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"Of course if you are satisfied and pleased, there is nothing more to be said in the matter."
"I am satisfied and pleased. Why should I not be? I asked a friend to let me do something to help him, and he answered me just in the spirit in which I spoke. Of course I am glad to find that there is even one man who could take a friendly offer in a friendly way. There are not many such men, I suppose?"
Victor could not help smiling at her emphatic way of expressing her scorn of men.
"I do believe you have really turned yourself misanthropical by reading 'Le Misanthrope,'" he said.
"Well, why should there not be a woman Alceste? although I never knew any woman in real life more worthy to be cla.s.sed with him than the men we meet in real life are. Miss Alceste, I think, would sound very prettily. I wish I could think myself ent.i.tled to bear such a name?"
"Or Miss Misanthrope," he suggested. "How would that do for a young lady's name?"
"Admirably, I think. That would get over all the difficulty too, and save foolish persons from thinking that one was setting up for another Alceste. I should like very much to be called Miss Misanthrope."
"If you go on as you are doing, you will soon be ent.i.tled to bear the name," said Victor gravely. "At the present moment I don't know that I should much object to that."
"No! I am glad that anything I am likely to do has a chance of pleasing you. But why should you not object just at present? Why not now as well as at any other time?"
"Because I should like you to be a little misanthropical just now, and a little distrustful--of men, that is to say, Miss Grey."
She colored slightly, although she had no idea of his meaning yet.
"I always thought you were full of trust in the whole human race, Mr.
Heron; I thought you liked everybody and believed in everybody. Now you tell me to distrust all mankind."
"I didn't say that."
"No? Some particular person, then?"
"Some particular person, perhaps. At least I don't mean exactly that,"
Heron hastened to explain, his conscience smiting him at the thought that perhaps after all he might be suggesting unjust suspicions of an absent man who was a sort of friend. "I only mean that you are very generous and unselfish, and that there might be persons who might try to make use of your good nature, and whom perhaps you might not quite understand. I don't know whether I ought to speak about this at all."
"Nor I, Mr. Heron, I am sure; for I really don't know what you are speaking of or what mysterious danger is hanging over me. But I hope there is something of the kind, for I should so like to resemble a heroine of romance."
"There is not anything very romantic in prospect so far as I know," he said, now almost wis.h.i.+ng he had said nothing, and yet feeling in his heart a serious fear that Minola might be led to put too much faith in Blanchet. "But if I might speak out freely, and without any fear of your misunderstanding me or being offended, there is something, Miss Grey, that I should very much like to say." He spoke in an uneasy and constrained way, forcing himself on to an ungracious task.
"You have been preaching distrust to me, Mr. Heron, and you have been finding fault generally with all women who trust anybody. To show you how your lessons are thrown away on me, I shall certainly trust you as much as you like, and I shall not misunderstand anything you say nor be offended by it." There was something of her old sweet frankness in her manner as she spoke these words, and Heron was warmed by it.
"Well," he said at last, "you are a girl, and young, and living almost alone, and people tell me you are going to have money. You have promised to excuse my blunt way of talking out, haven't you? I almost wish for your sake, as you like to live this kind of life, that you had just enough of money to live upon and no more; but I hear that that is not the case, or at all events is not to be. Well, the only thing is that people who I think are not true, and are not honest, and who are not worthy of you in any way whatever, may try to make you think that they are true, and sincere, and all the rest of it."
"Well, Mr. Heron, what if they do?"
"You may perhaps be persuaded to believe them."
"And even if I am, what matter is that? I had much rather be deceived in such things than know the truth, if the truth is to mean that people are all deceitful."
"I don't think you want to understand me," he said.
"Indeed I do; I only want to understand you; but I fail as yet. Why not speak out, Mr. Heron, like a man and a brother? If there is anything you want me to know, do please make me to know it in the clearest way."
She was growing impatient.
"You will have lovers," he said, driven to despair when it seemed as if she could not understand a mere hint of any kind; "of course you must know that you are attractive and all that--and if you come to have money, you will be besieged with fellows--with admirers I mean. Do be a little distrustful--of one at least; I don't like him and I wish you didn't--and I can't very well tell you why, only that he does not seem to me to be manly or even honest."
