The Inheritance Of Loss Part 29

Forty-four.

The incidents of horror grew, through the changing of the seasons, through winter and a flowery spring, summer, then rain and winter again. Roads were closed, there was curfew every night, and Kalimpong was trapped in its own madness. You couldn't leave the hillsides; n.o.body even left their houses if they could help it but stayed locked in and barricaded.

If you were a Nepali reluctant to join in, it was bad. The Metal-Box watchman had been beaten, forced to repeat "Jai Gorkha," and dragged to Mahakala Temple to swear an oath of loyalty to the cause. Gorkha," and dragged to Mahakala Temple to swear an oath of loyalty to the cause.

If you weren't Nepali it was worse.

If you were Bengali, people who had known you your whole life wouldn't acknowledge you in the street.

Even the Biharis, Tibetans, Lepchas, and Sikkimese didn't acknowledge you. They, the unimportant shoals of a minority population, the small powerless numbers that might be caught up in either net, wanted to put the Bengalis on the other side of the argument from themselves, delineate them as the enemy.

"All these years," said Lola, "I've been buying eggs at that Tshering's shop down the road, and the other day he looked at me right in the face and said he had none. 'I see a basket of them right there,' I said, 'how can you tell me you have none?' 'They have been presold,' he said.

"Pem Pem," Lola had exclaimed on her way out, seeing her friend Mrs. Thondup's daughter come in. Just a few months ago Lola and Noni had partaken of fine civilities in her home that had harkened to another kind of life in another place, quail eggs with bamboo shoots, fat Tibetan carpets under their toes.

"Pem Pem??"

Pem Pem gave Lola a beseeching embarra.s.sed look and rushed past.

"All of a sudden wrong side, no?" said Lola, "There is n.o.body who won't abandon you."

On the ledge below Mon Ami, among the row of illegal huts, the sisters had noticed a small temple flying a red and gold flag, ensuring that no matter what, into eternity, no official-police, government, n.o.body-would dare dispute the legitimacy of the landgrab. The G.o.ds themselves had blessed it now. Little shrines were springing up all over Kalimpong, adjoining constructions forbidden by the munic.i.p.ality-squatter genius. And the trespa.s.sers were tapping phone lines, water pipes, electric lines in jumbles of illegal connections. The trees that provided Lola and Noni with pears, so many that they had cursed it, "Stewed pears and cream, stewed pears and cream every d.a.m.n day!" had been stripped overnight. The broccoli patch was gone, the area near the gate was being used as a bathroom. Little children lined up in rows to spit at Lola and Noni as they walked by, and when Kesang, their maid, was bitten by one of the sqatter's dogs, she screamed away, "Look your dog has bitten me, now you must put oil and turmeric on the wound so I don't die from an infection."

But they just laughed.

The GNLF boys had burned down the government rest house by the river, beyond the bridge where Father Booty had photographed the polka-dotted b.u.t.terfly. In fact, forest inspection bungalows all over the district were burning, upon whose verandas generations of ICS men had stood and admired the serenity, the hovering, angelic peace of dawn and dusk in the mountains.

The circuit house was burned, and the house of the chief minister's niece. Detonators set off landslides as negotiations went nowhere. Kalim-pong was transformed into a ghost town, the wind tumbling around the melancholy streets, garbage flying by unhindered. Whatever point the GNLF might have had, it was severely out of hand; even one man's anger, in those days, seemed enough to set the hillside alight.

Women rushed by on the roads. The men trembled at home for fear of being picked up, being tortured on any kind of flimsy excuse, the GNLF accusing them of being police informers, the police accusing them of being militants. It was dangerous to drive even for those who might, for a car was just a trap; vehicles were being surrounded and stolen; they could be more nimble on their feet, hide in the jungle at the sound of trouble, wade through the jhoras jhoras and make their way home on footpaths. Anyway, after a while, there was no more fuel because the GNLF boys had siphoned off the last of it, and the pumps were closed. and make their way home on footpaths. Anyway, after a while, there was no more fuel because the GNLF boys had siphoned off the last of it, and the pumps were closed.

The cook tried to calm himself by repeating, "It will be all right, everything goes through a bad time, the world goes in a cycle, bad things happen, pa.s.s, and things are once again good..." But his voice had more pleading in it than conviction, more hope than wisdom.

