The Bridge Trilogy Part 29

Me, you know, I never even got it. Off him, I mean. That piece of him in everybody now. Couldn't see the point at my age and anyway I never held with medicine. Happened I never got the other kind either, not that I didn't have plenty of chances. You're too young to remember how it felt, though. Oh, I know, I know you all think you live in all the times at once, everything recorded for you, it's all there to play back. Digital. That's all that is, though: playback. You still don't remember what it felt like, watching them pile up like that. Not here so much, bad as it was, but Thailand, Africa, Brazil. Jesus, Scooter. That thing was just romping on us. But slow, slow, slowmotion thing. Those retroviruses are. One man told me once, and he had the old kind, and died of it, how we'd lived in this funny little pocket of time when a lot of people got to feel like a piece of a.s.s wasn't going to kill anybody, flot even a woman. See, they always had to worry anyway, every time it's a chance, get knocked up 238.

and maybe die in childbirth, die getting rid of it, or anyway your life's not gonna be the same.

But in that pocket, there, there were pills for that, whatnot, shots for the other things, even the ones had killed people all over h.e.l.l, before. That was a time, Scooter. So here this thing comes along, changes it back. And we're sliding up on woo, s.h.i.+t's changing all over, got civil wars in Europe already and this AIDS thing just kicking along. You know they tried to say it was the gays, said it was the CIA, said it was the U.S. Army in some fort in Maryland. Said it was people cornholing green monkeys. I swear to G.o.d. You know what it was? People. Just too G.o.dd.a.m.n many of 'em, Scooter. Flying all the f.u.c.k over everywhere and walking around back in there. Bet your a.s.s somebody's gonna pick up a bug or two. Every place on the d.a.m.n planet just a couple of hours from any other place. So here's poor f.u.c.king Shapely comes along, he's got this mutant strain won't kill you. Won't do s.h.i.+t to you at all, 'cept it eats the old kind for breakfast. And I don't buy any of that bulls.h.i.+t he was Jesus, Scooter. Didn't think Jesus was, either.

'Any coffee left?'

'I will pump stove.'

'Put a little drop of Three-in-One in that hole by the piston-arm, Scooter. Leather gasket in there. Keeps it soft.'

She didn't see that first bullet, but it must have hit a wire or something, coming through, because the lights came on. She did see the second one, or anyway the hole it blew in the leather- grain plastic. Something inside her stopped, learning this about bullets: that one second there isn't any hole, the next second there is. Nothing in between. You see it happen, but you can't watch it happening.

Then she got down on her hands and her knees and started crawling. Because she couldn't just stand there and wait for the next one. When she got up by the door, she could see her black pants crumpled up on the floor there, beside a set of keys on a gray, leather-grain plastic tab. There was this smell from when he'd shot the gun into the floor. Maybe from the carpet burning, too, because she could see that the edges of the holes were scorched and sort of melted.

Now she could hear him yelling, somewhere outside, hoa.r.s.e and hollow and chased by echoes. Held her breath. Yelling how they (who?) did the best PR in the world, how they'd sold Hunnis Millbank, now they'd sell Sunflower. If she heard it right.

'Down by the door, here. Driver side.'

It was Rydell, the door on that side standing open.

'He left the keys in here,' she said.

'Think he's gone down there where the Dream Walls franchise used to be.'

'What if he comes back?'

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31 Driver side 'Probably come back anyway, we stick around here. You crawl up there and toss me those?'

She edged through the door and between the buckets. Saw Rydell's head there, by the open door.

Grabbed the keys and threw them sideways, without looking. s.n.a.t.c.hed her pants and scooted backward, wondering could she maybe fit in the fridge, if she folded her legs up?

'Why don't you lie down flat on the floor back there ...' His voice from the driver's seat.

'Lie down?'

'Minimum silhouette.'

'Huh?'

'He's going to start shooting. When I do this-' Ignition-sound. Gla.s.s flying from fresh holes in the winds.h.i.+eld and she threw herself flat. The RV lurched backward, turning tight, and she could hear him slapping the console, trying to find some function he needed, as more bullets came, each one distinct, a blow, like someone was swinging an invisible hammer, taking care to keep the rhythm.

