Fire And Hemlock Part 12

"Didn't you see him there?" Granny asked.

"Yes," Polly said grumpily. "Mary Fields came too."

"Who's Mary Fields?" asked Granny.

"Mr. Lynn's girlfriend, of course!" Polly snapped.

"I'm glad to hear he's got one," Granny said. "And you look worn out. Go straight to bed and I'll bring you up some cocoa."

6.

And pleasant is the fairy land For those that in it dwell, But at the end of seven years They pay a tax to h.e.l.l.

TAM LIN.

For a long time Polly waited in real terror for Mr. Leroy to carry out his threats. But nothing seemed to happen. Ivy and David came back, and Polly went home. Mr. Lynn did not send her a Christmas present, but that was the only unusual thing.

School started, with its usual feeling of this term being the dead end of the year. After a fortnight of it, when nothing still had happened, Polly decided that Mr. Leroy was either bluffing or trying to play on her nerves. She gave up worrying. If something happened, well, it did. If not, how silly she would be worrying about nothing.

So, as a way of defying Mr. Leroy, Polly began compiling a book called Tales of Nowhere Tales of Nowhere. First, she made a list of all the things she and Mr. Lynn had made up about Tan Coul and Hero. Then she drew a map of Nowhere. She did a tracing of a real map of the Cotswolds and gave the places different names, except for Stow-on-the-Water. This seemed right for the way Nowhere was supposed to mix with real life. It rather pleased her to write dragon over the farm where Mary Fields lived. Then, rather thoughtfully, and a little frightened, she put Hunsdon House in too, right in the middle. That seemed right also. The next stage was to paint ill.u.s.trations for the book she was going to write. Then she settled down to write it. This part of the plan went very slowly.

Nina meanwhile had given up acting and the guitar for boys. She and Polly were out of step again. Nina had come back to school with a figure. It seemed to have grown overnight-or, at least, over Christmas. All the plumpness which had hitherto been all over Nina had somehow settled into new and more appropriate places, and then dwindled, to make a most attractive shape. Nina looked good, and knew it. She spent perhaps half her time with other girls whowere in the same happy state, comparing bosoms, talking of diets, and discussing clothes. The rest of the time Nina pursued boys. The boys in her own year were considered quite uninteresting. Nina and her friends mostly went after boys in the Third and Fourth Years, but enough of the hunt spilled over into the Second Year for the boys there to start diving under desks whenever Nina appeared, shouting, "Help! Here comes Nympho Nina!"

"It's a shame she's started so early," Fiona Perks remarked to Polly. "What will she have left to do when she's an old woman of fifteen?"

Polly liked that remark. It was the kind of thing Granny said. "Nina has to be where the action is," she explained. "She always did." And she looked upon Fiona with a great deal more friends.h.i.+p after that. She and Fiona were rather thrown together that term anyway. They were both put in the Under Fourteen athletics team, and they both seemed to remain skinny and rodlike while the other girls burst out into hips and bosoms.

"We may be late developers," Fiona said, "but when it happens, everyone watch out!"

Polly took to Fiona more and more. They were not quite at the stage of sitting together in cla.s.s, but Polly went once, timidly, to have tea in Fiona's house. Fiona's house was quite grand-not as grand as Hunsdon House, but a little on the same lines. Polly wished she dared ask Fiona round to her house in return. But things had become really difficult there.

Ivy had decided David was deceiving her. Their Christmas holiday seemed to have done very little good. Sacrifice in vain! Polly thought bitterly. They could have come to the pantomime for all the good it did! Now, whenever David was out, Ivy telephoned all the people she knew and asked them where David was. One day Polly came in from school to find the kitchen a white fog from the kettle, and Ivy, red in the wet heat, busy steaming David's letters open.

"I know. I'm insecure," Ivy said defensively to Polly. "But he's so secretive. How can I trust a man who doesn't tell me anything?"

This made things awkward for Polly, because she was still taking notes from David to Mr. O'Keefe. She had thought David wouldstop asking her to take them after the row before the pantomime. She was astonished when he stopped her, the first day of school, and handed her another note.