She colored a little, but she also smiled faintly, for she still did not understand him.
"I suppose I must know the man you mean, Mr. Heron; for I think he is the only man I ever heard you say anything against, and I have not forgotten. But what can have made you think that I needed any lecture about him? I don't suppose he ever thought about me in that way in his life, or would marry one of my birth and my bringing up even if I asked him. And in any case, Mr. Heron, I would not marry him even if he asked me. But what a shame it seems to arrange in advance for the refusing of a man who never showed the faintest intention of making an offer."
At first Heron did not quite understand her. Then he suddenly caught her meaning.
"Oh, that fellow? I didn't mean him. I never could have supposed that you were likely to be taken in by him."
"To do him justice, Mr. Heron, he never seems to have any thought of taking any one in. Such as he is he always shows himself, I think."
"Oh, I don't care about him----"
"Nor I, Mr. Heron, I a.s.sure you. But whom then do you care about--in that sense?"
"I distrust a man who takes a woman's money in a reckless and selfish way," Heron said impetuously. "That is a man I would not trust. Don't trust him, Miss Grey; believe me, he is a cad--I mean a selfish and deceitful fellow. I can't bear the thought of a girl like you being sacrificed--or sacrificing yourself as you might do perhaps--and I tell you that he is just the sort of man----"
"Are you speaking of Mr. Blanchet now, Mr. Heron?" Her tone was cold and clear. She was evidently hurt, but determined now to have the whole question out.
"Yes, I am speaking of Blanchet, of course--of whom else could I be speaking in such a way?"
"Mr. Blanchet is my friend, Mr. Heron; I thought he was a friend of yours as well."
"Well, I thought he was a manly, honest sort of fellow--I don't think so now," Victor went on impetuously, warming himself as he went into increasing strength of conviction. "I know you will hate me for telling you this, but I can't help that. I am as much interested in your happiness as if--as if you were my sister--and if you were my sister, I would just do the same."
It would indeed be idle to attempt to describe the course of the feelings that ran through Minola's breast as she listened to the words of this kind which he continued to pour out. But out of all that swept through her--out of shame, surprise, anger, grief, the one thought came uppermost, and survived, and guided her--the thought that she had only to leave Heron's appeal unanswered, and her secret was safe for ever.
She made up her mind, and was self-contained and composed to all appearance again.
"Let us not say any more about this, Mr. Heron; I am sure you mean it as a friend; and I never could allow myself to feel offended by anything said in friends.h.i.+p. I am sorry you have such an opinion of Mr.
Blanchet; I have a much better opinion of him; I like him better than I like most men; but you know we have just agreed that I ought to be called 'Miss Misanthrope,' and I a.s.sure you I mean to do my very best to deserve the name. No--please don't say any more--I had rather not hear it indeed; and if you know anything of women, Mr. Heron, you must know that we never take advice on these matters. No; trust to my earning my name of Miss Misanthrope; but don't tell me of the demerits of this or that particular man. I had rather hate men in the general than in all the particular cases--and how long we must have talked about this nonsense, for here is the gate of the park; and Mary Blanchet will be thinking that I am lost!"
They almost always parted at this park gate. This time he felt that he must not attempt to go any further with her. She smiled and nodded to him with a manner of constrained friendliness, and went her way, and Heron's heart was deeply moved, for he feared that he had lost his friend.
CHAPTER XIX.
MR. ST. PAUL'S MYSTERY.
Two events occurring almost together affected a good deal some of the people of this story. The first was the death of Mrs. Saulsbury.
Miss Grey was at once invited by the lawyers who had the charge of her father's affairs to visit Keeton, in order to become fully acquainted with the new disposition of things in which she had so much interest.
Thereupon Mr. Money announced that, as Miss Grey had no very close friend to look after her interests, he was resolved to put himself in the place of a parent or some near relation, and go with her and see that all her interests were properly cared for. Minola was unwilling to put him to so much trouble and loss of time, well knowing how absorbed in business he was; but he set all her remonstrances aside with blunt, good-humored kindness.
"Lucy is coming with us," he said, "if you don't think her in the way; it might be pleasant for you to have a companion."