Songs Of Willow Frost: A Novel Part 16

"It's not a studio, exactly," Colin said. "The local unions produce small movies and shorts to further their cause. Ever since Upton Sinclair signed on to write screenplays for the railway unions, labor films have been all the rage. This one is called The New Disciple. It's a political film in the form of a love story. I'm just a walk-on, but it's a real photoplay-a real movie. Even if it's not quite a real set. It's a wonderful place for you to learn the ropes, I think."

As they turned the corner Liu Song saw a throng of people crowding the sidewalk in front of a large display window. The painted marquee read, ALL ROADS LEAD TO RHODES. The retailer's storefront was so crowded Liu Song could hardly see inside. At first she a.s.sumed that the store must have received a new s.h.i.+pment of console radios, which were growing in popularity, but as they crossed the street and got closer, she saw that the window display had been decorated like a living room with sofa, chairs, lamps, potted plants, and even a high-walled backdrop with curtained windows and a wooden fireplace. Instead of mannequins, a film crew in s.h.i.+rtsleeves and hanging suspenders were setting up lights and giant reflectors. A cameraman stretched a measuring tape from the lens of a large movie camera to the middle of the set. Liu Song stared wide-eyed as Colin led her inside and through the housewares department to where a small corner of the store had been roped off. A security guard stopped them until he found Colin's name on a clipboard, then he stepped aside and tipped his hat. A production a.s.sistant ushered them to a busy area behind the set where they sat on a bench with other extras and bit players.

Liu Song pointed to a pair of tall folding chairs in front of them. The canvas chair backs faced in their direction as a makeup artist attended to the occupants.

"Those are the stars: Pell Trenton and Norris Johnson," Colin whispered.

Liu Song read their names, which were written in grease pencil on the backs of the chairs. Even from behind she could admire Pell's das.h.i.+ng, broad-shouldered physique and Norris's elegantly styled hair and long gown.

"I'm so grateful you're here," Colin said. "You calm my nerves."

Liu Song felt the opposite. She wished he could return the favor as she forced a smile. "How many movies have you been in now?"

"Five," Colin said. "Each time as an extra. Today I play a servant in a rich man's house. I don't get a credit, but at least I appear on-screen quite a bit-that is, if I don't end up on the cutting room floor when they edit everything together. And of course I get another notch on my resume."

The production a.s.sistant wandered back and shouted for stand-ins. Liu Song had no idea what he meant. Colin smiled and took her hand as he stood up, waved, and quickly volunteered the two of them.

"What are we doing?" Liu Song felt lost. "I have no idea what ..."

Colin whispered in her ear as they were being led onto the set. "The director has called for stand-ins. They need two extras in front of the camera for a practice run. We'll just be in for a few minutes so the camera operator can adjust the timing and measure the lens's focal length. We stand in until they're ready to roll film. This way the stars look fresh for the camera instead of melting. It's fun, you'll see. Just mind that you don't look directly into the lights-they can do permanent damage. Miriam Cooper burned her eyes by looking into the lights on the set of Kindred of the Dust."

Liu Song hardly understood a word he said. She wondered if this was what it was like for her mother, stepping onstage for the very first time. But this audience was a film crew who seemed unimpressed. To the crew, she and Colin were merely placeholders, living statues that they casually regarded as they moved lights, adjusted reflectors, and took measurements.

Liu Song felt heat radiating from the lights. Then her heart skipped a beat as she saw the director, a tall man with a tiny megaphone, take his seat next to an olive-skinned gentleman with a pencil-thin mustache who peered through the camera.

"Hey, Chop Suey, you do speak English, don't you?" the director asked.

"And French, Latin, and a little bit of Italian," Colin said. "Va bene?"

"Great, an aristocrat," the cameraman said. "Take two steps back, Your Majesty."

Colin smiled and pointed to two Xs on the floor marked with tape. "This is where we stand," he told Liu Song. They moved back as five other extras stood in the background, pretending to talk and laugh politely.

"The camera's not rolling," Colin said. "This is playacting, so you have nothing to worry about. But it's good practice for a bigger opportunity that's coming up."

Liu Song had sung before busloads of strangers. She'd wandered backstage during many of her father's productions, so she'd grown accustomed to that type of performance. Filmmaking, on the other hand, was new, foreign, and yet deliriously intriguing. She drew a deep breath, swallowed, and nodded, wondering what else Colin might have in store.

"Just another performance," Colin said as he touched her arm and smiled rea.s.suringly. "For now. This is the beginning for us. Someday William will see you on the screen in a real movie. Imagine how proud he'll be."

