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I'll get the boy to clean up right away, I say.
It's nothing, he says. It's all right, he says, and he puffs. Don't worry about it, we don't mind, he says. He smiles and waves as I go off to get Leander, and when I come back to serve the salad, I see the fat man has eaten all his bread and b.u.t.ter.
A little later, when I bring him more bread, he has finished his salad. You know the size of those Caesar salads?
You're very kind, he says. This bread is marvelous, he says.
Thank you, I say.
Well, it is very good, he says, and we mean that. We don't often enjoy bread like this, he says.
Where are you from? I ask him. I don't believe I've seen you before, I say.
He's not the kind of person you'd forget, Rita puts in with a snicker.
Denver, he says.
I don't say anything more on the subject, though I am curious.
Your soup will be along in a few minutes, sir, I say, and I go off to put the finis.h.i.+ng touches to my party of four businessmen, very demanding.
When I serve his soup, I see the bread has disappeared again. He is just putting the last piece of bread into his mouth.
Believe me, he says, we don't eat like this all the time, he says. And puffs. You'll have to excuse us, he says.
Don't think a thing about it, please, I say. I like to see a man eat and enjoy himself, I say.
I don't know, he says. I guess that's what you'd call it. And puffs. He arranges the napkin. Then he picks up his spoon.
G.o.d, he's fat! says Leander.
He can't help it, I say, so shut up.
I put down another basket of bread and more b.u.t.ter. How was the soup? I say.
Thank you. Good, he says. Very good, he says. He wipes his lips and dabs his chin. Do you think it's warm in here, or is it just me? he says.
No, it is warm in here, I say.
Maybe we'll take off our coat, he says.
Go right ahead, I say. A person has to be comfortable, I say.
That's true, he says, that is very, very true, he says.
But I see a little later that he is still wearing his coat.
My large parties are gone now and also the old couple. The place is emptying out. By the time I serve the fat man his chops and baked potato, along with more bread and b.u.t.ter, he is the only one left.
I drop lots of sour cream onto his potato. I sprinkle bacon and chives over his sour cream. I bring him more bread and b.u.t.ter.
Is everything all right? I say.
Fine, he says, and he puffs. Excellent, thank you, he says, and puffs again.
Enjoy your dinner, I say. I raise the lid of his sugar bowl and look in. He nods and keeps looking at me until I move away.
I know now I was after something. But I don't know what.
How is old tub-of-guts doing? He's going to run your legs off, says Harriet. You know Harriet.
For dessert, I say to the fat man, there is the Green Lantern Special, which is a pudding cake with sauce, or there is cheesecake or vanilla ice cream or pineapple sherbet.
We're not making you late, are we? he says, puffing and looking concerned.
Not at all, I say. Of course not, I say. Take your time, I say. I'll bring you more coffee while you make up your mind.
We'll be honest with you, he says. And he moves in the seat. We would like the Special, but we may have a dish of vanilla ice cream as well. With just a drop of chocolate syrup, if you please. We told you we were hungry, he says.
I go off to the kitchen to see after his dessert myself, and Rudy says, Harriet says you got a fat man from the circus out there. That true?
Rudy has his ap.r.o.n and hat off now, if you see what I mean.
Rudy, he is fat, I say, but that is not the whole story.
Rudy just laughs.
Sounds to me like she's sweet on fat-stuff, he says.
Better watch out, Rudy, says Joanne, who just that minute comes into the kitchen.
I'm getting jealous, Rudy says to Joanne.
I put the Special in front of the fat man and a big bowl of vanilla ice cream with chocolate syrup to the side.
Thank you, he says.
You are very welcome, I say-and a feeling comes over me.
Believe it or not, he says, we have not always eaten like this.
Me, I eat and I eat and I can't gain, I say. I'd like to gain, I say.
No, he says. If we had our choice, no. But there is no choice.
Then he picks up his spoon and eats.
What else? Rita says, lighting one of my cigarettes and pulling her chair closer to the table. This story's getting interesting now, Rita says.
That's it. Nothing else. He eats his desserts, and then he leaves and then we go home, Rudy and me.
Some fatty, Rudy says, stretching like he does when he's tired. Then he just laughs and goes back to watching the TV.
