Remainder. Part 6

"Corner of Longridge Road and Templeton Place."

"How many floors?"

"...three, four, five-Six!"

"Longridge Road, Templeton Place," I or Naz would repeat to the other; the other would find the intersection on the wall-mounted map, stick a purple pin in it, then enter the particulars-six floors, blue facade and so on-into a spreadsheet Naz had created on the laptop. Sometimes both phones rang at once. Sometimes neither of them rang for several hours.

By five or so on the first day the map had nine purple pins stuck in it.

"Let's go and look at them," said Naz. "I'll call us a car."

"Tomorrow," I said.

By five o'clock the next day we had fifteen buildings. I'd knocked the car's arrival back to six, but when it came I told Naz: "I prefer to wait until tomorrow morning."

"As you wish," he said. "I'll send another car round to your flat at nine."

I phoned him the next morning at eight-thirty.

"I prefer to make my own way there," I said.

"I'll meet you there, then."

"No. I prefer to go alone."

"How will you know which places to look in?" he asked.

"I remember them all," I said.

"Really?" Naz sounded incredulous. "All the exact locations?"

"Yes," I told him.

"That's impressive," he said. "Phone me as and when you need me."

I didn't remember each location, of course. But I'd become increasingly aware of something over the last two days: these people wouldn't find my building. No matter how well I described it to them or how thoroughly they looked, they wouldn't find my building for a simple reason: it wouldn't be my building unless I found it myself. By noon on the second day of their search I'd been certain of this.

Why hadn't I called the search off, then? you might ask. Because I liked the process, liked the sense of pattern. There were people running through the same, repet.i.tive acts-consulting their mobiles, walking up one street, down the next one and up a third, stopping in front of buildings to make phone calls-in six different parts of town. Their burrowing would get inside the city's block and loosen it, start chiselling away at surplus matter: it would scare my building out, like beaters scaring pheasants out of bushes for a Lord to shoot-six beaters advancing in formation, beating to the same rhythms, their movements duplicating one another. As I started out that day I imagined looking on from overhead, from way above the city, picking out Naz's people, each one with a kind of tag on them, a dot like police cars have to help police helicopters pick them out. I imagined looking down and seeing them all-plus me, the seventh moving dot, my turning and redoubling etching out the master pattern that the other six were emulating. I imagined looking down from even higher up, the edges of the stratosphere. I stopped for a moment in the street and felt a light breeze moving round my face. I turned the palms of my hands outwards and felt a tingling creeping up the right side of my body. It was good.

I started with Belgravia. I'd walk up one street, down the next and up a third just like Naz's people had been instructed to do, so as not to miss any out. After two hours of this, though, I realized that my building wasn't in Belgravia. The area's clean, white houses with raised porches and white columns didn't strike any chords with me, even if technically they met the criteria I'd given to the searchers. King's Cross was the same. So was South Kensington. Paddington came closest: several buildings round there looked like mine. They looked looked like mine but weren't mine. Don't ask me how I could tell that: I just could. like mine but weren't mine. Don't ask me how I could tell that: I just could.

In the late afternoon I phoned Naz.

"How were they?" he asked.

"Oh, I didn't go to the ones our people shortlisted," I told him. "I decided I should look for it myself."

"I see," said Naz. "I'll tell them to discontinue their searches, then."

"No," I said. "Tell them to carry on. When we've exhausted our original six areas, we'll broaden out."

There was a pause at Naz's end. I pictured the behind of his eyes, the whirring. After a while he said: "I'll do that if that's what you want."

"Good," I said. Process: it was necessary.

I didn't find my building that day. Or the next. When I got home that evening there were two messages for me: one from Greg and one from Matthew Younger. Greg wanted me to call him. Matthew Younger wanted me to call him too: the sectors we'd bought into had climbed ten per cent in value over the last week, presenting us with a great opportunity to top-slice and diversify. I listened to their messages as I lay on the sofa. All the walking I'd done had exhausted me. I took a bath, put a plaster on a blister that had appeared on my right foot and went to bed.