"Be an obliging wench," David said pleadingly. "Don't stop up my only outlet, there's a gorgeous. I'll do the same for you one day."

He seemed to mean it so much that Polly's annoying tenderheartedness was aroused. Besides, she liked Mr. O'Keefe and the way he called her his darling. She agreed to take the note, and a good many others after that. All that term, even after the kettle incident, Polly was taking notes for David.

Then, toward the end of term, she came in from a cycle ride with Fiona to find Ivy opening a parcel. Polly could see the address, because it was on a label and very black, first the name of a bookshop in Exeter and then miss polly whittacker... "Hey!" said Polly. "That's mine! It's from Mr. Lynn."

Ivy's answer was to thrust the half-opened parcel across the kitchen table at Polly. "Is it?" she said. "Then show me. Open it right out. Go on."

Under Ivy's suddenly ominous stare, Polly rather resentfully finished undoing the brown paper. In it was a fat book called The Golden Bough The Golden Bough. The typed slip of paper with it said it was from Mr. Tea-Gell. Polly grinned. But her pleasure was a good deal spoiled by Ivy taking the book by its covers and shaking it, and then spreading the brown wrapping out to make sure mere was no other message.

"It's all right, Mum," she said. "I know it's from Mr. Lynn. That's the way he always does it now."

"Yes, but I don't, do I?" Ivy said. "Where does it say it's from him?"

"The name he gave the bookshop," Polly explained. "It's a joke. His initials are T.G.L."

"It makes a good story," said Ivy.

"What do you mean?" said Polly.

"Mr. Lynn, Mr. Lynn!" said Ivy. "You may be always on about this Mr. Lynn of yours, but I don't believe he exists. I've I've never seteyes on him!" never seteyes on him!"

"Yes you have!" Polly cried out. "In London-the first time you went to the lawyer."

"No I did not," said Ivy. "You went by yourself in a taxi, as you well remember! You always were a sly little devil, even in those days. I can see now that you went to meet Reg behind my back. Oh, I have been a fool!"

Polly felt horrible. For a moment she wondered if Ivy had gone mad. But she felt so hurt and bewildered that she thought Ivy must be quite normal. If a person is mad, they cannot say things that hurt you. "Granny's met him," she said. "Ask her."

"She'd only stick up for you. It's no use asking her," said Ivy. "She spoils you rotten, just like she did your father. And I reap the reward!" The front door clicked quietly. Ivy heard it. "David!" she shouted. "Come in here a moment!"

David came in slowly, sensing trouble. "The old homestead feels a bit stirred," he said. "What's the earthquake about?"

Ivy held the book and the typed note out toward him. "David, did you do this?"

David looked, wincing a little. "Not guilty. I couldn't write a book like that to save my life. All that research-" He stopped, seeing the way Ivy was looking. "I didn't give it her, if that's what you mean. It's that admirer fellow again. Whatsisface."

"I know it was supposed supposed to be," Ivy said grimly. "My lady here has it all set up for you, doesn't she? She makes herself up this story about this man who doesn't exist. No doubt she believes it. She doesn't know truth from lies, just like her father! Then you step in and start sending her presents, pretending they come from her Mr. n.o.body!" to be," Ivy said grimly. "My lady here has it all set up for you, doesn't she? She makes herself up this story about this man who doesn't exist. No doubt she believes it. She doesn't know truth from lies, just like her father! Then you step in and start sending her presents, pretending they come from her Mr. n.o.body!"

"That's not true!" Polly shouted. And David said at the same time, "Be reasonable, Ivy. Why would I send Polly presents?"

"Why indeed?" Ivy said. There was a sort of miserable triumph to her. "Because she's been running your errands for you, hasn't she? I saw you look I saw you look!" she shouted as David's eyes met Polly's without either of them being able to help it. "Don't deny it. She's beentaking your love letters for that Irishman to hand on, in spite of all you swore swore to me before Christmas-!" to me before Christmas-!"

