The Cole Trilogy: The Physician, Shaman And Matters Of Choice Part 98

Across from the fat youth, the deaf boy worked. He was experienced and had used the scalpel well to open the arm in layers. The fact that he'd known to do this revealed a prior knowledge of anatomy that both pleased and surprised McGowan, who noted that joints, muscles, nerves, and blood vessels were neatly depicted in the drawing, and labeled. As he watched, the young man printed his name on the drawing and handed it to him. Cole, Robert J.

"Yes. Ah. Cole, in the future, you must make your printed letters a bit larger."

"Yes, sir," Cole said quite distinctly. "Will there be anything else?"

"No. You may return your specimen to the tank and clean up after yourself. Then you may go."

The dismissal brought half a dozen other drawings to Dr. McGowan, but each of the students was turned back with a suggestion for revision of the drawing or several ways to improve the dissection.

While he conferred with the students, he watched Cole return the specimen to the tank. He saw him wash and wipe the scalpel before replacing it on the table. He observed that Cole carried water to the dissection table and scrubbed the side of it he'd used, and then took brown soap and clean water and washed his own hands and arms carefully before rolling down his sleeves.

Cole paused by the chubby youth on the way out and examined his drawing. Dr. McGowan saw him lean over and whisper. Some of the desperation left the other boy's face, and he nodded as Cole patted his shoulder. Then the fat one went back to work, and the deaf one left the cla.s.sroom.

46.

HEART SOUNDS.

It was as if the medical school were a remote foreign land in which Shaman occasionally heard fearsome rumors of impending war in the United States. He learned of a Peace Convention in Was.h.i.+ngton, D.C., attended by one hundred thirty-one delegates from twenty-one states. But the morning the Peace Convention opened in the capital, the Provisional Congress of the Confederate States of America convened in Montgomery, Alabama. A few days later the Confederacy voted to secede from the United States, and everyone was sickeningly aware there would be no peace.

Still, Shaman was able to give the nation's problems only pa.s.sing attention. He was fighting his own war for survival. Fortunately, he was a good student. He pored over his books at night until he couldn't see any longer, and most mornings he managed several hours of study before breakfast. Cla.s.ses were held Monday through Sat.u.r.day, from ten to one and from two to five. Often a lecture was delivered before or during one of the six clinics that gave the medical school its name: Tuesday afternoons, diseases of the chest; Tuesday evenings, venereal diseases; Thursday afternoons, children's diseases; Thursday evenings, the ailments of females; Sat.u.r.day mornings, surgical clinic; and Sat.u.r.day afternoons, medical clinic. Sunday afternoons, students observed the staff physicians in the wards.

It was on Shaman's sixth Sat.u.r.day at the Polyclinic that Dr. Meigs lectured about the stethoscope. Meigs had studied in France under doctors who had been taught by the instrument's inventor. He told the students that one day in 1816 a physician named Rene Laennec, reluctant to place his ear against the chest of a bosomy and embarra.s.sed female patient, had rolled up some paper and tied the resultant tube with a piece of string. When Laennec had placed one end of the tube to the patient's chest and listened at the other end, he was surprised to note that, instead of being a less efficient way to listen, the method amplified the chest sounds.

Meigs said that until recently stethoscopes had been simple wooden tubes listened to by doctors who used one ear. He had a more modern version of the instrument, in which the tube was of woven silk, leading to ivory earpieces that fit into both ears. During the medical clinic that followed the cla.s.s, Dr. Meigs used an ebony stethoscope with a second outlet to which a tube was attached, so both the professor and a student could listen to a patient's chest sounds at the same time. Each student was given an opportunity to listen, but when it was Shaman's turn he told the professor of medicine it was no use. "I wouldn't be able to hear anything."

Dr. Meigs pursed his lips. "You must at least try." He was careful to show Shaman precisely how to hold the instrument to his ear. But Shaman could only shake his head.

"I am sorry," Professor Meigs said.

There was to be an examination in clinical practice. Each student was to examine a patient, using the stethoscope, and make a report. It was clear to Shaman that he was going to be failed.

On a cold morning he bundled himself in his coat and gloves, tied a m.u.f.fler around his neck, and hiked away from the school. A boy on a corner was hawking newspapers that told about Lincoln's inauguration. Shaman walked down to the riverfront and along the wharves, deep in thought.