I had a vivid dream. I dreamt that streets and buildings were moving past me, like the commuters had the day I'd stood still outside Victoria Station asking for spare change. The streets and buildings were moving past me on conveyor belts like those long ones that carry you along the corridors of airports. There were several of these moving belts connected to each other-converging and branching off, criss-crossing, ducking behind or under one another like a giant Spaghetti Junction, conveying houses, pavements, lampposts, traffic lights and bridges past me and around me.

My building was in there, being carried along somewhere in the complex interlacings. I caught glimpses of it as it slipped behind another building and was whisked away again to reappear somewhere else. It would show itself to me then slip away again. The belts were like magicians' fingers shuffling cards: they were shuffling the city, flas.h.i.+ng my card, my building, at me and then burying it in the deck again. They were challenging me to shout "Stop!" at the exact moment it was showing: if I could do that, I'd win. That was the deal.

"Stop!" I shouted. Then again: "Stop...Stop!" But I timed each shout just wrong-only a tenth or even hundredth of a second off, but wrong nonetheless. I'd shout "stop" each time I saw my building, and the system of conveyors would grind to a halt-but this took a few seconds, and by the time it was completely still my building had become submerged again.

After a while I closed my eyes, my dream-eyes, and tried to sense sense when it was coming up. I sensed the rhythm things were moving at, the patterns they were following, and let my imagination slip inside them. I could sense when my building was about to come by. I waited for it to go by twice, and just before it reappeared a third time shouted: when it was coming up. I sensed the rhythm things were moving at, the patterns they were following, and let my imagination slip inside them. I could sense when my building was about to come by. I waited for it to go by twice, and just before it reappeared a third time shouted: "Stop!"

I knew even as I shouted it that it would work this time. As the conveyors ground to a halt again, my building came to rest directly in front of me. I stepped forward and entered it. I got to see it all even more clearly than I had on the night of David Simpson's party-got to move around it, relis.h.i.+ng its details: the concierge's cupboard and the staircase with its worn floor, the black-and-white recurring pattern in it, the oxidizing wrought-iron banisters, the black handrail with its spikes. I saw the pianist's door and the door of the lady who cooked liver, the spot beside it where she placed her rubbish as I pa.s.sed her, my own flat above her with its open kitchen and its plants, its bathroom with a cracked wall and a window that looked out across a courtyard to a building with red roof tiles and black cats. I got to fully occupy it-not for long, but for a while, until the scene changed and I found myself inside a library negotiating travel prices with a grumpy waitress who was Yugoslavian.

In the morning, after I'd woken up, I started understanding why I hadn't found my building in the four days I'd been working on it: I'd been rational about it. Logical. I needed to go irrational on the whole thing. Illogical. Of course! I'd probably pa.s.sed it at some point over the last few years already-which meant that it would be recorded somewhere in my memory. Everything must leave some kind of mark. And then even if I hadn't pa.s.sed it already, I'd only manage to stalk it down if I moved surrept.i.tiously: not in straight lines and in blocks and wedges but askew-diagonally, slyly, creeping up on it from sideways.

I cooked myself some breakfast and pondered how best to make my search irrational. The first idea that came to me was to I-Ching the map: to close my eyes, turn round a few times, stick a pin in blindly and then go and look in whatever area it happened to have landed on. The more I thought about that method, though, the less sly it seemed. Random's not the same as sly, is it? I tried it with my A-Z, A-Z, just to see what would happen: Mitcham. I tried it a second time: Waltham-stow Marshes. So much for the Wisdom of the Orient. just to see what would happen: Mitcham. I tried it a second time: Waltham-stow Marshes. So much for the Wisdom of the Orient.

