I Didn't Even Want To Live, But God Forced Me To Reincarnate! Chapter 96: Parents' Late Night Discussion

Let's rewind back time a bit, on that certain night, after the discovery of Lyra's apt.i.tude in swordsmans.h.i.+p and before Cyan started to give Lyra his "blessing" for the entrance exams!

Lyra's parents both had something to discuss—and obviously, they locked their room's door before discussing it.

"After we confirmed that Lyra indeed had a memory of her past life, a vivid one at that, I thought that we found another clue."

Ca.s.s said that as she browsed through things on her Provice.

"True, do you think we should confront her, Ca.s.s?"

Cyan tried to take a look at what Ca.s.s was browsing.

"Wait no, this article written by a psychologist advised parents against asking too many questions that might upset the children or made them lie instead. We should carefully note her statements if we caught any."

"This is making me nervous… Is Lyra really…?"

Before Cyan managed to complete his sentence, Ca.s.sie pushed her index finger to his lips.

"Ssssh, she never talks about it to us. This article here recorded that some of the children talked about their spontaneous past memory recollection with their parents. I wonder what set Lyra different…"

"Ca.s.s, I think we should really—"

Cyan was given no chance to continue his sentence.

"Ah, this article stated that most children who had past memories would stop talking about it and would have their memories fading away by the time they entered school. It was rare for those memories to persist. But that is the case with those children, and I think our Lyra is kinda different."

Ca.s.sie continued to talk about her findings from the articles she read, as Cyan would take a glance at it, as well.

"Ca.s.s, I think she was related in one way or another to the household of G—"

"It is said that their personality and trauma could be affected by their past memories, but anyway, those parents shared that they tried to be supportive to those children and told them to differentiate fantasy or their past self from the current life, encouraging them to live as their present ident.i.ty. In most cases, those children would forget they ever talked about their past memories and others once they grew up."

"Well, I think we can narrow down the area where she—"

"Ssshhh, wait, I'm reading!"

Ca.s.sie paid no attention to Cyan and continued to read aloud the article on her Provice. Cyan was speechless as Ca.s.sie managed to cut him down several times in succession.

He decided to keep silent for awhile before noticing that Ca.s.sie stopped reading and closed her eyes to rest them up a bit, so he opened his mouth, this time.

"But those children's behaviors and signs are quite different than Lyra, don't you think? Maybe their reincarnation types are different. The Greatest Magician's case also deviated from the one you're reading—"

"Then, what do you think we should do, anyway?"

Ca.s.sie closed the Provice she was intently staring at and rolled herself on the bed. Also, she didn't let Cyan finish his words before speaking over him, for how many times already this night?

"Want to investigate on the ident.i.ty of her past self?" Cyan asked.

"Aren't you afraid to find that out, though? Aren't you afraid of finding out that she was someone else before?" Ca.s.sie rolled her eyes.

"That's… true, but in any case… Reincarnation existed as the cycle of life and death. It just happens that some still have their past memories intact, but their ident.i.ties are… are not their past incarnations. I think we can better understand Lyra by knowing her past ident.i.ty, no? And while she may not even understand it herself, we can gain a better understanding of any of her past trauma and help her solve it."

"As long as you don't whine on how Lyra might not be your past self's daughter even when you don't have any slightest clue on who you were in your past life, if your soul was indeed reincarnated," Ca.s.sie threw a pillow on Cyan.

"I know, I know, I have prepared myself for the last two years, you know?!" Cyan skillfully caught the pillow.

"If we can help Lyra to be happier now, then it's fine. No matter who she was in her past incarnation, she is now our Lyra. Reincarnation is not something odd. I don't know who I was in my past life, but I know that I am now Cyan. Who cares even if the dreams I had were my past self's memories? And I don't care who you were, but you are now Ca.s.sie, my wife," Cyan threw the pillow back on the bed and hugged Ca.s.sie.

"True. It's not like our daughter was possessed by something else. Her development was constant and there was no sudden change. We can safely cross out that possibility," Ca.s.sie thoughtlessly blurted that out and Cyan's body stiffened.

"Wh-what did you read?"

Cyan was surprised by Ca.s.sie's sudden remark.

"Nothing, just contemplating on that one different search result when I asked about what to explain about a child who seemed to have another memory."

"L... Lyra might be possessed?"

"No, I have crossed out that possibility from my head when I read the signs long ago. I just suddenly thought of it."

Ca.s.s regretted blurting that out. She forgot that Cyan was more paranoid than her when it was about his family.

"Listen, what you said was right. Reincarnation is a natural process and Lyra is Lyra no matter who she might be in the past. Finding more about her past might help us to better understand her. If she is willing to explain everything, then good. I reckon she never talks about it with us because she wants to live as Lyra without having anything to do with her past life. So, everything will be fine, okay?"

Ca.s.sie tightened her hug to Cyan as if to emphasize it to him.

"So, I think we can narrow our findings with these criteria and find out about the possibly related people and see...," Cyan slightly calmed down and continued.

"Yeah, let's find out, but we will respect her decision of not wanting to divulge any relation to her past self but we should be able to help her overcome any of her past memory that might make her suffer if we have knowledge about her past life."

Ca.s.sie repeated their conclusion on the matter and decided to end the conversation.

With that, Cyan and Ca.s.sie are one step closer to find out Lyra's past self.

But Ca.s.sie never imagined that she would regret her slip of tongue right in the morning after their sleep.