Black Glass Part 4

Harris's wife wanted to encourage other women not to care whether men approved of them or not, and she wanted and expected Harris to say he approved of this project.

He tried to focus again on the surface of the gla.s.s, on the cartoon panels. What nice colors.

"Kapow!" Harris said. "Kaboom!"

We come from the cemetery, We went to get our mother, h.e.l.lo mother the Virgin, We are your children, We come to ask your help, You should give us your courage.

-Voudon song

CONTENTION.

Some of us are dreamers.

-Kermit At dinner Claire's son asks her if she knows the name of the man who is on record as having grown the world's largest vegetable, not counting the watermelon, which may be a fruit, Claire's son is not sure. Claire says that she doesn't. Her son is eight years old. It is an annoying age. He wants her to guess.

"I really don't know, honey," Claire says.

So he gives her a hint. "It was a turnip."

Claire eliminates the entire population of Lapland. "Elliot," she guesses.

"Nope." His voice holds an edge of triumph, but no more than is polite. "Wrong. Guess again."

"Just tell me," Claire suggests.

"Guess first."

"Edmund," Claire says, and her son regards her with narrowing eyes.

"Guess the last name."

Claire remembers that China is the world's most populous country. "Edmund Li," she guesses, but the correct answer is Edmund Firthgrove and the world's most common surname is Chang. So she is not even close.

"Guess who has the world's longest fingernails," her son suggests. "It's a man."

Well, Claire is quite certain it's not going to be Edmund Firthgrove. Life is a bifurcated highway. She points this out to her son, turns to make sure her daughter is listening as well. "We live in an age of specialization," she tells them. "You can make gardening history or you can make fingernail history, but there's no way in h.e.l.l you can make both. Remember this. This is your mother speaking. If you want to be great, you've got to make choices." And then immediately Claire wonders if what she has just said is true.

"We're having hamburgers again." Claire's husband makes this observation in a slow, dispa.s.sionate voice. Just the facts, ma'am. "We had hamburgers on Sunday and then again on Thursday. This makes three times this week."

Claire tells him she is going for a personal record. In fact it is a headline she read while waiting with the ground meat for the supermarket checker that is making her rethink this issue of choices now. "Meet the laziest man in the world," it said. "In bed since 1969 . . . his wife even shaves and bathes him."

Claire imagines that a case like this one begins when a man loses his job. He may spend weeks seeking new employment and never even make it to the interview. He's just not a self-starter. Thoroughly demoralized, on a Monday in 1969, at the height of the Vietnam War, he refuses to get out of bed. "What's the point?" he asks his wife. She is tolerant at first. He needs a rest. Fine. She leaves him alone for a couple of days, even brings in trays of food, changes the channel of the TV for him.

This is no bid for greatness, this is a modified suicide. "Man collapses watching game show." But staying in bed turns out to have pleasant a.s.sociations for him. He begins to remember a bout of chicken pox he had as a child-how his mother would bring him gla.s.ses of orange juice. He feels warm and cared for; his despair begins to dissipate. "I've got such a craving for orange juice," he tells his wife.

Months pa.s.s; he has been in bed an entire year before he realizes what he has become. He's not just some schlub who can't find work. Suddenly he's a contender. With stamina, perseverance, and support he can turn tragedy into triumph. He tells his wife that the only thing they have to fear now is a failure of nerve.

How does she feel about this? In the picture which accompanied the story she was shown plumping up his pillow and smiling, a beefy sort of woman, a type that is never going to be fas.h.i.+onable. She may feel, like him, that this is her only shot. His greatness is her greatness. His glory is her glory.

Or her motives may be less pure. Out in the world more, she is bound to be more worldly than he is. He has a vision. He is extending the boundaries of human achievement. She is speculating on the possibility of a movie made for TV. She may suggest that, as long as he is just lying there, he could be growing his fingernails, too.

