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"I will," said Bel. "Here is that 'Crambo' you were talking of at tea, Mrs. Scherman. I kept it. Kate picked it up with the sc.r.a.ps."
"O, thank you! Why, Bel, how your face s.h.i.+nes!"
Bel hurried off, for Baby Karen "stirred" more emphatically at this moment. Asenath went back into the parlor.
"Here is that rhyme of mine, Frank, that you were asking for. Bel found it in the dust-pan. I believe she's writing rhymes herself.
She tries out every idea she picks up among us. She had a pencil in her hand, and her face was brimful of something. Mr. Stalworth, if _I_ find anything in the dust-pan, I shall turn it over to you.
'First and Last' is bound to act up to its t.i.tle, and transpose itself freely, according to Scripture."
"'First and Last' will receive, under either head, whatever you will indorse, Mrs. Scherman,--and the last not least,"--returned the benign and brilliant editor.
Bel had a knack with a baby. She knew enough to understand that small human beings have a good many feelings and experiences precisely like those of large ones. She knew that if _she_ woke up in the night, she should not be likely to fall asleep again if pulled up out of her bed into the cold; nor if she were very much patted and talked to. So she just took gently hold of the upper edge of the small, fine blanket in which Baby Karen was wrapped, and by it drew her quietly over upon her other side. The little limbs fell into a new place and sensation of rest, as larger limbs do; little Karen put off waking up and crying for one delicious instant, as anybody would; and in that instant sleep laid hold of her again.
She was safe, now, for another hour or two, at least.
Mrs. Scherman said she had really never had so little trouble with a baby as with this one, who had n.o.body especially appointed to make out her own necessity by constant "tending."
Bel did not go down-stairs again. She could do better here than with Kate sitting opposite, aware of all her scratches and poetical predicaments.
An hour went by. Bel was hardly equal yet to five-minute Crambo; and besides, she was doing her best; trying to put something clearly into syllables that said itself, unsyllabled, to her.
She did not hear Mrs. Scherman when she came up the stairs. She had just read over to herself the five completed stanzas of her poem.
It had really come. It was as if a violet had been born to actual bloom from the thought, the intangible vision of one. She wondered at the phrasing, marveling how those particular words had come and ranged themselves at her call. She did not know how she had done it, or whether she herself had done it at all. She began almost to think she must have read it before somewhere. Had she just picked it up out of her memory? Was it a borrowing, a mimicry, a patchwork?
But it was very pretty, very sweet! It told her own feelings over to her, with more that she had not known she had felt or perceived.
She read it again from beginning to end in a whisper. Her mouth was bright with a smile and her eyes with tears when she had ended.
Asenath Scherman with her light step came in and stood beside her.
"Won't you tell _me_?" the sweet, gracious voice demanded.
Bel Bree looked up.
"I thought I'd try, in fun," she said, "and it came in real earnest."
Asenath forgot that the face turned up to hers, with the smile and the tears and the color in it, was the face of her hired servant. A lovely soul, all alight with thought and gladness, met her through it.
She bent down and touched Bel's forehead with her lady-lips.
Bel put the little scribbled paper in her hand, and ran away, up-stairs.
"Will you give it to me, Bel, and let me do what I please with it?"--Mrs. Scherman went to Bel and asked next day.
Bel blushed. She had been a little frightened in the morning to think of what had happened over night. She could not quite recollect all the words of her verses, and she wondered if they were really as pretty as she had fancied in the moment of making them.
All she could answer was that Mrs. Scherman was "very kind."
"Then you'll trust me?"
And Bel, wondering very much, but too shy to question, said she would.
A few days after that, Asenath called her up-stairs. The postman had rung five minutes before, and Kate had carried up a note.
"We were just in time with our little spring song," she said.
"_Blue_birds have to sing early; at least a month beforehand. See here! Is this all right?" and she put into Bel's hand a little roughish slip of paper, upon which was printed:--
"THE CITY IN SPRING.
"It is not much that makes me glad: I hold more than I ever had.
The empty hand may farther reach, And small, sweet signs all beauty teach.
"I like the city in the spring, It has a hint of everything.
Down in the yard I like to see The budding of that single tree.
"The little sparrows on the shed; The sc.r.a.p of soft sky overhead; The cat upon the sunny wall; There's so much _meant_ among them all.
"The dandelion in the cleft A broken pavement may have left, Is like the star that, still and sweet, s.h.i.+nes where the house-tops almost meet.
"I like a little; all the rest Is somewhere; and our Lord knows best How the whole robe hath grace for them Who only touch the garment's hem."
At the bottom, in small capitals, was the signature,--BEL BREE.
"I don't understand," said Bel, bewildered. "What is it? Who did it?"
"It is a proof," said Mrs. Scherman. "A proof-sheet. And here is another kind of proof that came with it. Your spring song is going into the May number of 'First and Last.'"
Mrs. Scherman reached out a slip of paper, printed and filled in.
It was a publisher's check for fifteen dollars.
"You see I'm very unselfish, Bel," she said. "I'm going to work the very way to lose you."
Bel's eyes flashed up wide at her.
The way to lose her! Why, n.o.body had ever got such a hold upon her before! The printed verses and the money were wonderful surprises, but they were not the surprise that had gone straight into her heart, and dropped a grapple there. Mrs. Scherman had believed in her; and she had _kissed_ her. Bel Bree would never forget that, though she should live to sing songs of all the years.
"When you can earn money like this, of course I cannot expect to keep you in my kitchen," said Mrs. Scherman, answering her look.
"I might never do it again in all my life," sensible Bel replied.
"And I hope you'll keep me somewhere. It wouldn't be any reason, I think, because one little green leaf has budded out, for a plant to say that it would not be kept growing in the ground any longer. I couldn't go and set up a poem-factory, without a home and a living for the poems to grow up out of. I'm pleased I can write!" she exclaimed, br.i.m.m.i.n.g up suddenly with the pleasure she had but half stopped to realize. "I _thought_ I could. But I know very well that the best and brightest things I've ever thought have come into my head over the ironing-board or the bread-making. Even at home. And _here_,--why, Mrs. Scherman, it's _living_ in a poem here! And if you can be in the very foundation part of such living, you're in the realest place of all, I think. I don't believe poetry can be skimmed off the top, till it has risen up from the bottom!"
"But you _ought_ to come into my parlor, among my friends! People would be glad to get you into their parlors, by and by, when you have made the name you can make. I've no business to keep you down.
And you don't know yourself. You won't stay."
"Just please wait and see," said Bel. "I haven't a great deal of experience in going about in parlors; but I don't think I should much like it,--_that_ way. I'd rather keep on being the woman that made the name, than to run round airing it. I guess it would keep better."
"I see I can't advise you. I shouldn't dare to meddle with inspirations. But I'm proud, and glad, Bel; and you're my friend!
The rest will all work out right, somehow."