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"It's not your fault. You couldn't help it," she answered, without looking up. "But--you were telling me my own story!"
"Good Lord! Then--it was _you_?"
"Don't say any more, please. I never meant to speak; only--one had to stop you--somehow. It's time we went back to the others now. I am sure you must be wanting your breakfast. And remember"--she faced him at last, with brave deliberation--"I trust you, as a gentleman, never to speak of this again--to me, or to any one else."
And Garth bowed his head, and followed her, in a bewildered silence.
CHAPTER V.
"He that getteth a wife beginneth a possession; a help like unto himself, and a pillar of rest."--_Ecclesiasticus_.
Eldred Lenox stood alone in the Desmonds' diminutive drawing-room, patiently impatient for companions.h.i.+p more responsive than that of cane chairs and tables, pictures and a piano. Yet the room itself, with its atmosphere of peace and refinement, gave him a foretaste of the restfuluess that made Honor Desmond's companions.h.i.+p a growing necessity to this man, whose heart and brain were in a state of civil war. It was filled with afternoon sunlight, with the faint, clean fragrance of violets, wild roses, and maiden-hair fern, and its emptiness was informed and pervaded by countless suggestions of a woman's presence; a woman versed in that finest of all fine arts, the beautifying of daily life.
In this era of hotels, clubs, and motors, of days spent in sowing hurry and reaping shattered nerves, the type is growing rarer, and it will be an ill day for England's husbands and sons, nay, for her supremacy among nations, if it should ever become extinct. For it is no over-statement, but simple fact, that the women who follow, soon or late, in the track of her victorious arms, women of Honor Desmond's calibre--home-loving, home-making, skilled in the lore of heart and spirit--have done fully as much to establish, strengthen, and settle her scattered Empire as shot, or steel, or the doubtful machinations of diplomacy.
A half-acknowledged conviction of this truth was undermining Eldred's skin-deep cynicism; and it did not tend to alleviate his renewed sense of loss. A week had pa.s.sed since his astounding experience on the Kajiar Road; a week in which the hours of sleep had been a more negligible quant.i.ty than usual; in which he had fought squarely against an imperative need to escape from the haunting consciousness of his wife's presence, and had been squarely beaten. His present need to see and speak with Honor Desmond was an ultimate confession of that defeat.
On reaching the bungalow, he was told that the Mem-sahib bad gone out with the Chota Sahib, but would doubtless be back before long, and had decided to await her return. During his ride with her that morning, he had not been able to bring himself to speak. But this time he intended to go through with the ordeal. He felt too restless to sit down; and she did not keep him waiting long.
Footsteps and low voices, punctuated with silver laughter, heralded her coming, and a few minutes later she entered, carrying a pocket edition of herself, who clung about her neck, and pressed a cool rose-petal cheek against her own.
Lenox had described her as a magnificent woman. A Scot may generally be trusted not to overstate his facts; and certainly Honor Desmond, in those radiant early days of marriage, deserved no less an adjective.
Height, and a buoyant stateliness of bearing, lent a regal quality to her beauty. Her grey-blue eyes under very level brows were the eyes of a woman dwelling in the heart of life, not merely in its outskirts and pleasure-grounds.
She expressed no surprise at seeing Lenox again so soon. Come when he might, his presence was accepted as a matter of course; the surest way to put a man at his ease.
"So sorry I kept you waiting," she said simply, and the hand she gave him was at once soft and strong,--an epitome of the woman. "Theo was lunching out with Colonel Mayhew--they are both very full of that book of his on the Hill Tribes--and I have been devoting most of my time to this very exacting person!"
Lenox caressed the child's red-gold hair with a cautious reverent hand, and a contraction of envy at his heart.
"What a beautiful little chap he is! Begins to look an out-and-out Meredith already. Desmond must be tremendously proud of him."
She smiled and pressed him closer.
"He is; and I'm nearly as bad! One son, three fools, you know! Poor little Paul, it's not fair to call him names when he can't hit back."
"You called him after Wyndham?"
"Yes. They're like brothers, those two. Now let me get rid of him, and we'll have a quiet talk till Theo comes back. Sit down and smoke, please."
He complied; and she, returning, established herself beside her work-table, and took up an elaborate bit of smocking without question or remark.