Colours was the next idea I had: following colours. I could decide to go where, say, yellow things went: a van, an advertising h.o.a.rding, someone's clothes. I could start somewhere, anywhere, and walk down the street the yellow van went down, then wait beside a yellow shop front till a woman wearing yellow trousers went by and I'd follow her. It was completely arbitrary-but it might prompt something, get me looking at things in a way I wouldn't normally, open c.h.i.n.ks up in the camouflage behind which my place was hiding.

Then, following on from that idea, I thought of walking jerkily, erratically. I don't mean in my walk itself, my gait: I mean that I would start off down one street, then double back suddenly, like I had when I'd set out to Heathrow to meet Catherine but realized that I'd left her flight details behind. Or I'd pretend to be heading one way, waiting to cross a certain road by a pedestrian crossing-then, when the green man appeared, I'd veer off in some other direction, like a striker when he takes a penalty in football and sends the goalkeeper the wrong way.

I also considered following a numerical system: starting from point zero I'd turn down the first street on the right, then take the second left, the third right, fourth left and so on. The system could be much more complicated than that, of course: I could bring in fractions and algebra and differentials and who knows what else. Or I could devise a corresponding process using the alphabet: go down the first street I came to whose name starts with a, a, then carry on until I find a then carry on until I find a b, b, a a c c etc. Or I could apply numeric principles to an alphabetic process: start on a street that began with an etc. Or I could apply numeric principles to an alphabetic process: start on a street that began with an a, a, then advance along the alphabet by the same number of letters contained in the street's name and find the nearest street whose name began with that new letter. Or I could... then advance along the alphabet by the same number of letters contained in the street's name and find the nearest street whose name began with that new letter. Or I could...

The phone rang while I was in the middle of these deliberations. It was Matthew Younger.

"How are you?" he asked.

"Fine," I told him. "I'm looking for a building. What's top-slice top-slice?"

"Ah!" he answered, his voice booming down the line to me. "Top-slicing is what you do when your shares in a certain company have appreciated-risen-and you slice the profit off by selling some until the value of your holding represents what it did when you bought it."

"Why would you want to do that?" I asked.

"In order," he explained, "to invest the top-sliced money in another company, thus diversifying your holdings. Now your shares in the technology and telecommunication companies we selected recently have risen overall by a staggering ten per cent in little over one week. While I know how much you favour those two sectors, I just felt that if we top-sliced that ten per cent profit we could invest it in another sector while in no way diminis.h.i.+ng your commitment to technology and tele..."

"No," I told him. "Keep them where they are."

There was a pause at his end. I pictured his office: the polished mahogany table, panelled walls and corniced ceiling, the portraits of frail and wealthy men. After a while he came back: "Fine," he said. "Jolly good. Just touching base, really, with a suggestion-but it's your call entirely."

"Yes," I answered.

I hung up and went back to pondering methods of looking for my building in an irrational manner. I'd thought up so many by midday that I'd lost track of half of them. By early afternoon I'd realized that none of them would work in any case, for the good reason that implementing any one of them methodically would cancel its irrational value. I started to feel both dizzy and frustrated, and decided that the only thing to do was walk out of my flat with no plan at all in mind-just walk around and see what happened.

I left my flat, walked down the perpendicular street past my dented Fiesta, then turned into the ex-siege zone, pa.s.sed the tyre place and cafe, then the phone box I'd called Marc Daubenay from. I walked to the centre of Brixton, the box junction between the town hall and Ritzy. Normally I'd have turned right to the tube at this point, but today I carried on up towards David Simpson's road. I don't know why: I felt like carrying on that way, is all. And then to stay south of the river: that felt sly. All Naz's people were on the north side; anywhere south was well out of the search's official radius, and therefore more fruitful hunting ground. If someone knows people are looking for him in a certain place, he finds another place to hide in.

