Black Glass Part 2

This was a hard time for Carry. She went to bed for five years.

Psychologists now say maybe having a mother who thought she was Queen Victoria is what made Carry sick for such a long time. Psychologists are people who study how people feel and behave.

In 1857, her doctor said she had consumption of the bowels.

But George, her father, said her sickness was a punishment for not loving G.o.d. He came to see her sometimes in her bedroom. "Why won't you love G.o.d, Carry?" he would ask. He would have tears in his eyes. "You are going to die and break my heart," he would say.

Carry didn't want her father to be unhappy. She tried and tried to love G.o.d better. Carry thought she was a horrible sinner. Sometimes, when she was a little girl, she stole things for her slaves, little bits of ribbon, spoonfuls of sugar. Her own heart, Carry said, was the blackest, foulest place she ever saw.

One day when Carry was twelve, George took her to a revival meeting. "Who will come to Jesus?" the minister asked. Carry said that she would. Carry had a fever. George was afraid she was about to die, so even though it was winter, the minister and George took her right away to an icy creek. The water was cold! Carry waded into it, and the minister pushed her under.

When she came up, Carry said that she had learned to love G.o.d. She made her slaves come to her bedroom so she could preach to them. Carry told them that G.o.d sent you troubles because He loved you and wanted you to love Him. G.o.d loved Carry so much He made her ill. G.o.d loved the slaves so much He made them slaves. Now that Carry loved G.o.d, she began to get better, and in two more years she was able to get out of bed.

The slaves thought that since they loved G.o.d, maybe they didn't need to be slaves anymore. They told George they wanted to go to Lawrence, Kansas, where slavery was illegal. Lawrence, Kansas, was very close to Ca.s.s County, Missouri.

George told the slaves they were all moving to Texas instead. Texas was very far from Lawrence, Kansas.

Item six: I don't know where she got the body. A loa usually manifests itself through possession, but I remember no one at the party as large as this woman is reported to be. In addition, I have a memory of the loa materializing out of flame. I need not repeat that I was under the influence of bufotoxin at the time.

Item seven: The loa are frequently religious archetypes. Carry Nation, by her own account, spoke to angels when she was still a child and saw the Holy Ghost at her bas.e.m.e.nt window. She performed two miracles in her life and applied for sainthood, although the application was turned down. Since the DEA agents and I performed only a quasi-Voudon ritual, there is a certain logic to the fact that we got only a quasi-saint in return. The loa I summoned was Carry Amelia Nation. She told me so herself.

Item eight: Ask the General why he left the Vatican emba.s.sy.

Harris already knew the answer to item eight. Harris had friends among the attorneys on Miami's "white powder bar." It was not that their interests were compatible. It was merely a fact that they saw each other often.

"So what was it?" the attorney told Harris he had asked the General. "Why did you come out? Was it the white room with no windows and no TV? Was it the alcohol deprivation?"

"It was a woman," the General said.

"You spoke to your mistress." The attorney knew this much. She had been in U.S. custody at the time. "She persuaded you?"

"No." The General shuddered violently. His skin turned the color of eggplant. "It was a horrible woman, a huge woman, a woman no man would sleep with." He was, the attorney told Harris, very possibly a h.o.m.os.e.xual. Hadn't he started dressing in yellow jumpsuits? Hadn't he said that the only people in Panama with b.a.l.l.s were the queers and the women? "She sang to me," the General said.

"Heavy metal?" asked the attorney.

"Who Hath Sorrow, Who Hath Woe," said the General.

Harris did not include this in his report. It was an off-the-record conversation. And anyway, the DEA would trust it more if they found it themselves.

Harris pushed the key to print. Only the first part of his report fit on the DEA form. He stapled the other pages to it. He signed the report and poured himself a bedtime sherry.

THE MOORES DID NOT LIVE in Texas very long. Many of their slaves developed typhoid fever while walking there from Missouri. All their horses died. George tried to farm, but he did not know how. Mary told one of their neighbors that she was confiscating his lands and his t.i.tle, so he threw all their plows into the river. Soon there was nothing to eat.

George called his slaves together. He told them he had decided to free them. The slaves were frightened to be free with no food. Some of them cried.

It was very hard for the Moores to leave their slaves. But Carry said her father had done the right thing. She believed that slavery was a great wrong. She admired John Brown, a man who had fought for the rights of slaves in Kansas and was hanged for it when Carry was thirteen years old. All her life, John Brown was a hero of Carry's. "When I grow up," Carry said, "I will be as brave as John Brown."

