The Cygnet And The Firebird Part 4

"I'll teach you."

"Unfortunately, I lack grace." She set the gla.s.s on the table and stood quietly, not moving or speaking, simply looking at him until his smile finally faltered and he turned away.

She picked up the gla.s.s again, took a hefty swallow. Someone else stepped to her side and marvelled, "You made Urbin Dacey blush."

She lowered the gla.s.s with some relief. "Rush."

He brushed a crumb off her sleeve. "It takes a complex sorcery to discomfit Urbin. He won't give up easily, though. I've seen him watching you. He plays a game he hates to lose."

"I have no time for games," she said, feeling the weight of the key in her pocket- Rush looked at her silently a moment; she glimpsed a familiar curiosity in his eyes and wondered what realm she had neglected to explore- He asked the question in his eyes.

"Does sorcery preclude love?"

"I wouldn't know. It's not in Chrysom's books."

"Is that all you-" he began, then saw he was being teased. He smiled a little, still curious, while she helped herself to a plate of tiny biscuits rolled in poppy seeds and spices. She said, because he wanted to know, "I take after my mother, who roamed Ro Holding when she was young and found three fathers for three daughters. Sorcery does not preclude curiosity, and I have satisfied my curiosity at times. But-"

"With whom?"

Like her mother, she ignored the question. "But you have to stand still for love. I could never stand still."

"Like Urbin," he said, then flushed a little. But she mulled that over calmly.

"Maybe. But at least I'm honest."

"Yes," he said, not looking at her, but she saw the memories in his eyes. "Urbin has a thousand ways of saying one thing. You don't hide behind language, which is why he can't find, among his thousand ways. the one way to make you listen. Neither could I," he added, but lightly, and she smiled, seeing no bitterness in his eyes.

"Now," she said, "we listen to one another." She touched his arm and turned, to find Arlen Hunter in her path, who had come to tell her what he believed about her, and what he didn't, feeling it was important for her to know. She extracted herself abruptly from his muddle of awe and prurience, deciding that no effort to please her mother was worth becoming civilized for this. She slipped away to wait for moonrise.

Across the hall, Meguet, disarmed, dressed in red silk and gold, found siege laid against her own patience. Tur Hunter, blue-eyed, golden-haired, heir to Hunter Hold, had lost, he said, his heart to her green eyes. He was smiling, but relentless, burning hot and cold, and willing to fight a slight to his pride. She said carefully, "My own heart is bound to this house; my eyes are not free to stray."

"Not from the gate?" he said, his smile thinning, and she felt the blood rise in her face. "Your whims are your business, but you should have some respect for your own heritage. What in Moro's name can you do with a Gatekeeper?"

"Love him," she said simply, with no tact whatsoever. Tur Hunter snorted, flus.h.i.+ng.

"What will you do? Marry him and live among the cottagers?"

She shrugged slightly. "I hadn't thought. If past is status, some among the cottagers can trace their families back a thousand years, when Moro Ro's status in Ro Holding was that he had a bigger cottage than anyone else and a bloodier sword."

"And what does your Gatekeeper have?" he retorted. "Born among tortoises and river rats, he still has the swamp in his voice. You'll tire of that soon enough."

"Then," she said, keeping her voice steady with an effort, "it is not worth your breath to interfere, since I will cast him aside eventually over the cadence of lilies and slow dark water and small birds in his voice."

Tur was silent a breath, then changed weapons. "Now," he said solicitously, and took her hand in his, "I have put you in the position of having to defend him. I have made you angry. That was hardly my intention. If the Holder hasn't interfered in your infatuation with the murkier side of the Delta, it must be because she is wiser than I am, and knows it is like the elusive, colorful swamp lights, of little substance and will burn itself out. Tell me what I can do to persuade you to forgive me."

She almost suggested something. But the Holder was beside her suddenly, as if summoned by the swamp lights smoldering in the air between them.