"Just the odd pound on the dogs, Ivy," David said.

He would have done better to have denied everything. The resulting row seemed to shake the house. David got as angry as Ivy and roared that he was not going to stand for being spied on. Ivy screamed that he had reduced her to it by ganging up with Polly. David yelled that he did not care two hoots about Polly. Ivy accused both him and Polly of lying. Polly, in tears by now, tried to make at least David believe that Mr. Lynn had sent her the book. That made Ivy angrier than ever, and she sent Polly away upstairs. Polly defiantly grabbed The Golden Bough The Golden Bough off the kitchen table as she went, at which Ivy screamed, "Yes, take your ill-gotten gains! Much good may they do you!" off the kitchen table as she went, at which Ivy screamed, "Yes, take your ill-gotten gains! Much good may they do you!"

Polly closed the door on David yelling that he did not send Polly that book. She went upstairs and tried to read it. But she was too upset. The book shook in her hands and she could not focus on the pages. The only thing she could seem to do was to get out all Mr. Lynn's longer letters and go through them again, first to a.s.sure herself that Mr. Lynn indeed existed, and then to lay them all out as proof to Ivy. She knew Ivy would come up and talk to her. She was dreading it.

She was right. Ivy came in about two hours later. She had been crying and she was carrying a letter. "Polly," she said, "how could you do this to me?"

"I didn't do anything," Polly said sulkily. "Mum, look at these letters. Mr. Lynn sent them. He is is real." real."

Ivy picked a letter up and glanced at it. "Typed," she said. "Anyone can type a letter, and it was you that typed them by the look of all those mistakes." Before Polly could protest that there was no one she knew with a typewriter, Ivy dropped the letter back on Polly's bed. "Tell all the lies you like in your own mind," she said. "It's when you tell them to me that it matters. You've been secretive with me. You've destroyed my happiness with David. You've made him secretive too. I can't have it, Polly. You'll have to leave."

"Leave?" said Polly. She did not understand.

"Leave," said Ivy. "It's my only chance of mending things with David. I had this letter from your father a while ago. Read it. He wants you to live with him and Joanna in Bristol. So there you'll go as soon as school ends. You and Reg should see eye to eye. He believes what he wants to believe too."

Polly took the letter Ivy held out. At first she could focus on it no more than she had been able to focus on The Golden Bough The Golden Bough. It swam about behind blinding, rebellious thoughts. The same thing was happening to her now that had happened to Dad two years ago. She was not secretive. Neither was Dad. But Mum was not the kind of person who listened when you told her things. So you ended up not telling her, and when Mum realized, she was hurt. And when Ivy was hurt, she shut you out completely.

While Polly was thinking these things, some parts of the letter steadied enough for her to pick out phrases: a right to see my own-daughter... very welcome in Bristol... try living with us at least a right to see my own-daughter... very welcome in Bristol... try living with us at least ... Well Dad seemed to want her anyway. ... Well Dad seemed to want her anyway.

It was settled that Polly should go to Bristol the first day of the Easter holidays. Polly packed her clothes and books in boxes for Ivy to send after her. She seemed to be packing all the rest of term, living in a house she no longer really lived in, going to a school she no longer really belonged to.

She kept looking at things and thinking, This is the last time I'll listen to Nina discussing bras, or This is the last time I'll have a French lesson here, or This is my last Indoor Athletic practice. She felt empty with waiting for her new life to start. But every so often, bitter thoughts spurted up into the emptiness. Everyone seemed to have hurt her, including Mr. Lynn. He just thinks of me as a sort of mascot, she found herself thinking. I don't know why I bothered to have a row with Mr. Leroy about him. She was glad to be leaving. Almost the only thing she was sorry about was not going on with her new friends.h.i.+p with Fiona Perks.

PART THREE.

WHERE NOW?.

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1.

It was mirk, mirk night, there was no starlight; They waded through red blood to the knee, For all the blood that's shed on earth Runs through the springs of that country.

THOMAS THE RHYMER.

