointing yourself, your wife, and the ghosts of your ancestors. And there it was, emblazoned with thirty signatures to which Jared could a.s.sign no faces, except for Dee Dee, who had warded off his only advance by wielding her pepper-mace key chain. Thank G.o.d they didn't have HR around here, thank G.o.d Dee Dee was the forgiving sort.

A few people took advantage of the work stoppage to smoke cigarettes out back. Krig was among them. The rest of them sang "Happy Birthday" with all the jauntiness of Gregorian monks. n.o.body called for a speech. Jared cut the cake. People dispersed. And here he was three hours later in his office, the cake growing staler by the minute, the card propped open on his desk in some hopelessly lame stab at sentimentality. No plans. Big f.u.c.king success.

Jared knew the battle was over the moment it occurred to him that afternoon in front of the urinal - as he struggled desperately to pee while beside him Krigstadt thoughtlessly fired a wide stream at the porcelain - that in a certain way he envied a guy like Krigstadt, whom he envisioned, in spite of overwhelming evidence to the contrary, to be a happy guy, a hearty, prole-spirited average Joe, who drank canned beer with his buddies and had a thick-carpeted bas.e.m.e.nt and watched football and hockey and wore T-s.h.i.+rts with winning teams emblazoned on them so that he could a.s.sociate with a winner, and that was enough, the mere a.s.sociation. It was that easy. Raiders 32, Eagles 7. You didn't have to be the coach or the quarterback or the guy in the skybox - you just had to be the guy with the thick s.h.a.ggy carpet and the Raiders s.h.i.+rt. No scrambling up any social ladder, no debilitating self-consciousness or acute status awareness, just a Raiders s.h.i.+rt that said to the world, "That's f.u.c.king right. What are you gonna do about it?"

Why tackle success when you could let the pros do it?

Jared finally mustered the energy to leave his office without knowing where the evening would take him. He figured he'd probably stop by the grocery store and buy a six-pack of Alaskan Amber and maybe some Thai from the deli, go home, watch World News Tonight World News Tonight on TiVo, or maybe, if Janis still wasn't home, on TiVo, or maybe, if Janis still wasn't home, The Wizard of a.s.s. The Wizard of a.s.s. Maybe he'd poke around online, look into that plat development deal Doug Westermeyer was talking about. Could be a good investment opportunity. Maybe he'd poke around online, look into that plat development deal Doug Westermeyer was talking about. Could be a good investment opportunity.

He waved to the Mexican cleaning girl on his way out, Maria, Estella, whatever. She waved back, but she wasn't smiling.

The Goat was still in the far corner of the front parking lot, and Krig's silhouette was visible in the driver's seat. His subwoofer was thumping. Jared checked his watch. Seven thirty. Krigstadt had been off for an hour and a half. What the h.e.l.l was he doing out there? Maybe he needed a jump.

As Jared approached the Goat across the gravel lot, he saw the flash of an orange halo appear suddenly around Krig's head. And as he drew closer, he observed Krig chicken-necking in time to Aerosmith's "Dude Looks Like a Lady," his hand at his mouth as though he were kissing a b.u.t.terfly, and a thin joint pinched firmly between his fingers, its little end glowing orange, unfurling a slinky plume of smoke toward the winds.h.i.+eld.

Krig was apparently oblivious of Jared's approach, and the tap on the window caught him totally by surprise, yet he was not startled. He stopped chicken-necking and turned down the stereo, but he didn't hide the joint. He rolled down his window.

"What's up," Krig said.

Jared couldn't resist leaning slightly into the smoky interior of the car. The smell of the weed struck a sentimental chord with him. It reminded him, like only smells can, of freshman year at the U, his dumpy room at Delta Sigma Phi, the endless supply of cheap beer, the wonderful thoughtless immediacy of life.

"So what's up?" said Krig, a hint of impatience in his voice.

"You all right? I thought maybe your car wouldn't start."

Krig gave the fuzzy dash a firm pat. "Not the Goat," he said. "The Goat leaves no man high and dry."

Jared snuck a glance at the joint between Krig's fingers. The glance did not escape Krig's notice. "Get in," he said.

Krig was quick to forgive Thornburgh for being an a.s.s-munch and was more than happy to extend the olive branch, but it was Jared who forged ahead once Krig announced that "the doobage was toast."

"You wanna grab a beer?" Jared said.

"Does the pope s.h.i.+t in the woods?" said Krig, who fished his Altoids out of the glove box and popped one in his mouth. He replaced the mints without offering one to Jared, checked his eyes in the rearview mirror, threw the Goat in reverse, and rained a rooster tail of gravel on the sidewalk as he tore onto Marine.

Krig slowed to a crawl once they hit Front. He settled low in the driver's seat resisting the urge to say every single thing that came to his mind, fighting off the instinct to engender familiarity too quickly. Boundaries. He had to remember.