When he returned, he went into the hospital and walked through the wards, studying the orderlies and nurses. Most were men, and many were drunkards who had gravitated to hospital work because the standards were low. He observed those who seemed sober and intelligent, and finally determined that a man named Jim Halleck would serve his purpose. He waited until the orderly had carried in an armload of wood and dumped it on the floor near the potbellied stove, then approached him.

"I've a proposition for you, Mr. Halleck."

The afternoon of the examination, both Dr. McGowan and Dr. Berwyn showed up at the medical clinic, heightening Shaman's nervousness. Dr. Meigs tested the cla.s.s alphabetically. Shaman was third, after Allard and Bronson. Israel Allard had an easy time of it; his patient was a young woman with a strained back, whose heart sounds were strong, regular, and uncomplicated. Clark Bronson was a.s.signed to examine an asthmatic man, no longer young. He stumblingly described the sound of rales in the chest. Meigs had to ask him several leading questions to get the information he needed, but evidently he was satisfied in the end.

"Mr. Cole?"

It was evident that he expected Shaman to decline to partic.i.p.ate. But Shaman came forward and accepted the monaural wooden stethoscope. When he looked to where Jim Halleck was sitting, the orderly rose and joined him. The patient was a sixteen-year-old male, of husky build, who had cut his hand in a carpentry shop. Halleck held one end of the stethoscope to the boy's chest and placed his ear on the other end. Shaman took the patient's wrist and felt the push of the boy's pulse against his fingers.

"The patient's heartbeat is normal and regular. At a rate of seventy-eight times per minute," he said at length. He glanced inquiringly at the orderly, who shook his head slightly. "There are no rales," Shaman said.

"What is the meaning of this ... theater?" Dr. Meigs said. "What is Jim Halleck doing here?"

"Mr. Halleck is serving as my ears, sir," Shaman said, and was unfortunate enough to note broad grins on the faces of several of the students.

Dr. Meigs did not smile. "I see. As your ears. And would you marry Mr. Halleck, Mr. Cole? And take him with you wherever you would practice medicine? For the rest of your life?"

"No, sir."

"Then, will you ask other folks to be your ears?"

"Perhaps I shall, at times."

"And if you're a physician who comes on someone in need of your help, and you are alone, just you and the patient?"

"I can get the heart rate from the pulse." Shaman touched two fingers to the carotid artery in the patient's throat. "And feel whether it is normal, or bounding, or weak." He spread his fingers and placed his palm on the boy's chest. "I can feel the rate of respirations. And see the skin, and touch it to learn whether it is feverish or cool, moist or dry. I can see the eyes. If the patient is awake, I can talk with him, and conscious or not, I can observe the consistency of his sputum and see the color of his urine and smell it, even taste it if I have to." Looking at his professor's face, he antic.i.p.ated the objection before Dr. Meigs could make it.

"But I'll never be able to hear rales in the chest."

"No, you will not."

"For me, rales will not be warnings of trouble. When I see the early stages of croupy breathing, I will know that if I could hear them, the rales in his chest doubtless would be crackling. If my patient becomes markedly croupy, I will know that there are bubbling rales in the chest. If there is asthma or an infection of the bronchia, I'll know there are sibilant rales. But I won't be able to confirm that knowledge." He paused and looked directly at Dr. Meigs. "I can't do anything about my deafness. Nature has robbed me of a valuable diagnostic tool, but I have other tools. And in an emergency, I would care for my patient, using my eyes and my nose and my mouth and my fingers and my brain."

It wasn't the deferent answer Dr. Meigs would have appreciated from a first-year student, and his face showed annoyance. Dr. McGowan came to him and leaned over his chair, speaking into his ear.

Soon Dr. Meigs looked back at Shaman. "It is suggested that we take you at your word, and give you a patient to diagnose without using the stethoscope. I am ready to do so, if you agree."

Shaman nodded, although his stomach lurched.

The medical professor led them into the nearest ward, where he paused before a patient whose card at the foot of his bed revealed he was Arthur Herrenshaw. "You may examine this patient, Mr. Cole."

Shaman saw at once from Arthur Herrenshaw's eyes that the man was in terrible trouble.

He pulled back the sheet and blanket and raised the gown. The patient's body looked extremely fat, but when Shaman placed his hand on Mr. Herrenshaw's flesh, it was like touching raised dough. From his neck, where the veins were distended and pulsating, to his shapeless ankles, the swollen tissues were laden with fluid. He heaved with the effort of breathing.