After this-after the gun robbery and after the parade, after his seeing the frailty of his life here as a non-Nepali-he couldn't manage to compose himself properly; there was n.o.body, nothing-but a sinister presence loomed-he was sure something even worse stood around the corner. Where was Biju, where was he? He leaped at every shadow.

So, it was usually Sai who walked to the shuttered market searching for a shop with a half open back door signaling quick secret business, or a cardboard sign propped at the window of a hut of someone selling a handful of peanuts or a few eggs.

Excepting these meager purchases Sai made, the garden was feeding them almost entirely. For the first time, they in Cho Oyu were eating the real food of the hillside. Dalda saag Dalda saag, pink-flowered, flat-leafed; bhutiya dhaniya bhutiya dhaniya growing copiously around the cook's quarter; the new tendrils of squash or pumpkin vine; curled growing copiously around the cook's quarter; the new tendrils of squash or pumpkin vine; curled ningro ningro fiddleheads, fiddleheads, churbi churbi cheese and bamboo shoots sold by women who appeared from behind bushes on forest paths with the cheese wrapped in ferns and the yellow slices of bamboo shoots in buckets of water. After the rains, mushrooms pushed their way up, sweet as chicken and glorious as Kanchenjunga, so big, fanning out. People collected the oyster mushrooms in Father Booty's abandoned garden. For a while the smell of them cooking gave the town the surprising air of wealth and comfort. cheese and bamboo shoots sold by women who appeared from behind bushes on forest paths with the cheese wrapped in ferns and the yellow slices of bamboo shoots in buckets of water. After the rains, mushrooms pushed their way up, sweet as chicken and glorious as Kanchenjunga, so big, fanning out. People collected the oyster mushrooms in Father Booty's abandoned garden. For a while the smell of them cooking gave the town the surprising air of wealth and comfort.

One day, when Sai arrived home with a kilo of damp atta atta and some potatoes, she found two figures, familiar from a previous occasion, on the veranda, pleading with the cook and judge. and some potatoes, she found two figures, familiar from a previous occasion, on the veranda, pleading with the cook and judge.

"Please, sahib...." It was the same wife and father of the tortured man.

"Oh no," the cook had said in horror when he saw them, "Oh no, baap re baap re, what are you coming here for?" although he knew.

It was the impoverished who walked the line so thin it was questionable if it existed, an imaginary line between the insurgents and the law, between being robbed (who would listen to them if they went to the police?) and being hunted by the police as scapegoats for the crimes of others.

They were hungriest.

"Why are you coming here making trouble? We already told you we had nothing to do with the police picking up your husband. We were hardly the ones to accuse him or beat him.... Had they told us, we would have gone at once and said this is not the man... we were not informed.... What do we owe you?" said the cook. But he was giving them the atta atta Sai had brought back... when the judge barked, "Don't give them anything," and continued his chess game. Sai had brought back... when the judge barked, "Don't give them anything," and continued his chess game.

"Please, sahib," they begged with hands folded, heads bent. "Who comes to our help? Can we live on no food at all? We will be your servants forever... G.o.d will repay you... G.o.d will reward you...."

But the judge was adamant.

Again, herded out, they sat outside the gate.

"Tell them to go," he told the cook.

"Jao jao, " said the cook, although he was concerned that they might need to rest before having to walk another five to six hours through the forest to their village. said the cook, although he was concerned that they might need to rest before having to walk another five to six hours through the forest to their village.

Again they moved and sat farther up so as not to give offense. Again they saw Mutt. She was attached by her snout to her favorite whiffy spot, unaware of anything else. The woman suddenly brightened and said to the man, "Sell that kind of dog and you can get a lot of money...." Mutt didn't budge from the smell for a long, long time. If the judge hadn't been there, they could have reached out-and grabbed her.

Some days later, when they at Cho Oyu had again forgotten these two unimportant if upsetting people, they returned.

But they didn't come to the gate; they secreted themselves immediately in the jhora jhora ravine and waited for Mutt, that connoisseur of smells, to appear for her daily round of the property. Rediscovering scents and enhancing them was an ever evolving art form. She was involved with an old favorite, grown better with age, that brought forth certain depths and facets of her personality. She was wholly absorbed, didn't notice the intruders who crept up to her and pounced! ravine and waited for Mutt, that connoisseur of smells, to appear for her daily round of the property. Rediscovering scents and enhancing them was an ever evolving art form. She was involved with an old favorite, grown better with age, that brought forth certain depths and facets of her personality. She was wholly absorbed, didn't notice the intruders who crept up to her and pounced!