His trouble and stress of mind were very evident to her; but she was one of those rare women who are chary of questions--who, for all their desire to help and serve, never approach too near, or say the word too much, which was, perhaps, one reason why men found her so restful, and instinctively talked to her about themselves.
But Lenox was long in beginning.
By imperceptible degrees, this unsought gift of friends.h.i.+p was melting the morsel of ice at his heart; was reviving in him, against his will, that keen appreciation of a cultivated woman's sympathy and companions.h.i.+p, which, among finely tempered men, is as potent a factor in the shaping of destinies as pa.s.sion, or hot-headed emotion.
For a while he permitted himself the bitter-sweet satisfaction of merely watching her where she sat, in a shaft of sunlight, that struck golden gleams through the burnished abundance of her hair; of noting the grace and dignity of her pose, and speculating as to the nature of her thoughts. His wife's reckless impulse on that fateful September day was bringing him now within measurable distance of a very human danger. The deep, pa.s.sionate heart of him, crushed and stifled during the past five years, was in no safe state to be brought into contact with a lighted match. But of this danger he was, by his very nature, sublimely unaware.
Finally he took the short pipe from his lips and spoke.
"Of course you know I have something definite to say, or I should hardly have the cheek to inflict myself on you twice in the twenty-four hours."
She looked up and smiled. "You're evidently in one of your bad moods, or you would not vex me by putting it like that."
"Sorry to vex you, but I _am_ in a bad mood; have been for the last week; so you must make allowances, I can't sleep, and a restless devil inside me won't let me settle to steady work. Nerves, I suppose. I don't look a likely subject, do I? But they give me a deal of trouble at times; and I came to say that I must go back on my arrangement with you and Desmond and clear out of this before the end of the week."
"Oh, but surely that would be a great pity; a great disappointment to us both. Is it really a case of 'must'?"
"I think so."
"And you have only been here a fortnight! Isn't it rather early days to give in?"
"Very early days--as the case must appear to you; and the evil of it is that I have no power to make things clearer. Think me an overwrought fool; a broken-backed corn-stalk, if you choose. It will hurt, of course; but it can't be helped."
He spoke with undisguised bitterness, and, laying down her work, she looked at him straightly, a great compa.s.sion in her eyes.
"You misunderstand the fundamentals of friends.h.i.+p if you can talk like that," she said gently. "It is rooted in reticence in respect for another's individuality. Whatever you choose to do, you may be very sure that I shall neither doubt your good reasons, nor seek to know them. That is my idea of what it means to be a friend."
"I stand rebuked," he answered gravely, "and I'm not likely to forget what you have said."
"At the same time," she added in a lighter tone, "one is only human!
And I can't let you leave Dalhousie without a word of protest--even if it is useless." She hesitated. "May I speak straight?"
"As straight as you please. I should prefer it."
"Well, I think that if it is a case of nerves, or--worry of any kind, nothing can be worse for you than your own society. Such amus.e.m.e.nt as we can offer you up here may be frivolous and insignificant enough, but, believe me, it is far better for you just now than the most sublime snowfields and glaciers at the back of Beyond! You know you are free to come here whenever you please. Theo enjoys having you; so do I. And I'm sure it's good for you to fraternise with something more human than a mountain!"
He smiled, but did not answer at once; and suddenly she lifted her head, her face all animation.
"Look here, I have a notion--an inspired notion. Why should not you two get Colonel Mayhew's permission to go off on a week's shooting trip beyond Chumba. Ten days if you like. Theo would love it. You would come back to your writing like a giant refreshed. There now, isn't that a plan worth thinking over?"
Moved beyond his wont, Lenox leaned impulsively towards her.
"My dear Mrs Desmond, your kindness overpowers me. But I really can't see that you and your husband are called upon to put yourselves out like that, on my behalf. You are up here to enjoy your short holiday together; and you are rare good companions, as I know. What right have I to monopolise him for ten days, and leave you alone? Why should you care, after all, if I do go and knock myself to bits in the interior?"
"That question is unworthy of you, and doesn't deserve an answer," she said on a note of gentle reproof. "Mine does. Will you do what I ask?"
"Since you ask it of me--yes. Always supposing that it suits Desmond to go."
"Of course it will suit him. We will settle it when he comes in."
He leaned back in his chair, and sighed.