Rydell must've gotten it lined up how he needed it, then, because he did that thing boys did, up in Oregon, with their brakes and the transmission.

She realized then that she was screaming. Not words or anything, just screaming.

Then they were in a turn that almost took them over, and she thought how these RV's probably weren't meant to move very fast. Now they were moving even faster, it felt like, uphill.

'Well f.u.c.k,' she heard Rydell say, in this weirdly ordinary kind of voice, and then they hit the door, or the gate, or whatever, and it was like the time she tried to pull this radical bongo over in Lafayette Park and they'd had to keep explaining to her how'd she'd come down on her head, and each time they did, she'd forget.

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She was back in Skinner's room, reading National Geographic, about how Canada split itself into five countries. Drinking cold milk out of the carton and eating saltines. Skinner in bed with the tv, watching one of those shows he liked about history. He was talking about how all his life these movies of history had been getting better and better looking. How they'd started out jumpy and black and white, with the soldiers running around like they had ants in their pants, and this terrible grain to them, and the sky all full of scratches. How gradually they'd slowed down to how people really moved, and then they'd been colorized, the grain getting finer and finer, and even the scratches went away. And it was bulls.h.i.+t, he said, because every other bit of it was an approximation, somebody's idea of how it might have looked, the result of a particular decision, a particular b.u.t.ton being pushed. But it was still a hit, he said, like the first time you heard Billie Holiday without all that crackle and tin.

Billie Holiday was probably a guy like Elvis, Chevette thought, with spangles on his suit, but like when he was younger and not all fat.

Skinner had this thing he got on about history. How it was turning into plastic. But she liked to show him she was listening when he told her something, because otherwise he could go for days without saying anything. So she looked up now, from her magazine and the picture of girls waving blue and white flags in the Republic of Quebec, and it was her mother sitting there, on the edge of Skinner's bed, looking beautiful and sad and kind of tired, the way she could look after she got off work and still had all her make-up on.

'He's right,' Chevette's mother said.

'I~'Iom?'

'About history, how they change it.'

'Mom, you-'

'Everybody does that anyway, honey. Isn't any new thing. Just the movies have caught up with memory, is all.'

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Chevette started to cry.

'Chevette-Marie,' her mother said, in that singsong out of so far back, 'you've gone and hurt your head.'

'How well you say you know this guy?' she asked.

Rydell's SWAT shoe crunched on little squares of safety-gla.s.s every time he used the brake. If he'd had time and a broom, he'd have swept it all out. As it was, he'd had to bash out what was left of the winds.h.i.+eld with a piece of rusty rebar he found beside the road, otherwise Highway Patrol would've seen the holes and hauled them over. Anyway, he had those insoles. 'I worked with him in L.A.,' he said, braking to steer around shreds of truck-trailer tires that lay on the two- lane blacktop like the moulted skin of monsters.

'I was just wondering if he'll turn out like Mrs. Elliott did. Said you knew her too.'

'Didn't know her,' Rydell said, 'I met her, on the plane. If Sublett's some kind of plant, then the whole world's a plot.' He shrugged. 'Then I could start worrying about you, say.' As opposed, say, to worrying about whether or not Loveless or Mrs. Elliot had bothered to plant a locator-bug in this motorhome, or whether the Death Star was watching for them, right now, and could it pick them up, out here? They said the Death Star could read the headlines on a newspaper, or what brand and size of shoes you wore, from a decent footprint.

Then this wooden cross seemed to pop up, in the headlights, about twelve feet high, with TUNE IN across the horizontal and TO HIS IMMORTAL DOWNLINI( coming down the upright, and this dusty old portable tv nailed up where Jesus's head 244.

32 Fallonville ought to have been. Somebody'd taken a .zz to the screen, it looked like.

'Must be getting closer,' Rydell said.

