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Slipping between reality and dreams, I have lost all reason. Can I even dream? Is this all a dream or are these dreams not dreams but reality? I don't know. I don't want to know. I feel tired. Not physically but mentally. Like I can't stay awake but I can't sleep. I wish the pain would return, but i've forgotten the concept of pain itself. Why are my dreams so vivid but abstract? It almost as if I could touch it if I had a body. At times it pulses, at times it grows. It's spreading but also dying. I can feel it's sorrow. We're trapped together. How I wish to be able to communicate with it. Would it be able to reply? I've at least been able to realise that I am able to view everything at the same time due to it. I have no blind spots. This seems to confirm my suspicions of not being human. I am either just a soul or maybe a floating sphere. I hope I'm something cool like the beholder.
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As time pa.s.ses I've come to realize that time might not be consistant. At times everything just freezes but at others I can't even process what is going on. It's almost like traveling at lightspeed in a s.p.a.ces.h.i.+p. The worst part is that I can't ignore it. It is impossible to look away. At least I don't have eyes because I did I'm sure there would've started burning. Now that think of it, eyes would be quite nice. Everything would disappear. They would be able to burn forever and compared to this it would end instantly. If I had eyes I would have a body. If I had a body I could kill myself. If I could kill myself, I would be free. I might even be reincarnated like those isekai characters and start a cool new life with awesome powers. I hope I don't end up like Subaru, but it wouldn't be that bad as I'm unaffected by pain.
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As my thoughts slow, I know I will soon DREAM once again. I wonder how many cycles are left till I disappear? Going round and round till everything changes. Please stop hurting me. I promise I won't try to get revenge by hunting you to till the ends of the earth across time and s.p.a.ce. I haven't even had any thoughts of how I would try to keep you alive just to torture you longer or how I would make you eat yourself. See how genuine I am? Can you pretty please let me go?
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run he's back, save yourself
