The Other Boleyn Girl Part 19

Anne silenced me with a quick frown. "Ssh. This is important. What does she like, George?"

"It's not like l.u.s.t," he said uneasily. "I can deal with l.u.s.t. And it's not variety-I like a little taste of the wild myself. But it's as if she wanted some kind of power over me. The other night she asked me if I would like a maid brought in. She offered to bring me in a girl and worse: she wanted to watch."

"She likes to watch?" Anne demanded.

He shook his head. "No, I think she likes to arrange. I think she likes to listen at doors, to spy through keyholes. I think she likes to be the one that makes things happen and watches others at the business. And when I said 'no'..." He stopped abruptly.

"What did she offer you then?"

George flushed. "She offered to get me a boy."

I gave a little shriek of scandalized laughter, but Anne was not laughing at all.

"Why would she offer you that, George?" she asked quietly.

He looked away. "There's a singer at court," he said shortly. "A lad so sweet, pretty as a maid but with the wit of a man. I've said nothing and done nothing. But she saw me laugh with him once and clap him on the shoulder-and she thinks everything is l.u.s.t."

"This is the second lad whose name has been linked with yours," Anne observed. "Was there not some pageboy? Sent back to his home last summer?"

"That was nothing," George said.

"And now this?"

"Nothing again."

"A dangerous nothing," Anne said. "A dangerous brace of nothings. Wenching is one thing but you can be hanged for this."

We were silent for a moment, a dark little group under a midsummer blue sky. George shook his head. "It's nothing," he reiterated. "And it's my own business. I'm sickened by women, by the constant desire and talk of women. You know all the sonnets and all the flirting and all the empty promises. And a boy is so clean and so clear..." He turned away. "It's a whim. I won't regard it."

Anne looked at him, her eyes narrowed with calculation. "It's a cardinal sin. You'd better let this whim go by."

He met her gaze. "I know it, Mistress Clever," he said.

"What about Francis Weston?" I asked.

"What about him?" George rejoined.

"You're always together."

George shook his head impatiently. "We're always in service to the king," he corrected me. "We're forever waiting for the king. And all there is to do is to flirt with the girls at court and talk scandal with them. It's no wonder I am sick of it. The life I live makes me weary to the soul of the vanity of women."

Autumn 1525 WHEN I RETURNED TO COURT IN THE AUTUMN A FAMILY CONFERENCE was convened. I noted wryly that this time I had one of the big carved chairs with arms, and a velvet cus.h.i.+on in the seat. This year I was a young woman who might be carrying the king's son in her belly. was convened. I noted wryly that this time I had one of the big carved chairs with arms, and a velvet cus.h.i.+on in the seat. This year I was a young woman who might be carrying the king's son in her belly.

They decided that Anne might come back to court in the spring.

"She's learned her lesson," my father said judicially. "And with Mary's star rising so high we should have Anne at court. She should be married."

My uncle nodded, and they moved on to the more important topic of what might be in the king's mind since the same settlement which had enn.o.bled my father had also made Bessie Blount's boy a duke. Henry Fitzroy, a little lad of only six, was the Duke of Richmond and Surrey, the Earl of Nottingham and Lord High Admiral of England.

"It's absurd," my uncle said flatly. "But it shows how his mind is working. He's going to make Fitzroy the next heir."

He paused. He looked round the table at the four of us: my mother and father, George and me. "It tells us that he's getting truly desperate. He must be thinking of a new marriage. It's still the safest, fastest way to an heir."

"But if Wolsey brokers a new marriage he'll never favor us," my father observed. "Why should he? He's no friend of ours. He'll look for a French princess, or Portuguese."

"But what if she has a son?" my uncle asked, nodding toward me. "When the queen is out of the way? Here's a girl of good birth, as good as Henry's mother's. Pregnant for the second time by him. Every chance in the world that she might be carrying his son. If he marries her he has an heir. At once. A complete solution."

