The Arms Maker Of Berlin Part 8

"Yes?"

He sensed an opening. Some venue to which he might invite himself along without seeming presumptuous. Better still, maybe she would invite him, even though he was mildly alarmed by the idea of a minister who sanctioned loose talk of doubt and dissent.

"Have you heard of the Reverend Bonhoeffer?"

He had, but only in pa.s.sing. The a.s.sociations were vaguely negative, and he couldn't help notice that even Liesl had checked her flanks before uttering the name.

"Isn't he pretty outspoken?"

"I know he doesn't have the best of reputations in some circles. But he's very devout, very gentle, and he travels abroad for the Foreign Ministry, so it's not like he isn't doing his part for the country."

"I hadn't heard that."

"All he wants is for Germans to do things for the right reasons. Mostly what we talk about is how to appeal to people's better nature."

"It sounds like a good thing, then. And you do this where? In his church?"

"Oh, no. He's not allowed to preach anymore, and they closed his seminary years ago. He has us over to his home. Nothing official. Just a small group of students, on Sunday afternoons when he's not out of the country and has time for us. We're getting together tomorrow, in fact."

She hesitated, and Kurt held his breath. To his relief, she plunged forward.

"You could come, too. If you liked."

Hardly the sort of company his father wanted him to keep, but that only made the invitation more appealing. Kurt experienced a stab of nostalgia for the sorts of gatherings he had attended around the time of his sixteenth birthday but had given up after his father diverted him onto the narrow-gauge rails of the business world. A more relaxed and Bohemian world of books and music and ideas. It had great appeal.

"Yes," he said. "I'd like that."

His answer came in the nick of time, because shortly afterward his father again tracked him down. The next time he looked around for Liesl, she was deep in conversation with two elderly women, and it would have been rude to interrupt.

But they did have a final exchange of sorts, just as stirring in its way. It occurred not long after Erich's mother, a fusty and traditional sort who seemed to enjoy bossing the servants around, loudly announced the commencement of Christmas carols. Erich's sister struck up a tune on the piano, and the crowd joined in-spa.r.s.ely at first, then in full voice.

The third and final song, which drew the evening to a close-making Kurt suspect that had been Mrs. Stuckart's true purpose-was predictable enough. It was "Stille Nacht," or "Silent Night." Considering the venue, it wasn't surprising that everyone, as if by rote, concluded with a secular third verse that had grown popular during the war.

Silent Night, Holy Night All is calm, all is bright Adolf Hitler is Germany's Star Showing greatness and glory afar Guiding our nation aright.

Guiding our nation aright.

Kurt searched out Liesl halfway through the verse and found her engaged in perhaps her boldest action of the evening.

Her lips were still. She wasn't singing a word.

His heart leaped at this daring display, even as he feared for her. It emboldened him just enough to halt his own singing, although he did turn so his father wouldn't see. He nodded just enough to catch her eye, and when she nodded solemnly back he felt the color rise in his cheeks, a holiday red.

When he noticed one of the Gestapo fellows glaring from across the room, it was all he could do not to join in for the final line. But he managed, barely, on the strength of a single inspiring thought: Tomorrow he would see her again.

EIGHT.

Berlin-January 20, 1942 TO KURT BAUER, the Folkertses' house was a place of enchantment, and not just because Liesl lived there. Its pitched roof, gabled windows, and wooden shutters oozed Alpine charm, while the neighboring Grunewald provided a hushed backdrop of dark pines and fairy-tale beeches. Add a dusting of snow and a curl of chimney smoke, and you had the very essence of cozy German Gemutlichkeit Gemutlichkeit.

That was the tableau Kurt came upon that morning as he pedaled his bicycle down a powdery trail with a pair of wooden skis strapped on the back.

It had been exactly a month since he had met Liesl, and already he had become a regular at her address on tiny Alsbacherweg, visiting at least four times a week. The route was happily familiar by now. He would haul his bicycle to his neighborhood U-Bahn station for the ride south to her stop at Krumme Lanke, where he would then pedal the final half mile to her doorstep in a rising bubble of antic.i.p.ation. At times he went out of his way to pa.s.s by, even if it meant a detour of half an hour, simply so he could ping the bell on his handlebar to say h.e.l.lo, while taking a special thrill whenever Liesl flicked back the curtain of her upper window to wave.