She is an ignorant woman. You don't just grow your fingernails because you happen to have time on your hands. It requires commitment, a special gelatinous diet, internal and external fortification. A person's nails are, in fact, most at risk during those precise hours a person spends in bed. She has her own motives, of course. She is tired of clipping his nails. "Why don't you grow your beard out?" she suggests, rouging her cheeks and donning a feathery hat before slipping out to a three-martini lunch with the network executives. She will order lobster, then sell the exclusive rights to the tabloids instead. "Why don't you make a ball out of twine?" The largest recorded string ball is more than twelve feet in diameter. That will keep him in bed for a while.

At the restaurant she meets Solero don Guillermo, the world's fastest flamenco dancer. She forgets to come home. Her husband grows hungrier and hungrier. He makes his way to the kitchen five days later, a smashed man. He contemplates slitting his wrists. Instead, while preparing his own breakfast, he manages, in twelve seconds, to chop a cuc.u.mber in 250 slices, besting Hugh Andrews of Blackpool by four cuts. The rounds of cuc.u.mber are so fine you could watch TV through them.

Forty-two years later-a good twenty-four years off the record-he gets his wife's note, placed in a bottle and tossed off the Queen Mary. "Kiss my a.s.s," it says.

"You know"-Claire's son's voice is accusing-"how much I hate raw hamburgers. This is all pink in the middle. It's gross. I can't eat this."

"I'm tired of hamburgers," Claire's daughter says.

"Is there anything else to eat?" Claire's husband asks.

Claire smiles at them all. She sends them a message, tapping it out with her fork on the side of her plate. It may take years, but she imagines it will get there eventually.

s.h.i.+MABARA.

The sea, the same as now. It had rained, and we can imagine that, too, just as we have ourselves seen it-the black sky, the ocean carved with small, sharp waves. At the base of each cliff would be a cloud of white water.

At the top of the cliffs was a castle and, inside the castle, a fifteen-year-old boy. Here is where it gets tricky. What is different and what is the same? The story takes place on the other side of the world. The boy has been dead more than three hundred and fifty years. There was a castle, but now there is a museum and a mall. A j.a.panese mall is still a mall; we know what a mall looks like. The sea is the same. What about a fifteen-year-old boy?

The boy's mother, Martha, was in a boat on the sea beneath the cliffs. Once a day she was taken to sh.o.r.e to the camp of Lord Matsudaira for interrogation. Then she could see the castle where her son was. The rest of the time she lay inside the boat with her two daughters, each of them bound by the wrists and the ankles, so that when she was allowed to stand, her legs, through disuse, could hardly hold her up. Add to that the motion of the boat. When she walked on land, on her way to interrogation, she shook and pitched. The samurai thought it was terror, and of course there was that, too.

Perhaps Martha was more concerned about her son in the castle than her daughters on the boat. Perhaps a j.a.panese mother three hundred and fifty years ago would feel this way. In any case, all their lives depended on her son now. As she lay on the boat, Martha pa.s.sed the time by counting miracles. The first was that she had a son. On the day of s.h.i.+ro's birth, the sunset flamed across the entire horizon, turning the whole landscape red, then black. Later, when s.h.i.+ro was twelve, a large, fiery cross rose out of the ocean off the s.h.i.+mabara Peninsula and he was seen walking over the water toward it. He could call birds to his hands; they would lay eggs in his palms. This year, the year he turned fifteen, the sunset of his birth was repeated many times. The cherry blossoms were early. These things had been foretold. Martha remembered; she summoned her son's face; she imagined the sun setting a fire each night behind Hara Castle. The worst that could happen was that her son prove now to be ordinary. The wind that had brought the rain rocked the boat.

Thirty-seven thousand Kiris.h.i.+tan rebels followed s.h.i.+ro out of Amakusa to the s.h.i.+mabara Peninsula and the ruin of Hara Castle. Kiris.h.i.+tan is a word that has been translated into j.a.panese and come back out again, as in the children's game of telephone. It goes in as Christian, comes out Kiris.h.i.+tan.