"How are you today, Mr. Herrenshaw?"

He had to ask again, in a loud voice, before the patient responded with a slight shake of his head.

"How old are you, sir?"

"... I ... fift ... two." He gasped profusely between syllables, like a man who has run a long way.

"Do you have pain, Mr. Herrenshaw? ... Sir? Do you have pain?"

"Oh ..." he said, his hand on his sternum. Shaman noted he seemed to be straining upward.

"You wish to sit up?" He helped him to do so, supported his back with pillows. Mr. Herrenshaw was sweating profusely, but he also s.h.i.+vered. The only heat in the ward came from a thick black stovepipe that bisected the ceiling as it ran from the wood-burning stove, and Shaman pulled the blanket up over Mr. Herrenshaw's shoulders. He took out his watch. When he checked Mr. Herrenshaw's pulse, it was as if the second hand suddenly slowed. The pulse was light and thready and incredibly fast, like the desperate skittering footsteps of a small animal fleeing a predator. Shaman had trouble counting fast enough. The animal slowed, stopped, took a couple of slow hops. Began to scurry again.

He was aware that now was the time Dr. Meigs would have used the stethoscope. He could imagine the interesting, tragic sounds he could have reported, the noises of a man drowning in his own juices.

He held both of Mr. Herrenshaw's hands in his own and was chilled and saddened by their message. Without knowing he did it, he touched the bowed shoulder before he turned away.

They went back to the clinic room for Shaman's report. "I don't know what caused the fluids to collect in his tissues. I don't have the experience to understand that. But the patient's pulse was light and thready. Irregular. His heart is in failure, beating one hundred and thirty-two times a minute when racing." He looked at Meigs. "In the last several years I helped my father to autopsy two males and a female whose hearts failed. In each, a small portion of the heart wall was dead. The tissue appeared burnt, as if it had been touched by a live coal."

"What would you do for him?"

"I would keep him warm. I would give him soporifics. He'll die in a few hours, so we should ease his pain." At once, he knew he had said too much, but the words couldn't be recalled.

Meigs pounced. "How do you know he will die?"

"I sensed it," Shaman said in a low voice.

"What? Speak up, Mr. Cole, so the cla.s.s may hear."

"I sensed it, sir."

"You do not have enough experience to know about body fluids, but you are able to sense impending death," the professor said cuttingly. He looked at his cla.s.s. "The lesson here is clear, gentlemen. While there is life in a patient, we never-you shall never!-consign them to death. We struggle to give them renewed life until they are gone. Do you understand that, Mr. Cole?"

"Yes, sir," Shaman said miserably.

"Then you may sit down."

He took Jim Halleck to supper at a riverside saloon with sawdust on the floor, where they ate boiled beef and cabbage and each had three schooners of bitter dark beer. It wasn't a victory meal. Neither of them felt good about what had occurred. Besides agreeing that Meigs was a real misery, they had little to say to one another, and when they had eaten, Shaman thanked Halleck and paid him for his help, allowing him to go home to his wife and four children several dollars less poor than he had left them that morning.

Shaman stayed there and drank more beer. He didn't allow himself to worry about the effect of the alcohol on the Gift. He didn't imagine that he would be in a position very much longer in which the Gift could be important to his life.

He walked back to the dormitory carefully, not allowing himself to think of very much except the necessity of placing each foot just so as he progressed, and climbed up into his bunk fully dressed as soon as he had arrived.

In the morning he knew another good reason to avoid strong drink, because his head and his facial bones ached, fitting punishment. He took a long time to wash and to change his clothing, and he was slowly heading to a late breakfast when another first-year student named Rogers hurried into the hospital dining room. "Dr. McGowan says you are to come at once to his hospital lab."

When he reached the low-ceilinged dissection room in the bas.e.m.e.nt, Dr. Berwyn was there with Dr. McGowan. The body of Arthur Herrenshaw lay on the table.

"We've been waiting for you," Dr. McGowan said irritably, as though Shaman were late for a preordained appointment.

"Yes, sir," he managed, not knowing what else he could say.

"Would you care to open?" Dr. McGowan said.

Shaman had never. But he had seen his father do it often enough, and Dr. McGowan handed him a scalpel when he nodded. He was aware of the two physicians watching closely as he incised the chest. Dr. McGowan used the rib cutters himself, and when he had removed the sternum the pathologist bent over the heart and then reached in and lifted it slightly so Dr. Berwyn and Shaman could see the roundish burned-looking damage that had been done to the wall of Mr. Herrenshaw's heart muscle.