Between Texas and Missouri was the Civil War. The Queen's carriage had been sold. When the Moores went back to Missouri, they had to ride in their little wagon. One day the ground shook behind them. They pulled off the road. It was not an earthquake. It was the Confederate cavalry on their way to the Battle of Pea Ridge. After the cavalry came the foot soldiers. It took two days and two nights for all the soldiers to pa.s.s them.

On the third day, they heard cannons. The Moores began to ride again, slowly, in the direction of the cannons. On the fourth day, the Confederate Army pa.s.sed them again. This time they were going south. This time they were running. The Moores drove their little wagon straight through the smoking battlefield of Pea Ridge.

They spent that night in a farmhouse with a woman and five wounded Union soldiers. The soldiers were too badly hurt to be moved, so the woman had offered to nurse them. She told Carry she had five sons of her own. Her sons were soldiers for the South. Carry helped her clean and tend the boys. One of them was dying. Mary knighted them all.

"ARE YOU ENJOYING the book?" Harris asked, surprised that she was still awake. He took off his clothes and lay down beside her. She had more than her share of the comforter. He had to lie very close to be warm enough, putting an arm across her stomach, feeling her s.h.i.+ft her body to fit him.

"Yes, I am," she said. "I think she's wonderful."

"Wonderful?" Harris removed his arm. "What do you mean, 'wonderful'?"

"I just mean, what a colorful, amazing life. What a story."

Harris put his arm back. "Yes," he agreed.

"And what a vivacious, powerful woman. After all she'd been through. What a resilient, remarkable woman."

Harris removed his arm. "She's insane," he suggested stiffly. "She's a religious zealot with a hatchet. She's a joke."

"She's a superhero," said Harris's wife. "Why doesn't she have her own movie? Look here." She flipped through The Girl's Life to the collection of photographs in the middle. She skipped over Carry kneeling with her Bible in her jail cell to a more confrontational shot: Carry in battle dress, threatening the photographer with hatchetation. "She even had a costume. She designed it herself, like Batman. See? She made special dresses with pockets on the inside for her rocks and ammunition. She could bust up bars and she could sew like the wind. Can Rambo say as much?"

"I bet she threw like a girl," said Harris, trying for a light tone to mask the fact that he was genuinely upset.

His wife was not masking. "Her aim was supposed to have been extraordinary," she said in her schoolteacher tone, a tone that invariably suggested disappointment in him. "Women are cut off from the rich mythological tradition you men have. Women are so hungry for heroines. Name one."

"What?" said Harris.

"Name a historical heroine. Quickly."

"Joan of Arc," said Harris.

"Everyone can get that far. Now name another."

Harris couldn't think. She tapped her fingers on the page to let him know that time was pa.s.sing. He had always admired Morgan Fairchild for her political activism, but he a.s.sumed this would be the wrong answer. If he hadn't been so irritated, he could probably have come up with another name.

"Harriet Tubman," his wife said. "Donaldina Cameron. Edith Cavell. Yvonne Hakime-Rimpel."

She really was a sn.o.b, but she was also a fair-minded woman. She was not, Harris thought, one of those feminists who simply changed history every time it didn't suit her. Harris got out of bed and went back to the study. His feet were cold on the bare wood floor. Blankets or no blankets, it would take a long time for his feet to warm up. He fished Carry Nation's autobiography out of his stack and brought it back.

"You haven't read about her daughter," he said. "There's nothing about Charlien in the pretty little version for children that you chose to read." He flipped through his own book until he found the section he wanted. He thrust it in front of his wife's face, then pulled it back to read it aloud. "'About this time, my precious child, born of a drunken father and a distracted mother, seemed to conceive a positive dislike for Christianity. I feared for her soul and I prayed to G.o.d to send her some bodily affliction which would make her love and serve Him.'"

Harris skimmed ahead in the book with his finger. "A week later, Charlien developed a raging fever," he told his wife. "She almost died. And when she recovered from that, part of her cheek rotted away. She had a hole in her face. You could see her teeth. But it was a lucky thing. Because then her jaws locked shut, and she wouldn't have been able to eat if there wasn't a hole in her cheek to stick a straw through." He made an effort to lower his voice. "Her jaws stayed locked for eight years."

There was a long silence, a silence, Harris thought, of reevaluation and regret for earlier, hasty judgments. "That is a very ugly story," his wife said. She took the autobiography away from him and began to turn the pages.

