Amores Part 2

WHEN the bare feet of the baby beat across the gra.s.s The little white feet nod like white flowers in the wind, They poise and run like ripples lapping across the water; And the sight of their white play among the gra.s.s Is like a little robin's song, winsome, Or as two white b.u.t.terflies settle in the cup of one flower For a moment, then away with a flutter of wings.

I long for the baby to wander hither to me Like a wind-shadow wandering over the water, So that she can stand on my knee With her little bare feet in my hands, Cool like syringa buds, Firm and silken like pink young peony flowers.

DISCIPLINE

IT is stormy, and raindrops cling like silver bees to the pane, The thin sycamores in the playground are swinging with flattened leaves; The heads of the boys move dimly through a yellow gloom that stains The cla.s.s; over them all the dark net of my discipline weaves.

It is no good, dear, gentleness and forbearance, I endured too long.

I have pushed my hands in the dark soil, under the flower of my soul And the gentle leaves, and have felt where the roots are strong Fixed in the darkness, grappling for the deep soil's little control.

And there is the dark, my darling, where the roots are entangled and fight Each one for its hold on the oblivious darkness, I know that there In the night where we first have being, before we rise on the light, We are not brothers, my darling, we fight and we do not spare.

And in the original dark the roots cannot keep, cannot know Any communion whatever, but they bind themselves on to the dark, And drawing the darkness together, crush from it a twilight, a slow Burning that breaks at last into leaves and a flower's bright spark.

I came to the boys with love, my dear, but they turned on me; I came with gentleness, with my heart 'twixt my hands like a bowl, Like a loving-cup, like a grail, but they spilt it triumphantly And tried to break the vessel, and to violate my soul.

But what have I to do with the boys, deep down in my soul, my love?

I throw from out of the darkness my self like a flower into sight, Like a flower from out of the night-time, I lift my face, and those Who will may warm their hands at me, comfort this night.

But whosoever would pluck apart my flowering shall burn their hands, So flowers are tender folk, and roots can only hide, Yet my flowerings of love are a fire, and the scarlet brands Of my love are roses to look at, but flames to chide.

But comfort me, my love, now the fires are low, Now I am broken to earth like a winter destroyed, and all Myself but a knowledge of roots, of roots in the dark that throw A net on the undersoil, which lies pa.s.sive beneath their thrall.

But comfort me, for henceforth my love is yours alone, To you alone will I offer the bowl, to you will I give My essence only, but love me, and I will atone To you for my general loving, atone as long as I live.

SCENT OF IRISES

A FAINT, sickening scent of irises Persists all morning. Here in a jar on the table A fine proud spike of purple irises Rising above the cla.s.s-room litter, makes me unable To see the cla.s.s's lifted and bended faces Save in a broken pattern, amid purple and gold and sable.

I can smell the gorgeous bog-end, in its breathless Dazzle of may-blobs, when the marigold glare overcast you With fire on your cheeks and your brow and your chin as you dipped Your face in the marigold bunch, to touch and contrast you, Your own dark mouth with the bridal faint lady-smocks, Dissolved on the golden sorcery you should not outlast.

You amid the bog-end's yellow incantation, You sitting in the cowslips of the meadow above, Me, your shadow on the bog-flame, flowery may-blobs, Me full length in the cowslips, muttering you love; You, your soul like a lady-smock, lost, evanescent, You with your face all rich, like the sheen of a dove.

You are always asking, do I remember, remember The b.u.t.ter-cup bog-end where the flowers rose up And kindled you over deep with a cast of gold?

You ask again, do the healing days close up The open darkness which then drew us in, The dark which then drank up our br.i.m.m.i.n.g cup.

You upon the dry, dead beech-leaves, in the fire of night Burnt like a sacrifice; you invisible; Only the fire of darkness, and the scent of you!

--And yes, thank G.o.d, it still is possible The healing days shall close the darkness up Wherein we fainted like a smoke or dew.

Like vapour, dew, or poison. Now, thank G.o.d, The fire of night is gone, and your face is ash Indistinguishable on the grey, chill day; The night has burnt us out, at last the good Dark fire burns on untroubled, without clash Of you upon the dead leaves saying me Yea.

THE PROPHET

AH, my darling, when over the purple horizon shall loom The shrouded mother of a new idea, men hide their faces, Cry out and fend her off, as she seeks her procreant groom, Wounding themselves against her, denying her fecund embraces.

LAST WORDS TO MIRIAM

YOURS is the shame and sorrow But the disgrace is mine; Your love was dark and thorough, Mine was the love of the sun for a flower He creates with his s.h.i.+ne.

I was diligent to explore you, Blossom you stalk by stalk, Till my fire of creation bore you Shrivelling down in the final dour Anguish--then I suffered a balk.

I knew your pain, and it broke My fine, craftsman's nerve; Your body quailed at my stroke, And my courage failed to give you the last Fine torture you did deserve.

You are shapely, you are adorned, But opaque and dull in the flesh, Who, had I but pierced with the thorned Fire-thres.h.i.+ng anguish, were fused and cast In a lovely illumined mesh.

Like a painted window: the best Suffering burnt through your flesh, Undrossed it and left it blest With a quivering sweet wisdom of grace: but now Who shall take you afresh?

Now who will burn you free From your body's terrors and dross, Since the fire has failed in me?

What man will stoop in your flesh to plough The shrieking cross?

A mute, nearly beautiful thing Is your face, that fills me with shame As I see it hardening, Warping the perfect image of G.o.d, And darkening my eternal fame.

MYSTERY

Now I am all One bowl of kisses, Such as the tall Slim votaresses Of Egypt filled For a G.o.d's excesses.

I lift to you My bowl of kisses, And through the temple's Blue recesses Cry out to you In wild caresses.

And to my lips'

Bright crimson rim The pa.s.sion slips, And down my slim White body drips The s.h.i.+ning hymn.

And still before The altar I Exult the bowl Brimful, and cry To you to stoop And drink, Most High.

Oh drink me up That I may be Within your cup Like a mystery, Like wine that is still In ecstasy.

Glimmering still In ecstasy, Commingled wines Of you and me In one fulfil The mystery.

PATIENCE

A WIND comes from the north Blowing little flocks of birds Like spray across the town, And a train, roaring forth, Rushes stampeding down With cries and flying curds Of steam, out of the darkening north.

Whither I turn and set Like a needle steadfastly, Waiting ever to get The news that she is free; But ever fixed, as yet, To the lode of her agony.

BALLAD OF ANOTHER OPHELIA

OH the green glimmer of apples in the orchard, Lamps in a wash of rain!

Oh the wet walk of my brown hen through the stack-yard, Oh tears on the window pane!

Nothing now will ripen the bright green apples, Full of disappointment and of rain, Brackish they will taste, of tears, when the yellow dapples Of autumn tell the withered tale again.

All round the yard it is cluck, my brown hen, Cluck, and the rain-wet wings, Cluck, my marigold bird, and again Cluck for your yellow darlings.