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Annabelle As I watch Gabriel raise the gun and point it at me, a familiar sense of inevitability washes through me. It doesn't lessen the shock of the moment, though. Death at the hands of the person you love most in this world is never easy to take.

Guess he doesn't love me quite as much.

Unlike the other times, I can see in his eyes that he means to do it. There's almost a crazed quality to the look he gives me. He has the gun fully raised now. The shot fires and, even though I had those few seconds to brace myself, my entire body jerks back, a rush of air leaves my body.

For a long moment, I look down at the red stain growing on my torso, then all strength leaves my body and I crumple to the floor. Falling onto my back, with my legs bent at the knees and to the side, I close my eyes. Opening them a moment later, I look up at the ornate ceiling of the suite. The sun from the large bay windows is reflecting off the gold molding above me, giving it a heavenly glow. I'm sure that's all it is. I'm not so sure that heaven is for me. Not so sure that I even believe in it.

It's so hard to breathe.



"Annie!" I hear Jackson call out from the doorway behind me at the same time I hear Gabriel shout, "Anna!"

As I struggle for breath, I rasp out, "No," but I don't know if it's even loud enough to be heard. Ironically, I'm more fearful for Gabriel right now than I am for myself.

Jackson is going to kill him.

Gabriel's face is suddenly hovering over mine. I feel no anger, just incredible sadness. In the back of my mind, I guess I always knew this was a very real possibility, but I just couldn't let him go in order to save myself. Gabriel's kneeling body is roughly pushed aside and Jackson's face comes into view.

"No," I manage to rasp out more forcefully, looking Jackson straight in the eyes. The difficulty of getting the word out causes me to cough. The feel of blood spraying out of my mouth and onto my face as I'm coughing confirms the severity of my wound.

Jackson just shakes his head stubbornly as I plead with my eyes, not sure I have the air to speak aloud again. Finally, reluctantly, he nods.

Gabriel is safe.

I feel something being pressed against me and realize that one of them is putting pressure on the wound. "Hold this!" Jackson yells. The pressure is momentarily gone and then back again.

Jackson's face leaves my sight and Gabriel's is back. The horror and devastation in his eyes does nothing to make me feel better. It is what it is. I'm not one to romanticize situations like this. They just plain suck.

Through my pain and panic, I wonder about the shock on Gabriel's face. What does he have to be shocked about? He's the one who pulled the trigger. Did he not realize that my bleeding to death would be the result?

Why now? What finally set him off?

My eyelids feel heavy so I close them. I feel so tired and at the same time panicky and out of breath. Faraway sounding, Jackson starts yelling about paramedics and an ambulance, so I figure he must be on the phone with the front desk. I doubt dialing 911 would help here in Stockholm. Didn't really think we'd ever need that info while here. I thought I was invincible . . . .

I know I'm panting, gasping for breath since I feel as if I'm suffocating, but I can't hear it anymore. There seems to be a roaring in my ears. Feeling dizzy, I force my eyes open to see Gabriel again. Before I close my eyes for good, I have to tell him something.

His eyes are pleading with mine, with tears spilling over, and he's saying something, but I can't hear it. This is the end for me and him. Keeping eye contact with him, I have to tell him, I want him to never doubt it. When my mouth starts to move, he brings his face closer.

"Loved you."

Gabriel When Anna closes her eyes, I feel as if my whole world is cras.h.i.+ng down. My heart is beating so fast in my chest that I feel as if it's going to burst. Remorse, regret, pain, those words aren't nearly strong enough to describe what I'm feeling. Though her, I'm feeling death.

'Loved you' was what she said. Not wanting to think about her exact meaning, I shake my head and glance up at Jackson, where he's pacing, gripping the hotel room phone with white knuckles. I think the front desk put him through to an emergency line, because he's staring at Anna on the floor and giving them information on her condition.

I look back down at Anna and use the tail of my sweater to wipe the blood from the corners of her mouth. There's too much blood pooled around us to effectively wipe up, but at least her face is cleaner. Still holding pressure on the wound with my free hand, I brush back a piece of hair that's fallen into her eyes. Not that they're open.

Please open.

I can't believe I shot her. She could be dying right now. As the reality of the situation starts to really sink in, I briefly let go of the pressure on her wound and grip her shoulders, pulling her upper body onto my lap, cradling the back of her neck with one palm. Then I return the pressure, using the hotel towel that's no longer white.

Her breathing is labored and I'm not sure if she has much time left. If these are her last moments, I just want to hold her, but I still have to keep pressure on the wound. The blood is flowing so fast. At the close range that I shot her, it went in through her front and out her back. Inadequately, I place a palm at her back to try to stop the blood flow. Her head falls limply back without the support of my hand.

