A Hole In The Universe Part 37

"Did you ever wonder why roses have thorns?" the priest asked. "I can see why blackberry and raspberry bushes do-to keep birds and animals away from the fruit, but why roses?"

"Maybe for the same reason, but to keep people away. Until they're ready. The roses, I mean," he added nervously.

Lisa entered the dining room. Her mother's expectant smile faded as Lisa leaned over and whispered in Dennis's ear. He stood up at once. He said something. She nodded, went to touch her face, and her hand shook. She laid it on her shoulder and watched him leave.

"What is it, dear?" her mother asked.

"Emergency root ca.n.a.l?" her father called down the table, and she stared back, face frozen in placidity.

"Can you imagine," Becca Brock sniffed. "The nerve of some people just showing up on your doorstep like that. My uncle was a doctor and, I'll tell you, n.o.body ever did that!"

"He was a plastic surgeon, for goodness' sake," Marty crowed.

"Dennis shouldn't have his number listed," Mrs. Harrington said. "And it's not very safe, either, dear," she told her daughter, who had folded her napkin and now was lining up her water goblet and winegla.s.s, side by side. "That's how they do it, they call first to see if you're home."

"Even the thieves are high-tech."

"You mean lazy!"

"They don't want to confront you, just like you don't want to confront them."

"Well, Lisa and Dennis have a wonderful security system," Mr. Harrington said. "Top of the line. Care-Guard. Same one as you, Marty."

Lisa was looking at Gordon. She seemed exhausted, utterly exhausted, by the talk of violence, of breaking into someone's home. She feels bad for me, She feels bad for me, he thought, and then, seeing the horror in her eyes, understood. he thought, and then, seeing the horror in her eyes, understood. No. She's just now realizing who I am, what I did, how freakish I am compared to these normal people. No. She's just now realizing who I am, what I did, how freakish I am compared to these normal people.

"Well, I know what I'd do," Rena Stanley said.

"What? Hide in a closet and call 911?" Becca Brock scoffed.

"No, shoot them!"

Everyone laughed, except for Lisa, who looked around her table as if she had no idea who anyone was.

Jennifer returned and said something that Gordon missed over the melee of voices. "I said, 'Are you all done?' "

"Here he is!" Mr. Harrington called with a big grin. "My favorite son-in-law!"

Dennis stayed in the dining-room doorway. "Gordon, I need you out here for a minute."

There was silence as Gordon stood. The bitterness in his brother's voice had not gone unnoticed. Lisa started to get up, then sat back stiffly as if weighted there.

"Probably Jimmy," Mrs. Harrington said quickly. "He told me he couldn't wait to show Uncle Gordon his new video game. What's it called again, dear? He told us."

"Duke Nukem!" Mr. Harrington laughed. "G.o.d, I wish that were my name."

Halfway down the hall, Dennis nudged Gordon, then veered suddenly into his study. "There's four cops in the foyer. They've got a warrant, but I wouldn't let them go in. I told them I'd bring you out."

"A warrant. Why? For what?" The two men, their little dog, the girl, he couldn't even think of her name. No, it was Mrs. Jukas-they did, they thought he he had beaten her. had beaten her.

"So they can arrest you."

"For what?"

"Mrs. Jukas's murder. She died this afternoon."

"Oh, my G.o.d! No! You've got to believe me, Dennis. I didn't do that. I wouldn't. All I ever did was try to help her. I swear to you."

"Come on." Dennis put his hand on Gordon's arm to lead him from the study.

"No!" Gordon pushed him away.

"Don't do this to me!" Dennis's coa.r.s.e, close whisper hit his face like acid, stripping the flesh. "Don't you dare. Not in front of everyone. Not with my my children downstairs! Do you understand? You better go out there. Right now. Don't just stand there looking at me. Jesus Christ, do you hear what I'm saying?" children downstairs! Do you understand? You better go out there. Right now. Don't just stand there looking at me. Jesus Christ, do you hear what I'm saying?"

"I didn't do anything! I swear I didn't. Please believe me! Please, Dennis! Tell me you believe me and I'll go. I swear, I'll go right out."

Dennis grabbed the front of his s.h.i.+rt. "What was it, another accident? She got in your way and you just beat her into a f.u.c.king coma?"

He walked the rest of the way over the black and white marble tiles, alone. Dennis followed slowly. Of the four men, only two were uniformed. The two in short-sleeved s.h.i.+rts and chinos might have been dinner guests down the hall. Detective Kaminski stepped forward. "Gordon Loomis?"

"Yes, sir."

This arrest was made quickly, without anger or loathing. The deaths of pretty Janine Walters and baby Kevin had happened too long ago for them to despise him. His victim this time was an irritable old woman who had already lived her long life. The policemen seemed ill at ease, embarra.s.sed to be here, even Kaminski as he cuffed him. The other detective was telling Dennis they had come in unmarked cars, as if that might make him feel better. "Here. Just till we get to the car." He grabbed Jimmy's blue windbreaker from the settee and wrapped it over Gordon's bound wrists.

