Darkly Dreaming Dexter Part 8

I shook my head. Just a joke, Detective.

Because I don't know how to tell the difference. I should get somebody there who knows about hockey, she said, her eyes finally drifting away from me and across the crowd, searching for somebody carrying a puck. I'm glad you can make a joke about it, she added. What's a- she frowned, trying to remember, -a sam-bolie?

A what?

She shrugged. Some kind of machine. They use it on the ice?

A Zamboni?

Whatever. The guy who drives it, he takes it out on the ice to get ready for practice this morning. A couple of the players, they like to get there early? And they like the ice fresh, so this guy, the- she hesitated slightly -the sambolie driver? He comes in early on practice days. And so he drives this thing out onto the ice? And he sees these packages stacked up. Down there in the goalie's net? So he gets down and he takes a look. She shrugged again. Doakes is over there now. He says they can't get the guy to calm down enough to say any more than that.

I know a little about hockey, I said.

She looked at me again with somewhat heavy eyes. So much I don't know about you, Dexter. You play hockey?

No, I never played, I said modestly. I went to a few games. She didn't say anything and I had to bite my lip to keep from blathering on. In truth, Rita had season tickets for the Florida Panthers, and I had found to my very great surprise that I liked hockey. It was not merely the frantic, cheerfully homicidal mayhem I enjoyed. There was something about sitting in the huge, cool hall that I found relaxing, and I would happily have gone there even to watch golf. In truth, I would have said anything to make LaGuerta take me to the rink. I wanted to go to the arena very badly. I wanted to see this body stacked in the net on the ice more than anything else I could think of, wanted to undo the neat wrapping and see the clean dry flesh. I wanted to see it so much that I felt like a cartoon of a dog on point, wanted to be there with it so much that I felt self-righteous and possessive about the body.

All right, LaGuerta finally said, when I was about to vibrate out of my skin. And she showed a small, strange smile that was part official and part-what? Something else altogether, something human, unfortunately, putting it beyond my understanding. Give us a chance to talk.

I'd like that very much, I said, absolutely oozing charm. LaGuerta didn't respond. Maybe she didn't hear me, not that it mattered. She was totally beyond any sense of sarcasm where her self-image was concerned. It was possible to hit her with the most horrible flattery in the world and she would accept it as her due. I didn't really enjoy flattering her. There's no fun where there's no challenge. But I didn't know what else to say. What did she imagine we would talk about? She had already grilled me mercilessly when she first arrived on the scene.

We had stood beside my poor dented car and watched the sun come up. She had looked out across the causeway and asked me seven times if I had seen the driver of the truck, each time with a slightly different inflection, frowning in between questions. She'd asked me five times if I was sure it had been a refrigerated truck-I'm sure that was subtlety on her part. She wanted to ask about that one a lot more, but held back to avoid being obvious. She even forgot herself once and asked in Spanish. I told her I wa.s.seguro , and she had looked at me and touched my arm, but she did not ask again.

And three times she had looked up the incline of the bridge, shaken her head, and spat Puta! under her breath. Clearly, that was a reference to Officer Puta, my dear sister Deborah. In the face of an actual refrigerator truck as predicted by Deborah, a certain amount of spin control was going to be necessary, and I could tell by the way LaGuerta nibbled at her lower lip that she was hard at work on the problem. I was quite sure she would come up with something uncomfortable for Deb-it was what she did best-but for the time being I was hoping for a modest rise in my sister's stock. Not with LaGuerta, of course, but one could hope that others might notice that her brilliant bit of attempted detective work had panned out.

Oddly enough, LaGuerta did not ask me what I had been doing driving around at that hour. Of course, I'm not a detective, but it did seem like a rather obvious question. Perhaps it would be unkind to say that the oversight was typical of her, but there it is. She just didn't ask.

And yet there was more for us to talk about, apparently. So I followed her to her car, a big two-year-old light blue Chevrolet that she drove on duty. After hours she had a little BMW that n.o.body was supposed to know about.

