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"I have no doubt it will be possible to find a good and cheap preparatory school where Tony can be safely bestowed for the present, and one of my sisters would probably take my precious little Fay, if you find it inconvenient to have her with you. A boy is always better at school as soon as possible, and I have strong views as to the best methods of education. I never for a moment forget my responsibilities towards my children and the necessity for a father's supreme authority.
"You may be sure that, in so far as you make it possible for me to do so, I will fall in with your wishes regarding them in every way.
"It will not be worth your while writing to me here, as my plans are uncertain. I will try to give you notice of my arrival, but may reach you before my next letter.
"Yours affectionately,
"HUGO TANCRED."
Still as a statue sat Jan. From the garden came the cheerful chirruping of birds and constant, eager questioning of Earley by the children.
Earley's slow Gloucesters.h.i.+re speech rumbled on in m.u.f.fled _obbligato_ to the higher, carrying, little voices.
The whirr of a sewing-machine came from the morning-room, now the day-nursery, where Meg was busy with frocks for little Fay.
In a distant pantry somebody was clinking teacups. Jan s.h.i.+vered, though the air from the open window was only fresh, not cold. At that moment she knew exactly how an animal feels when caught in a trap. Hugo Tancred's letter was the trap, and she was in it. With the exception of the lie about other letters--Jan was perfectly sure he had written no other letters--and the stereotyped phrases about shattered lamps and the wife who was "no more," the letter was one long menace--scarcely veiled.
That sentence, "in so far as you make it possible for me to do so, I will fall in with your wishes regarding them in every way," simply meant that if Jan was to keep the children she must let Hugo make ducks and drakes of her money; and if he took her money, how could she do what she ought for the children?
And he was at Port Said; only a week's journey.
Why had she left that money in Bombay? Why had she not listened to Peter? Sometimes she had thought that Peter held rather a cynically low view of his fellow-creatures--some of his fellow-creatures. Surely no one could be all bad? Jan had hoped great things of adversity for Hugo Tancred. Peter indulged in no such pleasant illusions, and said so.
"Schoolgirl sentimentality" Meg had called it, and so it was. "No doubt it will be possible to find some cheap preparatory school for Tony."
Would he try to steal Tony?
From the charitable mood that hopeth all things Jan suddenly veered to a belief in all things evil of her brother-in-law. At that moment she felt him capable of murdering the child and throwing his little body down a well, as they do in India.
Again she s.h.i.+vered.
What was she to do?
So helpless, so unprotected; so absolutely at his mercy because she loved the children. "Never let him blackmail you," Peter had said.
"Stand up to him always, and he'll probably crumple up."
Suddenly, as though someone had opened shutters in a pitch-dark room, letting in the blessed light, Jan remembered there was also a letter from Peter.
She crossed the hall to get it, though her legs shook under her and her knees were as water.
She felt she couldn't get back to the window-seat, so she sat on the edge of the gate-table and opened the letter.
A very short letter, only one side of a page.
"DEAR MISS ROSS,
"This is the last mail for a bit, for I come myself by the next, the _Macedonia_. You may catch me at Aden, but certainly a note will get me at Ma.r.s.eilles, if you are kind enough to write. Tancred has been back in Bombay and gone again in one of the smaller home-going boats. Where he got the money to go I can't think, for from many sources lately I've heard that his various ventures have been far from prosperous, and no one will trust him with a rupee.
"So look out for blackmail, and be firm, mind.
"I go to my aunt in Artillery Mansions on arrival. When may I run down to see you all?
"Yours always sincerely,
"PETER LEDGARD."
CHAPTER XVII
"THOUGH AN HOST SHOULD ENCAMP AGAINST ME"
The flap of the gate-leg table creaked under Jan's weight, but she dug her heels into the rug and balanced, for she felt incapable of moving.
Peter was coming home; if the worst came to the worst he would deal with Hugo, and a respite would be gained. But Peter would go out to India again and Hugo would not. The whole miserable business would be repeated--and how could she continue to worry Peter with her affairs?
What claim had she upon him? As though she were some stranger seeing it for the first time, Jan looked round the square, comfortable hall. She saw it with new eyes sharpened by apprehension; yet everything was solidly the same.
The floor with its draught-board pattern of large, square, black and white stones; the old dark chairs; the high bookcases at each side of the hearth; the wide staircase with its s.p.a.cious, windowed turning and shallow steps, so easily traversed by little feet; the whole steeped in that atmosphere of friendly comfort that kind old houses get and keep.
Such a good place to be young in.
Such a happy place, so safe and sheltered and pleasant.
Outside the window a wren was calling to his mate with a note that sounded just like a faint kiss; such a tender little song.
The swing door was opened noisily and Anne Chitt appeared bearing the nursery tea-tray, deposited it in the nursery, opened the front door, thumped on the gong and vanished again. Meg came out from the nursery with two pairs of small slippers in her hand: "Where are my children? I left little Fay with Earley while I finished the overalls; he's a most efficient under-nurse--I suppose you left Tony with him too. Such a lot of letters for you. Did you get your mail? I heard from both the boys.
Ah, sensible Earley's taking them round to the back door. Where's William's duster? Hannah does make such a fuss about paw-marks." And Meg, too, vanished through the swing door.
Slowly Jan dragged herself off the table, gathered up her unread letters, and went into the nursery. She felt as though she were dreadfully asleep and couldn't awake to realise the wholesome everyday world around her.
Vaguely she stared round the room, the most charming room in Wren's End.
Panelled in wood long since painted white, with two delightful rounded corner cupboards, it gave straight on to the wrens' sunk lawn from a big French window with steps, an anachronism added by Miss Janet Ross. Five years ago Anthony had brought a beautiful iron gate from Venice that fitted into the archway, cut through the yew hedge and leading to the drive. Jan had given this room to the children because in summer they could spend the whole day in its green-walled garden, quite safe and shut in from every possibility of mischief. A sun-dial was in the centre, and in one corner a fat stone cherub upheld a bath for the birds. Daffodils were in bloom on the banks, and one small single tulip of brilliant red. Jan went out and stood on the top step.
Long immunity from menace of any kind had made all sorts of little birds extraordinarily bold and friendly. Even the usually shy and furtive golden-crested wrens fussed in and out under the yew hedge quite regardless of Jan.
Through an open window overhead came the sound of cheerful high voices, and little Fay started to sing at the top of her strong treble:
Thlee mice went into a hole to spin, Puss came by, and puss peeped in; What are you doing, my littoo old men?
We're weaving coats for gentoomen.
"Is that what I've been doing?" thought Jan. "Weaving coats of many colours out of happy dreams?" Were she and the children the mice, she wondered.
Marauding cats had been kept away from Wren's End for over a hundred years. "The little wrens that build" had been safe enough. But what of these poor human nestlings?
"Shall I come and help loo to wind up loo thleds?" sang little Fay. "Oh, no, Missis p.u.s.s.y, you'd bite off our heads!" And Tony joined in with a shout: "Oh, no, Missis p.u.s.s.y, you'd bite off our heads."
The voices died away, the children were coming downstairs.
Jan drank three cups of tea and crumbled one piece of bread and b.u.t.ter on her plate. The rest of the party were hungry and full of adventures.