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"I met you not very far from that square, and I thought----"
"Pray take time, and conclude your sentence."
She shook her head.
"Some important business connected with my profession, and involving a case long ago placed in my hands, called me, despite the unfavourable weather, to that section of the city. Having particularly desired and instructed you to come home as soon as the rehearsal at Mrs. Brompton's ended, I certainly had no right to suppose you intended to disobey me."
He paused, but she remained a pale image of silent sorrow.
"A few evenings since you asked me to trust you, and in defiance of my judgment I reluctantly promised to do so. Have you not forfeited your guardian's confidence?"
"Perhaps so; but it was unavoidable."
"Unavoidable that you should systematically deceive me?" he demanded very sternly.
"I have not deceived you."
"My duty as your guardian forces me to deal plainly with you. With whom have you arranged this disgraceful clandestine correspondence?"
Her gaze swept quite past him, ascended to the pitying brown eyes in her mother's portrait; and though she grew white as her Undine vesture, and he saw her shudder, her voice was unshaken.
"I cannot tell you."
"Representing your mother's authority, I demand an answer."
After an instant, she said:
"Though you were twenty times my guardian, I shall not tell you, sir."
She seemed like some marble statue, which one might hack and hew in twain, without extorting a confession.
"Then you force me to a very shocking and shameful conclusion."
Was there, she wondered, any conclusion so shameful as the truth, which at all hazard she was resolved for her mother's sake to hide?
"You are secretly meeting and arranging to correspond with some vagrant lover whom you blush so acknowledge."
"Lover! Oh, merciful G.o.d! When I need a father, and a father's protecting name--when I am heart-sick for my mother, and her s.h.i.+elding healing love--how can you cruelly talk to me of a lover?
What right has a nameless, homeless waif to think of love? G.o.d grant me a father and a mother, a stainless name, and I shall never need, never wish, never tolerate a lover! Do not insult my misery."
She lifted her clenched hands almost menacingly, and her pa.s.sionate vehemence startled her companion, who could scarcely recognize in the glittering defiant gaze that met his the velvet violet eyes over which the silken fringes had hung with such tender Madonna grace but a half-hour before.
"Regina, how could you deceive me so shamefully?"
"I did not intend to do so. I am innocent of the disgraceful motives you impute to me; but I cannot explain what you condemn so severely.
In all that I have done I have been impelled by a stern, painful sense of duty, and my conscience acquits me; but I shall not give you any explanation. To no human being, except my mother, will I confess the whole matter. Oh, send me at once to her! I asked you to trust me, and you believe me utterly unworthy, think I have forfeited your confidence, even your respect. It is hard, very hard, for I hoped to possess always your good opinion. But it must be borne, and now at least, holding me so low in your esteem, you will not keep me under your roof; you will gladly send me to mother. Let me go. Oh! do let me go--at once; to-morrow."
She seemed inexplicably transformed into a woeful desperate woman, and the man's heart yearned to fold her closely in his arms, sheltering her for ever.
Drawing nearer, he spoke in a wholly altered voice.
"When you asked me to trust you, I did so. Now will you grant me a similar boon? Lily, trust me."
His tone had never sounded so low, almost pleading before; and it thrilled her with an overmastering grief, that when he who was wont to command, condescended to sue for her confidence, she was forced to withhold it.
"Oh, Mr. Palma, do not ask me! I cannot."
He took her hands, unwinding the cold fingers, and in his peculiar magnetic way softly folding them in his warm palms; but she struggled to withdraw them, and he saw the purple shadows deepening under her large eyes.
"Little girl, I would not betray your secret Give it to my safekeeping. Show me your heart."
As if fearful he might read it, she involuntarily closed her eyes, and her answer was almost a sob.
"It is not my secret, it involves others, and I would rather die to-morrow, to-night, than have it known. Oh! let me go away at once, and for ever!"
Accustomed to compel compliance with his wishes, it was difficult for him to patiently endure defiance and defeat from that fair young creature, whom he began to perceive he could neither overawe nor persuade.
For several minutes he seemed lost in thought, still holding her hands firmly; then he suddenly laughed, and stooped toward her.
"Brave, true little heart! I wonder if some day you will be as steadfast and faithful in your devotion to your husband, as you have been in your loving defence of your mother? You need not tell me your secret, I know everything; and, Lily, I can scarcely forgive you for venturing within the reach and power of that wretched vagabond."
He felt her start and s.h.i.+ver, and pitying the terrified expression that drifted into her countenance, he continued:
"Unconsciously, you were giving alms to your own and to your mother's worst enemy. Peleg Peterson has for years stood between you and your lawful name."
She reeled, and her fingers closed spasmodically over his, as white and faint, she gasped:
"Then he is not--my----"
The words died on her quivering lips.
"He is the man who has slandered and traduced your mother, even to her own husband."
"Oh! then, he is not, he cannot be my--father!"
"No more your father than I am! At last I have succeeded in obtaining----"
She was beyond the reach even of his voice, and as she drooped he caught her in his arms.
Since Monday the terrible strain had known no relaxation, and the sudden release from the horrible incubus of Peleg Peterson was overpowering.
Mr. Palma held her for some seconds clasped to his heart, and placing the head on his bosom, turned the white face to his. How hungrily the haughty man hung over those wan features, and what a wealth of pa.s.sionate tenderness thrilled in the low trembling voice that whispered:
"My Lily. My darling; my own."
He kissed her softly, as if the cold lips were too sacred even for his loving touch, and gently placed her on the sofa, holding her with his encircling arm.
Since his boyhood no woman's lips had ever pressed his, and the last kiss he had bestowed was upon his mother's brow, as she lay in her coffin.