Get in, she said. And I climbed into the neat blue front seat.

LaGuerta drove fast, in and out of traffic, and in a very few minutes we were over the causeway to the Miami side again, across Biscayne and a half mile or so to I-95. She drove onto the freeway and wove north through traffic at speeds that seemed a little much even for Miami. But we got to 595 and turned west. She looked at me sideways, out of the corner of her eye, three times before she finally spoke. That's a nice s.h.i.+rt, she said.

I glanced down at my nice s.h.i.+rt. I had thrown it on to chase out of my apartment and saw it now for the first time, a polyester bowling s.h.i.+rt with bright red dragons on it. I had worn it all day at work and it was a trifle ripe, but yes, more or less clean looking. Somewhat nice, of course, but still- Was LaGuerta making small talk so I would relax enough to make some damaging admission? Did she suspect that I knew more than I was saying and think she could get me to drop my guard and say it?

You always wear such nice clothes, Dexter, she said. She looked over at me with a huge, goofy smile, unaware that she was about to ram her car into a tanker truck. She looked back in time and turned the wheel with one finger and we slid around the tanker and west on I-595.

I thought about the nice clothes that I always wore. Well of course I did. I took pride in being the best-dressed monster in Dade County. Yes, certainly, he chopped up that nice Mr. Duarte, but he was so well dressed! Proper clothing for all occasions-by the way, what did one wear to attend an early-morning decapitation? A day-old bowling s.h.i.+rt and slacks, naturally. I wasa la mode . But aside from this morning's hasty costume, I really was careful. It was one of Harry's lessons: stay neat, dress nicely, avoid attention.

But why should a politically minded homicide detective either notice or care? It was not as if- Or was it? A nasty little idea began to grow. Something in the strange smile that flicked across her face and then away gave me the answer. It was ridiculous, but what else could it be? LaGuerta was not looking for a way to put me off my guard and ask more penetrating questions about what I had seen. And she did not truly give a winged fart about my hockey expertise.

LaGuerta was being social.

Sheliked me.

Here I was still trying to recover from the horrible shock of my bizarre, lurching, s...o...b..ring attack on Rita-and now this? LaGuertaliked me? Had terrorists dumped something in the Miami water supply? Was I exuding some kind of strange pheromone? Had every woman in Miami suddenly realized how hopeless real men are, and I had become attractive by default? What, in all very seriousness, the h.e.l.l was going on?

Of course I could be wrong. I lunged at the thought like a barracuda at a s.h.i.+ny silver spoon. After all, what colossal egotism to think that a polished, sophisticated, career-track woman like LaGuerta might show any kind of interest in me. Wasn't it more likely that, that- That what? As unfortunate as it was, it did make a kind of sense. We were in the same line of work and therefore, conventional cop wisdom said, more likely to understand and forgive each other. Our relations.h.i.+p could survive her cop hours and stressful lifestyle. And although I take no credit for it, I am presentable enough; I clean up good, as we natives like to say. And I had put myself out to be charming to her for several years now. It had been purely political schmoozing, but she did not have to know that. I wasgood at being charming, one of my very few vanities. I had studied hard and practiced long, and when I applied myself no one could tell I was faking it. I was really very good at sprinkling seeds of charm. Perhaps it was natural that the seeds would eventually sprout.

But sprout into this? What now? Was she going to propose a quiet dinner some evening? Or a few hours of sweaty bliss at the Cacique Motel?

Happily, we arrived at the arena just before panic took me over completely. LaGuerta circled the building once, looking for the correct entrance. It wasn't too hard to find. A cl.u.s.ter of police cars stood scattered outside one row of double doors. She nosed her big car in among them. I jumped out of the car quickly, before she could put her hand on my knee. She got out and looked at me for a moment. Her mouth twitched.

I'll take a look, I said. I did not quite run into the arena. I was fleeing LaGuerta, yes-but I was also very anxious to get inside; to see what my playful friend had done, to be near his work, to inhale the wonder, to learn.

