A Maze Of Death Part 18

Why he thought that he did not know.

"I'll pilot the s.h.i.+p," Thugg said. "You're too injured; you lie down."

"There's no place to lie down because of all these people," Seth Morley said.

They made room. And he stretched himself out gratefully. The squib, in the hands of Ignatz Thugg, zipped up into the sky. A murderer for a pilot, Seth Morley reflected. And a doctor who's a murderer.

And my wife. A murderess. He shut his eyes.

The squib zoomed on, in search of the tench.

"There it is," Wade Frazer said, studying the viewscreen. "Bring the s.h.i.+p down."

"Okay," Thugg said cheerfully. He moved the control ball; the s.h.i.+p at once began to descend.

"Will they pick up our presence?" Babble said nervously. "At the Building?"

"Probably," Thugg said.

"We can't turn back now," Seth Morley said.

"Sure we can," Thugg said. "But n.o.body said anything about it." He adjusted the controls; the s.h.i.+p glided to a long, smooth landing and came to rest, b.u.mping noisily.

"Get me out," Morley said, standing hesitantly; again his head rang. As if, he thought, a sixty cycle hum is being conducted through my brain. Fear, he thought; it's fear that's making me this way. Not my wound.

They gingerly stepped from the squib onto parched and highly arid land. A thin smell, again like something burning, reached their noses. Mary turned away from the smell, paused to blow her nose.

"Where's the river?" Seth Morley said, looking around.

The river had vanished.

Or maybe we're somewhere else, Seth Morley thought. Maybe the tench moved. And then he saw it-not far away. It had managed to blend itself almost perfectly with its local environment. Like a desert toad, he thought. s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g itself backward into the sand.

Rapidly, on a small piece of paper, Babble wrote. He handed it, when finished, to Seth Morley. For confirmation.

WHAT IS PERSUS 9? 9?.

"That'll do." Seth Morley handed the slip around; all of them soberly nodded. "Okay," he said, as briskly as he could manage. "Put it in front of the tench." The great globular ma.s.s of protoplasmic slush undulated slightly, as if aware of him. Then, as the question was placed before it, the tench began to shudder ... as if, Morley thought, to get away from us. It swayed back and forth, evidently in distress. Part of it began to liquify.

Something's wrong, Seth Morley realized. It did not act like this before.

"Stand back!" Babble said warningly; he took hold of Seth Morley by his good shoulder and propelled him bodily away.

"My G.o.d," Mary said, "it's coming apart." Turning swiftly, she ran; she hurried away from the tench and climbed back into the squib.

"She's right," Wade Frazer said. He, too, retreated.

Babble said, "I think it's going to-" A loud whine from the tench sounded, shutting out his voice. The tench swayed, changed color; liquid oozed out from beneath it and formed a gray, disturbed pool on all sides of it. And then, as they stared fixedly in dismay, the tench ruptured. It split into two pieces, and, a moment later, into four; it had split again.

"Maybe it's giving birth," Seth Morley said, above the eerie whine. By degrees, the whine had become more and more intense. And more and more urgent.

"It's not giving birth to anything," Seth Morley said. "It's breaking apart. We've killed it with our question; it isn't able to answer. And instead it's being destroyed. Forever."

"I'll retrieve the question," Babble knelt, whisked the slip of paper back from its spot close to the tench.

The tench exploded.

They stood for a time, not speaking, gazing at the ruin that had been the tench. Gelatin everywhere ... a circle of it, on all sides of the central remains. Seth Morley took a few steps forward, in its direction; Mary and the others who had run away came slipping cautiously back, to stand with him and view it. View what they had done.

"Why?" Mary demanded in agitation. "What could there have been about that question that-"

"It's a computer," Seth Morley said. He could distinguish electronic components under the gelatin, exposed by the tench's explosion, the hidden core-and electronic computer-lay visible. Wiring, transistors, printed circuits, tape storage drums, Thurston gate-response crystals, basic ir-madium valves by the thousand, lying scattered everywhere on the ground like minute Chinese firecrackers ... lady crackers, they're called, Seth Morley said to himself. Pieces of it flung in all directions. Not enough left to repair; the tench, as he had intuited, was gone for good.