"I'm sorry, Dr. Loomis." Detective Kaminski opened the front door.

Dennis sighed and shook his head.

"Soon's he's in, I'll run the jacket back up," the second detective called back.

"That's all right. Don't bother," Dennis said, but he meant, Keep it. Throw it away, I don't care.

It was after midnight and he had just dozed off in the cell when the guard unlocked the door. His brother was downstairs. The chief said he could go down, but just for a few minutes.

"All night I've been calling Miridici, at home, his office, but he doesn't even have an answering service, just a f.u.c.king machine. I must've left fifty messages so far."

Miridici had represented Gordon during the parole process. Gordon hadn't been particularly impressed, but Dennis considered him the best criminal lawyer in the state.

"Anyway," Dennis continued, "that's why I came. To make sure you're careful. I don't want you talking to anybody. I don't want you even asking a cop for a gla.s.s of water until I can get Miridici in here."

"I already did. But mostly it was stuff they already knew," he added quickly, seeing the shock on Dennis's face.

"Stuff? What do you mean, stuff?"

"Details. The facts." He repeated what he'd told Kaminski, the weather that day, the taxi he'd thought had dropped off Mrs. Jukas about three o'clock. He had been able to remember everything he'd bought for her that morning, even though he didn't have her list. He'd thrown that out. When he heard how grave her condition was, he'd realized he was stuck with the groceries.

"You said that? You said stuck stuck?" Dennis stared in disbelief.

"Well, that I'd have to keep them, that's what I meant."

"But is that what you said?"

"Yes." He nodded. He must have, wasn't sure, didn't remember, couldn't believe any of this was happening. This strange calm was like a gla.s.s wall through which reality could be viewed but not felt.

"Gordon! Gordo, look at me. Every word counts, do you understand? Everything you say, they'll use it against you. This time do it right. Don't be telling them every G.o.dd.a.m.n thing you can think of!"

This time? time? This This murder. He had only told them the truth. They had been most interested in the exact time he'd bought the groceries, which showed on the register slip. They knew when the cleaning lady had left and when Mrs. Jukas had been dropped off. That put the time of attack between 12:25 and 1:10. Dennis asked why 1:10. That's when the clinic had called to change the date of her next appointment, but Mrs. Jukas hadn't answered her phone. Gordon said he'd told them that must have been the same time he was on her porch with the groceries. He'd heard the phone ring inside. It rang for a long time. murder. He had only told them the truth. They had been most interested in the exact time he'd bought the groceries, which showed on the register slip. They knew when the cleaning lady had left and when Mrs. Jukas had been dropped off. That put the time of attack between 12:25 and 1:10. Dennis asked why 1:10. That's when the clinic had called to change the date of her next appointment, but Mrs. Jukas hadn't answered her phone. Gordon said he'd told them that must have been the same time he was on her porch with the groceries. He'd heard the phone ring inside. It rang for a long time.

"You told them that?"

"Yes. That's what happened. I heard it."

"Jesus Christ, what're you doing telling them things like that?" Dennis looked toward the corridor. The guard was pacing back and forth.

"I'm not going to lie. That's worse," Gordon said in a low voice.

"You didn't lie last time, either." Dennis's whisper came as a hiss.

"Last time . . . ," he started to say, then closed his eyes. Last time, the cell was dark, with bars on all four sides. This was a brand-new jail, bright with recessed lighting. He still had no belt or shoelaces. The inventory of confiscated possessions included his wallet, comb, and pen. Signing it had seemed a mark of hope. Last time, they hadn't given him such a doc.u.ment to sign. Last time, he had also told them the truth. "Dennis, I didn't touch Mrs. Jukas. I swear. I didn't hit her. I didn't even see her. She never came to the door."

Glancing over his shoulder, Dennis dug his knee into Gordon's, then huddled close and whispered, "They don't know it, but there's a witness. Jilly Cross. She saw you."

"Yes, she did, that's right. Is she going to tell them? Will you ask her to?" He couldn't help smiling.

"Jesus Christ, she saw you, that exact same time, coming out of Jukas's."

"No! That's not true!"

"She said you were upset, that you were angry. She said all she did was ask why you were over there and you grabbed her."

"No. I didn't. I didn't grab her." Gordon shook his head, so agitated that he was panting. "It wasn't like that at all."

"She told me that two weeks ago," Dennis whispered. "The very day she heard about it she called me at the office. She said it was you, she was sure of it, it had to be, but if I didn't want her to, she wouldn't go to the police. She keeps calling and wanting to know what she should do. What we we should do. And I don't know what to tell her. It's like I'm being sucked into this whirlpool and I can't get out." should do. And I don't know what to tell her. It's like I'm being sucked into this whirlpool and I can't get out."

"I'm sorry." There was nothing more to say. His brother would help but didn't believe him.

