The Apothecary's Daughter Part 27

"Yes. He was very agreeable."

Mary narrowed her eyes. "Really."

Lilly stirred sugar into her coffee, waiting until young Jane pa.s.sed by with brush and blacking before adding, "And a former suitor of mine was there as well you remember the Mr. Bromley I told you about?"

Mary leaned her elbows on the worktable and studied her, slowly shaking her head. "I don't think Mr. Bromley put that blush in your cheeks, love."

"Mary, no. I can guess what you are thinking, but-"

"Can you? And worrying about?"

"Do not be uneasy. Roderick Marlow is a very handsome man -I do not deny it. And for some reason he was exceedingly charming last night. But I know what he's capable of. And I'm not foolish enough to think he'd have any serious intentions toward an apothecary's daughter. I experienced my share of that in London. Men happy to flirt and dance with me, all the while planning to marry another lady of their own cla.s.s."

"Oh, you'll marry one day," Mary said wistfully. "Lovely, healthy girl like you."

Lilly looked up at her friend, sensing her sadness. "I could say the same of you, Mary. Mr. Shuttleworth can barely take his eyes off you."

Mary shrugged the idea away. "It is only because he doesn't know."

Seeing her discomfort and not knowing how to rea.s.sure her, Lilly changed the subject, telling all she had learned about Rosa Wells in London. She concluded by saying, "You and I have both seen unhappy marriages firsthand. I am in no hurry to end up in one of my own, no matter my aunt's machinations." She rose and rinsed her coffee cup in the basin. "In any case, Mr. Marlow has all but said he will marry that red-haired beauty."

"Charlie will be brokenhearted," Mary said in jest.

"Probably." Lilly paused. "Ca.s.sandra Powell is a bit older, I think, than she looks. And I am told, suffered a broken engagement, poor thing."

"Poor thing, indeed. I cannot get over how sorry I'm feeling for the picture of perfection who's turned the head of the county's most eligible bachelor. Yes, I think I must take the poor thing to prayer."

Lilly bit back a smile. "Mary Helen Mimpurse! That is the first nearly unkind thing I believe I've ever heard you say about anyone."

Mary smirked and said dryly, "Stick around, love, stick around."

England is a nation of shopkeepers.

NAPOLEON BONAPARTE.

CHAPTER 22.

ith surprising reluctance, Charlie moved his things back into the bedchamber next to Lilly's. He resumed the sweeping up and his work in the physic garden. She would have liked to ask Mrs. Fowler back as well, and would, as soon as they could again afford to pay her wages.

Lilly was poring over ledgers and unpaid bills when Francis stopped in on his afternoon off. He hopped up onto the high counter, swinging his legs. It reminded her of the Francis of former days. All arms and legs and more energy for cricket than studying. Now those arms and legs had filled out with masculine muscle beneath his white s.h.i.+rt and breeches. He had certainly changed during her absence, but she wondered if the changes were only physical.

"How fares your mother, Francis?" she asked.

"Well enough."

"And your sister?"

"She has engaged herself to Tom Billings at last. That curate she had long pined for married someone else."

"Was your sister laid very low?"

He shrugged. "She caddled about for days at Christmas. But she seems to have recovered rather well."

Lilly closed the ledger and thought back. "I met your sister only the once, but I recall she was very pleasing in manner and countenance. Quite handsome."

"Do you think so?" He grinned. "You said I was very like her."

She chose to ignore this statement, true though it was. Thinking once more of her parents, she asked, "Does Mr. Billings know she preferred another?"

"He knows but overlooks her foolishness. That's the way love is, I suppose."

"Is it? I am not sure I would be as understanding if the man I loved pined for another."

His legs stopped swinging. "Do you a that is a did you form an attachment while you were in London?"

"Only two."

His eyebrows rose.

"But both ended just before I left. I doubt either will come to anything, even when or if -I return."

He looked at her expectantly, clearly waiting for her to explain.

"One was a physician, of whom my aunt disapproved. He was reserved and uncertain. Still I thought, perhaps a The other was a gentleman whom my aunt advised me in the strongest terms to accept. Wealthy, an heir, good-looking, kinda"

"No wonder you refused that swell," Francis rued. "I detest him already."

Lilly shot him a wry grin. "No. I refused him because, while he admired me, he did not love me."

Looking at her, Francis said quietly, "He would have, in time."

She met his gaze for a moment, considering his words, then continued. "Perhaps did he not love another."

"Is there no chance this other woman will accept him?"

"I believe there might be. If she believes she cannot have him."

"Ah a yes," Francis said. "I have seen that before not realizing what one has until he or she has lost it."

Nodding thoughtfully, Lilly looked around the shop. "This feels very much like days gone, when you and I would sit here together, wondering where Charlie had got to, wagering on what he had found to count. Wondering where all the customers were, but glad for the respite too."

Francis picked up the thread, "Your father napping in his surgery or grumbling about something I'd forgotten to distill."

"And you forever teasing me. Like brother and sister, we were. I shall never forget it."

"I wonder," he said gently. "Do you remember, Lilly?"

She wrinkled her brow. "Of course I do."

"Clearly, I mean?"

She tilted her head and looked at him. "I am sure my memory will fail one day, but I am hardly in my dotage yet."

He hopped down from the counter, stepping closer as he continued, "What I mean is, you and I seem to remember those days differently. You could not leave here quickly enough when the chance came, but I hated to see those days end. I still remember being here with you a living under the same roof, taking meals together, talking and laughing together." He looked steadily into her eyes. "It was one of the happiest times of my life."

