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"'In Heaven a spirit doth dwell Whose heartstrings are a lute.
None sing so wildly well As the angel, Israfel, And the giddy stars (so legends tell) Ceasing their hymns, attend the spell Of his voice, all mute.'"
As he finished this opening stanza of what posterity has ranked as one of the most exquisite lyrics in the English tongue, but which was received by the audience of cadets with guffaws of derision, the reader closed the book with a snap, and dashed it across the room and into the open fire.
"Did you ever hear crazier rubbish?" he asked, with contempt. "Highway robbery, I call it, to send us such stuff for our good, hard cas.h.!.+"
"The joke's on us this time, and no doubt about it," said the also chagrinned, but more philosophically inclined "Gibs." "The Bard means well, though, and no doubt he thinks the stuff is poetry."
"Old P." solemnly tapped his forehead with his forefinger.
"Something wrong here," he remarked, ominously, "I suspected it all along."
The business of getting his book published dispatched, the poet's thoughts turned lovingly toward Richmond which he still called "home,"
and carpet-bag in hand and a package of copies of his book which he intended as presents to his old chums under his arm, he set out upon the journey thither.
The streets of New York had been cold and bleak but he told himself as he journeyed, that April days at home were quite different. The gra.s.s would be already green upon the hillsides, many of the trees in leaf, and the dear spring flowers in bloom. He pictured the ample comforts of the Allan homestead, and of his own room in it, with its familiar furnis.h.i.+ngs. Of course he had no idea of looking to Mr. Allan for support--his pen must give him that now--but during the visit which he was going to make "at home" it would be pleasant to sleep once more in that room with all of its a.s.sociations, though many of these were with the blunders of a blinded youth.
As he thought of Mr. Allan and his last meeting with him, his heart softened. He would try and keep their intercourse upon the friendly basis upon which his last sad visit home had placed it; would as far as possible, put himself in his foster-father's place and see things as he saw them.
How desolate the widowed man had seemed in the big, empty house during those chill, sorrow-stricken, February days! No wonder he had sought escape from his desolation in another marriage--his loneliness without the lovely little mother must have been unbearable. What was the new wife like, he wondered? Was she like the lady of the manor he remembered? Could there be another such gentle, tender, flower-like woman on earth?
In his unworldly, unpractical dreamer's soul it did not occur to him for one moment that her existence might make him any less Mr. Allan's adopted son, or even that, with all the rooms in the big house at her disposal, she might have taken a fancy to rearrange the one which, from the time the house became Mr. Allan's property, had been "Eddie's room,"
and which had so long stood ready for his occupancy--dedicated as it was to his own belongings.
At last he was on the sacred soil!
How fair and comfortable the old homestead looked in its setting of greening lawn and flowering garden, with the pleasant suns.h.i.+ne of the April afternoon over all! How cheerful--how ample--how homelike!
He ran up the steps of the commodious front porch and was on the point of opening the door when some impulse he could not define made him pause and, instead of turning the k.n.o.b, announce himself with a rap upon the s.h.i.+ning bra.s.s knocker.
One of the old family servants whom he had known and loved from his infancy, and with whom he had always been a pet, opened the door, and with beaming face and eager voice greeted him with the enthusiastic hospitality of his kind--lifting up his voice and his hands in praise to G.o.d that he was once more in this world permitted to look upon the face of "Ma.r.s.e Eddie."
The whilom young master of the house was equally, if less picturesquely, warm in his expressions of pleasure at seeing the old man again, and gave him his carpet-bag with instructions to take it to his room and to tell Mrs. Allan that he was there.
The venerable darkey's face fell. The "new Mistis" had "changed the house around some," he explained, apologetically, and "Ma.r.s.e's Eddie's"
things had been moved to one of the servants' rooms, but "Ma.r.s.e Eddie's"
old room was a guest chamber, and he "reckoned" that would be the place to take the bag.
The visitor's whole manner changed at once--_froze_. The flush of pleasure died out of his face and left it pale, cold and stern. A fierce and unreasonable rage possessed him. _She had dismantled the room that his little mother had arranged for him and sent his things to a servant's room!_ Was this insult intentional, he wondered?
To his mind, his "little Mother" was so entirely the presiding genius of the place--he could not realize the right of anyone, not even a "new mistis," to come in and "change the house around."
Cut to the quick, he directed the old butler to leave the bag where it was and to let Mrs. Allan know that he was in the drawing-room.
No announcement could have given that lady greater surprise. She regarded Edgar's leaving West Point after her husband's letter, as direct disobedience, and his presenting himself at her door as the height of impertinence. Something of this was in the frigid dignity with which she received him--standing, and drawn up to the full height of her imposing figure.
She had never been within speaking distance of anyone drunk to the point of intoxication, but, somehow, she had received an impression that this was pretty generally the case with the young man now before her, and when he began somewhat incoherently (in his foolish rage) to ask her confirmation of the old servant's statement that his room had been dismantled, she was convinced that it was his condition at the moment.