Startled, she yelped, but immediately they clamped her muzzle with hands strong from physical labor.

The judge was having his bucket bath, the cook was churning b.u.t.ter, Sai was in her bed whispering venomously, "Gyan, you b.a.s.t.a.r.d, you think I'm going to cry over you?" They didn't see or hear a thing.

The trespa.s.sers lifted Mutt up, bound her with rope, and put her in a sack. The man slung the sack over his shoulders, and they carried her through town without drawing any attention to themselves. They walked around the mountainside, then all the way down and across the Relli and over three ridges that billowed like blue-green ocean, to a small hamlet that was far from any paved road.

"You don't think they'll find us?" the father asked his daughter-in-law.

"They won't walk so far and they can't drive here. They don't know our names, they don't know our village, they asked us no questions."

She was right.

Even the police hadn't bothered to find out the name of the man they had beaten and blinded. They would hardly bother to look for a dog.

Mutt was healthy, they noticed, when they pinched her through the sack; fat and ready to make them a little money. "Or maybe we can use her to breed and then we can sell the puppies...." (They didn't know, of course, that she had been fixed long ago by a visiting vet when she was beginning to attract love from all kinds of scurrilous loafers on the hillside, wheedling strays, conniving gentleman dogs....) "Should we take her out of the sack?"

"Better leave her in for now. She'll just start barking...."

Forty-five.

Like a failing bus laboring through the sky, the Gulf Air plane seemed barely to be managing, though most of the pa.s.sengers felt immediately comfortable with this lack of oomph. Oh yes, they were going home, knees cramped, ceiling level at their heads, sweat-gluey, fate-resigned, but happy. laboring through the sky, the Gulf Air plane seemed barely to be managing, though most of the pa.s.sengers felt immediately comfortable with this lack of oomph. Oh yes, they were going home, knees cramped, ceiling level at their heads, sweat-gluey, fate-resigned, but happy.

The first stop was Heathrow and they crawled out at the far end that hadn't been renovated for the new days of globalization but lingered back in the old age of colonization.

All the third-world flights docked here, families waiting days for their connections, squatting on the floor in big bacterial clumps, and it was a long trek to where the European-North American travelers came and went, making those brisk no-nonsense flights with extra leg-room and private TV, whizzing over for a single meeting in such a manner that it was truly hard to imagine they were s.h.i.+tting-peeing, bleeding-weeping humans at all. Silk and cashmere, bleached teeth, Prozac, laptops, and a sandwich for their lunch named The Milano.

Frankfurt. The planeload spent the night in a similar quarantined zone, a thousand souls stretched out as if occupying a morgue, even their faces covered to block the buzzing tube lights.

Like a bus, New York-London-Frankfurt-Abu Dhabi-Dubai-Bahrain-Karachi-Delhi-Calcutta, the plane stopped again to allow men from the Gulf countries to clamber on. They came racing-Quick! Quick!... Quick!!-unzipping their carry-ons for the Scotch, drinking straight from the bottle's mouth. Crooked little ice crystals formed on the plane window. Inside, it was hot. Biju ate his tray of chicken curry, spinach and rice, strawberry ice cream, rinsed his mouth into the empty ice-cream cup, then tried to get another dinner. "As it is we are short," the stewardesses said, hara.s.sed by the men, drunk and hooting, pinching them as they pa.s.sed, calling them by name, "Sheila! Raveena! Kusum! Nandita!"

Added to the smell of sweat, there was now the thick odor of food and cigarettes, the recycled breathing of an entire plane, the growing fetor of the bathroom.

