Falling Light Part 13

For all that he worked to avoid it, he was intimately acquainted with death. He had killed so many people. Still, the aftermath of death was not something that he usually concerned himself with.

Nicholas had been killed just a few days ago. Because he had been murdered, there would have been an autopsy before the body was released for burial. He wondered where Nicholas's body was, or if he had been cremated. Perhaps Jerry had requested that his son be brought home, or Nicholas might be buried in a soldier's grave in Arlington National Cemetery.

If that was the case, Jerry might be traveling to the funeral.

He checked under the bed and around the room. Suitcases lay tucked in the corner of the closet.

The old Crow hadn't gone far then. Perhaps he had taken an outing with the young male who stayed in the second bedroom.

An opened pack of Marlboro Reds lay on one of the nightstands, along with an old-fas.h.i.+oned metal lighter and an ashtray.

He helped himself to a cigarette, lit up and took a deep drag. Smoke filled his lungs. He could tell right away that his host body was no stranger to smoking. The nicotine hit his system. He settled back against the headboard of Jerry's bed and relaxed with a sigh.

What to do.

Should he focus on this and let his forces churn through the process of the larger hunt? Or should he leave this to his FBI drones and focus on some other angle of the hunt?

Jerry Crow wasn't so much a long shot as he was a wild card. He had no way of knowing if questioning Crow would lead anywhere until after he had done it. He turned the monkey's head from side to side to stretch tight neck muscles.

The front door of the house opened and closed. Footsteps sounded in the hall. Alison appeared in the doorway. "One of Crow's neighbors told us that he kept a motorboat down at the dock at the end of the road. She said she saw Jerry and his grandson head out early a few days ago, and she hasn't seen them since. We checked the dock, and the s.p.a.ce where he keeps his boat is empty."

He finished his cigarette leisurely and tapped out the stub.

A few days ago Nicholas had died, and a notifying officer, along with a chaplain, had come to deliver the news. Jerry left the house soon afterward, and he hadn't been seen since.

And he went out on the Lake.

They were such slender puzzle pieces to fit together. But they did fit.

He smiled at Alison. "I like this house, don't you?"

Obediently, she said, "Yes."

Of course, he knew she would say yes.

"We're going to use this place as our search headquarters while we wait to see if Jerry returns anytime soon. One of you get on the computer in the office to see if there's anything useful on it." He scooped up the pack of cigarettes, the lighter and ashtray and got to his feet. "And do something less obvious with our SUVs, will you? Right now they stand out like sore thumbs."

The drones got to work. Life was so peaceful when everybody did exactly what he said.

He wandered into the kitchen to see what Jerry had to eat in his refrigerator.

Chapter Fifteen.

ASTRA WASHED DISHES with an excess of energy. As she flung items around, her mind operated on several different levels.

She had one overwrought healer tucked in the loft. One overwrought human boy asleep on the couch. One warrior sulking on the beach. One old man taking a nap. One anxious ghost.

Look at all of that drama, and none of it was relevant. May G.o.d protect her from a pa.s.sel of fools. Worse, she was a fool to put up with all of it.

She looked out the window over the sink at the grove of fruit trees. She had planted those trees by seed so long ago. Now they were mature, and each year, they produced more bounty than she was able to use.

A long time ago, she had foreseen that she might need a sanctuary separate from the growing human population. She had searched until she found this small rocky island and made it her home.

The island was located north of Beaver Island and west of Garden Island. Only three-quarters of a mile long and little over a half a mile wide, it was absent from all but the oldest and most crudely drawn explorers' maps.

At first, she had needed to expend energy to hide the island from other eyes. Then, as the spirit of the island grew more aware, it turned eccentric and secretive. It became a partic.i.p.ant in the process and learned to cloak itself.

Over the years, s.h.i.+ps and pleasure boats pa.s.sed by with increasing frequency. While their occupants might register the island long enough to navigate around the dangerous, broken sh.o.r.eline, they soon forgot about it as they moved on to other, more pressing matters in their lives.

Now, aside from Michael and Mary, only a dwindling handful of people remembered the island's existence, or her existence either, for that matter. They were people who knew how to keep a secret-traditionally raised First Nation elders who sometimes went to their graves with a thousand years of knowledge locked in the treasure vaults of their minds because they hadn't found pupils trustworthy enough to teach.

As she had told Mary, those elders used to bring creatures of all species to her, creatures so injured or broken in body or spirit Astra was their last chance for recovery. She did what she could for them.

Sometimes the healing worked and sometimes it didn't. But the elders were always grateful she tried. They had kept her supplied with offerings of food, seeds for her garden, firewood and candles, clothing and other essentials.

PtesanWi, they called her.

