Gerald Fitzgerald: The Chevalier Part 18

'There is no choice for you between this "tinsel bravery" and the tattered rags, all blood-stained and torn, you wore last night.' There they were, scattered about, the crushed and crumpled hat, the doublet torn to ribbons, the rapier smashed--all a wreck. 'No, no, you could not appear in such a presence in rags like these.' Still was Gerald irritated and angry: a sudden sense of shame shot through him as he saw himself thus alone, which, had the others been joined with him, he had doubtless never felt; and for the first time his station suggested the idea of humiliation.

'I will not go, Marietta,' said he at last, as he flung himself upon a chair, and threw his cap to the end of the room. 'So long as thou wert with me, sustaining the interest of the scene, replying to my words, answering every emotion of my heart, I loved Art--I cherished it as the fairest expression of what I felt, but could not speak. Now, alone and without thee, it is a mere mockery--it is more, it is a degradation!'

She knelt down beside him and took his hands in hers. She turned her full, moist eyes toward him, and in broken words besought him not to speak slightingly of that which bound them to each other, for, 'If the day comes, _Gherardi mio_, that thou thinkest meanly of our art, so surely will come another when thou wilt be ashamed of _me_,' and she hid her face on his knees and sobbed bitterly. With what an honest-hearted sincerity did he swear that such a day could never come, or if it did, that he prayed it might be his last! And then he ran over, in eager tones, all that he owed to her teachings. How, but for her, he had not known the true tenderness of Metastasio, the fervour of Petrarch, or the chivalry of Ariosto. 'How much have we found out together we had never discovered if alone!'

And then they dried their tears; and he kissed her, and set out on his way.

It was with a look of haughty meaning, almost defiant, that Gerald ascended the marble stairs and pa.s.sed between two lines of liveried servants, who smiled pitifully on the strolling player, nor put the slightest restraint upon this show of their contempt Fortunately for him and them he had no time to mark it, for the folding doors suddenly opening, he found himself in a large chamber, brilliantly lighted, and with a numerous company a.s.sembled. Before the youth had well crossed the door-sill the Count was at his side, and having kindly taken him by the hand, expressed a hope that he no longer felt any bad effects of his late ill-treatment.

Gerald stammered out his acknowledgments, and tried to make some excuses for his costume, which ended, at last, by the blunt avowal, 'It was this or nothing, sir.'

'The mishap is not without its advantage,' said the Count, in that calm voice which, but for a peculiar expression on his mouth when he spoke, had something almost severe about it. 'It was the resemblance you bear to a certain portrait was the reason of my sending for you to-night: your dress a.s.sists the likeness, for, strangely enough, it is of the very same style and colour as that of the picture. Come forward, and I will present you to a lady who is curious to see you.'

'Madame la d.u.c.h.esse, this is the youth,' said the Count, as he bowed before a lady, who was seated in a deep chair, at either side of which some ladies and gentlemen were standing. She closed her fan and leaned forward, and Gerald beheld a countenance which, if not beautiful, was striking enough to be remembered for years after. She was a blonde of the purest type, with full blue eyes, and ma.s.ses of light hair, which in long ringlets descended to her very shoulders; the features were youthful, though she herself was no longer young; and the same contradiction existed in their expression, for they were calm, without softness, and had a fixity almost to sternness, while their colouring and tint were actually girlish in freshness. There was in her air and demeanour, too, a similar discordance, for, though with a look of dignity, her gestures were abrupt, and her manner of speaking hurried.

'He _is_ like,' said she, scanning him through her eye-gla.s.s. 'Come nearer, boy. Yes, strangely like,' said she, with a smile, rather indicating sarcasm than courtesy. 'Let us compare him with the portrait,' and she gave her hand languidly, as she spoke, to be a.s.sisted to rise. The Count aided her with every show of deference, respectfully offering his arm to conduct her; but she declined the attention with a slight motion of the head, and moved slowly on. As she went, the various persons who were seated arose, and they who stood in groups talking, hushed their voices, and stood in a respectful att.i.tude as she pa.s.sed.

