What Curiosity Kills Part 8

"Let him have it," Nick mutters as he moves his mouth to my neck. His curls caress my throat. "Maybe he'll fall off a building and die in his sleep."

"Mrowl!" Yoon's warrior cry breaks us up. He is out from under the lounge chair. His lips retract. Drool drips off his canines.

"Back off, dude," Nick warns.

"What is it between you two?" I ask.

Nick says, "He doesn't want me this close to you. He thinks I'll talk you into suppressing the turning. If it was up to him, you'd turn all the time."

Yoon pounces at me.

Nick puts himself between us. Yoon hits Nick's chest. Nick falls backward into me. We all fall off the lounge chair. Caught in Nick's arms, Yoon's glowing emerald eyes implore me: Help! He's bigger than me! Be on my side! But Yoon looks plenty tough. Besides, what's a fair fight between a boy and a cat? But Yoon looks plenty tough. Besides, what's a fair fight between a boy and a cat?

Nick gets to his feet. Yoon twists to free himself, but Nick chucks him in the air and then catches him like a bristled, sabertoothed sack of potatoes. Yoon sinks his claws into the curve of Nick's neck and shoulders. Nick curses. Dots of blood seep through his white Purser-Lilley T-s.h.i.+rt. Nick lifts Yoon straight up. His claws-wet with blood-slip out of Nick's skin and s.h.i.+rt. The fabric rips from an extra-long thumb claw. Yoon's black mask furrows.

Nick tosses him away from his chest like a basketball. Yoon rebounds off the terrace wall, lands on his feet, and gives his silent hiss. Yesterday, Yoon's no-noise made a battalion of mice scatter off my back landing, but tonight, it doesn't scare Nick.

Nicks stomps. Scat!

Yoon leaps onto the terrace wall and then dives off.

I run to the wall and lean over. I hear him before I spot him leaping from one grated fire-escape landing to the one below. He soars over the metal stairs. His copper coat blends with rust, but he becomes more visible in the light cast from the apartment lobby when he jumps to the sidewalk. I lose sight of him when he dashes across the tarred pavement to the bricked, Fifth Avenue border of Central Park and then into the bushes and trees.

Nick says, "I have to go after him. If I don't, he'll come back for you."

"So go."

"I can't catch him unless I turn."

"So turn."

"I don't want you to see."

"You saw me."

"That was different. Go inside."

"No."

"Go inside!"

"You can't make me."When he kisses me, I think he can make me do whatever he wants.

But I want to see him turn! I tell myself to stop kissing him. Coach told us that smart girls like us get pregnant because they think only a boy can bring them to, as Webster's defines, intense or paroxysmal excitement, or paroxysmal excitement, which means which means an explosive discharge of neuromuscular tensions. an explosive discharge of neuromuscular tensions. I close my eyes. His arms wind around me. One hand clutches the back of my neck. The other flattens against the small of my back. I want to let go of the comforter cover and let it drop to my ankles. I close my eyes. His arms wind around me. One hand clutches the back of my neck. The other flattens against the small of my back. I want to let go of the comforter cover and let it drop to my ankles.

But my fingers won't open. They are clutching the comforter and will not unclutch. I want to slide my thigh between his legs, but my leg will not move. My head is locked. My jaw is locked open. My tongue is petrified against the roof of my mouth. My pulse throbs in my ears, but my chest won't rise or fall. My lungs are not filling with air.

Wait a second.

I am not breathing.

Nick steps away, and I stay stuck.My eyelids are sealed shut, but wind fills my gaping mouth. Wind whips in the opposite direction, blowing my hair in front of my face. When the wind whips back, I can't shake my head to loosen stray strands caught in the moisture Nick has left on my lips.

I am paralyzed. I try to wiggle my fingers and toes, to unglue my eyes. Nothing works. Paralyzed is paralyzed-except my skin is alive! I feel everything. The ice-cold air against my exposed face, neck, and shoulders is electric. I should fight my paralysis, but it feels too good. My resolve is weakening because there is no air getting to my brain.