"So all the time it was inorganic," Babble said, apparently dazed. "You didn't know that, did you Morley?"

"I had an intuition," Seth Morley said, "but it was the wrong one. I thought it would answer-be the only living thing that could answer-the question." How wrong he had been.

Wade Frazer said, "You were right about one thing, Morley. That question is the key question, evidently. But where do we go from here?"

The ground surrounding the tench smoked, now, as if the gelatinous material and computer parts were starting into some kind of thermal chain reaction. The smoke had an ominous quality about it. Seth Morley, for reasons not understood, felt, sensed, the seriousness of their situation. Yes, he thought; a chain reaction which we have started but which we can't stop. How far will it go? he wondered somberly. Already, large cracks had begun to appear in the ground adjacent to the tench. The liquid squirted from the dying, agonized tench, spilling now into the cracks ... he heard, from far down, a low drumming noise, as if something immense and sickly-vile had been disturbed by the surface explosion.

The sky turned dark.

Incredulous, Wade Frazer said, "Good G.o.d, Morley; what have you done with your-question?" He gestured in a seizure of motor-spasms. "This place is breaking up!"

The man was correct. Fissions had appeared everywhere now; in a few moments there would be no safe spot to stand on. The squib The squib, Seth Morley realized. We've got to get back to it. "Babble," he said hoa.r.s.ely, "get us all into the squib." But Babble had gone. Looking around in the turbulent gloom, Seth Morley saw no sign of him-nor of the others.

They're in the squib already, he told himself. As best he could he made his way in that direction. Even Mary, he realized. The b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. He falteringly reached the hatch of the squib; it hung open.

A fast-widening crack in the ground, almost six feet wide, appeared cras.h.i.+ngly beside him; it burgeoned as he stood there. Now he found himself looking into the orifice. At the bottom something undulated. A slimy thing, very large, without eyes; it swam in a dark, stinking liquid and ignored him.

"Babble," he croaked, and managed to make the first step that led up into the squib. Now he could see in; he clambered clumsily up, using only his good arm.

No one was in the squib.

I'm Christ-awful alone, he said to himself. Now the squib shuddered and bucked as the ground beneath it heaved. Rain had begun; he felt hot, dark drops on him, acrid rain, as if it was not water but some other, less-pleasant substance. The drops seared his skin; he scrambled into the squib, stood wheezing and choking, wondering frantically where the others had gone. No sign of them. He hobbled to the squib's viewscreen ... the squib heaved; its hull shuddered and became unstable. It's being pulled under, he said to himself. I've got to take off; I can't spend any more time searching for them. He jabbed at a b.u.t.ton and turned on the squib's engine. Tugging on the control ball he sent the squib-with himself inside, alone-up into the dark and ugly sky ... a sky obviously ominous to all life. He could hear the rain beating against the hull; the rain of what? he wondered. Like an acid. Maybe, he thought, it will eat its way through the hull and destroy both the squib and me.

Seating himself, he clicked on the viewscreen to greatest magnification; he rotated it, simultaneously sending the squib into a rotating orbit.

On the viewscreen appeared the Building. The river, swollen and mud-colored, angrily lapped at it. The Building, faced with its last danger, had thrown a temporary bridge across the river and, Seth Morley saw, men and women were crossing the bridge, crossing thereby the river, and going on into the Building.

They were all old. Gray and fragile, like wounded mice, they huddled together and advanced step by step in the direction of the Building. They're not going to make it, he realized. Who are they? Gray and fragile, like wounded mice, they huddled together and advanced step by step in the direction of the Building. They're not going to make it, he realized. Who are they?

Peering into the viewscreen he recognized his wife. But old, like the others. Hunched over, tottering, afraid ... and then he made out Susie Smart. And Dr. Babble. Now he could distinquish them all. Russell, Ben Tallchief, Glen Belsnor, Wade Frazer, Betty Jo Berm, Tony Dunkelwelt, Babble, Ignatz Thugg, Maggie Walsh, old Bert Kosler-he had not changed, he had already been old-and Roberta Rockingham, and, at the end, Mary.