Welfare.

(1924).

When Liu Song arrived at b.u.t.terfield's the next morning, she found a peculiar woman playing the piano and humming a strange hymn. Her hair was tinted a light shade of pink and pulled up so tightly that her eyebrows seemed to be jerked back in a look of perpetual surprise. Her eyes were blue, like ice, and her unpainted lips were like a slit that divided the vertical wrinkles on her face into northern and southern halves. The song she played was a lullaby, but to Liu Song the melody was a funeral march.

"h.e.l.lo, I'm Mrs. Peterson," the woman said as she stepped from the piano and extended a limp, white-gloved handshake to Liu Song, letting go quickly as though she didn't appreciate the touch of others. "I'm with the Child Welfare League and I'd like to ask you a few questions, if I may?"

Liu Song felt ambushed and woefully unprepared. Was this Uncle Leo's doing? Had he found out about William? "Do I have a choice?"

"No." Mrs. Peterson gazed back without emotion. "You don't."

Mr. b.u.t.terfield parted the curtain that separated the showroom floor from the storeroom. He smiled and held up a cup of tea on an unmatched saucer. "Ah, Liu Song, I see you've met our special guest." He offered the cup to Mrs. Peterson, who squinted at the coffee-stained china. She took one polite sip and then set the cup aside.

"If this is about William," Liu Song said in her best English, "I a.s.sure you, he's doing very well. He's very healthy, very fat. A happy boy."

The woman looked around the store, then back at Liu Song. "This is strictly routine. It's my job to follow up with all single mothers when the child gets to an age of moral viability. It's not just the feeding and clothing and diaper changing that the state worries about, but the social environment, the condition of the mother." Mrs. Peterson cleared her throat. "And her circ.u.mstances."

"I can certainly vouch for her character," Mr. b.u.t.terfield said. "Liu Song here is quite responsible. She's both industrious and thrifty."

"And I'm sure you'll appreciate that as one who profits from her talents." Mrs. Peterson opened up a ledger and began writing in tiny, perfect penmans.h.i.+p. "Your testimony is appreciated, in direct proportion to how biased it is."

Liu Song looked at her employer and blinked, hoping he would understand how thankful she was, for the job, and for the effort.

"You are an Oriental. Chinese, I presume. Where were you born?"

Liu Song explained how she'd been born at home, in Seattle, with a midwife at her mother's side. Liu Song didn't have a copy of her birth certificate, but her mother had registered her at the King County Court House two months after she'd been born.

"And do you have any family? Any relatives whom I could speak with? People who support you and how you intend to raise young ..." The woman looked at her notes.

"William," Liu Song said. "And no, my mother died before William was born. The rest of my family ... all of them are gone, taken by the flu, or moved away." As she spoke, Liu Song realized just how terribly alone she was. William was everything to her. She felt such affection for Colin, but what she felt for her son was beyond comparison. She would live for Colin, but she would die for William.

Liu Song sat up straight, smiling-not too broadly, but not too meekly. She suddenly wished she'd dressed more modestly. She did her best to answer each probing, leading, condemning question without revealing something that would be sharpened and twisted and used against her. Her English was good, but she still had to stop and ask Mrs. Peterson to repeat the questions, again and again, not because she didn't understand the wording but because she was afraid that she might answer incorrectly. Mr. b.u.t.terfield chirped up twice more, and twice he was politely dismissed.

"Well, it's nice to see that a girl like you can earn an honest living. It's not entirely reputable, but it's legal. And from the news clippings that your employer shared with me before you arrived, it appears you have a knack for this type of thing." Mrs. Peterson spoke with grudging approval as she shook her head.

Liu Song thanked her, feeling slighted but relieved.

"Now." Mrs. Peterson stood up and closed her ledger. "Seeing as how you are gainfully employed, all that's left is a home interview and inspection. I'll need your address. And how soon can I meet your son?"

Liu Song had been afraid of that. She'd been able to support herself, to buy food and clothing, but she had little else-a bed, a lamp, an old davenport sofa with holes and tears that she'd tried to patch with what sewing supplies she could afford. William had a third-hand crib, a dresser with unmatched drawers, missing all but one k.n.o.b, and a few toys.

"How about next week?" Liu Song asked.

"How about tomorrow?" Mrs. Peterson reb.u.t.ted. "The sooner, the better."

Partially Pregnant.

(1924).

