AE in the Irish Theosophist Part 11

The Fountain of Shadowy Beauty --A Dream

I would I could weave in The colour, the wonder, The song I conceive in My heart while I ponder,

And show how it came like The magi of old Whose chant was a flame like The dawn's voice of gold;

Who dreams followed near them A murmur of birds, And ear still could hear them Unchanted in words.

In words I can only Reveal thee my heart, Oh, Light of the Lonely, The s.h.i.+ning impart.

Between the twilight and the dark The lights danced up before my eyes: I found no sleep or peace or rest, But dreams of stars and burning skies.

I knew the faces of the day-- Dream faces, pale, with cloudy hair, I know you not nor yet your home, The Fount of Shadowy Beauty, where?

I pa.s.sed a dream of gloomy ways Where ne'er did human feet intrude: It was the border of a wood, A dreadful forest solitude.

With wondrous red and fairy gold The clouds were woven o'er the ocean; The stars in fiery aether swung And danced with gay and glittering motion.

A fire leaped up within my heart When first I saw the old sea s.h.i.+ne; As if a G.o.d were there revealed I bowed my head in awe divine;

And long beside the dim sea marge I mused until the gathering haze Veiled from me where the silver tide Ran in its thousand shadowy ways.

The black night dropped upon the sea: The silent awe came down with it: I saw fantastic vapours flit As o'er the darkness of the pit.

When, lo! from out the furthest night A speck of rose and silver light Above a boat shaped wondrously Came floating swiftly o'er the sea.

It was no human will that bore The boat so fleetly to the sh.o.r.e Without a sail spread or an oar.

The Pilot stood erect thereon And lifted up his ancient face, (Ancient with glad eternal youth Like one who was of starry race.)

His face was rich with dusky bloom; His eyes a bronze and golden fire; His hair in streams of silver light Hung flamelike on his strange attire

Which starred with many a mystic sign, Fell as o'er sunlit ruby glowing: His light flew o'er the waves afar In ruddy ripples on each bar Along the spiral pathways flowing.

It was a crystal boat that chased The light along the watery waste, Till caught amid the surges h.o.a.ry The Pilot stayed its jewelled glory.

Oh, never such a glory was: The pale moon shot it through and through With light of lilac, white and blue: And there mid many a fairy hue Of pearl and pink and amethyst, Like lightning ran the rainbow gleams And wove around a wonder-mist.

The Pilot lifted beckoning hands; Silent I went with deep amaze To know why came this Beam of Light So far along the ocean ways Out of the vast and shadowy night.

"Make haste, make haste!" he cried. "Away!

A thousand ages now are gone.

Yet thou and I ere night be sped Will reck no more of eve or dawn."

Swift as the swallow to its nest I leaped: my body dropt right down: A silver star I rose and flew.

A flame burned golden at his breast: I entered at the heart and knew My Brother-Self who roams the deep, Bird of the wonder-world of sleep.

The ruby body wrapped us round As twain in one: we left behind The league-long murmur of the sh.o.r.e And fleeted swifter than the wind.

The distance rushed upon the bark: We neared unto the mystic isles: The heavenly city we could mark, Its mountain light, its jewel dark, Its pinnacles and starry piles.

The glory brightened: "Do not fear; For we are real, though what seems So proudly built above the waves Is but one mighty spirit's dreams.

"Our Father's house hath many fanes; Yet enter not and wors.h.i.+p not, For thought but follows after thought Till last consuming self it wanes.

"The Fount of Shadowy Beauty flings Its glamour o'er the light of day: A music in the sunlight sings To call the dreamy hearts away Their mighty hopes to ease awhile: We will not go the way of them: The chant makes drowsy those who seek The sceptre and the diadem.

"The Fount of Shadowy Beauty throws Its magic round us all the night; What things the heart would be, it sees And chases them in endless flight.

Or coiled in phantom visions there It builds within the halls of fire; Its dreams flash like the peac.o.c.k's wing And glow with sun-hues of desire.

We will not follow in their ways Nor heed the lure of fay or elf, But in the ending of our days Rest in the high Ancestral Self."

The boat of crystal touched the sh.o.r.e, Then melted flamelike from our eyes, As in the twilight drops the sun Withdrawing rays of paradise.

We hurried under arched aisles That far above in heaven withdrawn With cloudy pillars stormed the night, Rich as the opal shafts of dawn.

I would have lingered then--but he-- "Oh, let us haste: the dream grows dim, Another night, another day, A thousand years will part from him

"Who is that Ancient One divine From whom our phantom being born Rolled with the wonder-light around Had started in the fairy morn.

"A thousand of our years to him Are but the night, are but the day, Wherein he rests from cyclic toil Or chants the song of starry sway.

"He falls asleep: the Shadowy Fount Fills all our heart with dreams of light: He wakes to ancient spheres, and we Through iron ages mourn the night.

We will not wander in the night But in a darkness more divine Shall join the Father Light of Lights And rule the long-descended line."

Even then a vasty twilight fell: Wavered in air the shadowy towers: The city like a gleaming sh.e.l.l, Its azures, opals, silvers, blues, Were melting in more dreamy hues.

We feared the falling of the night And hurried more our headlong flight.

In one long line the towers went by; The trembling radiance dropt behind, As when some swift and radiant one Flits by and flings upon the wind The rainbow tresses of the sun.

And then they vanished from our gaze Faded the magic lights, and all Into a Starry Radiance fell As waters in their fountain fall.

We knew our time-long journey o'er And knew the end of all desire, And saw within the emerald glow Our Father like the white sun-fire.

We could not say if age or youth Were on his face: we only burned To pa.s.s the gateways of the Day, The exiles to the heart returned.

He rose to greet us and his breath, The tempest music of the spheres, Dissolved the memory of earth, The cyclic labour and our tears.

In him our dream of sorrow pa.s.sed, The spirit once again was free And heard the song the Morning-Stars Chant in eternal revelry.

This was the close of human story; We saw the deep unmeasured s.h.i.+ne, And sank within the mystic glory They called of old the Dark Divine.

Well it is gone now, The dream that I chanted: On this side the dawn now I sit fate-implanted.

But though of my dreaming The dawn has bereft me, It all was not seeming For something has left me.

I fell in some other World far from this cold light The Dream Bird, my brother, Is rayed with the gold light.

I too in the Father Would hide me, and so, Bright Bird, to foregather With thee now I go.

--December 15, 1896