Nick says, "I'm sorry, Mary. You're not hurt. I only stole it for a minute-enough for me to turn and get away."

Breath-stealing? It's not a myth! What else cool can I do?

The comforter tugs between my hands. Nick must have dropped into cat form and landed on the hem. There's another tug as he kicks off. I hear his claws graze the top of the terrace wall. The fire escape clanks. The clanks grow more distant and then the sound of him fades into the sounds of the night.

My fingers crack as my hands unclench. My toes pop as I rise off my heels to flex my calves. I snap my neck, roll my head around in a circle. I hear a spark like when you touch a doork.n.o.b after walking across a carpeted room in your socks. It is the sound of a breath: mine.

I open my eyes and inhale more deeply. I am alone but still buzzed. I can move, but I don't. I remain on the terrace, gazing out over the trees, and feel what's left of the good feeling Nick gave me until it is gone.

chapter thirteen.

On the far side of Mags's pitch-black room, Octavia sits in the oversized beanbag chair. She holds Kathryn Ann's box of Goo Goo Cl.u.s.ters. She plucks out a foil-wrapped, chocolate hockey puck and throws it at my face.

I duck.

The Goo Goo smacks the gla.s.s door. I dodge the next one before it's out of her hand. She tries to pelt me with Goo Goo after Goo Goo, but I am too quick. I stand in place, clad in Mags's down comforter, and bob left and right. I see everything that's thrown. To my new eyes, the room is bright.

Out of ammunition, Octavia throws the box.

She scrambles out of the beanbag. The bag is slippery. It scrunches when she shoves her hands into the blob. She reaches for the edge of the nightstand and pulls herself up. She sweeps her hands across the front of the table, slides open the drawer, and grasps for Mags's water gun. She aims it at me like a Smith & Wesson.

She says, "I can't live with you like this."

"Like what?"

"Don't even try it. I saw what you are."

"What did you see?"

"Mary, don't. I saw you. You know what I saw!"

"Did the twins see?""Does it matter? I saw. I can't live with you! Mom and Dad won't understand. They'll think I'm crazy. I'll be put in a state home and then out on my a.s.s at eighteen!" The water gun shakes in her hands. She whimpers, "My life is over."

"Octavia, did the twins see?" I beg to know.

"No!"

"Are you sure?"

"What difference does it make? You turned. Into. A cat! Your boyfriend turned into a cat! And so did that deli guy!"

"Yoon."

"Whoever!" Her eyes are wide and misty. "They gave you cat! You caught cat!"

I tug the comforter around my shoulders and wait for an answer to my question about the twins seeing or not seeing. I could stand with my back against the terrace door and wait like this all night. I am eerily calm. It's like I've taken one of Kathryn Ann's airplane pills. Oh, my word, y'all, is that turbulence? Well, that is just fine. Oh, my word, y'all, are we nose diving? Well, that is fine too. Tailspin? Hon, would you mind unhooking yourself from that jump seat and getting me a splash more Tabasco sauce for this here tomato juice?

Octavia says, "Look at you-you're all stalker-y, like a cat. Fine!" She nods to the twins' closed communal bathroom door. "They tried waiting up for you, but the Xanax took effect. They're doped up like Peanut b.u.t.ter and Jelly. Oh, G.o.d, Mary, I hate those cats, and now I'll have to hate you."

"You don't hate Peanut b.u.t.ter and Jelly," I tell her. "You're scared."

"h.e.l.l, yes, I'm scared! Of you! How can you be so reasonable? You are standing in front of me in a comforter with your clothes in your hands-with two different boys' clothes in your hands! You're talking to me like we're talking about you breaking curfew. You turned. Into. A cat!"

"What did Nick look like?"

"A frickin' cat!"

"What kind?"

"I don't know! I was trying not to look. Besides, all cats look alike-"

"In the dark."

"Don't play with me, Mary." She is serious; she wouldn't call me by my name otherwise. "I hate cats. All cats. They're disgusting, selfish, nasty. Vicious!"

