A Fine Balance Part 38

He shrugged again. "That wouldn't change anything, Aunty. You could have saved them only by giving them a place to sleep."

She flung down the sewing. "You keep on saying that! Keep on, don't worry about my feelings! Repeat it till I am blinded by guilt!"

Maneck p.r.i.c.ked himself as the needle surfaced through the b.u.t.ton. "Ouch," he sucked the thumb.

"Go on, you callous boy! Tell me I am responsible, tell me I left them out on the street because I am heartless!"

He wished he could cancel the hurt of his words. She fumbled with the hem, beginning to cough as though something was stuck. It sounded like an attention-getting cough to him, and he brought her a gla.s.s of water.

She said, after drinking, "You were right about carrots. I can see much better."

"It's a miracle!" He raised his hands theatrically, bringing a smile to her face. "Now I am incarnated as Maharis.h.i.+ Carrot Baba, and all the opticians will lose their business!"

"Oh stop being silly," she said, draining the gla.s.s. "Let me tell you what I can see better. When I was twelve my father decided to go and work in an area of epidemic. It worried my mother very much. She wanted me to change his mind you see, I was his favourite. Then my father died while working there. And my mother said if I had followed her advice I might have saved him."

"That wasn't fair."

"It was and it wasn't. Just like what you said."

He understood.

Dina rose, lifted the gla.s.s hen squatting on the worktable, and put away the thimble, scissors, and needle in its porcelain bowels.

"Where are you going, Aunty?"

"Where do you think to a Lalya's wedding? It's ten o'clock, I'm going to bed."

"But we only finished sixteen dresses. Today's quota is twenty-two."

"Listen to the senior manager."

"My plan is to do twenty-two today, thirty tomorrow, and eight the day after, so everything can be delivered by noon."

"Wait a minute, mister. What about college, tomorrow and the day after what about studies? I don't think they give a refrigeration diploma for sewing b.u.t.tons."

"Lectures are cancelled for the next two days."

"Right. And I'm winning the State Lottery on the third day."

"Forget it, Aunty. You're always doubting me." He continued to sew, exhaling injury and martyrdom in his sighs, dragging the needle as though its thread were an iron chain. "It's okay, I'll keep working, you go to bed."

"And miss your Oscar-winning performance?"

He dropped a b.u.t.ton, groaned, and bent to find it, feeling about with his fingers like an old man. "Go, Aunty, go and rest, don't worry about me," he waved a trembling hand.

"You said you were good at acting, but I didn't think you were this good. Okay, let's finish one more dress."

The bidding was open; he sat up briskly. "We need six more for today's quota."

"Forget your quota. I said one."

"At least three, then."

"Two is my final offer. And no more argument. But first I need something from the kitchen."

She returned shortly, a steaming mug hooked in the fingers of each hand, and set one down beside him. "Horlicks. To refresh us." As proof, she took a swallow and sat tall in her chair, shoulders back, face beaming.

"You sound like an advertis.e.m.e.nt," he said. "And it doesn't even need a professional model, you look so pretty."

"Don't think flattery will get you a cup every day. I cannot afford that."

Blowing and sipping, they joked their way through two more dresses. Near midnight, Dina's was the only light left on in the building. The lateness of the hour, the streets fallen silent outside the window, the flat enveloped in darkness, all lent a conspiratorial air to their innocent activity.

"That makes eighteen," she said, as they finished after midnight. "And not a single st.i.tch left in these fingers. Now can we go to sleep, boss?"

"Soon as they are properly folded."

"Yes, Mr. Mac Kohlah."

"Please I hate that name."

While pa.s.sing through to their rooms she hugged him, whispering, "Good night. And thank you for helping."

"Good night, Aunty," he said, and floated happily to bed.

An hour before sunrise the whistle blast ended the night, s.n.a.t.c.hing back the labourers from its dark, comforting bosom. They spilled out from the tin huts in a trickle towards the food area. Two pariah dogs sniffed at dusty feet, lost interest and slunk away around the kitchen. Tea was served with last night's chapatis. Then the whistle blew again to commence work.

The newcomers were a.s.sembled separately and a.s.signed their ch.o.r.es by the foreman. There were jobs for everyone with the exception of the beggar on the rolling platform. "You stay here," said the foreman. "I will decide later for you."

Om was teamed with a group of six to start a new ditch. Ishvar's task was to carry gravel where concrete was being mixed. The foreman came to the end of the list, and the scraggy army dispersed to their locations as directed by the overseers. The tailors waited till everyone had gone.

"There is a mistake, sahab," said Ishvar, approaching the foreman with his palms together.