"Tur," she said, fixing a dark eye upon him, "stop trying to lure my niece to Hunter Hold; I need her here. She is one of the foundation stones of this house, like my Gatekeeper, and I won't free her for all the gold in Hunter Hold. Go and get me wine and take it outside and drink it." She took Meguet's arm, forcing Tur to loose her hand, and led her to the hearth. It was cold, unoccupied, and offered a moment of privacy within the crowded hall.

Meguet said softly, "I can fight my own battles. Though I didn't think I would have to."

The Holder, who loved fires, eyed the empty grate wistfully. She said, "Neither did I, but then I never admitted to anything I had to defend. Anyway, I wanted to talk to you. When you are not guarding the Holding Council, I want you with Nyx."

Meguet, startled, said, "There's not much I can do for her."

"I know that and I don't care. I don't want her alone with that stranger, and you're the only one in the house she would put up with." She kicked the grate moodily, and turned, gazing at the placid, murmuring hall as if mages were concealed in the hangings or underfoot beneath the carpets. "I want you with her in those night hours when the bird becomes human."

Meguet was silent, seeing again the rich and stunning shapes the bird's cry had taken in the yard. "I wonder where he came from ... I wonder if anyone is alive to miss him or search for him."

"I'm wondering who cast that spell and when Nyx's meddling will bring yet another mage to my door."

"If that mage is still alive."

"There are too many mages." Her fingers lifted to her hair, searching for pins to pull, but they were too well hidden. She folded her arms instead, frowning at her shadow in the torchlight. "Nyx a.s.sumes the mage is dead. I a.s.sume otherwise, for the sake of my house. That is why I want you with her. She trusts you, and you have more common sense than she does."

"Only for an ordinary world."

"That's the one I want to keep her alive in," the Holder said grimly. "She has so much power, and she has hardly scrubbed the mud off her feet from that mora.s.s she trapped herself in."

"The power was given to her freely."

"It's not her heart that worries me now, it's her magpie curiosity that picks at anything glittering of magic. She's facing a twisted sorcery unfamiliar even to her. She may have terrorized the population of birds in the swamp, but she never made anything human cry so desperately. And all she can see of the sorcery is something she can't do herself-she's blind to danger. Even the young man seems dangerous to me."

"Yes."

"I don't think he's just an innocent under a spell. He looks powerful and unpredictable."

"Like Nyx, not long ago."

The Holder's brooding attached itself to her. "Meguet Vervaine, are you counseling compa.s.sion over common sense?"

"Never," Meguet said flatly, "where Nyx is concerned. But given the murkier sorcery she has dabbled in, she may have more success with a bird with a questionable past than a mage with a tidier history would."

The Holder made an undignified sound. "Let's hope his past is tidier than hers. Wherever his past is. Or was."

"Perhaps he is from Ro Holding and he simply can't remember. He does remember the Cygnet flying on wars.h.i.+ps."

"He'd have to be a very old bird."

"Or a young man trapped outside of his time."

The Holder touched her eyes. "That is something Nyx would find irresistible. But how much does she know about time? Is that common knowledge among mages?"

"She pulled me within time to stand beneath the Cygnet's eye. For all I know she may have all the Cygnet's power."

The Holder drew breath. "Moro's bones. It's unprecedented." Her eyes moved over the hall, searching. "Where is she? I asked her to stay through supper."

"I saw her talking to Rush. And then to Arlen Hunter."

"I don't see her."

"She must be here," Meguet said, failing to find her. "She doesn't forget things."

"She forgets unimportant things," the Holder said darkly- "Supper, her shoes, sleep, time. Maybe that mage returned without our knowing, ensorcelled us all again between a bite and a swallow. Maybe," she added, with some hope, "he has found the book himself and vanished back into his own secret country."

"It can't be all that secret," Meguet pointed out, "if he has heard of Chrysom."

The Holder closed her eyes. "Don't raise side issues," she said tersely- "Find Nyx before the moon rises and I lose her again to that demented bird."

