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"He couldn't, my dear. Heroes of romance are quite above all that sort of thing."
"Well, he is, certainly," says Mrs. Monkton, a little offended. "You may go on pretending as much as you like, Freddy, but I know you think about him just as I do. He is exactly the sort of charming character to make Joyce happy."
"Nearly as happy as I have made you!" says her husband, severely.
"Dear me, Freddy--I really do wish you would try and forget yourself for one moment!"
"I might be able to do that, my dear, if I were quite sure that you were not forgetting me, too."
"Oh, as to that! I declare you are a perfect baby! You love teasing.
Well--there then!" The "there" represents a kiss, and Mr. Monkton, having graciously accepted this tribute to his charms, condescends to come down from his mental elevation and discuss the new engagement with considerable affability. Once, indeed, there is a dangerous lapse back into his old style, but this time there seems to be occasion for it.
"When they stood there stammering and stuttering, Freddy, and looking so awfully silly, I declare I was so glad about it that I actually kissed him!'"
"What!" says Mr. Monkton. "And you have lived to tell the tale! You have, therefore; lived too long. Perfidious woman, prepare for death."
"I declare I think you'd have done it," says Barbara, eloquently.
Whereupon, having reconsidered her speech, they both give way to mirth.
"I'll try it when I see him," says Monkton. "Even a hero of romance couldn't object to a chaste salute from me."
"He is coming to dinner. I hope when you do see him. Freddy,"--anxiously this--"you will be very sober about it."
"Barbara! You know I never get--er--that is--not before dinner at all events."
"Well, but promise me now, you will be very serious about it. They are taking it seriously, and they won't like it if you persist in treating it as a jest."
"I'll be a perfect judge."
"I know what that means"--indignantly--"that you are going to be as frivolous as possible."
"My dear girl! If the bench could only hear you. Well, there then! Yes, really! I'll be everything of the most desirable. A regular funeral mute. And," seeing she is still offended, "I am glad about it, Barbara.
Honestly I think him as good a fellow as I know--and Joyce another."
Having convinced her of his good faith in the matter, and argued with her on every single point, and so far perjured himself as to remember perfectly and accurately the very day and hour on which, three months ago, she had said that she knew Joyce preferred Felix to Beauclerk, he is forgiven, and presently allowed to depart in peace with another "there," even warmer than the first.
But it is unquestionable that she keeps a severe eye on him all through dinner, and so forbids any trifling with the sacred topic. "It would have put the poor things out so!" She had said to herself; and, indeed, it must be confessed that the lovers are very shy and uncomfortable, and that conversation drifts a good deal, and is only carried on irregularly by fits and starts. But later, when Felix has unburdened his mind to Monkton during the quarter of an hour over their wine--when Barbara has been compelled, in fear and trembling, to leave Freddy to his own devices--things grow more genial, and the extreme happiness that dwells in the lovers' hearts is given full play. There is even a delightful half hour granted them upon the balcony, Barbara having--like the good angel she is--declared that the night is almost warm enough for June.
CHAPTER LV.
"Great discontents there are, and many murmurs."
"There is a kind of mournful eloquence In thy dumb grief."
Lady Baltimore, too, had been very pleased by the news when Felix told her next morning of his good luck. In all her own great unhappiness she had still a kindly word and thought for her cousin and his fiancee.
"One of the nicest girls," she says, pressing his hands warmly. "I often think, indeed, the nicest girl I know. You are fortunate, Felix, but"--very kindly--"she is fortunate, too."
"Oh, no, the luck is all on my side," says he.
"It will be a blow to Norman," she says, presently.
"I think not," with an irrepressible touch of scorn. "There is Miss Maliphant."
"You mean that he can decline upon her. Of course I can quite understand that you do not like him," says she with a quick sigh. "But, believe me, any heart he has was really given to Joyce. Well, he must devote himself to ambition now."
"Miss Maliphant can help him to that."
"No, no. That is all knocked on the head. It appears--this is in strict confidence, Felix--but it appears he asked her to marry him last evening, and she refused."
Felix turns to her as if to give utterance to some vehement words, and then checks himself. After all, why add to her unhappiness? Why tell her of that cur's baseness? Her own brother, too! It would be but another grief to her.
To think he should have gone from her to Miss Maliphant! What a pitiful creature! Beneath contempt! Well, if his pride survives those two downfalls--both in one day--it must be made of leather. It does Felix good to think of how Miss Maliphant must have worded her refusal. She is not famous for grace of speech. He must have had a real bad time of it.
Of course, Joyce had told him of her interview with the st.u.r.dy heiress.
"Ah, she refused?" says he hardly knowing what to say.
"Yes; and not very graciously, I'm afraid. He gave me the mere fact of the refusal--no more, and only that because he had to give a reason for his abrupt departure. You know he is going this evening?"
"No, I did not know it. Of course, under the circ.u.mstances----"
"Yes, he could hardly stay here. Margaret came to me and said she would go, but I would not allow that. After all, every woman has a right to refuse or accept as she will."
"True." His heart gives an exultant leap as he remembers how his love had willed.
"I only wish she had not hurt him in the refusal. But I could see he was wounded. He was not in his usual careless spirits. He struck me as being a little--well, you know, a little----" She hesitates.
"Out of temper," suggests Felix involuntarily.
"Well, yes. Disappointment takes that course with some people. After all, it might have been worse if he had set his heart on Joyce and been refused."
"Much worse," says Felix, his eyes on the ground.
"She would have been a severe loss."
"Severe, indeed." By this time Felix is beginning to feel like an advanced hypocrite.
"As for Margaret Maliphant, I am afraid he was more concerned about the loss of her bonds and scrips than of herself. It is a terrible world, Felix, when all is told," says she, suddenly crossing her beautiful long white hands over her knees, and leaning toward him. There is a touch of misery so sharp in her voice that he starts as he looks at her. It is a momentary fit of emotion, however, and pa.s.ses before he dare comment on it. With a heart nigh to breaking she still retains her composure and talks calmly to Felix, and lets him talk to her, as though the fact that she is soon to lose forever the man who once had gained her heart--that fatal "once" that means for always, in spite of everything that has come and gone--is as little or nothing to her. Seeing her sitting there, strangely pale indeed, but so collected, it would be impossible to guess at the tempest of pa.s.sion and grief and terror that reigns within her breast. Women are not so strong to bear as men, and therefore in the world's storms suffer most.
"It is a lovely world," says he smiling, thinking of Joyce, and then, remembering her sad lot, his smile fades. "One might make--perhaps--a bad world--better," he says, stammering.
"Ah! teach me how," says she with a melancholy glance.
"There is such a thing as forgiveness. Forgive him!" blurts he out in a frightened sort of way. He is horrified, at himself--at his own temerity--a second later, and rises to his feet as if to meet the indignation he has certainly courted. But to his surprise no such indignation betrays itself.