"Isn't it?" Harris wiggled his arm underneath her. There was a longer silence. Harris stared at the ceiling. It was a blown popcorn landscape, and sometimes Harris could imagine pictures in it, but he was too tired for this now. He looked instead at the large cobwebs in the corners. Tomorrow Harris would get the broom and knock them down. Then he would get out the vacuum to suck up the bits of ceiling that came down with the cobwebs, the little flakes of milky asbestos, the poisonous snow, the toxic powders. Nothing the vacuum couldn't handle. And then Harris would need a rag to remove from the furniture the dust the vacuum had flung up. And then the rag would need to be washed. And then . . . it was almost like counting sheep. Harris drifted.

"You can't possibly think those things happened because of Carry's prayers," his wife said.

Harris woke up in amazement. His arm had already gone numb from his wife's weight. He pulled it free. "So now she's Carry?" Harris asked. "Now we're on a first-name basis?"

"Look at the religious climate she grew up in. You don't believe G.o.d afflicted a little girl with such a horrible condition because her mother asked Him to?"

"What kind of mother would ask Him to?" said Harris. "That's the point, isn't it? What kind of a horrible mother is this?"

Harris's wife was still reading the autobiography. "Carry worked for years to earn the money for surgery," she told Harris.

"I've read the book," he said, but there was no stopping her.

"She ignored the doctors who said the case was hopeless. Every time a doctor said the case was hopeless, she went home and earned more money for another doctor." Harris's wife pointed out the relevant text.

"I've read the d.a.m.n book."

"The condition was finally cured, because Carry never gave up."

"So she says," said Harris.

His wife regarded him coolly. "I don't think Carry would lie."

Harris turned his back on his wife and lay on his side. "It's very late," he said curtly. He turned off his light, punched angrily at his pillow. Unable to get comfortable, he flipped from side to side and considered getting himself another sherry. "What's to like about her? I really don't understand." Harris felt that his wife had suddenly, frighteningly, become a different person. They had always been so consensual. Not pathologically so-they had their own opinions and their own values, of course-but they had also generally liked the same movies, enjoyed the same books. Suddenly she was holding unreasonable opinions. Suddenly she was a stranger.

His wife did not answer, nor did she turn off her own light. "This is an interesting book, too," she said. He heard pages continuing to turn. "There are hymns in the back. Honey, if you dislike Carry Nation so much, why do you have all these books about her?"

Harris, who always told his wife everything, had not yet found just the right moment to tell her that, the last time he was in Panama, he had summoned a loa. Harris pretended to be asleep.

"You just don't like her because she had a hatchet," his wife said quietly. "Because she was a big, loud woman with a hatchet. You're threatened by her."

Harris sat bolt upright so that the comforter slid off him. Was that fair? Was that at all fair? Hadn't they had a completely egalitarian, respectful, supportive marriage? And didn't it make him sort of a joke in the DEA for his lack of machismo, and hadn't he never, ever complained to her about this?

"Good night," his wife said evenly, snapping her light off. She had her side of the comforter wound in her fists. It fell just a bit below her shoulders so he could see her neck and the start of her spine, blue in the moonlight, like st.i.tching down her back. She breathed, and her spine stretched like a snake. She pulled the comforter up around her again. She had more than her share of the covers.

Beside the books on her nightstand was the little black toad. Harris had given it to her for Christmas. It stared at him.

And wasn't he, after all, the person who'd brought Carry back? Now he was glad he hadn't told her. Harris's feet were too cold, and he couldn't sleep at all.

"I'VE READ OVER your report," Harris's superior told him. "I took it up top. It's a little spotty."

Harris conceded as much. "The form was so small," he said.

"And not really designed for exactly this sort of problem." With tone of voice, phrasing, and body language, Harris's superior managed a blatant show of generosity and condescension. Harris's superior was feeling superior. It was not a pretty thing to see. It was not a pretty thing to see in the man who fought so hard to award the Texas Guard a $2,900,000 federal grant so they could station themselves along the Mexican border disguised as cactus plants and ambush drug traffickers.

Harris looked instead at the map on the wall behind him. It was a map much like the map in Harris's study; the pins were different colors, but the locations were identical. "This is the DEA's official position," his superior said. "The DEA does not believe in zombies. The DEA believes in drugs. One of our agents was inadvertently drugged on Christmas Eve and imagined a great many things. This agent now understands that the incidents in question were hallucinatory.

"If it is ever proved that this agent called forth a loa, then it is the DEA's position that he did so in his leisure time and that the summoning represents the act of an individual and not of an agency.

"The DEA has no knowledge of or connection with the gorilla woman. Her malicious and illegal destruction of private property is a matter for the local police. Do you understand?"