The bird's eye reflected a sorceress within its golden iris. It perched on a window ledge; its shadow, cast long and black by the torch beside the window, cut across the sorceress's path to take shape against the hearth; a faceless dark beneath the stone Cygnet. Nyx was aware of the bird's scrutiny and its shadow. She moved imperturbably through both, continuing her search for the missing book and waiting for moonrise. She had explored everything but the oddments on the mantel. There, she reasoned, it must be: the mage's voice buzzing inside the cobalt box, the barely perceptible s.h.i.+ft of weighty thought within the emerald bottle.

The bird opened its beak. No cry came out of it, no fire, but the sorceress turned to face it.

"Be patient," she said. "I haven't forgotten you."

She folded her arms, leaned against the mantel, frowning slightly, studying the bird. The red on its folded wingtips made an elaborate chessboard pattern against the white. Its longer plumes trailed down the stone, delicate puffs of white that stirred at a breath. Its sharp talons caught light like metal; the mask of fiery feathers around its eyes gave it a fierce and secretive expression. Nyx, slowly dissolving within an amber eye, saw only herself in its thoughts. Whatever language it spoke-bird or human-was hidden.

"You arc well guarded," she commented, returned to herself on the hearth. The bird did not s.h.i.+ft a feather, as motionless as if it had become one of its own enchantments. The fire still hung in Nyx's ear. She toyed with it absently. The bird opened its beak soundlessly, in recognition.

Red the color of the bird's mask snagged her eye. She turned her head, studied a tiny red clay jar on the mantel. It was shaped like a hazelnut with a flat bottom and a cap of gold. The clay was seamed with minute cracks, as if whatever it held had seeped out centuries before. Nyx picked it up, weighed it in her hand. Chrysom, who had, centuries after his death, gotten suddenly more complex, might have left an empty bottle on his mantel, or a mage's trap. A day or two ago she had known how he thought. Now, she was not so sure.

"Well," she said, and met the bird's intent golden stare. "Better sorry than safe."

She gazed down at the jar, letting her thoughts flow like air or water into the spider web of cracks. The rough, dry edges permitted her only so far, no farther, into their tiny crevices. What stopped her, she couldn't tell; it had no substance. The gold cap, molded into the clay by the slow s.h.i.+ft of particles of metal, seemed solid; touching it, her thoughts turned into gold.

It was of a piece, like the bird, like the bird's enchantments: a weave of magic so fine she could not isolate a single thread- Baffled, she withdrew from it, fascinated by her ignorance.

She put it back on the mantel, picked up a round bottle of opaque, swamp-green gla.s.s, no bigger than her palm. Its neck was short, slender, and had no opening. But it was not empty. Something within it s.h.i.+fted against the gla.s.s sides; the bottle tilted sluggishly in her hand, then rolled upright. Her thoughts grew crystal, rounded, green, then eased inward, dropped away from the gla.s.s into the tiny pool of magic it enclosed.

She fell into a great pool of nothing. The world lost hold of her, sent her tumbling headlong into an endless mist. Startled, she nearly withdrew; then, curious, she continued falling, seeing nothing, hearing nothing, moving toward nothing until she realized she could fall forever in that tiny bottle and never reach the bottom.

She withdrew slowly, finding stone walls beyond the mist, books, the bird's unblinking eyes. It took some effort; she rested a moment, wary now, but still intrigued, before she explored farther. She chose something black: gla.s.s or stone carved into a little block of shadow. It was wrapped in a web of silver filaments that wound around one another and parted and crossed again in an endless, intricate pattern. Concentrating on a single filament, she found herself on a silver road.

She did not need to move; it moved beneath her, swift as wind. Darkness dropped away from the road on both sides, as if the small block enmeshed in the silver had no reality itself. The silver turned and coiled, looked back, crossed itself, moving so fast she felt she had left her thoughts at some forgotten crossroad. The road went everywhere and nowhere, it seemed. On impulse, she dropped off the rus.h.i.+ng silver into the darkness within it.

She found herself in a cube of night, with the silver running in front of her, behind her, underfoot and overhead, like a net. She tried to withdraw, but she could not reach past the silver. It was too intricate, it moved too quickly; catching hold of it was like trying to hold water pouring down a cliff.

So I am caught, she thought, like a fish in Chrysom 's net. But what is the net made of?

The way out of the trap was to become the trap....