Over the centuries she had acquired other names. Dream Weaver, for the protections she could offer against dark spirits that preyed upon the helpless in nightmares. Star Woman, for she came from another world. Grandmother Spider, for she could spin webs that could heal, but her bite could also poison.

As those elders grew old and died, her visitors dwindled until only Jerry, his son Nicholas and now Jamie knew of her home. Jerry continued to bring her creatures that needed healing, and some of the birds and animals stayed, such as her shy little fox friend and a young golden eagle that nested at the top of the four-hundred-year-old oak. They were both under stern orders to leave her chickens alone, and they meekly obeyed.

She finished cleaning the kitchen, wiped the area by the sink and leaned her hands on the counter with a frustrated sigh. Then having made a decision, she shrugged into her battered jacket again and stomped down to the pier.

The campfire had been doused, and Michael had piled wet clothes and shoes at the end of the pier. She couldn't see him anywhere but she heard a slight metallic clanking that came from somewhere on the boat.

She cast a scowling glance around as she climbed aboard. She didn't like modern boats. She found Michael with his head buried in the bowels of the engine.

Manly and useful. Hrmph.

She snapped, "h.e.l.lo, idiot."

"Go away." His voice echoed in the confined s.p.a.ce.

"I will not." She kicked one of his feet. "Get out here."

"f.u.c.k off."

She kicked him again because it felt good. "I came down here to tell you that you are an idiot."

He pulled out of the engine with the swiftness of a coiling snake. "The h.e.l.l."

She grinned, in a fine, fun rage. She had grown to adore this tall, deadly man. "What's the matter with you?" she said. "You should be in bed resting." She pointed in the direction of the mainland. "He's on the hunt. We have no idea how long this haven will hold."

His hard, white teeth shaped words with biting precision. "Which is why I am making sure there's been no permanent damage done to our only f.u.c.king boat. Then I will check my store of weapons and check the f.u.c.king news. Then I will take a f.u.c.king nap. Got it?"

"All right." She gave him a sweet smile and almost laughed out loud at his expression of baffled wrath. She hadn't managed to get him this riled in years. "That's not why you're an idiot, you know."

He had a wrench gripped in one muscled fist. He threw it, and it bounced off a wall. "You evil, old elf," he said in a conversational tone. "I could always strangle you. That would shut you up."

She wagged a finger. "But only for a while." Her gleeful energy faded. She grew tired again and abandoned her adversarial stance. "You're an idiot because we could all be gone in a matter of hours. You're choosing to spend what precious time you have left closed off in that fortress of yours. That's not who the Creator intended you to be, Michael."

"Don't tell me who I'm supposed to be," he snapped.

His anger was a palpable force that beat at her skin, but she had withstood it before. "That's my job. To help you remember who you are."

"You've already done that," he growled. "I know very well who and what I am."

She blew a frustrated breath out between her teeth. "Mary told me off earlier, and she was right to do so," she said. "Life isn't some kind of pale, distant thing you hold at arm's length. Maybe I have treated our lifetimes as though they are disposable. I watch human lives go by so fast anymore they're gone in an eyeblink. And I always keep in mind the ultimate price we must be prepared to pay. None of that means we aren't supposed to live."

He sighed and rubbed at his forehead, leaving behind a dark smudge. "Are you through?"

She hesitated at his clipped tone, but then pushed on. "No. Like I said to Mary earlier, I don't have time to mother-hen you two, so I won't talk about this again. But I'm warning you now. Make peace. Make peace with her, with me, with the Creator, with yourself. Make it now while you can."

"Old crone." That too was one of her names. "You've made your point." His expression was bitter but she noticed his voice had lost its edge. He rubbed his forehead with the back of one hand and left a black smear of grease behind. He looked as tired as she felt, tired to the bone and beyond. "How's Mary?"

"Let me see," Astra replied in a thoughtful tone. "In the last couple of days, she has lost her sense of her own humanity, her career and her home. She has suffered multiple gunshot wounds, been terrorized by monsters and survived a kidnapping attempt. She went up against the Deceiver and lived to tell about it. She lived through a killer storm, and she just saved a dying man's life. I think she's b.l.o.o.d.y fabulous."

"That's not what I meant." His voice was low.

"Right now, her only friends are two reclusive lunatics on a mission. She leaked a few tears when she took a bath, but she'll be all right. There's nothing wrong with her that good sleep, good food and a little time won't cure. I wove some protections around her and gave her a healing dream when I tucked her in bed."

He frowned, a quiet, pained expression. "Good."

Astra sucked a tooth and glanced at the wrench. She wanted to beat on him. She wanted to yell at him some more.

She wanted to say, Idiot. Blockhead. Are you getting my point? Don't you think you overreacted a bit? All Mary said was she didn't want to shoot a gun again. Make your d.a.m.ned peace. What happened was not that big of a deal.