Ivy, stony and distracted, hurried Polly to the station on her way to work. Polly was carrying the things she would need for the first week in her old duffel bag. Among those things were her stolen photograph and the folder with the five soldiers and Mr. Lynn's letters in it. She was not sure any longer that they were valuable, or quite why she wanted them, but she did not want to leave them in case Ivy threw them away.

The train went early, and Ivy had forgotten to go to the bank the day before. She had to buy Polly's single ticket to Bristol with her credit card. "Have you got any money?" she asked Polly irritably.

"Not much," Polly said.

"Well, you won't need much, except on the train," Ivy said. "Your father will be paying for you after this."

Polly cried out, in a sudden spurt of anxiety, "But, Mum! Suppose he doesn't want me!"

"Then you can both make the best of it," said Ivy. "You're notcoming back here." here." She put Polly on the train and went away without waiting to see if Polly found a seat. She put Polly on the train and went away without waiting to see if Polly found a seat.

It was a long journey. Polly had to change trains at Swindon. By that time she was so hungry that she bought a roll in the station buffet there. It cost nearly all the money she had. Polly had not realized food was that expensive. She ate the roll and went on reading The Golden Bough. The Golden Bough. She read She read The Golden Bough The Golden Bough the whole way. At first, as the train drew out of Middleton, she had thought she felt too nervous to concentrate on it. But as soon as she read the beginning, with its strange story of the man pacing round the sacred grove waiting for the man who would kill him and take his place, she was gripped. From here the book went on a voyage of discovery through beliefs and stories Polly had never imagined before. She read as absorbedly as she had read Mr. Lynn's first parcel of books: through "Artemis and Hippolytus." "Sympathetic Magic." "The Magical Control of the Sun." "Magicians as Kings." "Incarnate Human G.o.ds." "The Sacred Marriage," and it was Swindon. Then to "The Wors.h.i.+p of the Oak." "The Perils of the Soul." "Tabooed Things." "Kings Killed at the End of a Fixed Term." Polly was about to begin on "Temporary Kings" when she looked up to find she was in Bristol Temple Meads. the whole way. At first, as the train drew out of Middleton, she had thought she felt too nervous to concentrate on it. But as soon as she read the beginning, with its strange story of the man pacing round the sacred grove waiting for the man who would kill him and take his place, she was gripped. From here the book went on a voyage of discovery through beliefs and stories Polly had never imagined before. She read as absorbedly as she had read Mr. Lynn's first parcel of books: through "Artemis and Hippolytus." "Sympathetic Magic." "The Magical Control of the Sun." "Magicians as Kings." "Incarnate Human G.o.ds." "The Sacred Marriage," and it was Swindon. Then to "The Wors.h.i.+p of the Oak." "The Perils of the Soul." "Tabooed Things." "Kings Killed at the End of a Fixed Term." Polly was about to begin on "Temporary Kings" when she looked up to find she was in Bristol Temple Meads.

Dad was waiting for her outside the ticket barrier. Polly had a moment of shock when she realized his hair had gone white, nearly as white as Granny's. Dad must have felt some of the same shock too, because he stared at Polly as if he was not quite sure it was her. But almost at once he smiled his well-known crinkled grin and wrapped her in a sinewy hug. He had gone thinner. Polly could feel.

"Ye G.o.ds!" he said. "You look almost grownup! Did you have a good journey?"

"I read," Polly said, and showed him the book.

Dad made a face. "Heavy stuff," he said. "Come on. We have to get a bus. Joanna uses the car to go to work in."

On the bus Polly expected Dad to ask her about the row with Mum, or at least to want her to tell him about school. But he asked nothing at all. Instead he chatted, very amusingly, telling her things about Bristol. They had a strange accent there, he said, andthe oddest thing about it was the way they put an "l" on the end of any word that ended in a vowel. And he told her a joke about the Bristol woman who called her three daughters Eva, Ida, and Norma-only, because of her accent, they came out as Evil, Idle, and Normal. Polly laughed. All the things Dad said made her laugh, but the effect of Dad's talk was to make Polly feel unfamiliar and shy, as if she was a visiting stranger whom Dad was politely entertaining. Well, he hasn't seen me for years, she kept telling herself. And there was no doubt Dad was glad to see her. "It's marvelous to have you here at last!" he said every so often. "Joanna's going to love it."