Mrs. Peterson arrived the next day, twenty minutes early. Fortunately, Liu Song had expected she might and prepared accordingly. She had splurged on half a duck, and the bird was roasting in the oven, filling the tiny apartment with a comforting, savory aroma. Her furniture and decorations looked somewhat mismatched, but quaint, modest, and ordinary-exactly the image she wanted to portray.

"You'll do fine," Colin had rea.s.sured her. "Just be yourself."

"And what if I'm not good enough?" Liu Song had asked.

"You're an actress-just play the part."

Liu Song wasn't sure what would be more nerve-racking, standing in front of a packed theater or playing to an audience of one. But she smiled and invited the woman in nonetheless, just as the teakettle began to whistle. Liu Song didn't ask, she went ahead and poured two cups and placed them on the newly installed coffee table, along with some black bean tea cookies, before offering Mrs. Peterson a seat on the sofa. Liu Song noticed an old theater handbill sticking out from behind the cus.h.i.+ons and stuffed it back down just as William walked into the room. One shoe was untied, but aside from that he looked darling in his handsome blue coveralls.

"Hi," he said cheerfully as he waved and sat down on the floor where Liu Song had placed a brand-new toy train. She'd bought it after work today, specifically for William to have something new to play with while the home inspector visited.

If Mrs. Peterson enjoyed children, it was hard to tell as she glanced at William with the same polite detachment that she used toward the furniture. Liu Song noticed that the woman kept her white gloves on and peeked at her fingertips whenever she touched something, searching for evidence of dust or dirt.

"You have a lovely home," Mrs. Peterson said in a blunt, matter-of-fact manner that made it seem as though she felt otherwise. "Just the two of you then?"

Liu Song nodded and explained her arrangement with Mildred Chew, who was practically a part-time nanny, and how they'd once been cla.s.smates. Liu Song made sure to reference her own high school diploma, which she'd earned a year early.

Liu Song followed Mrs. Peterson as she opened her ledger and walked about the tiny apartment, inspecting the bathroom, the screened-off bedroom Liu Song shared with William, the magazines-Life, Vogue, Collier's-that were arranged on an end table. She seemed particularly interested in the Chinese curios and decorations that sat on a bookcase, the small family altar where Liu Song lit candles, burned incense, and offered bits of embroidery to honor her parents, and the mask Liu Song's mother had worn. The woman touched it and flinched as though it might bite. She went on to check the windows, the radiator, the icebox; she even opened the oven, but she didn't write anything in her book.

"You're welcome to stay for dinner," Liu Song offered.

"Are you currently married?" Mrs. Peterson asked, ignoring Liu Song's gesture of hospitality. "And if your husband is not around, have you been legally divorced?"

William was cras.h.i.+ng his wooden train into the leg of the table, making train noises and giggling. Liu Song picked him up, resting him on her hip, train and all, as he spun the toy's wheels.

"No," she blurted. "Of course not. I'm not sure I understand ..."

Mrs. Peterson stared at her. "I am aware that you have been seeing someone."

"I have a friend. His name is Colin Kwan. I'm not sure how serious he is."

"Dadda," William said, looking at the two women with rapt, curious eyes.

A moment of silence lingered among the three of them. Liu Song smiled nervously and rocked her son, but she was painfully aware of Mrs. Peterson's condemning gaze.

"So, who is the father, exactly?" Mrs. Peterson looked into her ledger. "The birth certificate states that a Mr. Eng ..."

"It's hard to explain," Liu Song said. Please don't ask me this.

"It always is, dear."

William dropped the train and wiggled his feet to get down.

"He's not exactly anything ..."

"You can't be partially pregnant, young lady. This Leo Eng is either the father or not the father. It would appear that he is your husband since you share the same last name, but it seems like this Colin fellow has a certain place in your life as well ..."

"Why do you need to know this?" Liu Song asked. "You can see that my son is perfectly healthy. I have a home. He is cared for ..."

"It's not his physical well-being that we care about. It's the morality of those he is raised by. You claim to be unmarried. You don't want to talk about the father. You sing, act, and dance for a living. It's not beyond reason to think that you're compromised ..."

"I'm not."

"But you can see how it looks. You're lucky that you're an Oriental woman. In most situations a woman like you would lose the child immediately. But, seeing as how no one would adopt a yellow baby, well ..."

William walked over to Mrs. Peterson and offered her his train. He smiled and batted his eyes.

The woman drew a deep breath and took the toy, thanking William. "Look, Miss Eng, I'm going to have to recommend the removal of your son until we can determine who the father is. You must respect his paternal rights."

