The Search For Sam Part 2

Yeah, I say. I don't need to say any more: One knows what I'm thinking.

I'm about to see my family again for the first time in months. I expect to be greeted as a traitor. Maybe I'll be executed for treason: killed where I stand, or fed to a piken. Mogadorians have no particular history or protocol for handling treason; dissent is not a problem they have much, if any, experience with.

I know my only hope is to convince the General that I'm worth more to him alive than dead.

"You don't have to do this," she says, a guilty, worried expression on her face. "It's dangerous. When I talked about taking up the cause, I didn't mean this...."

This is what we have to do, I say. I sound way more certain than I feel. But I have no choice: I can't lose her.

"Once we land, we don't need to go to Ashwood. We can go anywhere, try to find the other Loric ..."

Screw the others, I say. Though my plan is vague, I know that my only hope of saving One, of keeping her by my side, lies somewhere in the laboratory beneath Ashwood Estates. I'm not doing this for them.

"I know," she says. "You're doing this to try and save me, to find some way to keep me alive. You think if you go back, you can maybe find some way into the labs. And maybe my body's still there, maybe you can reengage the mind transfer, restore me, buy me a few more years." She bites her lip, worried about the risk I'm taking. "Seems like a lot of maybes to risk your life over."

She's right. But I don't have a choice: without One, I'm nothing. Even a 1 percent chance of succeeding is worth pursuing.

In the cab on the way to Ashwood Estates, my fear is like a fist in my stomach, pus.h.i.+ng upwards. We're getting close, maybe ten minutes away.

Nine minutes. Eight minutes.

I feel bile churning. I ask the driver to pull over to the side of the road and I rush out to the tall gra.s.s at the edge of the highway and throw up what little I've eaten since leaving Kenya.

I take a moment. To breathe, to look out over the gra.s.s to the open fields beyond. I know this is it: my last chance to run.

Then I wipe my mouth and return to the cab, grateful that One isn't around to see me like this.

"You okay, kid?" the driver asks.

I nod. "Yeah."

The driver just shakes his head and gets us back on the road.

Six minutes. Five minutes.

We enter the suburbs surrounding Ashwood Estates. Fast-food-glutted intersections give way to middle-cla.s.s towns.h.i.+ps, then to upscale gated communities indistinguishable from Ashwood. The perfect hiding place.

From above we're just another suburb: no one would imagine the strange culture inside those tastefully bland McMansions, the world-destroying plans being hatched below. In all my years living at Ashwood we'd never fallen under even a moment's suspicion from the government or the local police.

As Ashwood's imposing gates loom into view up the road, I find myself darkly amused by the irony that a walled fortress has been such an effective way to deflect suspicion in suburban America.

I tell the driver to let me off across the street, pa.s.sing him the last of the money that Elswit was kind enough to give me to get home.

I approach the front gate's intercom system, glad I threw up back on the highway: if I hadn't then, I would now.

There's no point being coy. I step right in front of the security camera and press the buzzer for my house and look right into the camera. Every house has a direct feed to it. I will be identified immediately.

"Adamus?" It's my mother. Her voice cracks on the second syllable, and at the sound of it my legs almost give out.

I know she's a monster. She wants nothing more than the destruction of the entire Loric race and domination of this entire planet. But the sound of her voice hits me hard: I've missed her. More than I realized.

"Mom," I say, struggling to keep my voice from breaking.

But the intercom line has gone dead.

She's probably pulled an alarm. Notified the General. Within minutes I'll be on a rack, or thrown into a piken's feeding pen ...

"Adamus?!"

Her voice again. It's not coming from the intercom.

I step around the intercom panel to see my mother in the distance through the gate. She's run out of our house at the top of the hill. She's in a sundress, the kind she wears when she's baking, running down the hill barefoot. Running towards me.

In rage? In confusion? I steel myself for her approach.

"Adam!" she cries, getting closer and closer, her bare feet slapping against the asphalt. Before I know it she's swung open the pedestrian access gate and has pulled me into her arms, hugging me, crying.

"My sweet boy, my fallen hero ... you're alive."

I'm stunned. She's not greeting me with anger. She's greeting me with love.

CHAPTER 5.

I sit on our living-room couch, sipping the lemonade my mother brought me. She's talking up a storm, and I'm careful not to interrupt: I need to tread carefully, to figure out what happened here before I commit to a particular story.

"I didn't believe them," she says, sitting next to me and putting a hand on my knee. "I couldn't believe them."

I take another sip, buying myself some time. Didn't believe them about what?

"They told me everything and I knew it had happened, but I didn't believe it ... I knew you couldn't really be dead."

Oh. She couldn't believe that part.

"I've always known physical combat wasn't your gift. I told your father a thousand times you'd be better suited to a tactical role, but he was determined not to break with custom, and insisted we make no distinction between combat and strategy. Everyone must fight in the war. But when he told me you'd been killed, that that disgusting Loric had thrown you off a cliff ... it felt like my worst fears had come true."

My mind reels. It was my adopted brother Ivan who threw me into the ravine, under my father's approving gaze. I hadn't been killed by a Loric: I'd joined the Loric cause.