Today he was expected. Neither Liesl nor he had cla.s.ses this afternoon, and they were planning to ski the new snowfall on the mazelike trails of the Grunewald for as long as daylight permitted. Kurt had prepared for the outing as if for a minor expedition, using ration cards to buy bread and cheese, then tossing into his rucksack his last bar of Christmas chocolate, a vacuum flask of spiced cider, a first aid kit from his days in a Wandervogel Wandervogel youth group, and a flashlight for finding their way home after dark. youth group, and a flashlight for finding their way home after dark.

He needed a break like this. His father's agenda of corporate visits had only gotten more hectic. In addition, his family was now preoccupied with the future prospects of Kurt's sister, who on the previous weekend had accepted the marriage proposal of her SS boyfriend, Bruno Scharf.

His affairs at the university were also in turmoil. One of his favorite professors had just been arrested, or so rumor had it. The only official word was an ominous notice tacked to the cla.s.sroom door, which said that Professor Doktor Schlosser would be "absent until further notice" due to sudden health problems.

That left Liesl as his only source of joy, although she more than made up for the rest. And today he would have her all to himself. No parents, no friends, and, best of all, no discussion groups to get everyone's emotions in a lather. The last was Kurt's only source of discomfort in this new romance. Not because he disapproved of Liesl's views but because he cringed at the thought of their two social circles ever intersecting in some intimate setting. It was bound to happen, he supposed. But whenever he imagined, say, Erich Stuckart breaking bread alongside some of the earnest young men he had met at Dietrich Bonhoeffer's house, he envisioned either a shouting match, a fistfight, or an arrest-and sometimes all three.

Liesl's crowd had taken some getting used to. For much of that first evening at Bonhoeffer's Kurt had said as little as possible, content to let Liesl conclude that he was shy around strangers. The truth was that he was a bit shocked by some of the talk, and while he wasn't inclined to disagree, he hadn't yet been up to the task of joining in.

Bonhoeffer himself had seemed welcoming enough. For someone who supposedly posed such a threat to national security, he was mild and kindly, even docile.

The music playing on his phonograph was another matter entirely. A choral selection in English, it was unlike anything Kurt had ever heard-strange, moaning voices of such high pa.s.sion that the hair on his neck stood up. Soloists burst through hailstorms of rhythmic clapping like shots of adrenaline, evoking cats in heat or women in childbirth. It was one thing to experience the soaring emotion of opera, where all the power was channeled and focused, but in these recordings the energy was raw and untrammeled. Unnerving, but admittedly exhilarating. Kurt supposed that the propagandists who always railed against jazz and swing would have had a field day with this stuff, and he amused himself by imagining Goebbels flailing his arms in rage over this very record.

"Who is singing?" he shyly asked Liesl.

"It's a Negro spiritual." Her smile made it clear that she approved. "Pastor Bonhoeffer has a lot of them. He collected them while he was living in New York."

"Herr Bonhoeffer lived in America?"

Was it wise to be playing such music from a country that was now their enemy? Especially on a Sunday when "quiet rules" were in effect on every street. What if the neighbors overheard?

Liesl must have noted his uncertainty, but instead of criticizing she sought to rea.s.sure.

"Don't worry, it was years ago. But isn't it silly, the idea that something like music could corrupt you, especially when it's so full of life?"

Then she squeezed his hand, and as far as Kurt was concerned the matter was settled.

He was less certain about some of the other people in attendance. A few were downright strident, even boastful in their dissent. The most abrasive was a fellow named Dieter Bussler, who loudly told a coa.r.s.e joke about why the golden angel on the Victory Column had recently been moved to a higher pedestal-to keep Goebbels from getting up her skirts. Dieter struck him as all talk, just the sort of fellow who might get everybody in trouble and then be among the first to run.

