A Monster Calls Part 8

The parson refused to believe the Apothecary could help, said the monster. When times were easy, the parson nearly destroyed the Apothecary, but when the going grew tough, he was willing to throw aside every belief if it would save his daughters.

"So?" Conor said. "So would anyone! So would everyone! What did you expect him to do?"

I expected him to give the Apothecary the yew tree when the Apothecary first asked.

This stopped Conor. There were further crashes from the parsonage as another wall fell. "You'd have let yourself be killed?"

I am far more than just one tree, the monster said, but yes, I would have let the yew tree be chopped down. It would have saved the parson's daughters. And many, many others besides.

"But it would have killed the tree and made him rich!" Conor yelled. "He was evil!"

He was greedy and rude and bitter, but he was still a healer. The parson, though, what was he? He was nothing. Belief is half of all healing. Belief in the cure, belief in the future that awaits. And here was a man who lived on belief, but who sacrificed it at the first challenge, right when he needed it most. He believed selfishly and fearfully. And it took the lives of his daughters.

Conor grew angrier. "You said this was a story without tricks."

I said this was the story of a man punished for his selfishness. And so it is.

Seething, Conor looked again at the second monster destroying the parsonage. A giant monstrous leg knocked over a staircase with one kick. A giant monstrous arm swung back and demolished the walls to the parson's bedrooms.

Tell me, Conor O'Malley, the monster behind him asked. Would you like to join in?

"Join in?" Conor said, surprised.

It is most satisfying, I a.s.sure you.

The monster stepped forward, joining its second self, and put a giant foot through a settee not unlike Conor's grandma's. The monster looked back at Conor, waiting.

What shall I destroy next? it asked, stepping over to the second monster, and in a terrible blurring of the eyes, they merged together, making a single monster who was even bigger.

I await your command, boy, it said.

Conor could feel his breathing growing heavy again. His heart was racing and that feverish feeling had come over him once more. He waited a long moment.

Then he said, "Knock over the fireplace."

The monster's fist immediately lashed out and struck the stone hearth from its foundations, the brick chimney tumbling down on top of it in a loud clatter.

Conor's breath got heavier still, like he was the one doing the destroying.

"Throw away their beds," he said.

The monster picked up the beds from the two roofless bedrooms and flung them into the air, so hard they seemed to sail nearly to the horizon before cras.h.i.+ng to the ground.

"Smash their furniture!" Conor shouted. "Smash everything!"

The monster stomped around the interior of the house, crus.h.i.+ng every piece of furniture it could find with satisfying crashes and crunches.

"TEAR THE WHOLE THING DOWN!" Conor roared, and the monster roared in return and pounded at the remaining walls, knocking them to the ground. Conor rushed in to help, picking up a fallen branch and smas.h.i.+ng through the windows that hadn't already been broken.

He was yelling as he did it, so loud he couldn't hear himself think, disappearing into the frenzy of destruction, just mindlessly smas.h.i.+ng and smas.h.i.+ng and smas.h.i.+ng.

The monster was right. It was very satisfying.

Conor screamed until he was hoa.r.s.e, smashed until his arms were sore, roared until he was nearly falling down with exhaustion. When he finally stopped, he found the monster watching him quietly from outside the wreckage. Conor panted and leaned on the branch to keep himself balanced.

Now that, said the monster, is how destruction is properly done.

And suddenly they were back in Conor's grandma's sitting room.

Conor saw that he had destroyed almost every inch of it.

DESTRUCTION.

The settee was shattered into pieces beyond counting. Every wooden leg was broken, the upholstery ripped to shreds, hunks of stuffing strewn across the floor, along with the remains of the clock, flung from the wall and broken to almost unrecognizable bits. So too were the lamps and both small tables that had sat at the ends of the settee, as well as the bookcase under the front window, every book of which was torn from cover to cover. Even the wallpaper had been ripped back in dirty, uneven strips. The only thing left standing was the display cabinet, though its gla.s.s doors were smashed and everything inside hurled to the floor.

Conor stood there in shock. He looked down at his hands, which were covered in scratches and blood, his fingernails torn and ragged, aching from the labour.

"Oh, my G.o.d," he whispered.

He turned round to face the monster.

Which was no longer there.

"What did you do?" he shouted into the suddenly too quiet emptiness. He could barely move his feet from all the destroyed rubbish on the floor.

There was no way he could have done all this himself.

No way.

(a was there?) "Oh, my G.o.d," he said again. "Oh, my G.o.d."

Destruction is very satisfying, he heard, but it was like a voice on the breeze, almost not there at all.

And then he heard his grandma's car pull into the driveway.

There was nowhere to run. No time to even get out of the back door and go off on his own somehow, somewhere she'd never find him.

But, he thought, not even his father would take him now when he found out what he had done. They'd never allow a boy who could do all this to go and live in a house with a babya"

"Oh, my G.o.d," Conor said again, his heart beating nearly out of his chest.

His grandma put her key in the lock and opened the front door.

In the split second after she came around the corner to the sitting room, still fiddling with her handbag, before she registered where Conor was or what had happened, he saw her face, how tired it was, no news on it, good or bad, just the same old night at the hospital with Conor's mum, the same old night that was wearing them both so thin.