Turning, with the grand air for which she was noted, to the h.o.a.ry butler who stood in the doorway between drawing-room and hall, respectfully awaiting orders as to "Ma.r.s.e Eddie's" bag, she said,
"Put this drunken man out of the house!"
The aged slave stood aghast. Between the stately new mistress whom it was his duty to serve, and the beloved young master whose home-coming had warmed his old heart, what should he do?
He stood in silence, his lined black face filled with sadness, his chin in his hand, his eyes bent in sorrow and shame upon the floor. What should he do?--
Fortunately, the new mistress did not see his indecision as she swept from the room, and "Ma.r.s.e Eddie" quickly relieved him of the embarra.s.sing dilemma by picking up the carpet-bag and pa.s.sing out of the door, closing it behind him.
It was all a mistake--a miserable mistake; but one of those mistakes in understanding between blind, prejudiced human beings by which hearts are broken, souls lost.
At the foot of the steps Edgar Poe paused and looked back at the ma.s.sive closed door. _Never_--_nevermore_, it seem to say to him.--_Never_--_nevermore_!
While he had been inside the house one of those sudden changes in the face of nature of which his superst.i.tious soul always made note, had taken place. A shower from a pa.s.sing cloud had filled the depressions in the uneven pavement, where before only suns.h.i.+ne lay, with little pools of water, and had left the trees "weeping," as he fancifully described them to himself.
He walked along the wet streets for a few steps, by the side of the wall that enclosed house and grounds. Then he paused again and looked over into the dripping garden while he held consultation with himself as to what he should do next. As he looked the breath of drenched violets greeted his nostrels. He noticed that the lilacs were coming into blossom. The fruit trees already stood like brides veiled in their fresh bloom. The tulip and hyacinth and daffodil beds were gay with color. How their newly washed faces shone in the suns.h.i.+ne, just then bursting through the clouds!
Near him, just inside the wall, was a bed of lily-of-the-valley. He was seized with an almost irresistible desire to go down upon his knees by it and search among the glistening green leaves to see if the lilies were in bloom.
But the garden-gate, like the house door, was closed upon him and seemed to repeat the fateful word--Nevermore.
Whither should he turn his steps? To Mr. Allan's office?--Never!
His intention had been to submit himself to Mr. Allan as far as his self-respect would let him. To consult him in regard to the literary career he felt himself committed to now that (as he recalled with satisfaction) the bridges between him and any other profession were burnt behind him. His own plan, upon which he was resolved to ask Mr.
Allan's opinion, would be to seek a position in the line of journalism which would give him a living while he was waiting for his more ambitious work to find buyers.
But since the interview with Mrs. Allan he realized the folly of this dream.
Then, whither should he go?--To the chums of his boyhood?--Rob Stanard, d.i.c.k Ambler, Rob Sully, Jack Preston, where were they?--Good, dear friends they had been, but it seemed so long since they had played together! What should they find to say to each other now? They were busy with their various avocations and interests--what room in their hearts and homes could there be for a wanderer like himself?
At the age of one and twenty, at the springtime of his life, as of the year--he felt himself to be as friendless, as much a stranger in the city which he called home, as Rip Van Winkle after his long sleep had felt in his. The only spots toward which he could turn with any confidence for sympathy were those two quiet cities within this city where lay his loved and lovely dead--"The doubly dead in that they died so young."
"How different my life would be if they had lived!" he murmured to the flowers.
Yet how fair was this world in which he had no place--even to a mere looker-on. How fair was this mansion, in its setting of April green and bloom, which had once owned him as its young--its future master. Above it Hope stretched her s.h.i.+ning wings, but the hope was not for him. For him the closed door and the closed gate said only, "no more--nevermore."
But whither should he go?--whither?
As he turned from the garden and walked slowly, aimlessly, down the street, his great grey eyes fixed ponderingly upon the breaking clouds, a rainbow--bright symbol of promise--spanned the heavens. His eyes widened, his lips parted at the wonder and the beauty and the suddenness of it.
Whither should he go? Behold an answer meet for a poet!
Whither?--Whither?--The dark eyes in the pale cameo face turned skyward--the eyes of him who had declared himself to be a deep wors.h.i.+pper of all beauty grew more dreamy. Whither, indeed, but to the end of the rainbow!
By what "path obscure and lonely," the quest would lead him he knew not, but he would follow it to the bitter end, for there, perchance, he would find if not the traditional pot of gold, at least a wreath of laurel.
As he wandered down the street, his eyes still upon the bow, his dream was suddenly interrupted by the hearty voice of one of his boyhood's friends, and his sister Rosalie's adopted brother, Jack Mackenzie.
"h.e.l.lo, Edgar!" he cried. "Did you drop from the clouds? Evidently, for I see your head is still in them."