William looked back at Liu Song and waved.

"But if you could cooperate and tell me who this man is, the judge might be lenient in his final decision. What can you tell me? Or I could just go find this Mr. Eng and get his side of the story-that's how it works in many instances. You could still invoke the tender years doctrine, which would allow you to care for your son until he's of age to be returned to his rightful father. But the problem is that if you don't tell me who the father is, someone might a.s.sume you have other things to hide, that you're not who you say you are, which may complicate things as far as your citizens.h.i.+p, and that of your son."

Liu Song swallowed hard as she watched William. "When my father died, my mother remarried another man, out of necessity-out of desperation. But later she fell ill as well and pa.s.sed away. And this fellow, this man my mother married, he kept me for a while as a servant ..." Liu Song looked down at her empty hands, her fingers appearing aged and wrinkled beyond her years. "He was my stepfather. His last name was Eng."

The point of Mrs. Peterson's pencil broke, and she stared at the broken lead and the blemish on her paper. She adjusted her spectacles and wrinkled her nose. "And as far as you know this Eng person doesn't even know he's fathered this ..."

"His name is William," Liu Song said. As she watched Mrs. Peterson, awaiting her reaction, she noticed that the woman's hands seemed to shake and her fingers trembled ever so slightly. "And no, I don't think he knows, nor do I think he cares."

Mrs. Peterson closed her ledger and drew a deep breath. She reached for the nearest teacup and took a long sip. Then she removed her gla.s.ses and folded them carefully, stowing them in a bra.s.s case. "Well, when your mother died he stopped being your stepfather and you stopped being his stepdaughter. Legally, I'm going to have to tell him. He's still the father, and he still may want the child."

The woman frowned at William as though he were a stain on the carpet, a mess she had to clean up. Liu Song chewed her lip as the social worker removed her gloves and placed a hand on William's head, brus.h.i.+ng his dark cowlick to one side. The stern woman c.o.c.ked her head as she observed him playing, then looked up and wiped her hand on her knee. "He's the spitting image of you."

Liu Song wasn't sure if that was a compliment or an insult. She glanced at her reflection in the mirror and saw how pale she looked. Her hands were wet and clammy, and her eyes welled up with hot tears, but she refused to cry in front of this woman; she didn't want to be pitied and she didn't want to beg.

"I think we're done here. I have all I need," Mrs. Peterson said as she donned her gloves and stood up. "I wish you the very best of luck. I'll let you know as soon as I hear back from Mr. Eng. But, considering the circ.u.mstances, I don't think he'd want the child. Most men don't-at least until the diapers are done with."

But Uncle Leo wasn't like most men. Liu Song thanked her and picked up William, who waved goodbye. "But what if he does?"

"Then I would offer a suggestion, Miss Eng, the same one I offer to all girls in your situation, though usually I do it right after the child is born." Mrs. Peterson paused at the door. She looked down at her ledger and then at Liu Song. "It's an unfair world, filled with vile men and hapless women, but none of that matters to me at this point. I just want whatever is best for the child, and in this case, your son is still very young."

"What does that mean?"

"It means a child doesn't always have to know who his mother is-but a boy needs a father," Mrs. Peterson said bluntly. "You've made your bed. I suppose you'll just have to lie in it. But William doesn't have to lie there with you. Good day."

The Eyes of the Totem.

(1924).

Chinatown had always been a place of comfort for Liu Song, despite her detours around Uncle Leo's laundry and the gaming halls where she feared his shadow. But now that fear had an aspect of inevitability. He would know about William. Liu Song shuddered. He won't want anything to do with us, she'd rea.s.sured herself. He was a superst.i.tious fool, and her mother's ghost had scared him away. But in broad daylight she felt less certain. She had tried not to panic. Instead, she took Colin's encouragement to heart and followed him to every casting call, every audition, every chance possible, from films for the Communist Workers' Theatre to government-sponsored shorts like Fit to Fight that warned soldiers about the perils of venereal disease. She lingered with Colin outside local studios hoping to be seen and suffered through bullpens of extras hoping for a few dollars for a day's work. She hoped to find work that would take her and William away from this city. And with each outing she gave serious consideration to changing her name. Not creating a stage name. The name she found herself desperately pining for was Liu Song Kwan. She thought the name had a magical ring to it, and if Collin married her, he could adopt William. But she also knew that as much as he cared for her, and she for him, marriage could present other problems. How long could he stay in this country under the pretense of being a merchant? And when he left, she and William would have to go with him. But even that was better than losing her son.