Others he liked immediately, such as the quiet-spoken Christoph Klemm. Christoph, too, told irreverent jokes, but his were more sophisticated, and cleverly refrained from mentioning their targets by name, as with the one that clearly referred to Gandhi and Hitler: "What's the difference between Germany and India? In India, one man starves for millions. In Germany, millions starve for one man."

Kurt laughed louder than was warranted, partly out of nerves. It was a bit like being back in grammar school and having the boy at the next desk show you a naughty drawing of the teacher. It intrigued him to realize there must be more of this racy material out there, in parlors and living rooms far beyond the sedate comfort of his parents' house. But he sensed that he had best enter this new realm carefully, and should closely guard its secrets.

When his mother asked later how the evening had gone, he sanitized the description, making it as bland as possible. He didn't dare mention Bonhoeffer's name.

"But you were there for hours. What did you do?"

"Oh, you know, the usual sorts of things. Listened to music. Chatted with the girls. Nothing that exciting."

But it had had been exciting, he realized, an exhilarating blend of sudden love and a fascination with the forbidden. The two ingredients now seemed inextricably bound, as if neither would be quite as exciting without the other. been exciting, he realized, an exhilarating blend of sudden love and a fascination with the forbidden. The two ingredients now seemed inextricably bound, as if neither would be quite as exciting without the other.

Liesl was putting on her skis when he arrived, and within seconds they were darting through the trees, scooting downhill on a trail that cut between the small woodland lakes of Krumme Lanke and Schlachtensee and then led straight into the densest part of the forest.

The sky was a metallic gray, and the raw air burned his cheeks. In only minutes it felt like they were miles from civilization. Long brown furrows cut the snow where wild boars had rooted for acorns the night before. The only sound apart from their breathing and the hiss of their skis was the wind soughing in the pines. It kicked up a crystal mist of blown snow.

Pausing for their first rest, Liesl bent forward awkwardly on her skis and nuzzled him with flushed cheeks. They kissed, and were so swept up that afterward they nearly tripped while disentangling their crossed skis, which of course made them laugh, a bright call of joy through the forest gloom. Kurt felt strong enough to ski all the way to the North Sea.

"I used to wonder why these woods always made me so cheerful," Liesl said, as they got back under way. "Then one day I realized it was partly because of the bark on the pines, the way it is colored. Do you see what I mean?"

He did, now that she mentioned it. Most of the bark was a deep brown, but on every tree the southern exposure was a lighter shade, almost golden.

"It makes it look like the sun is s.h.i.+ning," Kurt said.

"Even on a day like this. The perfect illusion for the German winter."

For Kurt, Liesl had a similar brightening effect, except her radiance was no mere illusion. He pulled to a stop and leaned forward for another kiss.

Their plan was to have lunch around noon, but the skiing was so good and the daylight so fleeting that they kept going, pausing only for an occasional nip of the hot, sweet cider. Then, just as the lowering sun finally peeped through the clouds, Liesl cried out in dismay.

"What's wrong?"

"My left binding. It's broken."

They stopped for a look. It wasn't promising, and in resting they realized that the air was growing colder. Kurt got out the first aid tape and tried to rig a binding st.u.r.dy enough to get them home, but it snapped within a few yards.

"What now?" she said.

For a change, it was his turn to set the tone, and he relished the opportunity. He scanned the sky, the trees, and a nearby crossing to a.s.sess their probable location and their best options.

"We must be pretty close to the Wannsee by now. If we head southwest, we could have a bite to eat down on the beach, then walk to the S-Bahn stop. If it gets dark, I have my flashlight."

"I like that idea. Lead the way."

"You use my skis. I'll carry yours."

He half expected her to object, but she seemed touched by his gallantry. She slid along up front while Kurt kept pace at a brisk march, and sure enough they soon emerged from the trees at the south end of a strip of snow-covered sand along the waterfront. It was Europe's largest inland beach, and on hot summer days it was packed with sun-bathers and umbrellas. Today, with an icy west wind blowing in off the water, the strand was empty.