The rebels made the crossing in hundreds of small boats, each with a crucifix in the bow. A government spy stood in the cold shadow of a tree and watched the boats leave. He couldn't count the rebels. Maybe there were fifty thousand. Maybe twenty thousand. Of those, maybe twelve thousand were men of fighting age. The spy grew weak from hunger and fatigue. Just to stand long enough to watch them all depart required the discipline and dedication of a samurai.

General Itakura s.h.i.+gemasa pursued the rebels through Amakusa, burning the villages they'd left behind. Many of the remaining inhabitants died in the fires. Those who survived, Itakura put to death anyway. He had the children tied to stakes and then burned alive. It was a message to the fifteen-year-old Kiris.h.i.+tan leader.

Although Hara Castle had been abandoned for many years, it was built to be defended. The east side of the castle looked over the sea; on the west was a level marsh, fed by tides, which afforded no footing to horses, no cover to attackers. North and south were cliffs one hundred feet high. Only two paths led in, one to the front, one to the rear, and neither was wide enough for more than a single man. On January 27, 1637, after ten days of repairs, the rebels occupied Hara Castle.

They hoisted a flag. It showed a goblet, a cross, a motto, and two angels. The angels were fat, unsmiling, and European; the motto was in Portuguese. LOVVAD SEIA O SACTISSIM SACRAMENTO: Praised be the most holy sacrament. In March, when Martha knelt in Lord Matsudaira's camp to write s.h.i.+ro a letter, there were one hundred thousand Bakufu samurai between her and her son.

JANUARY, FEBRUARY, MARCH, and early April pa.s.sed in a steady storm of negotiations. The air above s.h.i.+mabara was full of words wound around the shafts of arrows. One landed in the camp outside the castle. "Heaven and earth have one root, the myriad things one substance. Among all sentient beings there is no such distinction as n.o.ble and base," the arrow said. An arrow flew back. "Surrender," it asked, but obliquely, politely, confining itself, in fact, to references to the weather.

January and February were muddy. General Itakura commanded the Bakufu forces. Government agents tried to dig a tunnel into the castle, but the digging was overheard. The rebels filled the tunnel with smoke and regular deposits of urine and feces until the diggers refused to dig farther.

Itakura planned to pummel the castle walls with cannonb.a.l.l.s so large it took twenty-five sweating men to move each one to the front lines. The last days of January were spent pulling and pus.h.i.+ng the cannonb.a.l.l.s into place, but it proved a Sisyphean labor in the end since no cannon, no catapult, was large enough to launch them.

More letters flew across on arrow shafts. "The samurai in Amakusa cannot fight," the letters from inside the castle said. "They are cowards and only good at torturing unarmed farmers. The sixty-six provinces of j.a.pan will all be Kiris.h.i.+tan, of that there is no doubt. Anyone who does doubt, the Lord Deus with His own feet will kick him down into Inferno; make sure this point is understood." "Surrender," said the arrows going in, but the penmans.h.i.+p was beautiful; the letters could almost have been framed. Meanwhile, Lord Matsudaira n.o.butsuna and a fleet of sixty s.h.i.+ps were moving up the coast from Kyushu, bringing Martha to her son.

General Itakura received a letter from his cousin in Osaka. "All is well. When Lord Matsudaira arrives, the castle, held as it is by mere peasants, will not last another day." Itakura translated this letter immediately as mockery. He decided to attack before the reinforcements arrived.

His first try was on February 3, a mousy, hilarious effort; his second on New Year's Day, February 14. Itakura himself led the bold frontal attack across the marsh and was killed by a rebel sharpshooter. After his death, he was much condemned for inappropriate bravura. He had laid the government open to more ridicule, dying as he had at the hands of farmers.

The night before his death Itakura wrote a poem.

When only the name remains of the flower that bloomed on New Year's Day, remember it as the leader of our force.