There was a silence. I looked around the table and saw that they were all nodding. "But the queen will never leave," I said simply. It was always me that reminded them of that one fact.

"If the king has no need of her nephew, then the king has no need of her," my uncle said brutally. "The Treaty of the More which has taken Wolsey so much trouble has opened the door for us. Peace with France is the end of the alliance with Spain, is the end of the queen. Whether she wills it or no, she is no more than any unwanted wife."

He let the silence hang in the room. It was outright treason that we were talking now and my uncle feared nothing. He looked me in the face and I felt the weight of his will like a thumb pressed on my forehead. "The end of the alliance with Spain is the end of the queen," he said. "The queen is going whether she likes it or not. And you are going into her place, whether you like it or not."

I searched my soul for courage and I rose to my feet and went behind my chair so that I could hold onto the thick carved wooden back.

"No," I said, and my voice came out steadily and strong. "No, Uncle, I am sorry but I can't do it." I looked down the long dark wood table and met his gaze, as sharp as a falcon with black eyes that missed nothing. "I love the queen. She's a great lady and I can't betray her. I cannot take her place. I cannot push her out and take the place of the Queen of England. It's to overthrow the order of things. I daren't do it. I can't do it."

He smiled at me, his wolfish smile. "We are making a new order," he said. "A new world. There is talk of the end of the authority of the Pope, the map of France and Spain is being redrawn. Everything is changing, and here we are, at the very front of the change."

"If I refuse?" I asked, my voice very thin.

He gave me his most cynical smile that left his eyes as cold as wet coals. "You don't," he said simply. "The world's not changed that much yet. Men still rule."

Spring 1526 ANNE WAS FINALLY ALLOWED BACK TO COURT AND TOOK OVER my duties as lady in waiting to the queen as I grew weary. It was a hard pregnancy this time, the midwives swore that it was because I was carrying a big strong boy and he was sapping my strength. I certainly felt the weight of him when I walked around Greenwich, always longing for my bed. my duties as lady in waiting to the queen as I grew weary. It was a hard pregnancy this time, the midwives swore that it was because I was carrying a big strong boy and he was sapping my strength. I certainly felt the weight of him when I walked around Greenwich, always longing for my bed.

When I lay in bed the weight of the baby pressed on my back so that my feet and toes would seize with cramps and I would suddenly cry out in the night, and Anne would groggily wake and burrow down to the end of the bed to ma.s.sage my clenched toes.

"For G.o.d's sake go to sleep," she said angrily. "Why do you toss and turn the whole time?"

"Because I cannot get comfortable," I snapped back. "And if you cared more for me and less for yourself you would get me an extra pillow for my back and a drink, instead of lying there like a fat bolster."

She giggled at that and sat up in the darkness and turned to see me. The embers of the fire lit the bedroom.

"Are you really ill, or just making a fuss over nothing?"

"Really ill," I said. "Truly, Anne, I ache in every bone in my body."

She sighed and got out of bed and took the candle to the glowing fire and lit it. She held it close to my face so that she could see me.

"You're as white as a boggart," she said cheerfully. "You look old enough to be my mother."

"I am in pain," I said steadily.

"D'you want some hot ale?"

"Yes please."

"And another pillow?"

"Yes please."

"And a p.i.s.s as usual?"

"Yes please. Anne, if you had ever carried a child you would know what this feels like. I swear to you it's no small matter."

"I can see that it is not," she said. "I only have to look at you to know that you feel like a woman of ninety years old. G.o.d knows how we will keep the king if this goes on."

"I don't have to do anything," I said irritably. "All he ever looks at these days is my belly."

Anne thrust the poker in the fire and set the ale at the hearthside with a couple of mugs. "Does he play with you?" she asked interestedly. "When you go to his room after dinner?"

"Not once in the past month," I said. "The midwife said that I should not."

"Sound advice to the mistress of a king," Anne muttered irritably, bending over the fire. "I wonder who paid her to tell you that? You're such a fool to listen." She drew the hot poker from the embers and thrust it into the jar of ale where it hissed and seethed. "What did you tell the king?"