In the mirror of this bathroom, Biju saluted himself. Here he was, on his way home, without name or knowledge of the American president, without the name of the river on whose bank he had lingered, without even hearing about any of the tourist sights-no Statue of Liberty, Macy's, Little Italy, Brooklyn Bridge, Museum of Immigration; no bialy at Barney Greengra.s.s, soupy dumpling at Jimmy's Shanghai, no gospel churches of Harlem tour. He returned over the lonely ocean and he thought that this kind of perspective could only make you sad. Now, he promised himself, he would forget the insight, begin anew. He would buy a taxi. His savings were small, collected in his shoe, his sock, his underwear, through all these years, but he thought he could manage it. He'd drive up and down the mountainside on market days, gold tinsel, G.o.ds above the dashboard, a comical horn, PAW pum POM paw PAW pum POM paw or or TWEE-deee-deee DEE-TWEE-deee-deee. TWEE-deee-deee DEE-TWEE-deee-deee. And he'd build a house with solid walls, a roof that wouldn't fly off every monsoon season. Biju played the scene of meeting his father again and again like a movie in his head, wept a bit at the thought of so much happiness and emotion. They'd sit out in the evenings, drink And he'd build a house with solid walls, a roof that wouldn't fly off every monsoon season. Biju played the scene of meeting his father again and again like a movie in his head, wept a bit at the thought of so much happiness and emotion. They'd sit out in the evenings, drink chhang chhang, tell jokes of the kind he had overheard on the plane being exchanged by drunk men: So one day Santa Singh and Banta Singh are doing nothing, pa.s.sing the time, staring at the sky, and all of a sudden an airforce plane flies by, men parachute out of it, get into military jeeps waiting for them in the fields, and go home. 'Arre, sala 'Arre, sala, this is the life,' says Santa to Banta, 'what a way to make your money.' So off they go to the recruitment agency and a few months later, there they are in the plane. 'Wahe Guruji Ka Khaha, Wahe Guruji Ki Fateh,' says Santa and jumps. 'Wahe Guruji Ka Khalsa, Wahe Guruji Ki Fateh,' says Banta and jumps. says Banta and jumps.

"'Arre, Banta,' says Santa, a second later, 'this sala sala parachute is not opening.' parachute is not opening.'

"'Ai Santa," says Banta, "neither does mine. Typical government intezaam, intezaam, just you wait and see, when we get to the bottom, the just you wait and see, when we get to the bottom, the bhenchoot bhenchoot jeep won't be there.'" jeep won't be there.'"

Forty-six.

Sai looked out of her window and couldn't tell what all the noise was about. and couldn't tell what all the noise was about.

The judge was shouting: "Mutt, Mutt." It was her stew time and the cook had boiled soy Nutrinuggets with pumpkin and a Maggi soup cube. It worried the judge that she should have to eat like this, but she'd already had the last of the meat; the judge had barred himself and Sai from it, and the cook, of course, never had the luxury of eating meat in the first place. There was still some peanut b.u.t.ter, though, for Mutt's chapatis, and powdered milk.

But Mutt wouldn't answer.

"Mutty, Mutt, stew...." The judge walked around the garden, out of the gate, and walked up and down the road.

"Stew stew- "Mutty Mutt? MUTT?" His voice became anxious.

The afternoon turned into evening, the mist swept down, but Mutt didn't appear.

He remembered the boys in their guerilla outfits arriving for the guns. Mutt had barked, the boys had screamed like a bunch of schoolgirls, retreated down the steps to cower behind the bushes. But Mutt had been scared, too; she wasn't the brave dog they imagined.

"MUTT-MUTT MUTTY-MUTTMUTTYMUTTMUTT?!"

She hadn't arrived by the time darkness settled in.

He felt more keenly than ever that at nightfall in Kalimpong, there was a real ceding of power. You couldn't rise against such a powerful dark, so enormous, without a c.h.i.n.k. He went out with the biggest flashlight they had, shone it uselessly into the jungle; listened for jackals; waited on the veranda all night; watched the invisible mountainsides opposite as the falling lanterns of drunks plummeted like shooting stars. By the time dawn showed, he was frantic. He ventured to the small busti busti houses to ask if they had seen her; he asked the milkman and the baker, who was now at home with his battered tin trunk, which contained the houses to ask if they had seen her; he asked the milkman and the baker, who was now at home with his battered tin trunk, which contained the khari khari biscuits and milk rusks Mutt so enjoyed. biscuits and milk rusks Mutt so enjoyed.

"No, have not seen the kutti." kutti."

The judge was angry at hearing her referred to as a "Kutti" "Kutti" but restrained himself because he couldn't afford to shout at those whose help he might now need. but restrained himself because he couldn't afford to shout at those whose help he might now need.

He asked the plumber, the electrician. Uselessly, he gestured at the deaf tailors who had made Mutt a winter coat out of a blanket, with a buckle at the belly.