He attached it to an arrow and shot it out over the ocean in the direction of Lord Matsudaira's fleet and the moon.

On February 24, the Commissioner of Nagasaki transmitted Lord Matsudaira's request that the Dutch s.h.i.+p de Ryp begin a bombardment of the castle from the sea. The sh.e.l.ling lasted two weeks until, on March 12, the shogunate canceled the request. Two Dutch sailors had been killed; one, shot in the topmast, fell to the deck and landed on the other. A storm of arrows left the castle. "The government agents," these arrows said, "are better at squeezing taxes out of starving farmers, better at keeping account books, than at risking their lives on the field of battle. This is why they have to depend on foreigners to do their fighting. We in Hara Castle are armed with faith. We cannot be killed and we will slay all village magistrates and heathen bonzes without sparing even one; for judgment day is at hand for all j.a.pan."

The Dutch commissioner, Nicolaus Coukebacker, sent a defensive letter by boat back to Holland. "We were, of course, reluctant to fire upon fellow Christians, even though the rebels in question are Roman Catholics and the damage the rebellion has done to trade conditions in Nagasaki has been severe. Our bombardment was, in any case, ineffectual." He was too modest. The outer defenses had been weakened.

On March 5, in the middle of the lull provided by the Dutch bombardment, a letter flew into the government camp from one Yamada Emonsaku of Hara Castle. Expressing his reverence for the rule of hereditary lords in particular and governments in general, Yamada a.s.sured them he had never been a sincere Kiris.h.i.+tan. He then outlined a lengthy plan in which he offered to deliver s.h.i.+ro to the Bakufu alive. "Please give me your approval immediately, and I will overthrow the evil Kiris.h.i.+tans, give tranquillity to the empire, and, I trust, escape with my own life." An answer asking for further information was sent back, but Yamada did not respond.

The invisible men, the ninjutsuzukai, went into Hara Castle and returned with information. The rebel leader had a mild case of scabies. While he'd been playing a game of go, an incoming cannonball had ripped the sleeve of his coat. His divinity had never seemed more questionable. The letter to Yamada had been easily intercepted. He was bound in a castle room under a sentence of death.

Around their ankles, the invisible men wore leads which unwrapped as they walked. If they were killed, their bodies could be dragged back out. You might think such cords would have given them away, but you are more inclined to believe in the fabulous skills of the ninjutsuzukai than that a boy has walked on water. Not a single ninjutsuzukai was lost.

Lord Matsudaira judged that the rebel position was weakening. After the silly death of Itakura, he had settled on the inglorious strategy of blockade. The strategy appeared justified. The ninjutsuzukai said that the rebels were living in holes they had excavated under the castle. There was not enough to eat.

MATSUDAIRA WROTE A LETTER. The letter spoke of the filial piety owed to parents. It a.s.sured s.h.i.+ro of Matsudaira's reluctance to hurt s.h.i.+ro's family and said further that Matsudaira knew a fifteen-year-old boy couldn't possibly be leading such a large force. "I am pleased, therefore, to offer a full pardon to the boy, asking only that he surrender, recant, and identify the real leader of the rebellion. I look forward to a joyful family reunion."

Martha knelt in the mud beside Matsudaira and wrote as he directed. "We know that you have forced conversions on some of your followers. If you let those hostages go, Lord Matsudaira will allow your family to join you in Hara Castle. All who surrender may depend on the traditional magnanimity of the Bakufu; no one who freely recants will be punished. Indeed, rice lands will be given to those who surrender!" Matsudaira gestured with one hand that Martha was to finish the letter herself. "For myself, I ask only to see you again. Perhaps we could speak. Lord Matsudaira is willing. Don't forget your family on the outside who wish only to be with you."

These letters were carried into the castle by s.h.i.+ro's young nephew and little sister. They had been dressed by the Bakufu in kimonos with purple bursts of chrysanthemums. They wore embroidered slippers brought up the coast by boat for the occasion.

