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"Why indeed?" echoed happy "Muddie." It was so delightful to have her son back at home, and in this hopeful, contented frame, she would have agreed with him in almost any statement he chose to make.
He gave her loving messages from "Annie" and told her in the bright, humorous way which was characteristic of Edgar Goodfellow, of many pleasant little incidents of his journey. One of the nights to look back upon and to gloat over in memory was this night by the fireside at Fordham cottage with the Mother--a night of calm and content under the home-roof after tempestuous wandering.
A quiet, sweet Christmas they spent together--he reading, writing or talking over plans for new work, while she sat by with her sewing and Catalina dozed on the hearth. Part of every day (wrapped in the old cape) he walked in the pine wood or beside the ice-bound river, and for the first time since the feverish dream of new love had come to him he was able to visit the tomb of Virginia and to dwell with happiness, and with a clear conscience, upon her memory. During these days of serenity a ballad suggested by thoughts of her and his life with her in the lovely Valley of the Many-Colored Gra.s.s took form in his mind. It was no dirge-like song of the "dank tarn of Auber," but a song of a fair "kingdom by the sea" and in contrast to the sombre "Ulalume" he gave to the maiden in the new poem the pleasant sounding name of "Annabel Lee."
Out of these days too, came "the Bells" and the exquisite sonnet to his "more than Mother."
One flash of the false light that had lured him reached The Dreamer at Fordham. He held a letter addressed to him in the familiar handwriting of Helen Whitman long in his hand without opening it. This flame was burned out, he told himself--why rake its cold ashes? Yet he felt that nothing that she could say would have power to disturb his new peace.
Still the Mother, though she kept her own counsel, trembled for herself and for him as she was aware (without looking up from her sewing) that he had broken the seal. Some minutes of tense stillness pa.s.sed--then,
"Shall I read you her letter?" he asked.
"As you will."
"Then I will!--It is in verse and the place from which she dates it is,
"Our Island of Dreams," which she explains in a sub-heading is
"By the foam Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn"
--a line which she has borrowed from Keats. This is what she writes:
"Tell him I lingered alone on the sh.o.r.e, Where we parted, in sorrow, to meet nevermore; The night-wind blew cold on my desolate heart But colder those wild words of doom, 'Ye must part!'
"O'er the dark, heaving waters, I sent forth a cry; Save the wail of those waters there came no reply.
I longed, like a bird, o'er the billows to flee, From our lone island home and the moan of the sea:
"Away,--far away--from the wild ocean sh.o.r.e, Where the waves ever murmur, 'No more, nevermore,'
Where I wake, in the wild noon of midnight, to hear The lone song of the surges, so mournful and drear.
"Where the clouds that now veil from us heaven's fair light, Their soft, silver lining turn forth on the night; When time shall the vapors of falsehood dispel He shall know if I loved him; but never how well."
Silence followed the reading of the poem-letter. Finally the mother asked,
"Will you go back?"
He placed the letter upon the top of a pile in the same handwriting, tied them together with a bit of ribbon and laid them in a small drawer of his desk. Then, rising, he leaned over the back of "Muddie's" chair and lightly touching her seamed forehead with his lips replied,
"Quoth the raven, nevermore!"
Then took up a garland of evergreen which he had been making when the Mother came in with the mail, and set out in the direction of the churchyard with its "legended tomb."
CHAPTER x.x.xIII.
Back in Richmond!--The Richmond he loved best--Richmond full of suns.h.i.+ne and flowers and the sweet southern social life out of doors, in gardens and porches; Richmond in summertime!
In spite of the changes his observant eye marked as he rattled over the cobblestones toward the "Swan Tavern," on Broad and Ninth Streets, he almost felt that he was back in boyhood. It was just such a day, just this time of year, that--as a lad of eleven--he had seen Richmond first after his five years absence in England.
How good it was to be back upon the sacred soil! How sweet the air was, and how beautiful were the roses! When before, had he seen a magnolia tree in bloom?--with its dense shade, its dark green s.h.i.+ning foliage, and its snow-white blossoms. Was there anything in the world so sweet as its odor, combined with that of the roses and the other flowers that filled the gardens? It was worth coming all the way from New York just to see and to smell them.