None followed her but the Count and Gerald, who at a signal walked slowly behind.

After traversing three rooms, whose costly furniture amazed the youth, they reached a small chamber, where two narrow windows opened upon a little terrace. A single picture occupied the wall in front of these, to either side of whose frame two small lamps were attached, with shades so ingeniously contrived as to throw the light at will on any part of the painting. The d.u.c.h.ess had seated herself immediately on entering, with the air of one wearied and exhausted, and the Count occupied himself in disposing the lamps to most advantage.

'Stand yonder, boy, and hold your cap in your hand, as you see it in the portrait,' and Gerald turned his eyes to the picture, and actually started at the marvellous resemblance to himself. The figure was that of a youth somewhat older, perhaps, than himself, dressed in a suit of velvet, with a deep lace collar and hanging ruffles; the long ringlets, which fell in profusion on his neck, the expression of the eyes, a look of sadness not unmixed with something stern, and a haughty gathering of the lower lip, were all that a painter might have given to Gerald, if endeavouring to impart to his likeness some few additional traits of vigour and determination.

'It is wonderful!' said the d.u.c.h.ess, after a long pause.

'So, indeed, it strikes me,' said the Count. 'Mark, even to the flattening of the upper lip, how the resemblance holds.'

'What age are you--are you a Roman--what is your name?' asked the d.u.c.h.ess, in a hurried but careless manner.

'My name is Fitzgerald. They call me here Gherardi, for some of the race took that name in Italy.'

'So that you talk of blood and lineage, boy?' asked she haughtily.

'I am of the Geraldines, lady, and they were princes!' said the boy, as proudly.

'Came they from Scotland?' she asked eagerly. 'No, madam, they were Irish.'

'Iris.h.!.+ Iris.h.!.+' muttered she twice or thrice, below her breath; then, as her eyes caught sight of his features suddenly, she started and exclaimed: 'It is nigh incredible! And how came you to Italy?'

With that brevity which distinguished Gerald when speaking of himself, he told of his having been a scholar with the Jesuits, where some--he knew not exactly which--of his relatives had placed him.

'And you left them; how, and wherefore?' inquired the d.u.c.h.ess.

'I know not by what right, madam, I am thus questioned. Is it because I wear such tinsel rags as these?'

'Bethink you in whose presence you stand, boy?' said the Count sternly; 'that lady is one before whom the haughtiest n.o.ble is proud to lay his homage.'

'Nay, nay,' broke she in gently, 'he will tell me all I ask in kindness, not in fear.'

'Not in fear, I promise you,' said he proudly, and he drew himself up to his highest.

'Was not that like him!' exclaimed the d.u.c.h.ess eagerly. 'It was his own voice! And what good Italian you speak, boy,' said she, addressing Gerald, with a pleasant smile. 'The Jesuit Fathers have given you the best Roman accent. Tell me, what were their teachings--what have you read?'

'Nothing regularly--nothing in actual study, madam; but, pa.s.singly, I have read, in French, some memoirs, plays, sermons, poems, romances, and suchlike; in English, very little; and in Italian, a few of the very good?'

'Which do you call the very good?' 'I call Dante.'

'So do I.

'Sometimes I call Ta.s.so, always Ariosto, so.'

She nodded an a.s.sent, and told him to continue.

'Then there is Metastasio.'

'What say you of him!' asked the Count.

'I like him: his rhymes flow gracefully, and the music of his verse floats sweetly in one's ear; but then, there is not that sentiment, that vigorous dash that stirs the heart, like a trumpet-call, such as we find, for instance, in Alfieri.'

The d.u.c.h.ess smiled a.s.suringly, and a faint, very faint tinge of red coloured her pale cheek. 'It appears, then, he is your favourite of them all?' said she gently. 'Can you remember any of his verses!'

'That can I. I knew him, at one time, off by heart, but somehow, in this ign.o.ble life of mine, I almost felt ashamed to recite his n.o.ble lines to those who heard me. To think, for example, of the great poet of the Oreste declaimed before a vile mob, impatient for some buffoonery, eager for the moment when the jugglery would begin!'