Charlie came in, the door slamming behind him. Lilly pulled her gaze from Francis to greet her brother as he carried in an armful of peppermint for her to bunch and dry. Francis moved to the door to take his leave.

Hand on the latch, Francis turned and looked at her. "And I never once thought of you as a sister."

Lilly stood upon the Honeystreet Bridge for the first time since she'd returned from London. She had crossed it several times, of course, but had never tarried. Yet she felt drawn to do so now, as though she might find answers in the slowly flowing water of the ca.n.a.l. She knew she must make a decision, difficult as it seemed. Her aunt's recent letter weighed on her mind. She had written to ask if Lillian would return in time to attend the Langtrys' annual ball.

Don't forget the new gown we had made for the occasion and how much we were all looking forward to it. And Mr. Alban has just acquired a new Italian novel he knows you will enjoy. It will sharpen your command of the language before we travel to Rome this wintera How Lilly longed to travel to Italy! To see the Coliseum and Pantheon, the basilicas and squares, to stay in a little pension, to speak Italian with Italiansa.

She sighed, knowing that if she stayed in Bedsley Priors any longer she risked her future with the Elliotts. She would forfeit her last season, her best chance of finding a proper husband and residing in London as a lady of quality.

Her aunt had also written a piece of unexpected news.

Your uncle insists I mention that Dr. Graves called. Seemed quite surprised to find you had quit London without a word. As you had not told him anything, I did not think it my place to do so and sent him on his way.

Why had he called? Lilly wondered. She had guessed he would be relieved to be rid of her after the revelation about her mother. Had she been wrong? If she returned soon, might he still be interested in courting her?

Part of her was ready to jump aboard the next coach to London. After all, Haswell's was not her responsibility. She was only a young woman. Her father had made it clear he did not want her to give up her London life for him.

But she also knew that if she left again, there was little hope her father would survive. If nothing else, his shop his only livelihood would fail. And what about Charlie? Her father was in no condition to look after him.

Lilly detested the thought of disappointing her generous aunt and uncle. She felt disloyal, ungrateful. She cringed to imagine the hurt that would cloud their features. Would they feel as though they had wasted their time, money, and attentions on her, only for her to leave them without warning with a roomful of gowns, hats, and hopes that none of them had use for any longer? All so she could a what? Attempt to keep her father's shop going when it was obviously failing, along with her father's health? Everyone knew women were not allowed to be apothecaries.

"You are a picture, Miss Haswell."

Startled from her musings, she turned and saw Mr. Shuttleworth standing on the ca.n.a.l bank, this time wearing a red velvet frock coat over the same gold waistcoat and cravat. He circled his hands into a tube and looked at her through it, as a captain might look through a s.h.i.+p's gla.s.s. "This is exactly how you looked the very first time I saw you.

"You are mistaken, sir. You were not even living in Bedsley Priors the last time I stood here."

He walked up the bank and onto the bridge.

"Ah. But do you recall my telling you I traveled by narrowboat on this very ca.n.a.l from Bristol to London?"

She nodded.

"I pa.s.sed Bedsley Priors, of course, and in fact we tied off there near The George for several hours. That's when I saw the first of the three enticements I mentioned."

He rested his elbows on the bridge a few feet from where she stood.

"She was a lovely young lady in white, strolling along the ca.n.a.l near the mill. A beauty among workmen. A blossom in the mud."

"Miss Robbins, no doubt," Lilly said. Did everyone idolize the girl?

"Yes, though of course I did not know her name at the time. I stood watching her until she disappeared. By then, the crew had all gone into The George, and I realized I needed a good meal more than a belly full of smoke and ale. I walked into Bedsley Priors. Into the coffeehouse. And there was served most kindly by the lovely Miss Mimpurse. Your oldest friend, I understand."

"She is indeed. We grew up together."

He nodded his understanding. "But it was only later, after a good meal, and back aboard that cramped narrowboat, that we pa.s.sed under this bridge and I saw the loveliest enticement of all. Standing here, looking sad and a bit lost, much as you do now."

She felt her lips part in surprise, but before she could form any response, he continued.

"And then and there I decided that as soon as I could, I would return to this picturesque village. Maybe even set up shop here one day.

"But first, I served my term with the Apothecaries' Society, then I studied at St. Tom's Hospital for the poor, as well as a private inst.i.tution, to update my surgical skills. I sold a great deal of my own exotics collection to raise funds to set myself up in a place. And in between, spent as much time as I could watching the s.h.i.+ps come in. I often counted five or even six hundred collier s.h.i.+ps waiting to discharge their cargo. Fruit from Kent and Spain, coal from Newcastle, huge Greenland whales a Do you know, I once even saw a group of porpoises come up with the tide nearly to London Bridge?"

She shook her head in wonder. "And after all that, you left London to settle here. I am still surprised you would."

"Are you? I understand you lived in London experienced its delights and yet you also have returned."

Have I? Lilly wondered. "I planned only a short visit. But, wella"

"Your father needs you."

"Yes."

"And so you will stay."

Holding a breath, she squeezed her eyes shut, then exhaled. "Yes."

"Well, I for one am pleased to hear it. I own I have never stayed in one place so long before. Even in London, I was forever moving from one lodging house to another." He looked at her closely. "Still, I wonder a Will you always wish, always imagine what you might be missing elsewhere?"