The Form Destroyer has seized them, Seth Morley realized. And done this to them. And now they are on their way back to where they came from. Forever. To die there.

The squib, around him, vibrated. Its hull clanged, again and again. Something hard and metallic was pinging off the hull. He sent the squib higher and the noise abated. What had done it? he wondered, again inspecting the viewscreen.

And then he saw.

The Building had begun to disintegrate. Parts of it, chunks of plastic and alloy bonded together, hurled as if in a giant wind up into the sky. The delicate bridge across the river broke, and as it fell it carried those crossing it to their death: they fell with the fragments of the bridge into the snarling, muddy water and vanished. But it made no difference; the Building was dying, too. They would not have been safe in it anyhow.

I'm the only one who survived, he said to himself. Moaning with grief he revolved the control ball and the s.h.i.+p putt-putted out of its...o...b..t and on a tangent leading back to the settlement.

The engine of the squib died into silence.

He heard nothing, now, but the slap-slap of rain against its hull. The squib sailed in a great arc, dropping lower each moment.

He shut his eyes. I did what I could throughout, he said to himself. There was nothing more possible for me. I tried.

The squib hit, bounced, threw him from his chair onto the floor. Sections of the hull broke off, ripped away; he felt the acrid, acid-like rain pour in on him, drenching him. Opening his pain-glazed eyes he saw that the downpour had burned holes in his clothing; it was devouring his body. He perceived that in a fragment of a second-time seemed to have stopped as the squib rolled over and over, skated on its top across the terrain ... he felt nothing, no fear, no grief, no pain any longer; he merely experienced the death of his s.h.i.+p-and of himself-as a kind of detached observer.

The s.h.i.+p skidded, at last, to a halt. Silence, except for the drip-drip of the rain of acid on him. He lay half-buried in collapsed junk: portions of the control board and viewscreen, all shattered. Jesus, he thought. Nothing is left, and presently the earth will swallow the squib and me. But it does not matter, he thought, because I am dying. In emptiness, meaninglessness and solitude. Like all the others, who have gone before this fragment of the one-time group. Intercessor, he thought, intercede for me. Replace me; die for me.

He waited. And heard only the tap-tap of the rain.

15.

Glen Belsnor removed the polyencephalic cylinder from his aching head, set it carefully down, rose unsteadily to a standing position. He rubbed his forehead and experienced pain. That was a bad one, he said to himself. We did not do well this time at all.

Going unsteadily to the dining hall of the s.h.i.+p he poured himself a gla.s.s of tepid, bottled water. He then rummaged in his pockets until he found his powerful a.n.a.lgesic tablet, popped it into his mouth, swallowed it with more of the reprocessed water.

Now, in their cubicles, the others stirred. Wade Frazer tugged at the cylinder which enclosed his brain and skull and scalp and, a few cubicles off, Sue Smart, too, appeared to be returning to active awareness of a h.o.m.oencephalic kind.

As he helped Sue Smart off with her heavy cylinder he heard a groan. A lament, telling of deep suffering. It was Seth Morley, he discovered. "Okay," Belsnor said. "I'll get to you as soon as I can."

All of them were coming out of it, now. Ignatz Thugg yanked violently at his cylinder, managed to detach it from its screw-lock base at his chin ... he sat up, his eyes swollen, an expression of displeasure and hostility on his wan, narrow face.

"Give me a hand," Belsnor said. "I think Morley is in shock. Maybe you better get Dr. Babble up."

"Morley'll be all right," Thugg said huskily; he rubbed his eyes, grimacing as if nauseated. "He always is."

"But he's in shock-his death must have been a bad one."

Thugg stood up, nodding dully. "Whatever you say, captain."

"Get them warm," Belsnor said. "Set up the standby heat to a higher notch." He bent over the p.r.o.ne Dr. Milton Babble. "Come on, Milt," he said emphatically as he removed Babble's cylinder.

Here and there others of the crew sat up. Groaned.