Then she looked up.

"What thea"?" she said, stopping herself by reflex from saying "h.e.l.l" in front of Conor. She froze, still holding her handbag in mid-air. Only her eyes moved, taking in the destruction of the sitting room in disbelief, almost refusing to see what was really there. Conor couldn't even hear her breathing.

And then she looked at him, her mouth open, her eyes open wide, too. She saw him standing there in the middle of it, his hands bloodied with his work.

Her mouth closed, but it didn't close into its usual hard shape. It trembled and shook, as if she was fighting back tears, as if she could barely hold the rest of her face together.

And then she groaned, deep in her chest, her mouth still closed.

It was a sound so painful, Conor could barely keep himself from putting his hands over his ears.

She made it again. And again. And then again until it became a single sound, a single ongoing horrible groan. Her handbag fell to the floor. She put her palms over her mouth as if that was all that would hold back the horrible, groaning, moaning, keening sound flooding out of her.

"Grandma?" Conor said, his voice high and tight with terror.

And then she screamed.

She took away her hands, balling them into fists, opened her mouth wide and screamed. Screamed so loudly Conor did put his hands up to his ears. She wasn't looking at him, she wasn't looking at anything, just screaming into the air.

Conor had never been so frightened in all his life. It was like standing at the end of the world, almost like being alive and awake in his nightmare, the screaming, the emptinessa"

Then she stepped into the room.

She kicked forward through the rubbish almost as if she didn't even see it. Conor backed away from her quickly, stumbling over the ruins of the settee. He kept a hand up to protect himself, expecting blows to land any momenta"

But she wasn't coming for him.

She walked right past him, her face twisted in tears, the moaning spilling out of her again. She went to the display cabinet, the only thing remaining upright in the room.

And she grabbed it by one sidea"

And pulled on it hard oncea"

Twicea"

And a third time.

Sending it cras.h.i.+ng to the floor with a final-sounding crunch.

She gave a last moan and leant forward to put her hands on her knees, her breath coming in ragged gasps.

She didn't look at Conor, didn't look at him once as she stood back up and left the room, leaving her handbag where she'd dropped it, going straight up to her bedroom and quietly shutting the door.

Conor stood there for a while, not knowing whether he should move or not.

After what seemed like forever, he went into his grandma's kitchen to get some empty bin liners. He worked on the mess late into the night, but there was just too much of it. Dawn was breaking by the time he finally gave up.

He climbed the stairs, not even bothering to wash off the dirt and dried blood. As he pa.s.sed his grandma's room, he saw from the light under her door that she was still awake.

He could hear her in there, weeping.

INVISIBLE.

Conor stood waiting in the schoolyard.

He'd seen Lily earlier. She was with a group of girls who he knew didn't really like her and who she didn't really like either, but there she was, standing silently with them while they chatted away. He found himself trying to catch her eye but she never looked over at him.

Almost as if she could no longer see him.

And so he waited by himself, leaning against a stone wall away from the other kids as they squealed and laughed and looked at their phones as if nothing in the world was wrong, as if nothing in the whole entire universe could ever happen to them.

Then he saw them. Harry and Sully and Anton, walking towards him diagonally across the yard, Harry's eyes on him, unsmiling but alert, his cronies looking happy in antic.i.p.ation.

Here they came.

Conor felt weak with relief.

He'd only slept long enough that morning to have the nightmare, as if things hadn't been bad enough. There he'd been again, with the horror and the falling, with the terrible, terrible thing that happened at the end. He'd woken up screaming. To a day that hardly seemed any better.

When he'd finally worked up the courage to go downstairs, his father was there in his grandma's kitchen, making breakfast.

His grandma was nowhere to be seen.

"Scrambled?" his father asked, holding up the pan where the eggs were cooking.

Conor nodded, even though he wasn't remotely hungry, and sat in a chair at the table. His father finished the eggs and put them on some b.u.t.tered toast he'd also made, setting down two plates, one for Conor, one for himself. They sat and they ate.

The silence grew so heavy, Conor started to have difficulty breathing.

"That's quite a mess you made," his father finally said.

Conor continued to eat, taking the smallest bites of egg possible.

"She called me this morning. Very, very early."

Conor took another microscopic bite.

"Your mum's taken a turn, Con," his father said. Conor looked up quickly. "Your grandma's gone to the hospital now to talk to the doctors," his father continued. "I'm going to drop you off at schoola""

"School?" Conor said. "I want to see Mum!"

But his father was already shaking his head. "It's no place for a kid right now. I'll drop you off at school and go to the hospital, but I'll pick you up right after and take you to her." His father looked down at his plate. "I'll pick you up sooner if a if I need to."

Conor set down his knife and fork. He didn't feel like eating any more. Or maybe ever again.

"Hey," his father said. "Remember what I said about needing you to be brave? Well, now's the time you're going to have to do it, son." He nodded towards the sitting room. "I can see how much this is upsetting you." He gave a sad smile, which quickly disappeared. "So can your grandma."

"I didn't mean to," Conor said, his heart starting to thump. "I don't know what happened."

"It's okay," his father said.