He caught glimpses of one or two familiar figures as he drove along. How impatient he was to see his old friends--everybody--white and colored, old and young, masculine and feminine. He could hardly wait to get to the tavern, remove the dust of travel and sally forth upon the round of visits he intended to make. His spirits went up--and up, and finally it was Edgar Goodfellow in the flesh who stepped jauntily from the door of "Swan Tavern," arrayed for hot-weather calling. In spite of the summer temperature, he looked the personification of coolness and comfort. The taste of prosperity his lectures had brought him was evident in his modest but spruce apparel. He had discarded the habitual black cloth for a coat and trousers of white linen (exquisitely laundered by Mother Clemm's capable and loving hands) which he wore with a black velvet vest for which he had also to thank the Mother and her skilled needle. A broad-brimmed Panama hat shaded his pale features and the grey eyes, which glowed with happiness. As with proudly carried head and quick, easy gait, he bore westward up Broad Street, no single person pa.s.sed him that did not turn to look with admiration upon the handsome, distinguished stranger, and to mentally ask "Who is he?"
It so happened that Jack Mackenzie was the first acquaintance he met.
"Edgar," he said, as their hands joined in affectionate grasp, "Do you remember once, years ago, I met you in the street and you said you were going to look for the end of the rainbow? Well, you look as if you had found it!"
"I have," was the reply. "An hour ago. It was here in Richmond all the time and I didn't know it, and like a poor fool, have been wandering the world over in a vain search for it. The trouble is, I was looking for the wrong thing. I was looking for fame and fortune, thought of which blinded my eyes to something far better--scenes and friends.h.i.+ps of _lang syne_. Jack--" he continued, as--arm in arm--the two friends made their way up the street. "Jack, life is a great schoolmaster, but why does it take so long to drub any sense into these blockheads of ours?"
"d.a.m.ned if I know," replied his companion, who was more truthful always than either poetic or philosophic, "but if you mean that you've decided to come back to Richmond to live, I'm mighty glad to hear it."
"That's what I mean. I came only for a visit and to lecture, but made up my mind on the way from the depot to come for good as soon as I can arrange to do so. I think it was a magnolia tree in bloom--the first I had seen in many a year--that decided me."
"Well, all of your old friends will be glad to have you back; there's one in particular that I might mention. Do you remember Elmira Royster?
She's a comely widow now, with a comfortable fortune, and she's always had a lingering fondness for you. I advise you to hunt her up."
The Dreamer's face clouded.
"Women are angels, Jack," he said. "They are the salt that will save this world, if it is to be saved, and for poor sinners like me there would be simply no hope in either this world or the next but for them; but they will have no more part in my life, save as friends. A true friend of mine, however, I believe Myra is. I saw her during my brief visit here last fall.--Ah, Rob! my boy! Howdy!"
The two friends had turned into Sixth Street and as they drew near the corner of Sixth and Grace, almost ran into Rob Stanard--now a prominent lawyer and one of the leading gentlemen of the town.
"Eddie Poe, as I'm alive!" he exclaimed, with a hearty hand-clasp. "My, my, what a pleasure! I'm on my way home to dinner, boys. Come in, both of you and take pot-luck with us. My wife will be delighted to see you!"
The invitation was accepted as naturally as it was given, and the three mounted together the steps of the beautiful house and were received in the charmingly homelike drawing-room opening from the wide hall, by Rob's wife, a Kentucky belle who had stepped gracefully into her place as mistress of one of the notable homes in Virginia's capital. As she gave her jewelled hand to Edgar Poe her handsome black eyes sparkled with pleasure. She was not only sincerely glad to receive the friend of her husband's boyhood, but keen appreciation of intellectual gifts made her feel that to know him was a distinction. Some of the servants who had known "Ma.r.s.e Eddie" in the old days were still of the household--having come to Robert Stanard as part of his father's estate--and they were to their intense gratification, pleasantly greeted by the visitor.
That evening--and many subsequent evenings--The Dreamer spent at "Duncan Lodge" with the Mackenzies and their friends. A series of sunlit days followed--days of lingering in Rob Sully's studio or in the familiar office of _The Southern Literary Messenger_ where the editor, Mr. John R. Thompson--himself a poet--gave him a warm welcome always, and gladly accepted and published in _The Messenger_ anything the famous former editor would let him have; days of wandering in the woods or by the tumbling river he had loved as a lad; days of searching out old haunts and making new ones.