"Name?"

"Ishvar Darji and Omprakash Darji."

The foreman read off their a.s.signments again. "No mistake."

"The mistake is that we should not be here, we "

"All you lazy rascals think you should not be here. The government will no longer tolerate it. You will will work. In return you will get food and a place to sleep." work. In return you will get food and a place to sleep."

"We have have work, we are tailors, and the policeman said to speak to you - work, we are tailors, and the policeman said to speak to you - "My duty is to give you jobs and shelter. You say no, and the security men will take you away."

"But why are we being punished? What is our crime?"

"You are using the wrong word. It's not a question of crime and punishment it's problem and solution." He beckoned to two khaki-uniformed men patrolling with sticks. "We have no trouble here, all the people are happy to work. Now you decide."

"Okay," said Ishvar. "But we would like to talk to the top man."

"The project manager will come later. He is busy with his morning prayers."

The foreman personally escorted the tailors to the worksite. He handed them over to their respective supervisors with instructions to watch them carefully, to make sure they worked without slacking. The beggar rolled alongside them on his platform. Where the path ended, the rough terrain was impossible for his castors. He turned back, waving to the tailors, promising to wait by their hut in the evening.

The hillside was alive with a flock of tiny crouching figures. At first the children seemed frozen by sunlight; then the sound of their hammers revealed the movement of their hands. Pounding rock, making gravel. Clumps of dead gra.s.s pocked the sere slope. The greening hand of rain had yet to touch this earth. Occasionally, a boulder got away and crashed somewhere below. In the distance, the rumbling of earth movers, cranes, and cement mixers rose like a wall upon which the steady ring of stone-chipping hammers carved a pattern. From the sky, the sledge of heat pounded relentlessly.

A woman filled Ishvar's gravel basket and helped him hoist it to his head. The effort made her hands tremble, quivering the wrinkled skin pouches under her arms. He staggered beneath the weight. When she let go, he felt the load start to unbalance. He clawed the sides desperately, tilting his head the other way, but the falling basket fell, jerking his neck sharply.

"I have never done this kind of work," he said, embarra.s.sed by the heavy shower of gravel that stung their feet.

Wordlessly she slanted the basket against her s.h.i.+ns and bent over to fill it again. Her skimpy grey plait slid forward over the shoulder. Wouldn't be much use to Rajaram the hair-collector, thought Ishvar absently. With each pull of the hoe her plastic bangles made dull clinks. Soft echoes of the stone-hammering children. He watched her forearms glisten with sweat, the powerful back and forth movement. Then he noticed, behind him, others in the backed-up gravel chain. He knelt to a.s.sist her, anxious to make up for his clumsiness. He scooped gravel into the basket with his hands.

"Filling is my task, carrying is yours," she said.

"It's okay, I don't mind."

"You don't, but the overseer will."

Ishvar desisted, and asked if she had done this work a long time.

"Since I was a child."

"Pay is good?"

"Enough to keep from starving." She showed him how to hold his head and shoulders to carry the weight, and they raised the load. He staggered again but managed to retain the basket.

"See, it's easy once you learn to balance," she encouraged, and pointed him on his way towards the men mixing concrete. Tottering, faltering several times, he reached his destination and dumped the gravel. Then it was back with the empty basket to the woman who filled it. Again, and again, and again.

A few trips, and the sweat was streaming down his face; the ground spun; he asked if he could go for a drink of water. The overseer refused. "The bhistee will come when it's time for water."

With the man watching, the woman filled the basket as slowly as she dared. Ishvar was grateful for the restful seconds she stole for him. He shut his eyes and took deep breaths.

"Pile it to the brim!" The overseer screamed. "You are not paid for filling half-baskets!" She pulled in four additional hoefuls. While lifting the load she tipped it slightly to get rid of the extra weight.

Ishvar stumbled back and forth, fighting dizziness as the morning ground him down. His mind was emptied of all thought. The blasting at the other end of the site sent dust clouds rolling through the gravel area, and women pulled their saris over their noses. He felt that were it not for the pounding hammers to guide him, he would lose his way in the fog. The feeling of sightlessness persisted even when the air cleared. Clinging to the rope of sound, he hovered between the gravel and the concrete mixers.

It seemed an age before the water-carrier arrived. The stone-breaking hammers fell silent. Ishvar heard the slurp of thirsty tongues before he saw the man. The swollen waterskin hung from the bhistee's shoulder like a dark-brown animal, its leather strap cutting deep into him. His steps unsteady under the heavy bulge of water, the blind man pa.s.sed among the labourers. Whoever was thirsty touched his hand to stop him. He sang softly, a song he had made up: O call to me and I Will quench your thirst for water.