He received blank faces, some angry laughter. "Saala Machoot... what does he think? We're going to look for his dog?" People were insulted. "At a time like this. We can't even eat!"

He knocked on the doors of Mrs. Thondup, Lola and Noni, anyone who might be kind, if not on his behalf, then for Mutt, or for the sake of their profession, position, religion. (He missed the missionaries-they would have understood and would have been duty-bound to help.) Everyone he called on responded with immediate doom. Was this a hopeful time? They were already reconciled to Mutt's fate, and the judge wished to strangle them as they spoke.

Mrs. Thondup: "Was she expensive?"

The judge never thought of her that way, but yes, she had been expensive, delivered from a Calcutta kennel specializing in red setters. A certificate of pedigree had accompanied her: "Sire: Cecil. Dam: Ophelia."

"La ma ma ma ma, must have been stolen, Justice," Mrs. Thondup said. "Our dogs, Ping and Ting-we brought them all the way from Lhasa, and when we got here, Ping vanished. The robber kept him captive to breed pups, mated and mated him. Good source of income, no? Just go to thirteenth mile, you'll see watered down versions of Ping running about everywhere. Finally he broke away and escaped, but his whole personality had changed." She pointed out the victim, drooling out of his old man's mouth, glaring at the judge.

Uncle Potty: "Somebody must be out to rob you, Justice Sahib-getting rid of obstacles. That Gobbo, he poisoned my Kutta Sahib, years ago now."

"But we were just robbed."

"Someone else must have decided to do the same...."

Afghan princesses: "Our dog, Afghan hound, you know, we were traveling with our father and one day she went missing. She was eaten by the Nagas, yes, they eat dogs-they ate Frisky. Even our slaves-yes, we had slaves-we threatened them with their lives, but still they didn't manage to rescue her in time."

Lola: "The trouble with us Indians is that we have no love of animals. A dog, a cat is there just to kick. We can't resist-beat, stone, torment, we don't rest until the creature is dead and then we feel very content-good! Put it down! Destroyed it! All gone!-we feel satisfaction in this."

What had he done? He hadn't been fair to her. He had put Mutt in a place where she could never survive, a rough, mad place. Bhutia hill dogs-battle-scarred mastiffs, grins disfigured by violence, ears stiff from having been bloodied over and over-might have torn her to bits. Nightshade grew in every ravine, flowers crisp and white as the pope's robes, but hallucinogenic-she might have imbibed the poisonous sap. The cobras-husband-wife, wide as the biscuit jar, living in the bank behind Cho Oyu-might have bitten her. Rabid, hallucinating jackals, unable to drink, unable to swallow, might have come from the forest, thirsty, so thirsty.... Just two years ago, when they had brought a rabies epidemic into town, the judge had taken Mutt for a vaccine most people could not afford. He had saved her while stray dogs were rounded up and slaughtered by the truckful (mistaking the only ride of their lives for a new life of luxury smiling and wagging away) and whole families too penniless to pay for the three-thousand-rupee vaccine died; the hospital staff had been ordered to say they had no medicine for fear of riots. In between the madness of rabies came moments of lucidity, so the victims knew exactly what was happening to them, exactly what lunacy looked like, felt like....

He had thought his vigilance would protect his dog from all possible harm.

The price of such arrogance had been great.

He went to see the subdivisional officer who had visited Cho Oyu after the robbery, but trouble had upset the SDO's good nature. He was no longer the gardening enthusiast who had complimented the judge's pa.s.sionflower.

"My dear sir," he said to the judge, "I am fond of animals myself, but in these times... it's a luxury we can't afford-"

He had given up his special cherry tobacco, as well-it seemed an embarra.s.sment at a time like this. One always felt compelled to go back to Gandhian-style austerity when the integrity of the nation was being threatened, rice-dal, roti-namak, roti-namak, over and over. It was just horrible.... over and over. It was just horrible....

The judge persisted, "But can't you do anything..." and he became angry, threw up his hands.

"A dog! Justice, just listen to yourself. People are being killed. What can I do? Of course I have such high regard.... I have made time despite worry of being accused of favoritism... but we are in an emergency situation. In Calcutta, in Delhi, there is great concern about this severe deterioration of law and order, and in the end that's what we must think of, isn't it so? Our country. We must suffer inconvenience and I don't need to tell someone of your experience this...." The SDO fixed the judge with a certain gluey look that convinced him he meant to be rude.