But for Michael, for some reason it was, and she feared she knew why.

She feared he had gone and fallen in love, that somewhere in that maddening fortress of his, he had been nursing irrelevant and treacherously distracting fantasies. That he was sulking because his feelings were hurt.

Oh G.o.d, why did her tools and companions have to be so young and at the mercy of their human hormones, right when they most needed their focus and commitment? Would she really have to kill them after all, despite her impa.s.sioned lecture to Michael about rediscovering the sacredness of life? Distasteful as it was, she had to consider it.

On their home world, twinned pairs of soul mates were born at the same moment. Here on Earth, they were born and reborn in lifetimes that were compatible to each other's. At least, they had been born at compatible times when their spirits hadn't been damaged, as Mary's had been.

During gestation, their human parents grew sensitive to the unique vibration of their energies. With a few notable exceptions, they tended to bear the same, or similar, names throughout history.

Now that Mary was whole again, if Michael and Mary died, they would be reborn, and Astra had every reason to hope for a new, more amenable start to their lives than what they had suffered in this one. With two new, healthy young children, she would have a far greater chance to control and shape their att.i.tudes and destinies.

Gabriel and Raphael had managed a near seamless partners.h.i.+p. She had never seen a pair so closely connected as those two rapscallions, and it had all come about quite naturally. Time and again, they had been born as brothers, until their last sad, short life when they had been born as princes. The Deceiver had them imprisoned in the White Tower of London "for their own safety" until he could destroy them in secret and shove their bodies under a staircase where animals gnawed on their bones.

Tragic though it was, that was the only lifetime the Deceiver had successfully taken any of their group as children. Locating Mary and Michael again after their rebirth would be a dangerous scramble, but Astra had more talent than the Deceiver for hearing the vibrations of recurring dreams that their kind experienced during childhood.

Starting over would be a calculated risk. She could find Michael and Mary, s.n.a.t.c.h them from their birth parents, and raise them together like siblings.

Of course, nothing would destroy their spiritual connection. She wouldn't think of attempting such a sacrilegious act. But they would be pair-bonded from an early age.

By the time they would be old enough to be effective in a fight, she could have them trained until they were a seamless partners.h.i.+p, as Gabriel and Raphael had been. That would bypa.s.s any maudlin irrelevancies like s.e.x or romantic feelings that might get them all destroyed.

Her shoulders sagged. If she took that path, it would involve more decades of waiting and patient effort. She would have to watch as the Deceiver took control of the Presidency. He already stood at the brink, ready to shape this world again to fit his vision of conquest. Once he gained control, it would become easier for him to take it again and again as each new President took office.

How exhausting.

Also, the thought of raising two young, energetic children at her age made her want to crawl back into bed and pull the covers over her head.

Just staying alive took all of her enormous, sustained will and continual work at rejuvenation. It also took the generous, daily offering of energy from the living ent.i.ties that surrounded her. The trees, bushes, the island and Lake, the spirits of air and water, the rich, life-sustaining dirt and the ancient rocks that were the bones of this planet, all sustained her in her purpose.

She had committed herself to remembering so much, not only for her people but also for this adopted world, but she had forgotten how to die. Somewhere deep inside, though, her body knew better and longed to return to the earth. She was so tired that drawing each breath was a conscious choice. Only Creator knew how long she might have to wait for all four of them to be in one area again, awake and aware and able to do battle.

Besides, taking Michael's and Mary's lives didn't feel right, no matter what kind of brutal sense it made or how she was tempted.

They were flawed and inconvenient tools, but wasn't she just as flawed and just as inconvenient? Who could say that they would become any better in their next life or the lifetime after that?

How twisted had her reality become if she had to kill them to keep them safe?

Over the centuries, she had watched Michael's spirit grow more edged and feral without Mary's presence to balance and temper him. Astra had been poised to kill him as a child because of his potential danger to society. She had also been relieved he had responded to her so that she never had to make that choice.

She would wait and hope he still responded to her. Maybe she had pushed him hard enough already. She sucked on her withered cheeks and said nothing more.

Besides, she had warned him enough over the years. Now she had to sit back and trust him to remember.

Soul mates did not always equate with romantic love.

Balanced energies did not always equate with compatibility. Opposites not only attracted. They also repelled. Completion did not guarantee hearts and flowers, or even friends.h.i.+p.

Yin did not necessarily see eye to eye with yang. Sometimes the twinned pairs struggled through terrible conflicts.

Then there was nothing pretty about life. It became a fight for survival, a bone-breaking b.i.t.c.h-slap of a brawl.

She should know.

Just look at how sick to death she and the Deceiver were of each other.

Chapter Sixteen.