They got off the bus at a place where there were big, square-built houses, made of blocks of pinkish stone, all rather rich- and elegant-looking, where they walked about for a while. Polly thought at first that they were walking to the house where Dad lived, but after they had been along the same road twice, she realized they were just walking about. Dad talked happily, and they walked until it got dark and Polly started to s.h.i.+ver. At length Dad looked at his watch.

"I think Joanna should have recovered from work now," he said. He took Polly to one of the square stone houses further up the street.

Dad and Joanna had a flat that was the top floor of the big stone house. Dad unlocked the door and showed Polly into a high-ceilinged hallway with clean, clean painted walls and a carpet like very clean porridge stretching away into the distance. Ornaments-painted spoons, marble eggs, sh.e.l.ls-were placed in careful cl.u.s.ters on white tables along the hall, or hung in patterns on the walls.

"Oh. By the way. Take your shoes off," said Dad. "The carpet."

He took his own shoes off. Polly did the same and padded after Dad in her socks along the porridge carpet, feeling as strange as you did going to the house of a new friend at school. At the end of the corridor there was a white-floored kitchen which had green enamel lights, trailing green indoor plants, and a white, white scrubbed table in the middle. Joanna was standing at the table, pouring hot water out of a bright red kettle onto tea in a Chinesepot. She raised her smooth, dark head to look at them, and Polly at once felt completely untidy. Everything about Joanna was beautifully neat.

"Joanna," said Dad. "This is Polly."

"How nice to meet you at last, Polly," Joanna said. She said it in a cool, social sort of way, as if Polly had only dropped in for a cup of tea. But then, Polly reminded herself, she and Joanna had had never met before. She thought at first that Joanna was actually surprised to see her-maybe she had expected a smaller girl-but after a minute or so Polly decided that the look of surprise was to do with the way Joanna's eyes were wider open than most people's. Joanna's dark, pretty eyes almost strained open most of the time, as if Joanna was perpetually trying not to raise her eyebrows at something. "You'll need the bathroom," Joanna said to Polly. "Reg, the tea hasn't infused. Don't pour it till we get back." never met before. She thought at first that Joanna was actually surprised to see her-maybe she had expected a smaller girl-but after a minute or so Polly decided that the look of surprise was to do with the way Joanna's eyes were wider open than most people's. Joanna's dark, pretty eyes almost strained open most of the time, as if Joanna was perpetually trying not to raise her eyebrows at something. "You'll need the bathroom," Joanna said to Polly. "Reg, the tea hasn't infused. Don't pour it till we get back."

She showed Polly the bathroom. It was a wonderful, palatial room of gold and gray, lined with mirrors, with a gray carpet on the floor, gray-and-gold bath, gray towels, gold soap. Even the toilet paper was gray, stamped with golden flower patterns.

"What a beautiful flat this is," Polly said awkwardly.

"Yes I like to keep things nice," Joanna said. "Reg wants a cat, but I've told him we can't. Cats make almost as much mess as children do."

Polly started to a.s.sure Joanna that she would try very hard not to make a mess, but Joanna was gone by then. Polly used the beautiful gray loo and hoped she had used the right one. There was another thing that looked like a loo, which Polly thought was really a duvet-no, bidet, that was the word. She looked anxiously round in case she had messed anything, and went back along the porridge carpet to the kitchen, where Dad and Joanna were making polite, public sort of conversation over scented tea. Polly did not like the tea, but she politely did not say so.

Everything in the flat was neat and beautiful except the spare room. That had brooms in it, cardboard boxes, the ironing board, and an old red couch that had to do as Polly's bed. This seemed to trouble Joanna terribly. "I hope you won't be too uncomfortable. Wehaven't organized in here yet," she said. "We don't go in for visitors much." And she raced around, laying out three mauve towels of different sizes, and making up the couch with lilac-striped sheets and matching blankets, while Polly hung uselessly about asking if she could help. "Oh no," Joanna said. "This is a thing your hostess should do."