"The baby matters more than anything."

Anne shook her head and poured the ale. "We matter more than anything else," she reminded me. "And no woman has ever kept a man by giving him children. You have to do both, Mary. You can't stop pleasing him just because he's got a child on you."

"I can't do everything," I said plaintively. She pa.s.sed my cup and I took a sip. "Anne, all I really want to do is to rest and let this baby grow strong inside me. I have been at one court or another since I was four years old. I am tired of dancing, I am tired of feasting, I am tired of watching jousting and dancing in the masque and being amazed to see that the man who looks exactly like the king in disguise is indeed the king in disguise. If I could, I would go back to Hever tomorrow."

Anne piled back into bed beside me, mug in hand. "Well you can't," she said flatly. "You've got everything to play for now. If the queen is set aside, then there's no knowing how far you might rise. You've come this far. You have to go on."

I paused for a moment, looking at her over the top of my mug. "Hear me," I said softly. "My heart's not in it."

She met my gaze. "That's as may be," she said frankly. "But you're not free to choose."

It was a cold winter, and that made it worse for me. Cooped up indoors with nothing to think of but each new strange pain every day, I started to fear the birth. I had carried my first baby in such happy ignorance; but now I knew that before me was the month of darkness and enclosure, and after that the interminable pain with the midwives threatening to pull the baby out of me, while I clung to the sheets tied to the bedposts and screamed with terror and pain.

"Smile," Anne would snap at me when the king came to my rooms, and the ladies around me would flutter and take up a lute or a tabor. And I would try to smile but the ache in my back and the constant need to use the p.i.s.s pot made my smile fade and I drooped on my stool.

"Smile," Anne would say under her breath. "And sit up straight, you lazy s.l.u.t."

Henry looked across at the two of us. "Lady Carey, you look weary," he said.

Anne gleamed at him. "She is carrying a heavy burden," she said with a smile. "And who should know it better than Your Majesty?"

He looked a little surprised. "Maybe," he said. "You are forward, madam."

Anne did not blink. "I should think any woman would move forward to Your Majesty," she said with a little sparkle. "Unless she had good cause to make haste away."

He was intrigued. "And would you haste away, Mistress Anne?"

"Never too fast," she said quickly.

He laughed out loud at that and the ladies, Jane Parker among them, looked over to see what I had said to amuse him. He patted my knee. "I am glad we brought your sister back to court," he said. "She will keep us merry."

"Very merry," I said as sweetly as I could.

I said nothing to Anne until we were on our own and she was undressing me at bedtime. She unlaced the tight ties on my bodice and I sighed with relief as my swollen belly was released. I scratched at the skin and saw the red weals left by my nails, and I straightened my back trying to ease the ache that I had with me always.

"And what d'you think you're doing with the king?" I asked acidly. "Hasting away, are you?"

"Open your eyes," she said tersely. She helped me out of my skirt and into my nightgown. My new maid poured water into an ewer and under Anne's critical scrutiny I washed myself as thoroughly as I could be bothered in the cool water.

"And your feet," Anne ordered.

"I can't even see my feet, much less wash them."

Anne gestured for the bowl to be lifted down to the floor so that I could sit on the stool while the maid washed my feet.

"I'm doing as I'm told," Anne said coldly. "I thought you would see it at once."

I closed my eyes, enjoying the sensation of having my dirty feet soaped. Then I heard the warning note in her voice. "Told by whom?"

"By our uncle. By our father."

"To do what?"

"To keep the king's mind on you, to keep him engaged with you. To keep you before him."

I nodded. "Well, of course."

"And failing that, to flirt with him myself."

I sat up straighter and paid a little more attention. "Uncle told you to flirt with the king?"

Anne nodded.

"When did he tell you this? Where?"

"He came down to Hever."

"He went all the way to Hever in midwinter to tell you to flirt with the king?"

She nodded, unsmiling.