"It's quite romantic," Liesl said. "A perfect place to watch the sunset."

They ate their late lunch in companionable silence while seated on a large stone lapped by small waves. They saved the chocolate for last. Neither had eaten any sweets for more than a week. Kurt exulted in his weariness, feeling that the day had been a huge success. He cupped his hands around the last cup of warm cider and leaned toward Liesl's lips as she snuggled closer.

Then his attention was drawn to the whine of an engine coming from across the water. A small boat was headed their way, its running lights already burning in the deepening shadows of 4 p.m. Whoever was at the helm was watching through a big pair of binoculars.

"Not the police, I hope," Liesl said with a note of worry.

"We are trespa.s.sing, I suppose, even though we came onto the beach south of the fence. But it's not like they charge admission this time of year. Still ..."

He stood up and squinted across the water. A voice called out from the boat.

"Kurt? Is that Kurt Bauer?"

"Yes. h.e.l.lo, Erich!"

"Erich Stuckart?" Liesl asked.

"His family has a villa just across the way. They're probably visiting for the day."

She tightened her grip on Kurt's arm.

"He's always seemed nice enough. Although I can't say I'm a fan of his father's."

Erich swung the wheel around just before he would have run aground. He throttled back on the engine, and the boat settled into a gentle rocking motion a few yards offsh.o.r.e.

"And Liesl Folkerts, too, I see!" He said it with an air of revelation, reminding Kurt uneasily of what Erich had said about her at the party. "Skiing on the beach, are you? Can't say I've ever heard that recommended. Of course, boating's not the sanest activity on a day like this, either. I've got little tracks of ice on my cheeks from the tears the wind caused. All very m.a.s.o.c.h.i.s.tic. I could hitch you up to the stern and pull you across the Wannsee if you liked?"

That coaxed a laugh out of Liesl, and Kurt relaxed.

"Her bindings broke, so we came down for a rest," he explained. "We were just about to walk over to the Wannsee Bahnhof."

"The Nikola.s.see stop would be closer from here, but even that's about a mile through the woods. Why don't I give you a lift farther across the water, to shorten the walk?"

"That's kind of you," Liesl said.

"No problem. I'll just beach this crate, and you can climb over the side."

He gently maneuvered the boat into place, just close enough for Liesl to make it aboard without soaking her feet. Kurt handed over the rucksack and both pairs of skis, then joined Erich at the helm, where his friend pulled a leather-covered flask from inside his coat.

"A little fuel for the trip back," Erich said. "Part of Dad's secret stash of cognac from the Paris pushcart express. Not that you should breathe a word of it to him, of course."

"My lips are sealed. So what brought you to the villa today?"

"The whole family's here. My dad had some big appointment nearby so he decided we'd all make a day of it. Unfortunately it's boring as h.e.l.l. Nothing to do but sit there staring at the boar heads lined up on the wall. And it's cold as a cave, or will be till he gets the fireplace going."

"So you decided to warm up with a little dash across the waves?"

"Yes. I'm brilliant that way aren't I?"

Erich flashed his goofball horsey smile, gritting his teeth into the biting wind as he revved the engine back to full power. They headed down the sh.o.r.eline. New tears were already streaming from the corners of his eyes.

"You know," he shouted above the noise, turning so that Liesl could hear as well, "if you two were interested, it would sure help warm the place up if you could stop by for a while. By now they should have a fire going, and afterward I could give you a lift home in my dad's car. He's got the ministry ration allotment, so gas isn't a problem. It would be quicker than taking the S-Bahn."

Kurt sensed potential trouble in the arrangement and was on the verge of saying no. But when he glanced at Liesl she nodded. Perhaps she was more tired than he had realized.

"I'd like that," she said. "And thank you."

"Splendid! Then let's change course. Hold on!"

He turned the wheel sharply to starboard, and they leaned into the sweeping curve, heading west toward what remained of the dusk, a faint glow in the bare treetops along the far sh.o.r.e. So much for keeping his two worlds apart, although Kurt supposed they were bound to have collided sooner or later.