She kept saying the same thing when Polly asked if she could help get supper. Joanna did it all, with neat, precise movements and much careful folding of tinfoil over things. Polly hung round, watching, not knowing what else to do. "We're vegetarians," said Joanna. "I hope you don't mind."

Polly did not mind what she ate. She started to say so, then thought it sounded greedy and turned it into a mumble instead. And when supper was ready, she could not help thinking, No wonder Dad's gone so much thinner! But of course she did not say so. Dad seemed happy enough, smiling and laughing from Joanna to Polly, but after a while Polly could not help wondering at the way Joanna and Dad never said anything personal to one another. It was all polite talk, as if they were entertaining Polly. Perhaps they did not like to say anything that mattered in front of her until they were used to her.

There turned out to be a dishwasher, so Polly could not help with the was.h.i.+ng-up either. They went into the beautiful living room, where the carpet was like thicker, hairy porridge and the chairs were white leather, and sat listening to tinkling music. Polly did not remember Dad liking this kind of music before.

"Are we going to show Polly Bristol?" Joanna asked. "Shall I take the day off work tomorrow?"

"No, no," Dad said hastily. "I know what a brute your boss is. I'll take the day off and show her."

Polly did not sleep well that night. The visitor's couch was not comfortable. And she felt strange, agitated, and peculiarly uneasy. Something was odd somewhere, something was not quite right. From the way Joanna behaved, it seemed almost as if she thought Polly was only here on a short visit. But surely that couldn't be true? Dad must must have told her that Polly was living here now. Orhad Mum not explained to Dad properly? That could be it. Ivy had written to Dad, but in her stony mood she did not always say things completely. And Dad was not behaving as if he thought Polly was here for good either. In which case, how awkward it was going to be when Polly had to explain. These thoughts made Polly feel so strange in the end that she unpacked the stolen photograph from her bag in the dark. She did not like to turn on the light, in case she fell over a broom or the ironing board and disturbed Dad and Joanna, but she gripped the little oval frame in her hand as she wriggled back among the lumps in the couch, and it was somehow comforting. She fell asleep clutching it. have told her that Polly was living here now. Orhad Mum not explained to Dad properly? That could be it. Ivy had written to Dad, but in her stony mood she did not always say things completely. And Dad was not behaving as if he thought Polly was here for good either. In which case, how awkward it was going to be when Polly had to explain. These thoughts made Polly feel so strange in the end that she unpacked the stolen photograph from her bag in the dark. She did not like to turn on the light, in case she fell over a broom or the ironing board and disturbed Dad and Joanna, but she gripped the little oval frame in her hand as she wriggled back among the lumps in the couch, and it was somehow comforting. She fell asleep clutching it.

Next morning she tried to ask Dad and Joanna straight out if they knew she was living with them now. She tried several times, but she never seemed to get further than "Do you know-?" Joanna was hurrying through her routine of getting off to work and was far too busy getting Polly's breakfast as well to listen or talk. She still would not let Polly help. Polly gave up for the time being and decided to ask Dad during the day.

After breakfast she and Dad walked to Clifton Suspension Bridge.

While Polly admired it, Dad told her the famous story of the Victorian lady who had tried to commit suicide by jumping off the bridge. But it was such a long way down to the Avon in the gorge beneath that the lady's crinoline had acted like a parachute and saved her life. Then he told her the equally famous story of the students who had jumped off the bridge one April Fools' Day on the end of elastic ropes. They had stayed there, bobbing up and down like yo-yos, until the police had hauled them all up and arrested them for disturbing the peace. Polly laughed. But it seemed to get more and more difficult to ask Dad if he knew this was not just a visit.

They walked to the Zoo then. Polly found she could not ask straight out. But in front of the polar bears she said bravely, "I seem to be an awful trouble to you and Joanna-"