The inside echoed with the organized bedlam typical of any murder scene-and yet it seemed to me that there was a special electricity in the air, a slightly hushed feeling of excitement and tension that you wouldn't find at any ordinary murder, a sense that this one was different somehow, that new and wonderful things might happen because we were out here on the cutting edge. But maybe that was just me. A clot of people stood around the nearby net. Several of them wore Broward uniforms; they had their arms folded and watched as Captain Matthews argued about jurisdiction with a man in a tailored suit. As I got closer I saw Angel-no-relation in an unusual position, standing above a balding man who was on one knee poking at a stack of carefully wrapped packages.

I stopped at the railing to look through the gla.s.s. There it was, only ten feet away. It looked so perfect in the cold purity of the newly Zambonied hockey rink. Any jeweler will tell you that finding the right setting is vitally important, and this- It was stunning. Absolutely perfect. I felt just a little dizzy, uncertain of whether the railing would hold my weight, as if I might simply pa.s.s straight down through the hard wood like a mist.

Even from the railing I could tell. He had taken the time, he had done it right, in spite of what must have seemed like a very close call on the causeway only minutes before. Or had he known somehow that I meant him no harm?

And since I brought it up anyway, did I, in fact, mean him no harm? Did I truly mean to track him to his lair and come up on point all aquiver for advancing Deborah's career? Of course that was what I thought I was doing-but would I be strong enough to carry through with it if things kept getting so interesting? Here we were at the hockey rink where I had whiled away many pleasant and contemplative hours; wasn't this even more proof that this artist-excuse me, I mean killer of course-was moving on a track parallel to mine? Just look at the lovely work he had done here.

And the head-that was the key. Surely it was too important as a piece of what he was doing simply to leave it behind. Had he thrown it to frighten me, send me into paroxysms of terror, horror, and dread? Or had he known somehow that I felt the same way he did? Could he, too, feel the connection between us, and he just wanted to be playful? Was he teasing me? He had to have some important reason for leaving me such a trophy. I was experiencing powerful, dizzying sensations-how could he be feeling nothing?

LaGuerta came up beside me. You're in such a hurry, she said, a slight edge of complaint in her voice. Are you afraid she'll get away? She nodded at the stacked body parts.

I knew that somewhere inside me was a clever answer, something that would make her smile, charm her a little more, smooth over my awkward run from her clutches. But standing there at the rail, looking down at the body on the ice, in the goalie's net-in the presence of greatness, one might say-no wit came out. I did manage not to yell at her to shut up, but it was a very near thing.

I had to see, I said truthfully, and then recovered enough to add, It's the home team's net.

She slapped my arm playfully. You're awful, she said. Luckily Sergeant Doakes came over to us and the detective didn't have time for a kittenish giggle, which would have been more than I could take. As always, Doakes seemed more interested in finding a way to get a good grip on my ribs and pull me open than anything else, and he gave me such a warm and penetrating look of welcome that I faded quickly away and left him to LaGuerta. He stared after me, watching me with an expression that said I had to be guilty of something and he would very much like to examine my entrails to find out what. I'm sure he would have been happier someplace where the police were permitted to break the occasional tibia or femur. I circled away from him, moving slowly around the rink to the nearest place where I could get in. I had just found it when something came at me on my blind side and hit me, rather hard, in the ribs.

I straightened up to face my a.s.sailant with a certain bruise and a strained smile. h.e.l.lo, dear sister, I said. So nice to see a friendly face.

b.a.s.t.a.r.d! she hissed at me.

Quite probably, I said. But why bring it up now?

Because, you miserable son of a b.i.t.c.h, you had a lead and you didn't call me!

A lead? I almost stuttered. What makes you think- Cut the c.r.a.p, Dexter, Deborah snarled. You weren't driving around at fourAM looking for hookers. You knew where he was, G.o.dd.a.m.n it.