"Unofficially?" asked Harris.

"Unofficially they're reading your report in the men's room for light entertainment," said Harris's superior. "You'll see bits of it on the wall in the second stall." Harris already had. Item six: I don't know where she got the body. Scratched with a penknife or the fingernail-cleaning attachment on a clipper, just above the toilet paper dispenser.

His superior leaned forward to engage in actual eye contact with Harris. It took Harris by surprise; he drew back.

"Unofficially we were impressed with the report the General gave us. We were impressed enough to interview some of the Miami eyewitnesses. They're not the sort of wing nuts in sandals you might expect to find in the tabloids. Our agent spent two hours with a Mr. Schilling, who owns the Miami bar. He's a pretty savvy guy, and he says she performed feats of superhuman strength. How did she get into the Vatican emba.s.sy? No one ever sees her come or go. She took out a crack lab in Raleigh, North Carolina, a week ago. Did you hear about that?"

Harris had not. He was alarmed to hear she was already as far north as Raleigh. He rechecked the map. There it was, a black pin through the heart of North Carolina. "Unofficially the DEA doesn't give a d.a.m.n where she came from. Unofficially the DEA expects you to take care of her."

Harris nodded. He had always seen that the burden of responsibility was his. With or without the DEA, he had never intended to s.h.i.+rk it. He had already been spending his sleepless nights making plans. "With support?" Harris asked.

"At my discretion. And certainly not visibly."

It was more than Harris had hoped for. He moved to the map on the wall. "She seems to be moving directly north. Sooner or later, I figure she'll hit here." He drew a line north from Raleigh to Richmond, a small circle around Richmond. "Somewhere in here. So. We concentrate our forces in the larger bars.

"Now, the body is the real issue. Is it a real body? If so, it's doable. If not, we're in trouble. If not, we need expert help. But let's say that it is. She shows herself, we attack with the bufotoxin/tetrodotoxin package. This could be a bit tricky. She won't drink, of course. The potion can go right through the skin, and sometimes the bokor simply sprinkles it on the doorstep, but I'm guessing she's the sort who won't remove her shoes. We might try a s.h.i.+rley Temple, load the tetrodotoxin into the cherry. Even if she won't drink the ginger ale, I'm willing to bet she'll eat the cherry. The dosage will be guesswork, and someone will have to take it to her. Of course, I'm volunteering."

"No hallucinogenics," Harris's superior said.

Harris's mind was filled with cherries. He had to blink to clear it. "I don't understand. We're just trying to persuade the loa to abandon the host body."

"You summoned a weapon. This weapon served us at the Vatican emba.s.sy. It's a useful weapon. We don't want it destroyed."

"You don't understand," Harris said. "You're not going to control it. You can't talk to it. You can't reason with it. You can't hurt it. It doesn't feel pity or remorse or self-doubt. It makes no distinction between drugs and liquor and nicotine. And it will not stop. Ever."

"We want it on the team," Harris's superior said.

"You're tying my hands," said Harris. His heart had never beat faster except for maybe that time in Mexico when Rico had slipped and used his real name during a buy, and that time above the Bolivian mountains when two engines failed, and that time when his wife was supposed to be home by seven and didn't arrive until after ten because the cla.s.s discussion had been so interesting they'd taken it to a bar to continue it and the bar phone had been out of order, and that time he was on bufotoxins.

"The problem is not here in the States with the consumers. The problem is down there with the suppliers."

"You're sending me on a suicide mission."

"We want your loa in Colombia," Harris's superior said.

HARRIS PACKED HIS CLOTHES for Richmond. He had no red underwear, but he had boxers with red valentines on them. They were a gift from his wife. He put them on, making a mental list of the other items he needed. Eggs dyed yellow, fresh eggs, so he would have to pick them up after he arrived. Salt. Red and white candles. The black toad, for luck. Feathers. Harris pulled his Swiss Army knife out of his pocket and reached for his pillow.

"Patrick?" Harris's wife called him from the kitchen. "Patrick, would you come here a moment?" Harris put the knife away.

His wife stood in front of the refrigerator. In one hand she had the picture of Carry and her hatchet, torn from The Girl's Life. The edges were dipped in red candle wax. "I found this under the Tater Tots," Harris's wife said. "What is it and how did it get in my freezer?"

Harris had no answer. He had to stall and think of one. He opened the refrigerator and got himself a beer. "My freezer?" he said pointedly, popping the flip-top. "Isn't it our freezer?"

"How did this get in our freezer?"