But who, on earth, can grant My parched eyes' desire?

Ishvar fell on his knees before the bhistee, positioned his mouth under the leather spout and drank. Then he moved his mouth, and cold water splashed over his grateful face. The overseer shouted, "Careful, don't waste! That's for drinking only!" Ishvar rose hurriedly and returned to his gravel basket.

By the time the bhistee reached the place where Om was working, the waterskin had grown lighter. So had the bhistee's steps. The six ditch-diggers drank first, and then the women who were a.s.signed to carry away the loosened earth. Their babies played near the ditch. The women scooped water in their palms to let the children slurp it.

Om wet his fingers and slicked back his hair. He pulled out his half-comb and whipped it through. "Aray, hero-ka-batcha!" yelled the overseer. "Get back to work!"

Om put away the comb, returning his ragged attention to the digging. He enjoyed the moment when the women bent over to gather up the rubble, their b.r.e.a.s.t.s hanging forward in their cholis. With the load on their heads, they repositioned their saris and walked away, tall and stately, their limbs flowing with liquid smoothness. Like Shanti at the tap, he thought, with the bra.s.s pot that made her hips sway.

As the hours strained to pa.s.s, the women were not enough to distract him from the torment of the work. Bent double at the ditch, the pickaxe unwieldy in hands accustomed to scissors and needle and thread, he struggled with the hard ground. The shame of seeming weak in the women's eyes kept him going. Blisters which had flared within minutes of commencing the job were now in full eruption. He could barely straighten his back, and his shoulders were on fire.

One of the babies by the ditch started to cry. The mother dropped her basket and went to it. "Saali lazy woman," said the overseer. "Get back to work."

"But baby is crying." She picked up the child. Its tears were tracing glistening paths down the dust-coated cheeks.

"It's natural for babies to cry. They cry and then they stop. Don't give me excuses." He moved towards her as though to take it from her arms. She returned it gently to the rubble, to amuse itself.

When the whistle sounded for lunch, Om, like Ishvar, felt he was too exhausted to eat the watery mix of vegetables. But they knew they must, if they were to survive the rest of the day. They swallowed the food quickly and slipped into the shadow of their tin hut to rest a little.

The whistle ended the lunch break. Within minutes of returning to the site they started retching; a gush of vomit followed. Emptying their bellies took a fraction of the time spent in filling them. Fighting dizziness, they hunkered down, refusing to move. Close to the ground they felt safe.

The overseer whacked their heads a couple of times, pulled at their collars, and shook them by the shoulders. The tailors moaned to be excused. The foreman was sent for.

"What's the matter now? You are determined to make trouble or what?" asked the foreman.

"We are sick," said Ishvar. As proof, he pointed to the two pools of vomit being investigated by a crow. "We are not used to this kind of work."

"You will get used to it."

"We want to meet the manager."

"He is not here." The foreman put a hand under Ishvar's arm and pulled. Ishvar rose, swaying from side to side, his mouth vomit-streaked, and lurched towards the foreman. The latter pushed him back hastily, afraid of getting vomit on himself. "Okay, go. Sleep for some time. I will see you later."

No one bothered them for the rest of the day in the tin hut. At dusk they heard people proceeding towards the kitchen area. Ishvar asked Om if he wanted to eat. "Yes, I'm hungry," he said, and they sat up. Feeling dizzy again, they lay down. They did not resist the returning drowsiness.

Some time later the beggar rolled in on his platform, with food. He paddled very slowly, taking care not to spill the dinner balanced upon his stumps. "I saw you becoming sick. Eat, it will give you strength. But chew properly, no rus.h.i.+ng."

The tailors thanked him for the food. He watched with satisfaction as they took the first bite, refusing to share. "I've already eaten."

Ishvar emptied the water mug, and the beggar started rolling to fetch more. "Wait, I'll get it," said Om. "I'm all right now."

The beggar was having none of that, and soon returned with a full mug. He inquired if they wanted extra chapatis. "I made friends with someone in the kitchen, I can get as many as I like."

"No no, bas, we are full, thank you," said Ishvar, then asked him his name.

"Everybody calls me Worm."

"Why?"

"I told you, babu. Before my Beggarmaster gave me the gaadi, I used to crawl around."

"But now you have the gaadi. What's your real name?"

"Shankar."

He stayed with them for another half-hour, chatting, describing the irrigation project where he had been wandering all day. Then he suggested they try to sleep and wake up strong for tomorrow's work. In a few minutes, when they were snoring lightly, he rowed away on his platform, smiling happily to himself.