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"Tour head is better now, I hope, sir?" respectfully inquired Powers, as he prepared to remove the service.
"Much, thank you. Tell Miss Middleton so, with my respects, and say how grateful I feel to her for this kind attention."
"Yes, sir."
"And, Powers, you may bring me lights now."
And a few minutes later, when Powers had returned with two lighted candles and placed them on the table, Ishmael, who knew that not an over tasked brain, but an undisciplined heart, was the secret of his malady, set himself to work as to a severe discipline, and worked away for three or four hours with great advantage; for, when at twelve o'clock he retired to bed, he fell asleep and slept soundly until morning.
That is what work did for Ishmael. And work will do as much for anyone who will try it.
It is true in the morning he awoke to a new sense of woe; but the day had also its work to discipline him. He breakfasted with Bee and her father and the judge, who were the only members of the family present at the table; and then he went to the City Hall, where he had an appointment with the District Attorney.
That morning the engagement between Lord Vincent and Claudia was formally announced to the family circle. And Bee understood the secret of Ishmael's sudden illness. The marriage was appointed to take place on the first of the ensuing month, and so the preparations for the event were at once commenced.
Mrs. Middleton and Claudia went to New York to order the wedding outfit.
They were gone a week, and when they returned Claudia, though much thinner in flesh, seemed to have recovered the gloom that had been frightened away by the viscount's first kiss.
The great responsibility of the home preparations fell upon Bee. The house had to be prepared for visitors; not only for the wedding guests; but also for friends and relatives of the family, who were coming from a distance and would remain for several days. For the last mentioned, new rooms had to be made ready. And all this was to be done under the immediate supervision of Beatrice.
As on two former occasions, Miss Merlin called in the aid of her three favorite ministers--Vourienne, Devizae, and Dureezie.
On the morning of the last day of June Vourienne and his a.s.sistants decorated the dining room. On the evening of the same day Devizae and his waiters laid the table for the wedding breakfast. And then the room was closed up until the next day. While the family took their meals in their small breakfast room.
During the evening relatives from a distance arrived and were received by Bee, who conducted them to their rooms.
By this inroad of visitors Bee herself, with the little sister who shared her bed, were driven up into the attic to the plain spare room next to Ishmael's own. Here, early in the evening, as he sat at his work, he could hear Bee, who would not neglect little Lu for anything else in the world, rocking and singing her to sleep. And Ishmael, too, who had just laid down his pen because the waning light no longer enabled him to write, felt his great trouble soothed by Bee's song.
CHAPTER LXIV.
CLAUDIA'S WOE
Ay, lady, here alone You may think till your heart is broken, Of the love that is dead and done, Of the days that with no token, For evermore are gone.
Weep, if you can, beseech you!
There's no one by to curb you: His heart cry cannot reach you: His love will not disturb you: Weep?--what can weeping teach you?
--_Meredith_.
Sifting within the recess of the dormer window, soothed by the gathering darkness of the quiet, starlight night, and by the gentle cadences of Bee's low, melodious voice, as she sung her baby sister to sleep, Ishmael remained some little time longer, when suddenly Bee's song ceased, and he heard her exclamation of surprise:
"Claudia, you up here! and already dressed for dinner! How well you look! How rich that maize-colored brocade is! And how elegant that spray of diamonds in your hair! I never saw you wear it before! Is it a new purchase?"
"It is the viscount's present. I wear it this evening in his honor."
"How handsome you are, Lady Vincent! You know I do not often flatter, but really, Claudia, all the artist in me delights to contemplate you. I never saw you with such brilliant eyes, or such a beautiful color."
"Brilliant eyes! beautiful color! Ha! ha! ha! the first frenzy, I think!
The last--well, it ought to be beautiful. I paid ten dollars a scruple for it at a wicked French shop in Broadway! And I have used the scruple unscrupulously!" she cried, with a bitter laugh as of self-scorn.
"Oh, Claudia--rouged!" said Bee, in a tone of surprise and pain.
"Yes, rouged and powdered! why not? Why should the face be true when the life is false! Oh, Bee," she suddenly broke forth in a wail of anguish; "lay that child down and listen to me! I must tell someone, or my heart will break!"
There was a movement, a low, m.u.f.fling, hus.h.i.+ng sound, that told the unwilling listener that Bee was putting her baby sister in the bed.
Ishmael arose with the intention of leaving his room, and slipping out of hearing of the conversation that was not intended for his ears; but utterly overcome by the crowding emotions of his heart, he sank back in his chair.
He heard Bee return to her place. He heard Claudia throw herself down on the floor by Bee's side, and say:
"Oh, let me lay my head down upon your lap, Bee!"
"Claudia, dear Claudia, what is the matter with you? What can I do for you?"
"Receive my confidence, that is all. Hear my confession. I must tell somebody or die. I wish I was a Catholic, and had a father confessor who would hear me and comfort me, and absolve my sins, and keep my secrets!"
"Can any man stand in that relation to a woman except her father, if she is single, or her husband, if she is married?" asked Bee.
"I don't know--and I don't care! Only when I pa.s.sed by St. Patrick's Church, with this load of trouble on my soul, I felt as if it would have done me good to steal into one of those veiled recesses and tell the good old father there!"
"You could have told your heavenly Father anywhere."
"He knows it already; but I durst not pray to him! I am not so impious as that either. I have not presumed to pray for a month--not since my betrothal."
"You have not presumed to pray. Oh, Claudia!"
"How should I dare to pray, after I had deliberately sold myself to the demon--after I had deliberately determined to sin and take the wages of sin?"
"Claudia! Oh, Heaven! You are certainly mad!"
"I know it; but the knowledge does not help me to the cure. I have been mad a month!" Then breaking forth into a wail of woe, she cried: "Oh, Bee! I do not love that man! I do not love him! and the idea of marrying him appalls my very soul!"
"Good Heaven, Claudia, then why--" begun Bee, but Claudia fiercely continued:
"I loathe him! I sicken at him! His first kiss! Oh, Bee! the cold, clammy touch of those lips struck all the color from my face forever, I think! I loathe him!"
"Oh, Claudia, Claudia, why, in the name of all that is wise and good, do you do yourself, and him, too, such a terrible wrong as to marry him?" inquired the deeply-shocked maiden.
"Because I must! Because I will! I have deliberately determined to be a peeress of England, and I will be one, whatever the cost."
"But oh! have you thought of the deadly sin--the treachery, the perjury, the sacrilege; oh! and the dreadful degradation of such a loveless marriage?"
"Have I thought of these things--these horrors? Yes; witness this tortured heart and racked brain of mine!"
"Then why, oh, why, Claudia, do you persevere?"
"I am in the vortex of the whirlpool, and cannot stop myself!"