"Something you should know," Dr. Berwyn told Shaman. "Sometimes the failure occurs inside the heart, so that it can't be seen in the heart wall."

Shaman nodded, to show he understood.

McGowan turned to Dr. Berwyn and said something, and Dr. Berwyn laughed. Dr. McGowan looked at Shaman. His face was like seamed leather, and this was the first time Shaman had seen it lit by a smile.

"I told him, 'Go out and get me more of them that are deaf,' " Dr. McGowan said.

47.

CINCINNATI DAYS.

Every day during that slate-gray spring of national torment, anxious crowds gathered outside the offices of the Cincinnati Commercial to read news bulletins of the war, written in chalk on a blackboard. President Lincoln had ordered a blockade of all Confederate ports by the federal Department of the Navy, and asked men in all the Northern states to answer the call to the colors. Everywhere there was talk of the war, speculation aplenty. General Winfield Scott, general in chief of the Union Army, was a Southerner who supported the United States, but he was a tired old man; a patient on the medical ward shared with Shaman the rumor that Lincoln had approached Colonel Robert E. Lee and asked him to take command of the Union Army. But a few days later there were newspaper reports that Lee had resigned his federal commission, preferring to fight on the side of the South.

Before that semester was over at the Polyclinic Medical School, more than a dozen students, most of them in academic trouble, had quit to join one army or the other. Among them was Ruel Torrington, who left two empty bureau drawers that retained the smell of unwashed clothing. Other students spoke of finis.h.i.+ng the semester and then joining up. In May Dr. Berwyn called a meeting of the student body and explained that the faculty had considered closing the medical school during the military emergency, but after much soul-searching they had decided to continue to teach. He urged each student to stay in school. "Very soon doctors will be needed as never before, both in the army and to care for civilians."

But Dr. Berwyn had bad news. Because the faculty was paid from tuition receipts, and because enrollment had decreased, tuition fees had to be raised sharply. For Shaman, this meant he would have to come up with funds he hadn't planned for. But if he wouldn't allow deafness to stand in his way, he was determined that a little thing like money wouldn't stop him from becoming a doctor.

He and Paul Cooke became friends. In matters of school and medicine, Shaman was the adviser and the guide, while in other matters Cooke did the leading. Paul introduced him to restaurant dining and the theater. In awe, they went to Pike's Opera House to see Edwin Thomas Booth as Richard III. The opera house had three tiers of balconies, three thousand seats, and standing room for another thousand. Even the eighth-row seats Cooke had w.a.n.gled from the box office wouldn't have allowed Shaman full comprehension of the play, but he had read all of Shakespeare at college, and he reread this play before the performance. Being familiar with the story and the speeches made all the difference, and he enjoyed the experience tremendously.

On another Sat.u.r.day evening Cooke took him to a wh.o.r.ehouse, where Shaman followed a taciturn woman to her room and received a fast servicing. The woman never lost her fixed smile and said almost nothing. Shaman didn't ever feel impelled to go there again, but at times, because he was normal and healthy, s.e.xual desire presented a problem. On a day when it was his duty to drive a hospital ambulance, he went to the P. L. Trent Candle Company, which employed women and children, and treated a thirteen-year-old boy for leg burns suffered from a splash of boiling wax. They took the boy back to the ward, accompanied by a peach-skinned young woman with black hair who gave up her own hourly wages to go to the hospital with the patient, her cousin. Shaman saw her again that Thursday evening during the weekly visiting hour in the charity wards. Other relatives waited to see the burned boy, so her visit was short, and he had a chance to talk with her. Her name was Hazel Melville. Although he couldn't afford it, he asked her to have supper with him on the following Sunday; she tried to appear shocked, but instead she smiled in satisfaction and nodded.

She lived within walking distance of the hospital, on the third floor of a tenement building very similar to the medical-school dormitory. Her mother was dead. Shaman was very conscious of his guttural speech as her red-faced father, a bailiff at the Cincinnati Munic.i.p.al Courthouse, regarded him with cool suspicion, not certain what was different about Hazel's caller.

If the day had been warmer, he might have taken her boating on the river. There was a wind from the water, but they wore coats and it was comfortable to walk. They looked in the windows of shops by the waning light. She was very pretty, he decided, except for her lips, which were thin and severe, etching tiny lines of habitual discontent into the corners of her mouth. She was shocked to learn of his deafness. While he explained about lip-reading, she wore an uncertain smile.