I press my lips roughly against her forehead as my tears stream down my face.

This is really happening. I killed my girl. I glance up at Jackson and meet his hard stare. There's some comfort in knowing that I'll soon follow her. Jackson probably won't let me live to see tomorrow. I move my left ear closer to her lips, wanting to hear it, if she breathes her last breath.

Even though I know she can't hear me, I still have to tell her what's in my heart. "I love you too, Anna. I'm so sorry, baby, I didn't mean it. Please don't die. But if you do, I'll be seeing you again soon."

Just then, there's a knock on the door. Jackson moves to answer it. A short middle-aged man wearing gla.s.ses rushes through the hotel room, speaking rapid Swedish and carrying a black leather bag. The thud of Jackson dropping the phone on the floor sounds out right before he's helping the man pull Anna out of my arms. I hand her over, hoping that this little man can work a big miracle.

Jackson yells, "Englis.h.!.+" at him and they start conversing. The man is a guest at the hotel and a doctor who was in the lobby when Jackson called to be put through to emergency services. The doctor is going to work on Anna until paramedics arrive.

The grim set of the doctor's face and his sympathetic eyes when he looks at me lets me know how hopeless the situation is. The doctor puts a mask over Anna's face and starts pumping air through her mouth, he also cuts open her s.h.i.+rt to look at the wound. With Jackson and me helping him, he works over her.

The next few minutes pa.s.s in a whirlwind of Swedish when paramedics arrive and move Anna onto a gurney. I have no idea what they're saying as they wheel her body to the elevators.

Cras.h.i.+ng into Jackson at the entrance of the stairwell to meet them in the lobby, he pushes me and gives me a look of pure hatred. "Get the f.u.c.k out of here, Gabriel, unless you want to end up in prison or dead!"

Letting him go ahead of me, I rush down the stairs behind him. By the time we enter the lobby, it's in time to see the elevator open and the gurney being pushed out. Following them out into the bright suns.h.i.+ne, the ambulance is waiting in front of the lobby doors. As the ambulance doors are closing behind them, I see one of the paramedics use a defibrillator on her chest and Anna's body jump in response to the shock of the paddles.

I don't even notice Jackson standing next to me until he says, "Her heart stopped." Then his fist flies at my face, knocking me out.

Waking up, I groan at the pounding in my head. Opening my eyes partway, I see that it's dark outside and I'm in a moving car. Turning my head to the right, I see that Jackson is behind the wheel. There's a hard set to his jaw and he doesn't look my way even though he must know that I've gained consciousness. A sense of determination is radiating off of him. Weird, that he was somehow able to load my pa.s.sed out body into this car. Which I'm pretty sure is stolen since it isn't the one we rented when we arrived at the airport in Sweden.

I clear my throat, "Are we going to the hospital?"

It's a long moment before he answers me, "We already stopped there."

Okay. "Where are we heading?"

He grounds out, "Airport," before finally looking at me. "You'll want to change your clothes. Bag's in the back."

Choking on her name, I ask, "Anna?"

There's another lengthy pause before he says, "Dead." His eyes water, but he manages to blink back the tears.

At first I feel nothing, shock. Then the dam breaks and I start to sob uncontrollably, moaning, "Oh G.o.d," over and over again. Anna. When Jackson reaches into the backseat and drops my carryon bag onto my lap, I numbly pull out a s.h.i.+rt and pants. Pulling off my bloodstained sweater and slacks, I've finished getting dressed by the time we pull up to the pa.s.senger drop off point of an airport terminal. Jackson hands me something and I automatically take it. It's my pa.s.sport. I glance at the time on the dash. The private plane should still be waiting.

Not getting out, just sitting in silence, I wonder what's going on in Jackson's head. "Why are you doing this, Jackson? Letting me go and not killing me?"

He doesn't answer until I look at him. I see the hatred in his red-rimmed eyes, along with a sheen of unshed tears. He swallows hard. "Because she loved you. She wouldn't want you dead." Jackson reaches across me to grip the door handle and push open my door. "Now get the f.u.c.k out before I change my mind."

Stumbling out of the car, I'm at a loss, feeling only agony. Anna.

Somehow, an hour and forty-five minutes later, I'm staring out the small plane window. Looking down as the city lights of Stockholm disappear below, I think about all of my dead loved ones. Within a half hour of taking off, I'm drunk off my a.s.s and tearing apart the cabin. Anna!