If Krig was trying to erect boundaries, Jared was trying to tear them down. Why not? What was he protecting? What threat could the s.h.a.g-carpeted domain of Krig's world possibly pose? Jared noticed Krig's ring as Krig gripped the wheel: a chunky gold band with a blue and gold pendant inlay - P.B. P.B. '84, it said. "I used to watch that varsity team," Jared offered. "The one with you and Lauridson and Richards. The Bucket Brigade." '84, it said. "I used to watch that varsity team," Jared offered. "The one with you and Lauridson and Richards. The Bucket Brigade."

They missed the light at Lincoln. Krig gazed out the side window across the Red Lion parking lot toward the strait. He couldn't remember what was there before that, but it was something else. The restaurant was called something else, too. And before that, it was just Hollywood Beach.

"Bucket Brigade, my a.s.s. We blew it," said Krig. "We sure as heck didn't put out the fire against Aberdeen."

"That was just one game," Jared said. "You guys were unstoppable."

"Yeah, for three quarters. We folded, bro. I folded."

"You were a machine. Besides, Aberdeen had that Glovick kid."

"I was one for nine from the field in that semi game. I missed a free throw that could have put us up with a minute thirty-nine to go."

"Lot of time," observed Jared.

The light changed. The Goat crawled into the intersection. "We're talking about the lead though, bro. The lead. lead. I was an eighty-eight percent free-throw shooter. They only had one time-out left. No way I miss that shot." I was an eighty-eight percent free-throw shooter. They only had one time-out left. No way I miss that shot."

"I don't know, Krig. I don't remember any of that. I was in junior high. I just remember it was the best team we ever had."

Suddenly, no fewer than three fire trucks and a chorus of wailing sirens rounded the corner on Lambert headed in the direction of Wal-Mart. Krig promptly pulled to the shoulder and let them scream past.

"Wonder what that's all about?"

"Probably a fender bender," said Jared.

"Yeah, probably. So, you goin' to Dam Days this year?" Krig asked.

"h.e.l.l no."

"Why not?"

Jared waved it off. "What a bunch of self-aggrandizing bulls.h.i.+t."

Krig didn't know what to make of the statement. So he didn't say anything. What was wrong with Dam Days? Sure, the bands usually sucked, and the smoked salmon was overpriced, and the crowds were kind of a pain in the a.s.s, but it was Dam Days, it was a tradition, one of the last decent things left in P.B.

"They want me to write some speech," Jared volunteered as they crested Hogback.

"About what?"

"About my stupid family and a bunch of ancient history I don't give two s.h.i.+ts about. Screw that bulls.h.i.+t."

They drove in silence, past Payday Loans and the Wharf Side, past KFC and Taco Bell. They missed the light again at South Golf Course. Jared looked out his window across the deserted Rite Aid parking lot. The streetlights burned expectantly an hour before dusk. At night, this stretch of Route 101 glowed like the aisle of a convenience store. A guy could procure anything from 30-weight oil to Chicken McNug-gets along this stretch 24/7/365, a guy could Shop Rite, Shop Rite, could could Save On, Save On, a guy could even a guy could even Think outside the bun Think outside the bun if he were so inclined. A guy could do virtually anything in Port Bonita he could do in New York, Philadelphia, or Chicago. But somehow it was all pretty sad. if he were so inclined. A guy could do virtually anything in Port Bonita he could do in New York, Philadelphia, or Chicago. But somehow it was all pretty sad.

"You know," said Jared, looking out across the expanse of empty parking lot. "It's funny how something can keep getting bigger even after it's dead."

Happy hour was over by the time Krig and Jared arrived at the Bushwhacker. Jerry Rhinehalter from Murray Motors was still at the bar, along with a couple of guys Krig didn't recognize. In the corner, a little black dude was having drinks with a familiar husky woman in heels. Was that Hillary Burch from high school - the one who almost bit Tobin's d.i.c.k off? It was was Hillary Burch. The little black dude she was with had a milk mustache. This town was getting weirder by the day. Hillary Burch. The little black dude she was with had a milk mustache. This town was getting weirder by the day.

Molly worked the bar solo. She was doing something new with her makeup, and her hair was pinned up over her ears. She looked like a mud shark in blue eye shadow and hairpins. One of her t.i.ts was hanging lower. But she made it work. Krig felt his heat rising when Molly came for their orders. Krig introduced his friend as "Jared Thornburgh," and though the name apparently didn't ring any bells for Molly, at least she saw that Krig wasn't drinking alone, at least the guy he was drinking with didn't smell like fish, at least the guy was wearing a dress s.h.i.+rt, a fact that might (Krig hoped) allude to his own upward mobility. And unless it was Krig's imagination, Molly was a little more attentive than usual that evening, a little quicker on the refills, now and again flas.h.i.+ng a little shark smile when she came for their empties. To top it off, she actually made a stab at small talk, something she'd never done before.