Still, it was pleasant to talk to a female who wasn't ill or hurt. She said she'd been dipping candles for a year; she hated it, but there were few jobs for females. She told him resentfully that she had two older male cousins who had gone to work for good money at Wells & Company. "Wells & Company has received an order from the Indiana State Militia to cast ten thousand barrels of minie musket b.a.l.l.s. I do so wish they would employ women!"

They had supper in a small restaurant Cooke had helped him choose, selected because it was both inexpensive and well-lighted, so he could see what she was saying. She appeared to enjoy it, though she sent the rolls back because they weren't hot, speaking sharply to the waiter. When they returned to her flat her father wasn't at home. She made it easy for Shaman to kiss her, responding so completely that it was a natural progression for him to touch her through her clothing and eventually to make love to her on the discomfort of the fringed settee. Lest her father return, she kept the lamp on and wouldn't remove her clothing, pulling her skirts and s.h.i.+ft back above her waist. Her womanly odor was overlaid with the smell of bayberry from the paraffin into which she dipped her wicks six days a week. Shaman took her hard and fast and without any semblance of enjoyment, conscious of possible enraged interruption by the bailiff, sharing no more human contact with her than he had experienced with the woman in the bordello.

He didn't even think of her for seven weeks.

But one afternoon, impelled by a familiar longing, he walked to the Trent Candle factory and sought her out. The air in the interior of the candle works was hot with grease and heavy with the concentrated scent of bayberry. Hazel Melville was annoyed when she saw him. "Mustn't have visitors, want me discharged?" But before he left, she said hurriedly that it wouldn't be possible to see him again, because during the weeks of his neglect she had become promised to another man, someone she'd known a long time. He was a professional person, a company bookkeeper, she told Shaman, making no attempt to disguise her satisfaction.

The truth was, Shaman had less physical distraction than he would have expected. He turned everything-all yearning and desire, every hope and expectation of pleasure, his energies and his imagination-into the study of medicine. Cooke said with frank envy that Robert J. Cole had been designed to become a medical student, and Shaman felt it was so; all his life he'd been waiting for something that he had found in Cincinnati.

Midway in the term he began dropping into the dissection laboratory whenever he had a free hour, sometimes alone but more often with Cooke or Billy Henried, to help them develop their techniques with the instruments or to drive home a fine point made by their textbook or in a lecture. Early in the A&P course, Dr. McGowan had begun asking him to help students who were having difficulty. Shaman knew his grades in his other courses were excellent, and even Dr. Meigs had been known to nod pleasantly at him when encountered in the corridor. People had become accustomed to his differentness. Sometimes, concentrating hard during a lecture or a laboratory cla.s.s, he fell into his old bad habit of making humming sounds without realizing it. Once Dr. Berwyn had paused during a lecture and said, "Stop humming, Mr. Cole." In the beginning, other students would t.i.tter, but they soon learned to touch him on the arm and give him a look that told him to be quiet. It didn't bother him. He was confident.

He enjoyed wandering alone through the wards. One day a patient complained that he had walked past her bed unheeding although she had called his name repeatedly. After that, to prove to himself that his deafness need not hurt his patients, he developed the habit of stopping briefly at every bed, holding the patients' hands in his own, and speaking briefly and quietly to each person.

The specter of conditional status was well behind him one day when Dr. McGowan offered him a job in the hospital during July and August, when the medical school would be on holiday. McGowan told him frankly that both he and Dr. Berwyn had considered competing for Shaman's services, but had decided to share him. "You'd spend the summer working for us both, doing dirty work for Berwyn in the operating theater every morning, and helping me autopsy his mistakes every afternoon."

It was a wonderful opportunity, Shaman realized, and the small salary would allow him to meet the rise in tuition. "I would like it," he told Dr. McGowan. "But my father is expecting me home to help work the farm this summer. I'll have to write and ask his permission to stay on here."

Barney McGowan smiled. "Ah, the farm," he said, dismissing it. "I predict that you are done with farming, young man. Your father is a country physician in Illinois, I believe? I have been meaning to inquire. There was a man several years ahead of me at University College Hospital in Edinburgh. Same name as yourself."

"Yes. That was my father. He tells the identical anecdote you told our anatomy cla.s.s, about Sir William Fergusson's description of a corpse as a home from which the owner has moved."