I went up towards Plato Road, but ducked down a street parallel to it before reaching it. To go right back there might have short-circuited things, I reasoned. I turned right, then turned left to balance things up. Then I overshot a turning to the right but doubled back and took it after all. I came across some men laying wires beneath the street and stopped to watch them for a while. They were connecting wires to one another: blue, red and green ones, making the connections. I watched them, fascinated. They knew I was watching, but I didn't mind. I had eight and a half million pounds, and could do what I wanted. They didn't seem to mind either-perhaps because they could tell from how I watched them that I respected them. For me, they were Brahmins: top of the pile. More than Brahmins: G.o.ds, laying down the wiring of the world, then covering it up-its routes, its joins. I watched them for an age, then walked away with difficulty, really concentrating on each muscle, every joint.

A little after this I found a sports track. It was tucked into a maze of back streets and fenced in by knitted green wire. Inside the first fence another one caged in a beautiful green asphalt pitch. The pitch was multi-purpose. All sorts of markings cut and sliced across it: semicircles, circles, boxes, arcs-in yellow, red and white. It was beautiful for me, but to anyone else it would just have looked shoddy and run-down. Two smaller, decrepit cages stood at either end of this pitch: two football goals. Between the caged-in pitch and the green outer fence a red track ran. The tracks I'd seen in my coma had been like this one: red, with white lines marking out the lanes. A couple of loudspeakers were dangling from poles beside the track; they looked like they weren't used any more, and probably didn't work. I stood against the green fence, looking in and thinking about the commentaries I'd had to give during my coma. I stood there thinking for a while, then turned around-and saw my building.

It was my building alright. I knew that instantly. It was a large tenement building, seven floors tall. It was quite old-maybe eighteen nineties, nineteen hundred. It was a dirty cream colour. Off-white. I'd come to it from a strange angle, from the side, but I could see that it had large white windows and black drains and balconies with plants on them. These windows, drains and balconies repeated themselves as the side facade ran on, high and imperious, behind a wall, then turned away and out of sight. Oh, it was definitely mine.

The building had a compound round it, a kind of garden s.p.a.ce, but I was separated from this by the wall. In front of me was an iron side door. I tried it: it was shut. It was one of those doors with an electronic keypad and a CCTV camera mounted above it. I moved out of the camera's field of vision and waited to see if anyone would come through. n.o.body did. After a while I walked around the sports track, pa.s.sed beneath a railway bridge and came to the building from the front.

Oh yes: it was my building. My own, the one that I'd remembered. It was big and old and rose up seven floors. It was off-white at the front too, with windows but no balconies. Its main entrance had a kind of faded grandeur: wide, chequered steps ran from the street to a double doorway above which was carved in stone relief the building's name: Madlyn Mansions.

I stood in the street looking at my building. People were coming and going through the double doors pretty regularly: normal-looking people, old and young, half white and half West Indian. Residents. After a while I walked up the chequered steps to the door and peered inside.

The building had a lobby. Of course. Almost straight away I saw my concierge's cleaning cupboard-the one I'd sketched out in my diagram, with broom and mop and Hoover leaning across one another inside. It was six or so feet to the right of where it should have been, but it was the right kind of cupboard. On the lobby's other side was a little concierge's booth: a cabin with a sliding window in it. I could see a concierge, a small black man, talking to someone inside the cabin. Both these men's backs were turned on the main doors-which opened now as a middle-aged West Indian man came out and, seeing me standing there, held one of them for me.

"You going in?" he asked.

I glanced towards the concierge again: his back was still turned.

"Yes," I said. "Thank you."

I took the door from the West Indian man and stepped into the lobby.

The street's sounds disappeared, replaced by the hollow echo of this tall, enclosed s.p.a.ce. The sudden change felt like it does inside an aeroplane that suddenly descends, or when a train enters a tunnel and your ears go funny. There were footsteps echoing from somewhere up above and then the murmur of the voices of the concierge and the man he was talking to. The lobby's floor was grainy-maybe granite. It wasn't quite right, but I'd be able to change it. I strode quickly and lightly over it, still glancing at the concierge. He was more of a porter than a concierge, but I'd change that too. I'd replace him: it had to be a woman. I could picture her body now: it was middle-aged and pudgy. Her face was still blank.