I finally pa.s.s out drunk and when I wake up, there's no more shock, no more, "Oh G.o.d." Just self-hatred, intense despair and pain. So much pain, more than I'd ever imagined. She's dead. Just like my parents, but for her death I can blame no one but myself. Why didn't Jackson just kill me? Really, he'd be doing me a favor. I'm sure wherever Anna is right now she's not wis.h.i.+ng me well. If I were her, I'd be wis.h.i.+ng me as dead as she is. What have I done?

Two days later, I'm standing at my mother's grave as dirt is being tossed onto her casket. Max and Aunt Lucy are on either side of me, each holding one of my hands. As much as I'm grieving for my mom, I have to wonder if Anna is being put to rest at this very moment too.

Did she get a proper burial with a beautiful white tombstone like my mother? Or does a girl-a.s.sa.s.sin who never really existed on record anywhere get an unmarked grave? Will it have one of her aliases on it? I don't even know which country she'll be buried in. I can't even put flowers on her grave. She deserves flowers.

I tried calling Jackson's cell this morning, desperate to at least know where her body will put to rest, or if she'll be cremated, but it's already been disconnected. Then I tried getting a hold of Marie Perrot, but she isn't accepting my calls. If she knows what happened in Stockholm, I can't say I blame her.

As I walk across the gra.s.s, away from my mother's grave, I think about what a waste it would be to plan a future for myself at this point. Not that I want one. Jackson may have let me go in Sweden, but I don't think he'll be able to hold onto that idea for long. Just as I went after Annabelle for revenge, he'll eventually be forced to come after me. His hatred for me will demand it.

I guess I do have one plan for the future. Sit and wait. Wait for my own death at Jackson's hand.

I deserve nothing else. Oh G.o.d, Anna.

Chapter 34.

Gabriel August 24th Dear Anna, Max brought me this journal yesterday, saying that I need to get out my feelings somehow, and if I wasn't going to talk to him or my aunt (or a shrink), that I should at least use this to talk to myself. The problem is, I don't want to talk to anyone but you. But you're dead. If I pretend you're listening as I write in this journal, will you hear me in heaven? Maybe you're an ethereal ghost reading over my shoulder?

Guess Max is concerned about me going off the deep end. If I could speak about it, I'd tell him that I lost my mind when I killed you. Everything else is just the fallout.

Baby, I killed you. It seems so unreal.

I love you still.

I'm so, so sorry.

I've been waiting in this monstrosity of a house for two months, rarely leaving, rarely seeing any visitors other than my aunt and cousin. Funny, the house didn't seem as big when my parents were alive. Sometimes, I can still imagine my mom here, flitting from room to room like a hummingbird, making sure everything was perfect. Not to mention the servants, security men and other employees of ours who always seemed to fill the place. And when my dad would arrive home from a business trip, the place would practically buzz with activity.

I've dismissed all of them. Dust collects, rooms are closed up and the guard booth is empty. The lawns and gardens look like c.r.a.p, but what's the point?

My bedroom is a coc.o.o.n that shelters me from the outside world. When I make trips downstairs to answer the door for pizza delivery, or to the kitchen to fetch something, I quickly hurry back to this sanctuary. With the curtains drawn and my eyes closed, I can imagine that you're lying next to me.

I'm sleeping with a gun beside my bed, but when the time comes, and he comes, I won't put up a fight.

If I die too, will we be together again? My mom's way out of heartbreak was suicide. That's not an option for me. My faith taught me that all suicide gets you is a one-way ticket to h.e.l.l. Although I'm not sure I believe that, I can't take any chances. Or maybe I'm just a coward.

I don't think you're in h.e.l.l. Nothing was your fault. Weren't you a victim as much as me? What kind of sick creep raises a young girl to kill?

I'll be patient and wait for Jackson to do me the favor. Then I'll see you again. Holding on to that thought is all I live for, if you can call this living.

A knock on my bedroom door interrupts my writing and is quickly followed by it swinging open and Max walking in uninvited. Shoving the black journal under my pillow, I shoot him a dirty look. "Jeez Max, why bother knocking?"

If he noticed me writing in the journal, he's being polite enough to not comment on it.

He shrugs unrepentantly, smirking. "I figured you might need a little warning, just in case you were making love to yourself." Obviously, he's comfortable enough to be rude about other things.

Throwing a pillow, it nails him on his big misshaped head. "You're freaking hilarious, Max, maybe you should skip college and become a comedian."

With a pitying look, he says, "Well, I feel sorry for you, man, I have a feeling you haven't gotten any in long while." He pauses then arches his eyebrows. "Unless you've had some call girls up in this tomb?" He still thinks I never found Anna and that my deep depression is for my parents.