Small as they were, the narrow path to the castle held them both, but the path was muddy from the rain, and the children wanted to save their shoes, so they stepped slowly and sometimes, when puddles narrowed the path even more, one did go before the other. Inside the s.h.i.+ning kaleidoscope of armor and sunlight, Martha saw the small bobbing chrysanthemums and, high above them, the flag over Hara Castle. "Now we will know what kind of a son you have," Lord Matsudaira told her. "If you have the wrong kind, only you are to blame for what happens next."

Soon the tiny figures disappeared from view. Martha counted slowly, trying to guess at the exact moment they would enter the castle. The path was very long and their steps so small. The ocean sobbed behind her. The sun through the trees moved down her face to her hands. If she could send s.h.i.+ro one more message, she would ask him to keep the children. She imagined the wish like a small, s.h.i.+ning stone in s.h.i.+ro's hand. He rubbed it with his fingers, feeling it, understanding it. He threw it into the air, as he would any other stone, but it became the bird whose shadow pa.s.sed over Martha's face, the shadow s.h.i.+ro's answer to her.

Martha struggled to keep her mind on the miracles. Left to itself, her memory immediately chose the most ordinary of moments. A little boy throwing stones. A pair of arms around her neck. A game of hiding. His face when he slept.

Matsudaira had tea prepared. He drank and attended to his mail. He discussed Hara Castle with several of his officers. They were all agreed that the rebellion could not have held out at any other spot. It was a wonderful castle, and after they had taken it they must be sure to destroy it completely. Fire, first, but then the stonework must be carefully dismantled. The unit from Osaka was charged with this.

Matsudaira decided to change the pa.s.swords. He sent out the new codes. Now the sentries were to inquire, "A mountain?" "A river" would be the correct reply. In an optimistic mood, he selected a pa.s.sword to signal the start of an attack. It, too, would be in the form of a question. "A province?" "A province!" was also the answer. He had a meal of rice b.a.l.l.s and mullet. While he was eating, Martha heard a shout. The children were returning.

s.h.i.+ro had written a letter, which his nephew gave to Matsudaira. "Frequent prohibitions have been published by the Shogun, which have greatly distressed us. Some among us there are who consider the hope of future life as of the highest importance. For these there is no escape. Should . . . the above laws not be repealed, we must incur all sorts of punishments and torture; we must, our bodies being weak and sensitive, sin against the infinite Lord of Heaven; and from solicitude for our brief lives incur the loss of what we highly esteem. These things fill us with grief beyond our capacity. There are no forced converts among us, only outside, among you. We are protected by Santa Maria-sama [Mary], Sanchiyago-sama [Jesus], and Sanfurans.h.i.+suko-sama [St. Francis]."

To his mother s.h.i.+ro sent a large parcel of food containing honey, bean-jam buns, oranges, and yams. He had given his little sister his ring to wear.

The ninjutsuzukai had reported starvation. Scavengers from the castle had been seen on Oe beach, searching for edible seaweeds. The bodies of rebel dead had been cut open and their stomachs contained only seaweed and barley. The unexpected sight of bean-jam buns sent Matsudaira into a rage. "Your son thinks very little of you," he said. "Very little of his sisters. All you ask is to speak with him. What kind of a son is this?"

Martha was filled with grief beyond her capacity. The largest part of it was only the fact that her daughter and her grandson had been allowed to see s.h.i.+ro and she had not. In s.h.i.+ro's presence she would have endured anything. "G.o.d is feeding him," she told Matsudaira. "He is stronger than you can imagine. G.o.d will change him into a bird to fly away from your soldiers. You will never kill my son."

This display angered Matsudaira even more. "Take her back to the boat," Matsudaira told the soldiers. "Take her and bind her below where she can't watch the sun set or see the castle. Her son doesn't love her enough to see her. What kind of a mother is this?"