'But you forget, boy, this is true fame! It is little to the great poet that he is read and admired by those to whose natures he can appeal by all the emotions which are common to each--lasting sympathies, whose dwelling-places he knows; the great triumph is, to have softened the hearts seared by dusty toil--to have smitten the rock whose water is tears of joy and thankfulness. Is not Ariosto prouder as his verses float along the dark ca.n.a.ls of Venice, than when they are recited under gilded ceilings!'

'You may be right,' said the boy thoughtfully, as he hung his head; 'am I not, myself, a proof of what the bright images of poetry have cheered and gladdened, out of depths of gloom and wretchedness? Not that I complain of this life of mine!' cried he suddenly.

'Tell us about it, boy; it must present strange scenes and events,' said the Count, and, taking Gerald's arm, he pressed him to a seat beside him. The d.u.c.h.ess, too, bent on him one of her kindest smiles, so that he felt encouraged in a moment.

And now Gerald talked away, as only the young can talk about themselves and their fortunes. Their happy gift it is to have a softly tempered tint over even their egotism, making it often not ungraceful. He sketched a picturesque description of the stroller's life: its freedom compensating for the hards.h.i.+ps; its careless ease recompensing many a pa.s.sing mishap; the strange blending of study with little quaint and commonplace preparation; the mind now charged with bright fancies, now busy in all the intricacies of costume; the ever-watchful attention to the taste of that strange public that formed their patron, and who, not unfrequently wearying of Ta.s.so and Guarini, called loudly for Punch and his ribaldries. The boy's account of the Babbo and Donna Gaetana was not devoid of humour, and he painted cleverly the simple old devotee giving every spare hour he could s.n.a.t.c.h to penances for the life he was leading; while the Donna took the world by storm, and started each day to the combat, like a soldier mounting a breach. Lastly he came to Marietta, and then his voice changed, his cheek grew red and white by turns, and his chest heaved full and short, like one oppressed. He did not mark the looks of intelligence that pa.s.sed between the d.u.c.h.ess and the Count: he never saw how each turned to listen to him with the self-same expression on their features; he was too full of his theme to note these things, and yet he could not dilate upon it as he had about Babbo and the Donna.

'I saw her,' said the Count, as Gerald came to a pause. 'I noticed her at the court, and she was, indeed, very handsome. Something Egyptian in the cast of features.'

'But not a gypsy!' broke in the boy quickly.

'No, perhaps not. The eyes and brow resembled the Moorish race--the same character of fixity in expression. Eyes, that carry--

"'I tesori d'amore e i suoi nasconde."'

There was a sly malice in the way the Count led the boy on, opening the path, as it were, to his enthusiasm, and so artfully, that Gerald never suspected it.

No longer restrained by fear or chilled by shame, he launched out into praises of her beauty, her gracefulness, and her genius. He told the Count that it was sufficient to read for her once over a poem of Petrarch, and she could repeat it word for word. With the same facility could she compose music for words that struck her fancy. The silvery sweetness of her voice--her light and graceful step--the power of expression she possessed by gesture, look, and mien--he went over all these with a rapture that actually warmed into eloquence, and they who listened heard him with pleasure, and encouraged him to continue.

'We must see your Marietta,' said the d.u.c.h.ess at last. 'You shall bring her here.'

Gerald's cheek flushed, but whether with shame, or pride, or displeasure, or all three commingled, it were hard to say. In truth, many a hard conflict went on within him, when, out of his dream of art and its triumphs, he would suddenly awake, and bethink him in what humble estimation men held such as he was; how closely the world insisted on a.s.sociating poverty with meanness; and how hopeless were the task of him who would try to make himself respected in rags.

As these thoughts arose in his mind, he lifted his eyes once more to the portrait, and in bitterness of heart he felt how little resemblance there was in the condition of the youth there represented and himself.

'I see what you are thinking of,' said the d.u.c.h.ess mildly. 'Shall I show you another picture? It is of one you profess to admire greatly--your favourite poet.'