I put the water on to boil for tea and take a shower. I put my hand on my middle and wonder what would happen if I had children and one of them turned out to look like that, so fat.
I pour the water in the pot, arrange the cups, the sugar bowl, carton of half and half, and take the tray in to Rudy. As if he's been thinking about it, Rudy says, I knew a fat guy once, a couple of fat guys, really fat guys, when I was a kid. They were tubbies, my G.o.d. I don't remember their names. Fat, that's the only name this one kid had. We called him Fat, the kid who lived next door to me. He was a neighbor.
The other kid came along later. His name was Wobbly. Everybody called him Wobbly except the teachers. Wobbly and Fat. Wish I had their pictures, Rudy says.
I can't think of anything to say, so we drink our tea and pretty soon I get up to go to bed. Rudy gets up too, turns off the TV, locks the front door, and begins his unb.u.t.toning.
I get into bed and move clear over to the edge and lie there on my stomach. But right away, as soon as he turns off the light and gets into bed, Rudy begins. I turn on my back and relax some, though it is against my will. But here is the thing. When he gets on me, I suddenly feel I am fat.
I feel I am terrifically fat, so fat that Rudy is a tiny thing and hardly there at all.
That's a funny story, Rita says, but I can see she doesn't know what to make of it.
I feel depressed. But I won't go into it with her. I've already told her too much.
She sits there waiting, her dainty fingers poking her hair.
Waiting for what? I'd like to know.
It is August.
My life is going to change. I feel it.
What's in Alaska?
Jack got off work at three. He left the station and drove to a shoe store near his apartment. He put his foot up on the stool and let the clerk unlace his work boot.
"Something comfortable," Jack said. "For casual wear."
"I have something," the clerk said.
The clerk brought out three pairs of shoes and Jack said he would take the soft beige-colored shoes that made his feet feel free and springy. He paid the clerk and put the box with his boots under his arm. He looked down at his new shoes as he walked. Driving home, he felt that his foot moved freely from pedal to pedal.
"You bought some new shoes," Mary said. "Let me see."
"Do you like them?" Jack said.
"I don't like the color, but I'll bet they're comfortable. You needed new shoes."
He looked at the shoes again. "I've got to take a bath," he said.
"We'll have an early dinner," she said. "Helen and Carl asked us over tonight. Helen got Carl a water pipe for his birthday and they're anxious to try it out." Mary looked at him. "Is it all right with you?"
"What time?"
"Around seven."
"It's all right," he said.
She looked at his shoes again and sucked her cheeks. "Take your bath," she said.
Jack ran the water and took off his shoes and clothes. He lay in the tub for a while and then used a brush toget at the lube grease under his nails. He dropped his hands and then raised them to his eyes.
She opened the bathroom door. "I brought you a beer," she said. Steam drifted around her and out into the living room.
"I'll be out in a minute," he said. He drank some of the beer.
She sat on the edge of the tub and put her hand on his thigh. "Home from the wars," she said.
"Home from the wars," he said.
She moved her hand through the wet hair on his thigh. Then she clapped her hands. "Hey, I have something to tell you! I had an interview today, and I think they're going to offer me a job-in Fairbanks."
"Alaska?" he said.
She nodded. "What do you think of that?"
"I've always wanted to go to Alaska. Does it look pretty definite?"
She nodded again. "They liked me. They said I'd hear next week."
"That's great. Hand me a towel, will you? I'm getting out."
"I'll go and set the table," she said.
His fingertips and toes were pale and wrinkled. He dried slowly and put on clean clothes and the new shoes. He combed his hair and went out to the kitchen. He drank another beer while she put dinner on the table.
"We're supposed to bring some cream soda and something to munch on," she said. "We'll have to go by the store."
"Cream soda and munchies. Okay," he said.
When they had eaten, he helped her clear the table. Then they drove to the market and bought cream soda and potato chips and corn chips and onion-flavored snack crackers. At the checkout counter he added a handful of U-No bars to the order.
"Hey, yeah," she said when she saw them.
They drove home again and parked,and then they walked the block to Helen and Carl's.
Helen opened the door. Jack put the sack on the dining-room table.
Mary sat down in the rocking chair and sniffed.