WHEN IT CAME, the final attack was a mistake. On April 12 a fire was misread as a signal. The Nabes.h.i.+ma division rushed forward, soon joined by others. The rebels were completely out of ammunition and the sentries too weak from hunger to hold their posts. The agents easily penetrated the outer perimeter. In the inner rings, the women and children defended themselves with stones and cooking pots. They held out for two more days and nights of steady fighting. On April 15, the defenses collapsed.

By nightfall the government had set up tables to count and collect heads. The count was at 10,869. Headless bodies covered the fields about the castle, clogged the nearby rivers. By April 16, only one person from the castle had survived. As a reward for his letter of March 5, Yamada Emonsaku was spared. Eventually he would be taken back to Edo to serve in Lord Matsudaira's house as his a.s.sistant.

The kubi-jikken, or head inspection scene, is a traditional element of feudal literature. Martha saw s.h.i.+ro one more time. The soldiers collected every head that might belong to a fifteen-year-old boy and summoned Martha to identify her son. "He is not here," she told them. Her daughters had been killed and her grandson. Their heads would be displayed in Nagasaki. Her own death was very close now. "He was sent by Heaven and Heaven has protected him. G.o.d has transformed him to escape you." There were many possible heads. She rejected them all. Finally Lord Sasaemon held up a recent victim. The boy had been dressed in silks.

Martha began to weep at once, and once she began there was no reason to stop. She thought of her son throwing stones, playing hiding games, his face when he slept. She took the head and held it in her lap. We can imagine this moment, if we let ourselves, as a sort of j.a.panese piet, the piet translated, like the word Kiris.h.i.+tan, into j.a.panese and out again. "Can he really have become so thin?" Martha asked.

EVERY MOTHER CAN easily imagine losing a child. Motherhood is always half loss anyway. The three-year-old is lost at five, the five-year-old at nine. We consort with ghosts, even as we sit and eat with, scold and kiss, their current corporeal forms. We speak to people who have vanished and, when they answer us, they do the same. Naturally, the information in these speeches is garbled in the translation.

I myself have a fifteen-year-old son who was once nine, once five, once fit entirely inside me. At fifteen, he speaks in monotones, sounds chosen deliberately for their minimal content. "Later," he says to me, leaving the house, and maybe he means that he will see me later, that later he will sit down with me, we will talk. At fifteen, he has a whole lot of later.

Me, not so much. To me, later is that time coming soon, when he will be made up almost entirely of words: letters in the mailbox, conversations on the phone, stories we tell about him, plans he tells to us. And you probably think I would have trouble imagining that thirty-seven thousand people could follow him to their deaths, that this is the hard part, but you would be wrong. No other part of the story, except for the sea, is so easy to imagine.

Isn't it really just a matter of walking on water? To me, today, this seems a relatively insignificant difference, but of course it is the whole point-along with starvation and persecution, peasant messianism and ronin discontent. Was the boy in the castle G.o.d, or wasn't he? Who saw him walking on water? Who says the sunsets were his?

The story comes to us over time, s.p.a.ce, and culture, a game of telephone played out in magnificent distances. Thirty-seven thousand Kiris.h.i.+tans and one hundred thousand Bakufu samurai were willing to die, arguing over the divinity of Amakusa s.h.i.+ro. But what does this mean to us? Nothing is left now but the flag and the words.

"An angel was sent as messenger and the instructions he transmitted must therefore be pa.s.sed on to the villagers," the rebels wrote to someone and, eventually, to us. "And the august personage named Lord s.h.i.+ro who has these days appeared in Oyano of Amakusa is an angel from Heaven."

Within one moment, anything is possible. Only the pa.s.sage of time makes our miraculous lives mundane. For a single moment any boy can walk on water. An arrow can hang in the sky without falling. Martha kneels to write a letter. The sun is in her face. Negotiations continue. CNN is filming. The compound will never be taken. There are children inside.

THE ELIZABETH COMPLEX.

Love is particularly difficult to study clinically.