Light dawned. I had been so wrapped up in my own problems, starting with the dream-and the fact that it had obviously been something more than that-and continuing on through my nightmarish encounter with LaGuerta, that it did not occur to me that I had wronged Deborah. I had not shared. Of course she would be angry. Not a lead, Deb, I said, trying to soothe her feelings a bit. Nothing solid like that. Just-a feeling. A thought, that's all. It was really nothing- She shoved again. Except that it wa.s.something , she snarled. You found him.

Actually, I'm not sure, I said. I think he found me.

Quit being clever, she said, and I spread my hands to show how impossible that would be. You promised, G.o.dd.a.m.n you.

I did not remember making any kind of promise that might cover calling her in the middle of the night and telling her my dreams, but this didn't seem like a very politic thing to say, so I didn't. I'm sorry, Deb, I said instead. I really didn't think it would pan out. It was just a ... a hunch, really. I was certainly not going to attempt any explanation of the parapsychology involved, even with Deb. Or perhaps especially not with her. But another thought hit me. I lowered my voice. Maybe you could help me a little. What am I supposed to tell them ifthey ever decide to ask what I was doing driving around down there at fourAM ?

Has LaGuerta interviewed you yet?

Exhaustively, I said, fighting down a shudder.

Deb made a disgusted face. And she didn't ask. It was not a question.

I'm sure the detective has a great deal on her mind, I said. I did not add that apparently some of it was me. But sooner or later, somebody will ask. I looked over to where she was Directing the Operation. Probably Sergeant Doakes, I said with real dread.

She nodded. He's a decent cop. If he could just lose some att.i.tude.

Att.i.tude may be all he is, I said. But he doesn't like me for some reason. He'll ask anything if he thinks it will make me squirm.

So tell him the truth, Deborah said deadpan. But first, tell it to me. And she poked me again in the same spot.

Please, Deb, I said. You know how easily I bruise.

I don't know, she said. But I feel like finding out.

It won't happen again, I promised. It was just one of those 3AM inspirations, Deborah. What would you have said if I had called you about it, and then it turned out to be nothing?

But it didn't. It turned out to be something, she said with another push.

I really didn't think it would. And I would have felt stupid dragging you in on it.

Imagine how I would have felt if he had killed you, she said.

It took me by surprise. I couldn't even begin to imagine how she would have felt. Regret? Disappointment? Anger? That sort of thing is way beyond me, I'm afraid. So I just repeated, I'm sorry, Deb. And then, because I am the kind of cheerful Pollyanna who always finds the bright side, I added, But at least the refrigerated truck was there.

She blinked at me. The truck was where? she said.

Oh, Deb, I said. They didn't tell you?

She hit me even harder in the same place. G.o.dd.a.m.n it, Dexter, she hissed. What about the truck?

It was there, Deb, I said, somewhat embarra.s.sed by her nakedly emotional reaction-and also, of course, by the fact that a good-looking woman was beating the c.r.a.p out of me. He was driving a refrigerated truck. When he threw the head.

She grabbed my arms and stared at me. The f.u.c.k you say, she finally said.

The f.u.c.k I do.

Jesus-! she said, staring off into s.p.a.ce and no doubt seeing her promotion floating there somewhere above my head. And she was probably going to go on but at that moment Angel-no-relation lifted his voice over the echoing din of the arena. Detective? he called, looking over at LaGuerta. It was a strange, unconscious sound, the half-strangled cry of a man who never makes loud noises in public, and something about it brought instant quiet to the room. The tone was part shock and part triumph-I found something important but oh-my-G.o.d. All eyes turned to Angel and he nodded down at the crouching bald man who was slowly, carefully, removing something from the top package.

The man finally pulled the thing out, fumbled, and dropped it, and it skittered across the ice. He reached for it and slipped, sliding after the brightly gleaming thing from the package until they both came to rest against the boards. Hand shaking, Angel grabbed for it, got it and held it up for all of us to see. The sudden quiet in the building was awe inspiring, breathtaking, beautiful, like the overwhelming crash of applause at the unveiling of any work of genius.

It was the rearview mirror from the truck.