"Go away, Max."

Holding a hand over his chest, his face reflects mock injury. "That hurts, Gabriel. Tomorrow I leave for New York and you'll regret all this grumpiness towards me."

Feeling a twinge of guilt, I attempt a smile and fail. "I'll miss you, Cuz."

The playful look on his face disappears. "Maybe I shouldn't go. Are you going to be all right all alone here?"

Not wanting him to worry, since I don't expect to be around much longer, I blow him off, "Don't worry about me. With your mom running the businesses and Pizza Hut feeding me, I'll be fine."

He still looks worried and makes one last attempt, "Come on, man. Come with me to New York. It'll be fun." The cunning gleam in his dark eyes warns me of what he's about to say, "Think of all the new chicks we'll meet."

I don't want to meet them. I don't want anything to do with them or anyone else. Rolling my eyes at him, I say, "Have fun in New York."

"You need to forget her. It's been ten months since she disappeared, she's not coming back, Gabriel." He doesn't know the half of it.

"I know." But I can't. I won't ever.

When Max shuts the door behind him, I pull the journal out from underneath my pillow. The white skull and crossbones on the front cover add a nice touch and are totally fitting. I've become well acquainted with Death. I've even taken a couple turns at playing Death myself.

Opening the cover, I reach over onto my nightstand and pick up the picture of Anna and me in Barbados, just weeks before I killed her. Scooting off the bed, I walk over to my black computer desk to scrounge up some tape out of the drawer. Using mailing tape, I use it to secure the picture on the inside cover of the journal.

Holding it under the desk lamp, I stare at her in the picture. She'd dyed her hair reddish brown a week after we arrived in Barbados. The white cotton dress she's wearing was a favorite of mine. Closing my eyes, I can still imagine stroking the golden skin on her shoulders that day as I listened to her melodic voice. We talked about everything and nothing, just happy to be together. We were so in love, soaking in each other's presence. At the time, I'd thought we'd be together forever.

Sitting down in the high back leather chair, I push my laptop out of the way and drop the journal onto the desk. Continuing, I start where I left off . . .

Anna, do you remember when we went to that touristy restaurant in Barbados and a man came up to our table to take our picture? If we hadn't bought that picture from him, I would have nothing but my memories of you. Looking at it, your happy face, your s.h.i.+ning brown eyes, I think about the way you looked as you lay dying on that hotel room floor days later.

Your eyes weren't s.h.i.+ning with happiness then, but with the sorrow and tears I put there. I wish you would have looked at me like you hated me at that moment, instead of just looking so incredibly sad, even disappointed.

We loved each other so much. Do you still love me now? Have you seen your parents or mine in the afterlife? If you see mine, tell them that I love them. If you see yours, tell them that I'm eternally sorry.

Yours Forever, Gabriel *****

Glancing in the rearview mirror, I realize I need a shave. Probably won't do anything about it, though. My almost black facial hair is growing in with a red tint to it, mismatched with my dark brown hair. The beard and mustache, combined with the faded brown hoodie I'm wearing, make me look homeless. Like a homeless man driving a stolen Ferrari.

Settling back into the leather driver's seat, I sit and stare at the building in front of me. Empty and for lease most of the year, in October it's br.i.m.m.i.n.g with business with the temporary Halloween store occupying it.

Thinking back a year ago, to the time when Anna and I came here together, makes me want to burn the building down. I don't even know what I'm doing here, torturing myself with old memories. I'm stalking a G.o.d d.a.m.n costume store.

Disgusted with myself, I pull out of the parking s.p.a.ce, driving down the boulevard to my original destination upon leaving the house, the grocery store.

October 17th Annabelle, I left the house today for the first time this month. Went to the grocery store for essentials, milk, bread, peanut b.u.t.ter, etc. My aunt says she isn't doing it for me anymore, that it'll be good for me to get out and run my own errands. After checking out, I was pus.h.i.+ng the cart out to my car when a black SUV with heavily tinted windows slowly drove by me. It felt as if my heart had stopped beating, I was so sure it was Jackson. After almost four months, my thought was, 'about time'. You can imagine my disappointment when the driver parked the SUV and out of the vehicle climbed a soccer mom and her brats.

When is he coming? How long will he wait to avenge your murder? For killing you, I deserve to die a horrible death. Why didn't he do it in Sweden? Maybe he plans to prolong my suffering. If not him, you'd think he'd sic Brent or Simon on me. How much longer will he make me wait?

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