And everywhere he found welcome. Delightful little parties were given in his honor, when in return for the courtesies paid him he charmed the company by reciting "The Raven" as he alone could recite it. His lectures upon "The Poetic Principle" and "The Philosophy of Composition," and his readings in the a.s.sembly rooms of the Exchange Hotel, drew the elite of the city, who sat spellbound while he, erect and still and pale as a statue, filled their ears with the music of his voice, and their souls with wonder at the brilliancy of his thought and words. Subscriptions to _The Stylus_ poured in. At last, this dream of his life seemed an a.s.sured fact.
One door--one only in all the town did not swing wide to receive him.
The closed portal of the mansion of which he had been the proud young master, still said to him "Nevermore"--and he always had a creepy sensation when he pa.s.sed it, which even the sight of the flower-garden he had loved, in fullest bloom, did not overcome.
The golden days ran into golden weeks and the weeks into months, and still Edgar Poe was making holiday in Richmond--the first holiday he had had since, as a youth of seventeen he had quarrelled with John Allan and gone forth to the battle of life. In the long, long battle since then there had been more of joy than they knew who looking on had seen the toil and the defeat and the despair, but from whose eyes the exaltation he had felt in the act of creation or in the contemplation of the works of nature, and the happiness he found in his frugal home, were hidden.
But, as has been said, there had been no holiday, until now when he had come back to Richmond an older and a sadder and a more experienced Edgar Poe--an Edgar Poe upon whom the Silence and the Solitude had fallen and had left shaken--broken.
Yet that personal ident.i.ty upon the mystery of which he liked to ponder--the unquenchable, immortal _ego_ was there; and it was, for all the outward and inward changes, the same Edgar Poe, with his two natures--Dreamer and Goodfellow--alternately dominating him, who had come back to find the real end of the rainbow in revisiting old scenes, renewing old friends.h.i.+ps, awakening old memories--and had paused to make holiday.
Even in these golden days there were occasional falls, for the cup of kindness was everywhere and in his blood was the same old strain which made madness for him in the single gla.s.s--the single drop, almost; and in spite of all the great schoolmaster, Life, had taught him, there was in his will the same old element of weakness. Had it been otherwise he had not been Edgar Poe. At times, too, the blue devils raised their heads. Had it been otherwise he had not been Edgar Poe.
But on the whole the holiday was a bright dream of Paradise regained at a time when more than ever before his feet had seemed to march only to the cadence of the old, sad word, Nevermore.
Two sacred pilgrimages he made early in this holiday--to the two shrines of his romantic boyhood--to Shockoe Cemetery, where he not only visited "Helen's" tomb, but laid a wreath upon the grave of Frances Allan--his little foster mother, and to the churchyard on the hill. The white steeple still slept serenely in the blue atmosphere above the church and, as of yore, the bell called in deep, sweet tones to prayer. But how the churchyard had filled since he saw it last! Graves, graves everywhere. It was appalling! He stepped between the graves, old and new, stooping to read the inscriptions upon the slabs. So many that he remembered as merry boys and girls and hale men and women still in their prime--could they really be dead?--gone forever from the scenes which had known them and of which they seemed an integral part? Oh, mystery of mysteries, how was it possible?--Yet here were their names plainly written upon the marbles! The church builded by men's hands, the trees planted by men's hands, the monuments fas.h.i.+oned by men's hands remained, but the living, breathing men, where were they? Could it be that G.o.d's highest creation was a more perishable thing than the lifeless work of its own hand? His spirit cried out within him against such a thought.
No, it could not be! Gone from earth, or holden from mortal vision they a.s.suredly were--departed--but dead? No!
Finally he came to the grave beside the wall. No marble tomb told the pa.s.ser-by that there lay the body of Elizabeth Poe. Yet, what matter?--Was her sleep the less peaceful? Was her tired spirit the less free?--If in its flight it should visit this spot where it had laid the burden of the body down, surely it would find, for all there was no carven stone to mark it, a most sweet spot. The greenest of gra.s.s, and clover with blossoms white and red, waved over it--the summer breeze rippling through them with pleasant sound,--and the tall trees hung a green canopy between it and the midday sun.