At the far end of the lobby from the street doors the floor turned into a large, wide staircase. This was perfect. The patterning on its floor wasn't right either-but the dimensions were perfect. The banister was too new, but I'd get it ripped out and replaced in no time. Looking up, I saw it dwindling and repeating as it turned into each floor. I stood at its base for a moment, watching it dwindling and repeating. It was exciting: the motorbike enthusiast's flat was just a floor away, the pianist's only two; two floors above that was the liver lady. I could even see the edges of my own landing as I craned my head back and looked up. I felt a tingling start up in my right side.

Eventually I looked down again and saw a door at the foot of the staircase. Above the door, carved in relief just like the building's name above the front door, only slightly smaller, was the word Garden. Garden. I tried this door: it was open, and I stepped into a courtyard. Perfect too: it was large, with trees and bushes, enclosed on all four sides by buildings, by their backs. To my left were several sheds; I'd have those pulled down to make way for the patch of ground the motorbike enthusiast would use. When I stepped further out into the courtyard and turned round to look up at the building, I could see the pianist's window; three floors above that, the windows to my bathroom and my kitchen. The building facing mine on the courtyard's far side was similar to mine-equally tall but not identical. I tried this door: it was open, and I stepped into a courtyard. Perfect too: it was large, with trees and bushes, enclosed on all four sides by buildings, by their backs. To my left were several sheds; I'd have those pulled down to make way for the patch of ground the motorbike enthusiast would use. When I stepped further out into the courtyard and turned round to look up at the building, I could see the pianist's window; three floors above that, the windows to my bathroom and my kitchen. The building facing mine on the courtyard's far side was similar to mine-equally tall but not identical.

"Good," I said quietly to myself. "Very good. What colour are its roofs, though?"

This question couldn't be answered straight away: from here the angle up to the facing building's roof was too sharp to see the slates, or whether their level rose and fell. I could see hut-like bits protruding from it, though, their tops. That was good too, I thought: they'd have doors in them, most probably, for access to the roof. Just what I needed for the cats: to get them out there so that they could lounge around.

I took one last look at the courtyard, breathed in deeply, went back through the garden door and started up the staircase. The black-on-white recurring pattern wasn't there, as I mentioned earlier; nor were the wrought-iron banisters with their oxidizing hue and blackened wooden rail above them, but their size and movement-the way they ran and turned-was perfect. The flats started on the first floor. Their front doors were the wrong size: too small. Another thing to change. I recognized my pianist's one, though. I stood and listened at it for a while. A kind of grating was coming from inside-very subdued, probably pipes and water.

I moved up the staircase, past the boring couple's flat, on up to where the liver lady lived. Her door was the wrong size, like all the doors, but the spot beside it where she'd place her rubbish bag for the concierge to pick up as I went by: that was just right-minus the pattern, of course. I listened at her door as well and heard a television playing. I walked around the spot she'd place her bag on, looking at it from different angles. I saw where I'd come down the staircase just as her door was opening. Standing there now, I could picture her in greater detail: her wiry hair wrapped in a shawl, the posture of her back as she bent down, the way the fingers of her left hand sat across her lower back and hip. The tingling started up again.

It just remained for me to walk up to my floor. I did this and stood outside my own flat. I listened at the door: no sound. The occupants were probably out at work. I tried to X-ray through the door-not to see what was actually inside but to project what would be: the open-plan kitchen with its Sixties fridge and hanging plants, the wooden floors; off to the right the bathroom with its crack, the pink-grey plaster round it, grooved and wrinkled, the blue and yellow daubs of paint. Then the bit of wall without a mirror where David Simpson's mirror had been, the bathtub with its larger, older taps, the window that the scent of frying liver wafted in through.

I stood there, projecting all this in. The tingling became very intense. I stood completely still: I didn't want to move, and I'm not sure I could have even if I had wanted to. The tingling crept from the top of my legs to my shoulders and right up into my neck. I stood there for a very long time, feeling intense and serene, tingling. It felt very good.