Chevette Was.h.i.+ngton sort of grunted. Then she drank some of the water they'd gotten at the Sh.e.l.l station, and offered the bottle to him.

When he'd crashed out of that mall, he'd felt like they were sure to be right by a major highway.

From the outside, the mall was just this low tumble of tan brick, windows bDarded up with sheets of that really ugly hot-pressed recyc they ran off from chopped sc.r.a.p, the color of day-old vomit.

He'd gone screeching around this big empty parking lot, just a few dead clunkers and old mattresses to get in the way, until he'd found a way out through the chain link.

But there wasn't any highway there, just some deserted four-lane feeder, and it looked like Loveless had put a bullet into the navigation hardware, because the map was locked on downtown Santa Ana and just sat there, sort of flickering. Where he was had the feel of one of those fallen- in edge-cities, the kind of place that went down when the Euro-money imploded.

Chevette Was.h.i.+ngton was curled up by the fridge with her eyes closed, and she wouldn't answer him.

He was scared Loveless had put one through her, too, but he knew he couldn't afford to stop until he'd put at least a little distance between them and the mall. And he couldn't see any bbod on her or anything.

Finally he'd come to this Sh.e.l.l station. You could tell it had been Sh.e.l.l because of the shape of the metal things up on the poles that had supported the signs. The men's room door was ripped off the hinges; the women's chained and padlocked. ~omehody had taken an automatic weapon to the pop machine, it looked like. He swung the RV around to the back and saw this real old Airstream trailer there, the same kind a 245.

neighbor of his father's had lived in down in Tampa. There was a man there kneeling beside a

hibachi, doing something with a pot, and these two black Labradors watching him.

Rydell parked, checked to see Chevette Was.h.i.+ngton was breathing, and got down out of the cab. He walked over to the man beside the hibachi, who'd gotten up now and was wiping the palms of his hands on the thighs of his red coveralls. He had on an old khaki fis.h.i.+ng cap with about a nine- inch bill sticking straight out. The threads on the embroidered Sh.e.l.l patch on his coveralls had

sort of frayed and fuzzed-out.

'You just lost,' the man said, 'or is there some kind of problem?' Rydell figured him to be at least seventy.

'No sir, no problem, but I'm definitely lost.' Rydell looked at the black Labs. They looked right back. 'Those dogs of yours there, they don't look too happy to see me.'

'Don't see a lot of strangers,' the man said.

'No sir,' Rydell said, 'I don't imagine they do.'

'Got a couple of cats, too. Right now I'm feeding 'em all on dry kibble. The cats get a bird sometimes, maybe mice. Say you're lost?'

'Yes sir, I am. I couldn't even tell you what state we're in, right now.'

The man spat on the ground. 'Welcome to the G.o.dd.a.m.n club, son. I was your age, it was all of this California, just like G.o.d meant it to be. Now it's Southern, so they tell me, but you know what it really is?'

'No sir. What?'

'A lot of that same happy horses.h.i.+t. Like that woman camping in the G.o.dd.a.m.n White House.' He took the fis.h.i.+ng cap off, exposing a couple of silver-white cancer-scars, wiped his brow with a grease- stained handkerchief, then pulled the cap hack on. 'Say you're lost, are you?'

'Yes sir. My map's broken.'

'Know how to read a paper one?'

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'Yes sir, I do.'

'What the h.e.l.l'd she do to her head?' Looking past Rydell.

Rydell turned and saw Chevette Was.h.i.+ngton leaning over the driver's bucket, looking out at them.

'How she cuts her hair,' Rydell said.

'I'll be d.a.m.ned,' the man said. 'Might be sort of good-looking, otherwise.'

'Yes sir,' Rydell said.

'See that box of Cream o' Wheat there? Think you can stir me up a cup of that into this water when it boils?'

'Yes sir.'

'Well, I'll go find you a map to look at. Skeeter and Whitey here, they'll just keep you company.'

'Yes sir . .

PARADISE, SO. CALIFORNIA.

A CHRISTIAN COMMUNITY.

THREE MILES.

NO CAMPING.

CONCRETE PADS.