Loudly, to them all, Captain Belsnor said, "You are all right now. This one turned out to be a fiasco, but you are going-as always-to be fine. Despite what you've gone through. Dr. Babble will give you a shot of something to ease the transition from polyencephalic fusion to normal h.o.m.oencephalic functioning." He waited a moment, then repeated what he had said.

Seth Morley, trembling, said, "Are we aboard Persus 9?"

"You are back on the s.h.i.+p," Belsnor informed him. "Back aboard Persus 9. Do you remember how you died, Morley?"

"Something awful happened to me," Seth Morley managed to say.

"Well," Belsnor pointed out, "you had that shoulder wound."

"I mean later. After the tench. I remember flying a squib ... it lost power and split up-disintegrated in the atmosphere. I was either torn or knocked into pieces; I was all over the squib, by the time it had finished plowing up the landscape."

Belsnor said, "Don't expect me to feel sorry for you." After all, he himself, in the polyencephalic fusion, had been electrocuted.

Sue Smart, her long hair tangled, her right breast peeping slyly from between the b.u.t.tons of her blouse, gingerly touched the back of her head and winced.

"They got you with a rock," Belsnor told her.

"But why?" Sue asked. She seemed dazed, still. "What did I do wrong?"

Belsnor said, "It wasn't your fault. This one turned out to be a hostile one; we were venting our long-term, pent-up aggressiveness. Evidently." He could remember, but only with effort, how he had shot Tony Dunkelwelt, the youngest member of the crew. I hope he won't be too angry, Captain Belsnor said to himself. He shouldn't be. After all, in venting his own hostility, Dunkelwelt had killed Bert Kosler, the cook of Persus 9.

We snuffed ourselves virtually out of existence, Captain Belsnor noted to himself. I hope-I pray!-the next one is different. It should be; as in previous times we probably managed to get rid of the bulk of our hostilities in that one fusion, that (what was it?) Delmak-O episode.

To Babble, who stood unsteadily fooling with his disarranged clothing, Belsnor said, "Get moving, doctor. See who needs what. Painkiller, tranquilizers, stimulants ... they need you. But-" He leaned close to Babble. "Don't give them anything we're low on, as I've told you before, and as you ignore."

Leaning over Betty Jo Berm, Babble said, "Do you need some chemical-therapy help, Miss Berm?"

"I-I think I'll be okay," Betty Jo Berm said as she sat painstakingly up. "If I can just sit here and rest ..." She managed a brief, cheerless smile. "I drowned," she said. "Ugh." She made a weary, but now somewhat relieved, face.

Speaking to all of them, Belsnor said quietly but with firm insistence, "I'm reluctantly writing off that particular construct as too unpleasant to try for again."

"But," Frazer pointed out, lighting his pipe with shaking fingers, "it's highly therapeutic. From a psychiatric standpoint."

"It got out of hand," Sue Smart said.

"It was supposed to," Babble said as he worked with the others, rousing them, finding out what they wanted. "It was what we call a total catharsis. Now we'll have less free-floating hostility surging back and forth between everyone here on the s.h.i.+p."

Ben Tallchief said, "Babble, I hope your hostility toward me is over." He added, "And for what you did to me-" He glared.

"'The s.h.i.+p,'" Seth Morley murmured.

"Yes," Captain Belsnor said, slightly, sardonically, amused. "And what else have you forgotten this time? Do you want to be briefed?" He waited, but Seth Morley said nothing. Morley seemed still to be entranced. "Give him some kind of amphetamine," Belsnor said to Dr. Babble. "To get him into a lucid state." It usually came to this with Seth Morley; his ability to adapt to the abrupt transition between the s.h.i.+p and the polyencephalically-determined worlds was negligible.

"I'll be okay," Seth Morley said. And shut his weary eyes.

Clambering to her feet, Mary Morley came over to him, sank down beside him and put her lean hand on his shoulder. He started to slide away from her, remembering the injury to his shoulder ... and then he discovered that, strangely, the pain had gone. Cautiously, he patted his shoulder. No injury. No blood-seeping wound. Weird, he thought. But-I guess it's always this way. As I seem to recall.

"Can I get you anything?" his wife asked him.