What snapped me out of it eventually was a door closing with a bang on a lower floor. I could hear someone coming out and walking down the staircase. I moved on to the end of my landing; there was a floor above it, with two normal doors and then a smaller, padlocked one. Cat access huts as well, perhaps, I reasoned. Seven or so feet to my door's right there was a window: I leant against it and, forehead on pane, looked out across the courtyard. From here I could see that the facing roof was flat, not staggered. It wasn't red either. There were three cat access sheds on it in all, ten or so feet apart. I pictured the cats lounging: two or three of them at any given time, spread out across the roofs I'd have made staggered-lounging, languorous and black against their red.

I'd seen all I needed to see. I spun off from the window and walked straight down to the lobby without pausing. I walked straight across this, too, and out into the street. I found a phone and called Naz.

"Any luck?" he asked.

"I've found it, yes," I told him.

"Excellent," he answered. "Where?"

"In Brixton."

"In Brixton?"

"Yes: Madlyn Mansions, Brixton. It's behind a kind of sports track. Near a railway bridge."

"I'll find it on the map and call you back. Where are you now?"

"I'm on my way home," I told him. "I'll be there in twenty minutes."

I walked back to my flat. There was a message on my answering machine already, but when I played it, thinking it would be from Naz, it turned out to be from Greg. I lay down on the folded-away sofa bed and waited. Eventually Naz phoned.

"The building is privately owned," he said, "and leased out to tenants. The owner is one Aydin Huseyin. He manages this and two other properties in London."

"Right," I said.

"Shall I enquire whether or not he's interested in taking offers on this property?" Naz asked.

"Yes," I said. "Buy it."

We got it for three and a half million. A snip, apparently.

7.

WE HIRED AN ARCHITECT. We hired an interior designer. We hired a landscape gardener for the courtyard. We hired contractors, who hired builders, electricians and plumbers. There were site managers and sub-site managers, delivery coordinators and coordination supervisors. We took on performers, props and wardrobe people, hair and make-up artists. We hired security guards. We fired the interior designer and hired another one. We hired people to liaise between Naz and the builders and managers and supervisors, and people to run errands for the liaisers so that they could liaise better.

Looking at it now, with the advantage-as they say-of hindsight, it strikes me that Naz could probably have devised a more efficient way of doing it. He could have chosen one place, one specific point to start from, and worked out from there in logical procession: chronologically, in a straight line, piece by piece by piece. The approach he took instead was piecemeal-everything springing up at once but leaving huge gaps in between and creating new problems of alignment and compatibility that in their turn required more supervising, more coordination.

"There's a problem with the windows on the third floor," Naz told me one day, several weeks into the works.

"I thought all the windows had been finished," I said.

"Yes," said Naz, "but now the windows in the main third-floor flat have to come out again so we can lift the piano in."

Another time we realized we'd got the courtyard ready too soon: trucks would have to drive across it as they removed detritus from the building, ruining the landscaper's creation.

"Why didn't we think of that?" I asked Naz.

Naz smiled back. I started suspecting then that his decision to opt for the piecemeal approach was deliberate. As we were driven from one meeting to another-from the site itself, say, to our office in Covent Garden, or to our architect's office in Vauxhall, or to the workshop of the metallurgist who was making our banisters, or from a Sotheby's auction of Sixties' Americana at which we'd been looking at fridges back to the site via Lambeth Town Hall (palms were greased-I'll say no more)-each time we left the building or came near again we'd see trucks piled high with rubble, earth or ripped-out central-heating units pulling out from its compound and other trucks arriving with scaffolding or new earth or long strips of pine. There'd be small vans full of wiring, caterers' vans, vans belonging to experts in fields I didn't know existed: stone-relief consultants, acoustic technicians, non-ferrous-metal welders-London's premier in the art since 1932, this third outfit's van announced proudly on its side.

"So what's your position in the ferrous-metal league?" I asked them.

"We don't do ferrous-metal welding," they replied.