She could not hold a single, wild thread; she might, leaping out of the dark, out of herself, hold the entire moving, glowing web. Unthinking, forgetting even her own name, she expanded into the darkness, and then, at all points and loops and crossroads, into the rus.h.i.+ng current of silver.

The flowing pattern froze. Suspended, her mind the intricate net of filament, she saw what the dark had hidden: cubes within cubes of patterned silver, each a completely different weave, growing smaller and smaller but never vanis.h.i.+ng. If she could move between them from one cube to the next, if she could walk each pattern ... But what were they?

And then she remembered the filaments, blackened with age and fire, on the wrists of the stranger. His hands opened wide, as if to loose some lost power within the patterns. He spoke ...

She whispered, "Time."

She was suspended within tantalizing spells for time. But what spell opened the paths to use? How could she get here, there, or anywhere on those fantastic silver roads that led nowhere outside the box? How, she wondered more practically, could she get herself outside the box?

I got in, she reminded herself. got in, she reminded herself. I I can get out. can get out.

But if she had flung herself down a deep, dry well, that would be easy to say and not so easy to do. She swallowed, for the second time in her life, the little, cold, pebble-hard fact that all her will and all the knowledge she possessed might not be enough to find her way back to the world.

I am looking into Chrysom's eye, she thought-Into his mind, which until now I thought I knew. This 'is one of the puzzles in the missing book. which is why I cannot solve it. Yet. am looking into Chrysom's eye, she thought-Into his mind, which until now I thought I knew. This 'is one of the puzzles in the missing book. which is why I cannot solve it. Yet.

Later, after she had contemplated the frozen, glowing paths without inspiration, she felt again the feathery touch of fear.

They will find me. she thought, in the library, silent, blind, motionless, holding the box in my hand. Will they have the sense to leave me with it? Rush wouldn't. He would smash it, to set me free. I could be trapped in its broken shards forever... I should have taught Rush more sorcery. But I never had the patience. And he would never stop to think.

She quieted her unruly thoughts, focused them again. Nothing to do, it seemed, but pick a path again, see if her thoughts might lead somewhere, if the path wouldn't. She narrowed her vision, dropped onto the nearest pattern. Instantly she felt it move, dividing, looping, flowing everywhere and nowhere, as it had before, and she was powerless to control it.

Time, she thought. What is it? A word. To endow a word with power, you must understand it.

Settling into that one place to begin to understand Chrysom's spell, she saw a man in the distance ahead of her.

His head was bent slightly; he did not turn or speak. He simply walked, his eyes on the flow and weave of silver as if, out of the endless twists and turns, he fas.h.i.+oned a solid path and followed it.

She found the path he left, a stillness in the wild flow, a single strand of silver frozen among the rus.h.i.+ng patterns. Amazed, she followed it, wondering if Chrysom had set a shadow of himself within the paths to guide the unwary mage. The road beyond the guide began to blur into darkness. Nyx quickened her pace; as if he felt her sudden fear, he slowed. Closing the distance between them, she recognized him.

She caught her breath, stunned at the sight of the long black hair, the warrior's straight line of shoulder. Turning, he met her eyes, held them. She blinked, and the tower stones formed around them, the moon hanging in the black sky beyond a window. Gazing at her, still caught, perhaps, in some twist of past, for an instant he recognized himself.

"My name is Brand."

Five.

With the name came memory. He flinched away from it as from fire; for an instant his human face became the firebird's cry. Then his eyes emptied of expression: the dreamer waking, the dream forgotten. She whispered, "You were with me in Chrysom's box. You led me out."

He only gazed at her blankly. "I don't remember."

"Brand." She added, at his silence, "That is your name. You just told me."

"I don't remember."

The door opened. Preoccupied, she did not loose his eyes, just held up a hand for silence. She received it, so completely she wondered if she had thrown a spell across the room. "You remember," she said. "Your eyes remember. The bird remembers."

"The bird-" He paused, bewildered. "The bird is sorcery."

"It cries your sorrow."

"It cries jewels as well as sorrow- Are those mine also?"