"I'm meeting her right after this." Dennis checked his watch, then leaned close, whispering more softly. "I think she'll cooperate. But from now on you shut up. The only one you should be talking to is Miridici."

Dennis had snapped out of his malaise. It was either the imminence of meeting Jilly Cross or the prospect of getting his brother out of his life. Or maybe it was just being in charge again. "Your brother is always such a help," his mother used to write. "We seem to rely on him more and more. Aunt Gert says a teenager shouldn't be making such important family decisions, but with your dad so low all the time, Denny has to, and besides, he always does such a good job."

"Do you want me to call Delores?"

"No."

"She'll want to know."

"She won't."

CHAPTER 25.

Only the stem was left. Jada picked up the last few rose petals. She added more water to the soda bottle, then put it back on the sill. If roots grew, she would plant it and have her own rosebush. She looked out the window: all that food going to waste over there in Gordon's refrigerator. By the time he got out, it would probably be spoiled. Poor guy. Why couldn't the old lady have just stayed in a coma and not bothered anyone ever again? His yard was starting to look like hers, littered with papers, twigs, and pieces of the yellow crime tape. The gra.s.s needed to be cut. A new telephone book had been thrown on his top step. Its pages were swollen and curled from last night's downpour. A man was jogging down the street with his German shepherd. Twice yesterday she had run outside thinking she heard Leonardo barking. She didn't believe Thurman. Polie might be mean, but he was too lazy to tie his own shoes, much less go to all the trouble of killing her dog. No, Leonardo was out there somewhere, and one of these days he'd make his way back here. She wished she knew a real prayer to say. All she remembered was Aunt Sue telling her to close her eyes and tell Jesus what was in her heart. She closed her eyes and held her breath, but no prayer came, only an ache like a voice begging, Help me. Please.Will somebody please, please help me. Help me. Please.Will somebody please, please help me.

She tiptoed into the bedroom. Her mother slept on her side, curled and unmoving, in the exact same position for the last hour. Jada leaned close, relieved to hear the watery rasp of breath. All she did between hits now was sleep. When she did get up to go to the bathroom, her legs were so shaky she could barely walk. The more she slept, the less crack she smoked and the more pregnant she got. Soon she'd be too far along for an abortion. Jada didn't know how long they could last like this. Her only hope was getting her mother into rehab. She had gone down there a couple days ago, but she didn't have an appointment, so she was supposed to go back tomorrow at one-thirty.

Jada locked the door, then hurried across the street onto Gordon's porch. She propped the sodden telephone book against the railing to dry. His door was locked. So were the windows. She tried the back door and windows, the cellar windows. Everything was locked up tight, even the garage. She came around the side of the house, then reached into the bush to break off a stem of three new roses. "Mother-f.u.c.ker!" she yelled as the thorns scratched her arm. Angry now, she kicked the dirt, then squatted down, looking for a rock to smash the back-door gla.s.s the way Thurman had.

A silver car pulled into the driveway and the doors opened, one right into the bushes as a tall, dark-haired woman got out. "Hey! What're you doing?" Gordon's brother called over the roof of the car.

"Just picking stuff up." She dropped the rock and held up an empty popcorn bag, a plastic water bottle. "And the new telephone book, it got all wet, so I moved it over by the door there."

"Well, thank you. That's very nice of you," the woman said as the man went up the steps two at a time. Jada watched to see if he took a key from a hiding place, but he used his own to get inside.

"Yeah, well, Gordon, he never likes c.r.a.p around, you know, so that's why." She walked across the lawn with the woman. "I'm Jada. I live over there." She pointed.

The woman held out her hand, introducing herself as Lisa, Gordon's sister-in-law.

"Oh, yeah, you've got two kids, right? A boy and a girl. I seen you here before."

"You've got a very good memory."

"Yeah, phonographic, that's what my teachers all say." She grinned. "But then hardly anybody ever comes here. A priest did once. And Delores. You know her?"

The woman said she did. Opening the door, she said she'd better go give her husband a hand.

"Need any help?" Jada stepped closer.

They didn't, but Lisa Loomis thanked her. They'd come to check the house and pick up a few things for Gordon. She slipped inside.

"How's he doing?" Jada asked, face at the screen. "Probably not too good, huh?"

"He's all right. Gordon's a very strong man. He'll be fine. I know he will."

"Lisa!" her husband called from the stairs. "I can't find any slippers!"

"Yeah, it's like, how can they do that?" she said as Lisa Loomis stepped away. "How can they arrest him? He'd never do something like that. And he didn't. I know for a fact he didn't."

She came back to the door. "What do you mean? How do you know that he didn't?"

Her husband rushed up to say he didn't have much time. His next appointment was in forty-five minutes.

"Because," Jada said. "Because I know he wouldn't hurt anybody. Especially an old lady, even though she was a b.i.t.c.h."

"You shouldn't say that. That's terrible," Lisa Loomis said.