"They said they searched high and low for you ..."

A lie. They left me for dead.

"... that they were as heartbroken as I was ..."

More lies.

"But they didn't find your body, and that gave me some hope. I knew in my heart that somehow you had managed to survive."

She hugs me again. It takes all of my effort to receive her hug without betraying the revolution going on inside me. I expected to return home to a Mogadorian firing squad, but instead I've come back as a fallen soldier.

"No." His voice. My mother and I turn at once to see my father in the doorway, his mouth open in shock.

"He's come back to us," my mother exclaims. "Our boy's alive!"

I have never in my entire life seen the General at a loss for words, but there he is, too stunned to speak.

In a flash I understand everything. My father lied to my mother. My father lied to the rest of the Mogadorians. Whether to protect his ego from disgrace or to maintain his authority as a general, or both, he fabricated an honorable death for me. No one here except my father-and Ivan, wherever he is-knows that I turned against the Mogadorian cause.

I only have a moment to act, to interpret my father's stunned silence and play it to my advantage.

I leap off the couch and embrace him.

"I'm alive, Father." I feel all six and a half feet of his body stiffen in disgust, but I forge ahead with my ruse. "I've come home."

I tell them a story of my return to Ashwood. Was.h.i.+ng up on the sh.o.r.e at the bottom of the ravine, being rescued by a local, recovering at the aid camp. I adjust the truth slightly, characterizing my human friends as fools, claiming that I deliberately manipulated Elswit for his a.s.sistance in order to get back here, painting myself as the Mogadorian loyalist I no longer am-but this version is close enough to the truth. And I know it's what they need to hear.

"I had to get back here to see you," I conclude. "To keep serving the cause."

I force myself to stare right into my father's eyes. It takes all of my effort not to flinch from his gaze, just as I know it's taking all of his will not to lunge across the coffee table and strangle me where I stand.

In the kitchen, the oven timer dings. My mother, clucking over my heroic and daring escape, excuses herself to check on whatever is in the oven.

"So ..." I say to my father, waiting for his reaction.

He says nothing but jumps at me, gathering my s.h.i.+rt in his fist and lifting me off the ground. I hover inches from the floor, held tight by his grip.

His face, getting redder every second, glowers before mine. "Tell me why I shouldn't break your neck right this instant."

"If you wanted the truth to come out, wanted people to know how I failed you, you wouldn't have bothered to lie to everyone." My twisted collar is beginning to cut off my oxygen. I force myself to keep talking. "How'd you convince Ivan to keep your secret?"

He ignores my question. "If you think having this over me will keep you safe, you are sorely mistaken. If I killed you now, the only person I'd have to tell the truth to is your mother." He gives me a violent shake. "She'd learn to accept it. She'd have no choice."

My heart seizes: I know he's serious. He could kill me. He wants to kill me.

I quickly switch tacks, hoping I'm not too late.

"I'm sorry, General." Channeling my own mortal terror, I will repentant tears to my eyes. "I'm so sorry."

He looks at me with renewed contempt: the sight of his son groveling for his life is probably as hard for him as the sight of me turning against the cause. I know my new tactic is as risky as my old one: he could just as easily kill me out of disgust as out of anger.

But I keep going. This is the only gambit I have.

"I failed you and I failed my people. I'm a coward. I don't have what it takes to kill. On the field of battle I ... I couldn't stand to see bloodshed."

My father releases my s.h.i.+rt and I drop hard to the floor.

"I knew coming back was a risk. That I might be justifiably executed for treason. But I thought it was worth it."

"Why?"

"Because," I say, pausing for dramatic effect, scrambling back onto my feet. "I hoped you would give me a chance to make up for my failure."

"And how do you propose to do that?"

I fix my s.h.i.+rt and give him the most unblinking stare I can muster. "Clearly, I don't have what it takes to be a warrior. I'm not like Ivan."

At that, my father lets out a derisive snort. "Son, you are unworthy of even an unflattering comparison to Ivanick."

"But I am a better tactician. Ivan never would've gotten through his early studies if I hadn't been there to do his work for him, every step of the way."

The General's not even looking at me anymore: he's staring towards the kitchen, no doubt preparing himself for the explanation he'll have to give my mother once he's killed me. I can see I'm losing him. Yet I press on, trying not to let my desperation show.

"I found Number Two first. Back in London, well before your entire team of surveyors managed to pinpoint her location. And in Kenya I got to Number Three ahead of Ivan. I didn't have the will to kill them myself, but I found them first. I could be one of the best trackers you have if you just give me a chance-"

My father lunges at me again, grabbing me by the throat this time. I can't breathe.

This is it, I think. This is the end.

"One week," he says. "I'll give you one week to show me what you can do."

He releases me.

"And if you fail to produce a miracle for me in that time ..." He trails off. I can tell from his look he expects me to finish his statement.

"You'll kill me."

His level stare confirms that I've guessed right.

I nod, accepting his terms.

CHAPTER 6.

I lie in my old bed, in my old bedroom, staring at the wall. I was surprised to find everything just as I left it, half-expecting it to be stripped bare following my supposed "death." I guess my mother won that battle with the General.