"Peanut b.u.t.ter and Jelly?"

"Yes! Is your memory that short?"

I raise my hand to examine Jelly's scratch, but the cut is gone. A faint line is all that's left of the crusty scab from a few hours ago. Along with unabashed boy-kissing, breathstealing, and in-the-dark seeing, quick healing must be something else the post-cat me can do. I study the tips of my normally bitten-to-the-quick fingers. My fingernails are short but not ragged. There's not one hangnail. Every cuticle is smooth.

I offer my hand to Octavia for her to inspect, but she trembles twenty feet away against the wall. She brandishes the water gun. She doesn't want me to leave my spot against the terrace door. We're alone in a room together. I am breaking her cardinal cat phobia rule.

I say, "I'm not going to hurt you."

"Yes, you will. You can't help it. Cats are hunters."

"I'm not a hunter."

"You are, whether you know it yet or not!"

"What do you think I'm going to do, chase you under the bed? Pick you up with my mouth?"

"You'll give me a heart attack."

"You're sixteen."

"So, you'll scare scare me to death! I'm not debating you. You turned. Into. A cat!" me to death! I'm not debating you. You turned. Into. A cat!"

I take a step. My front foot hasn't touched the floor, but Octavia hears the rustle of the comforter.

She fires.

Streams of water splat the cover. Water hits my hands. Water strikes my throat, shoulders, and face. It clings to my flesh as if my flesh were fur. My face is slick and slimy, as if I bobbed for pepperoni on an extra-large pizza.

The gun clicks. The tip drips. Octavia sucks out what's left in the barrel. Her thirst sated, she grabs Marjorie's $49 broom.

"You're the hunter!" I shout at her.

She holds the bristled end toward me. "I'm sorry. I can't let you near me."

But I want to get near her. I am drenched, and now that she knows about what's happening to me, she should be offering me her sisterly help. I'm gonna get that broom.

I lunge. She swats me. I go after her. She swats me harder, many more times, until I'm running from her. I jump on the bed, she swats me off. I jump on the beanbag, she swats me toward the desk. I hop on the edge, land on my b.u.t.t, pivot off. Her broom knocks over the desk chair. I hopscotch over strewn Goo Goo Cl.u.s.ters, but Octavia steps on them. The foil packages pop. Caramel, marshmallow, and peanuts squish between her toes and slow her down. I s.h.i.+mmy into Mags's closet that's too messy to close. I press my back against the wall and hug the relatively few hung clothes to my chest. My arms sting where Octavia swiped me. I glance along the outside lengths of my legs and see what feels like razor burn there too.

Octavia says, "Girl, don't you know that you're nekkid?"

I peer out of the closet. Mags's comforter is stuck in the door.

Truth be told, I did know. But being naked felt natural. It feels natural now.

I say, "Looks like my days of self-consciousness are over. Whatever's happening to me can't be all bad. No more changing clothes under other clothes! Try it. You might like it. You could stop getting dressed in your bunk and showering by yourself after gym. Maybe we should see how shy you are if I bite you!"

Octavia jabs me with the broom handle. She kicks Mags's mound of shoes and clothes into the closet. She tries to shove the door closed to trap me.

"I'm not gonna bite you!" I say. "Besides, I don't think that's how it works. I think you're born with it. So, if Mom and Dad are sending anyone back to foster care, it's me. I'm the one with the problem."

Octavia sniffs. Her voice is shaky. "Your problem is real-mine's in my head. Head cases always lose to medical conditions."

"You know, Mom and Dad don't have to know about either of us. I'm not going to tell if you don't. You said you saw me." I try to get a smile out of her. "How can you be scared of a pwecious widdle kidden?"

Octavia's lips tighten.

She says, "Kittens cry all the time. They get their heads stuck in gla.s.ses and bags. They hide in sofa cracks. You sit on them or knock them across the room when you open a door. When you step on their tails, they make the worst sound."

I hear something in her voice I've never heard before. I ask, "How do you know?"