CHAPTER 11

THE GREAT BLANKET OF STUNNED SILENCE LASTEDfor only a moment. Then the buzz of talk in the arena took on a new note as people strained to see, to explain, to speculate.

A mirror. What the h.e.l.l did it mean?

Good question. In spite of feeling so very moved by the thing, I didn't have any immediate theories about what it meant. Sometimes great art is like that. It affects you and you can't say why. Was it deep symbolism? A cryptic message? A wrenching plea for help and understanding? Impossible to say, and to me, not the most important thing at first. I just wanted to breathe it in. Let others worry about how it had gotten there. After all, maybe it had just fallen off and he had decided to throw it away in the nearest handy garbage bag.

Not possible, of course not. And now I couldn't help thinking about it. The mirror was there for some very important reason. These were not garbage bags to him. As he had now proved so elegantly with this hockey-rink setting, presentation was an important part of what he was doing. He would not be casual in any detail. And because of that, I began to think about what the mirror might mean. I had to believe that, as improvised as it might be, putting it in with the body parts was exceedingly deliberate. And I had the further feeling, burbling up from somewhere behind my lungs, that this was a very careful, very private message.

To me?

If not me, then whom? The rest of the act was speaking to the world at large: See what I am. See what we all are. See what I am doing about it. A truck's mirror wasn't part of the statement. Segmenting the body, draining the blood-this was necessary and elegant. But the mirror-and especially if it turned out to be from the truck that I had chased-that was different. Elegant, yes; but what did it say about the way things really are? Nothing. It was added on for some other purpose, and that purpose had to be a new and different kind of statement. I could feel the electricity of the thought surging through me. If it was from that truck, it could only be meant for me.

But what did it mean?

What the h.e.l.l is that about? Deb said beside me. A mirror. Why?

I don't know, I said, still feeling its power throb through me. But I will bet you dinner at Joe's Stone Crabs that it came from the refrigerator truck.

No bet, she said. But at least it settles one important question.

I looked at her, startled. Could she really have made some intuitive jump that I had missed? What question, sis?

She nodded at the cl.u.s.ter of management-level cops still squabbling at the edges of the rink. Jurisdiction. This one is ours. Come on.

On the surface, Detective LaGuerta was not impressed with this new piece of evidence. Perhaps she was hiding a deep and abiding concern for the symbolism of the mirror and all it implied under a carefully crafted facade of indifference. Either that or she really was dumb as a box of rocks. She was still standing with Doakes. To his credit, he looked troubled, but maybe his face had simply gotten tired from its perpetual mean glare and he was trying something new.

Morgan, LaGuerta said to Deb, I didn't recognize you with clothes on.

I guess it's possible to miss a lot of obvious things, Detective, Deb said before I could stop her.

It is, LaGuerta said. That's why some of us never make detective. It was a complete and effortless victory, and LaGuerta didn't even wait to see the shot go home. She turned away from Deb and spoke to Doakes. Find out who has keys to the arena. Who could get in here whenever they wanted.

Uh-huh, said Doakes. Check all the locks, see if somebody busted in?

No, LaGuerta told him with a pretty little frown. We got our ice connection now. She glanced at Deborah. That refrigerated truck is just to confuse us. Back to Doakes. The tissue damage had to come from the ice, from here. So the killer is connected to the ice in this place. She looked one last time at Deborah. Not the truck.

Uh-huh, said Doakes. He didn't sound convinced, but he wasn't in charge.

LaGuerta looked over at me. I think you can go home, Dexter, she said. I know where you live when I need you. At least she didn't wink.

Deborah walked me to the big double doors of the arena. If this keeps up, I'll be a crossing guard in a year, she grumbled at me.

Nonsense, Deb, I said. Two months, max.

Thanks.

Well really. You can't challenge heropenly like that. Didn't you see how Sergeant Doakes did it? Have some subtlety, for G.o.d's sake.

Subtlety. She stopped dead in her tracks and grabbed me. Listen, Dexter, she said. This isn't some kind of game here.

But it is, Deb. A political game. And you're not playing it properly.