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"Not at all," David retorted testily. "I've told you. This whole town only comes here now to be told what specialist to go to, and you know it."
"I don't know anything of the sort."
"If you don't, it's because you won't face the facts." d.i.c.k chuckled, and threw an arm over David's shoulder, "You old hypocrite!" he said.
"You're trying to get rid of me, for some reason. Don't tell me you're going to get married!"
But David did not smile. Lucy, watching him from her post by the window, saw his face and felt a spasm of fear. At the most, she had feared a mental conflict in David. Now she saw that it might be something infinitely worse, something impending and immediate. She could hardly reply when d.i.c.k appealed to her.
"Are you going to let him get rid of me like this, Aunt Lucy?" he demanded. "Sentenced to Johns Hopkins, like Napoleon to St. Helena! Are you with me, or forninst me?"
"I don't know, d.i.c.k," she said, with her eyes on David. "If it's for your good--"
She went out after a time, leaving them at it hammer and tongs. David was vanquished in the end, but d.i.c.k, going down to the office later on, was puzzled. Somehow it was borne in on him that behind David's insistence was a reason, unspoken but urgent, and the only reason that occurred to him as possible was that David did not, after all, want him to marry Elizabeth Wheeler. He put the matter to the test that night, wandering in in dressing-gown and slippers, as was his custom before going to bed, for a brief chat. The nurse was downstairs, and d.i.c.k moved about the room restlessly. Then he stopped and stood by the bed, looking down.
"A few nights ago, David, I asked you if you thought it would be right for me to marry; if my situation justified it, and if to your knowledge there was any other reason why I could not or should not. You said there was not."
"There is no reason, of course. If she'll have you."
"I don't know that. I know that whether she will or not is a pretty vital matter to me, David."
David nodded, silently.
"But now you want me to go away. To leave her. You're rather urgent about it. And I feel-well I begin to think you have a reason for it."
David clenched his hands under the bed-clothing, but he returned d.i.c.k's gaze steadily.
"She's a good girl," he said. "But she's ent.i.tled to more than you can give her, the way things are."
"That is presupposing that she cares for me. I haven't an idea that she does. That she may, in time--Then, that's the reason for this Johns Hopkins thing, is it?"
"That's the reason," David said stoutly. "She would wait for you. She's that sort. I've known her all her life. She's as steady as a rock. But she's been brought up to have a lot of things. Walter Wheeler is well off. You do as I want you to; pack your things and go to Baltimore.
Bring Reynolds down here to look after the work until I'm around again."
But d.i.c.k evaded the direct issue thus opened and followed another line of thought.
"Of course you understand," he observed, after a renewal of his restless pacing, "that I've got to tell her my situation first. I don't need to tell you that I funk doing it, but it's got to be done."
"Don't be a fool," David said querulously. "You'll set a lot of women cackling, and what they don't know they'll invent. I know 'em."
"Only herself and her family."
"Why?"
"Because they have a right to know it."
But when he saw David formulating a further protest he dropped the subject.
"I'll not do it until we've gone into it together," he promised.
"There's plenty of time. You settle down now and get ready for sleep."
When the nurse came in at eleven o'clock she found d.i.c.k gone and David, very still, with his face to the wall.
It was the end of May before David began to move about his upper room.
The trees along the shaded streets had burst into full leaf by that time, and Mike was enjoying that gardener's interval of paradise when flowers grow faster than the weeds among them. Harrison Miller, having rolled his lawn through all of April, was heard abroad in the early mornings with the lawn mower or hoe in hand was to be seen behind his house in his vegetable patch.
Cars rolled through the streets, the rear seats laden with blossoming loot from the country lanes, and the Wheeler dog was again burying bones in the soft warm ground under the hedge.
Elizabeth Wheeler was very happy. Her look of expectant waiting, once vague, had crystallized now into definite form. She was waiting, timidly and shyly but with infinite content. In time, everything would come.
And in the meantime there was to-day, and some time to-day a shabby car would stop at the door, and there would be five minutes, or ten. And then d.i.c.k would have to hurry to work, or back to David. After that, of course, to-day was over, but there would always be to-morrow.
Now and then, at choir practice or at service, she saw Clare Rossiter.
But Clare was very cool to her, and never on any account sought her, or spoke to her alone. She was rather unhappy about Clare, when she remembered her. Because it must be so terrible to care for a man who only said, when one spoke of Clare, "Oh, the tall blonde girl?"
Once or twice, too, she had found Clare's eyes on her, and they were hostile eyes. It was almost as though they said: "I hate you because you know. But don't dare to pity me."
Yet, somehow, Elizabeth found herself not entirely believing that Clare's pa.s.sion was real. Because the real thing you hid with all your might, at least until you were sure it was wanted. After that, of course, you could be so proud of it that you might become utterly shameless. She was afraid sometimes that she was the sort to be utterly shameless. Yet, for all her halcyon hours, there were little things that worried her. Wallie Sayre, for instance, always having to be kept from saying things she didn't want to hear. And Nina. She wasn't sure that Nina was entirely happy. And, of course, there was Jim.
Jim was difficult. Sometimes he was a man, and then again he was a boy, and one never knew just which he was going to be. He was too old for discipline and too young to manage himself. He was spending almost all his evenings away from home now, and her mother always drew an inaudible sigh when he was spoken of.
Elizabeth had waited up for him one night, only a short time before, and beckoning him into her room, had talked to him severely.
"You ought to be ashamed, Jim," she said. "You're simply worrying mother sick."
"Well, why?" he demanded defiantly. "I'm old enough to take care of myself."
"You ought to be taking care of her, too."
He had looked rather crestfallen at that, and before he went out he offered a half-sheepish explanation.
"I'd tell them where I go," he said, "but you'd think a pool room was on the direct road to h.e.l.l. Take to-night, now. I can't tell them about it, but it was all right. I met Wallie Sayre and Leslie at the club before dinner, and we got a fourth and played bridge. Only half a cent a point.
I swear we were going on playing, but somebody brought in a chap named Gregory for a c.o.c.ktail. He turned out to be a brother of Beverly Carlysle, the actress, and he took us around to the theater and gave us a box. Not a thing wrong with it, was there?"
"Where did you go from there?" she persisted inexorably. "It's half past one."
"Went around and met her. She's wonderful, Elizabeth. But do you know what would happen if I told them? They'd have a fit."
She felt rather helpless, because she knew he was right from his own standpoint.
"I know. I'm surprised at Les, Jim."
"Oh, Les! He just trailed along. He's all right."
She kissed him and he went out, leaving her to lie awake for a long time. She would have had all her world happy those days, and all her world good. She didn't want anybody's bread and b.u.t.ter spilled on the carpet.
So the days went on, and the web slowly wove itself into its complicated pattern: Ba.s.sett speeding West, and David in his quiet room; Jim and Leslie Ward seeking amus.e.m.e.nt, and finding it in the littered dressing-room of a woman star at a local theater; Clare Rossiter brooding, and the little question being whispered behind hands, figuratively, of course--the village was entirely well-bred; Gregory calling round to see Ba.s.sett, and turning away with the information that he had gone away for an indefinite time; and Maggie Donaldson, lying in the cemetery at the foot of the mountains outside Norada, having shriven her soul to the limit of her strength so that she might face her Maker.
Out of all of them it was Clare Rossiter who made the first conscious move of the shuttle; Clare, affronted and not a little malicious, but perhaps still dramatizing herself, this time as the friend who feels forced to carry bad tidings. Behind even that, however, was an unconscious desire to see d.i.c.k again, and this time so to impress herself on him that never again could he pa.s.s her in the street unnoticed.