Cripple Creek Part 8

She was never a good girl, you know. I think I'll miss her, though.

That's what a life came to.

Years ago, back when I had such arrogance as to think I could help anyone, I had as a patient a young woman who'd been raped and severely beaten while jogging. It happened near a reservoir. Every time she lifted a gla.s.s of water to drink, she said, it was there again. Of the attack she remembered nothing at all. What she remembered was being in ER just after, hearing caretakers above her talking about brain damage, saying: She'll only come back so far. I'd help her up from the chair at session's end. A well-mannered young man, her fiance Terry, always waited for her in the outer room.

Restless, turning as on a spit, I sensed a shadow fall across me and opened my eyes to see a possum crouched in the window. Possums are wild, they are resolutely not pets. But this one wanted in. I opened the window. The possum came in, sniffed its way down the bed, eventually fell asleep beside me. Not long after, I fell asleep myself.

J think Til miss her, though.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN.

OUTSIDE, inches away, a face leaned in close to the plategla.s.s. Soon it loomed above our table.

"Trooper Rob Olson," he said without preamble. "We spoke earlier."

"Right."

"Okay if I turn the town over to you? Sheriff's been pulling more weight than he should, I don't really want to buzz him on this. When I signed on, I never counted on clocking this much time. Now the wife's threatening to change the locks."

Trooper Olson slid something across the table.

"What's this?"

"The beeper."

"We have a beeper now?"

" You do, anyway," J. T. said.

"Wear it in good health," Trooper Olson said.

By this time we were sitting in Jay's Diner over scrambled eggs, sliced tomatoes, and toast, complete with the little rack of bottled vinegar and oil, ketchup, steak sauce, and pepper sauce. Neither of us had been in the mood for dinner-type food.

"More coffee?" Thelma asked. Near as I could tell, she was here any time the diner was open. Hard to imagine what the rest of her life might be like. Which was odd, the fact that I didn't know, given what I knew about so many other lives hereabouts.

Both sides of the booth, we nodded.

"So you're on vacation."

"Only because they made me take it."

"And with nothing better to do, you figured What the h.e.l.l, I'll track down the old man."

"Like I say, never got the knack of normal pastimes. I'd been thinking for some time about looking you up. Wasn't sure how you'd feel about that."

Nor was I.

"No one back there?"

"A guy, you mean?"

"Anyone."

"Not really. Handful of friends, mostly from the job." She glanced up to watch a new arrival, eyes following him from door to booth. Not from around here, you could tell that from the way he looked, way he moved. She saw it too. "I'm good at what I do, very good. I put most of myself into the work. Until recently that seemed enough."

"And now it's not?"

"I don't know. And most of all I hate not knowing."

"Maybe you just inherited a little of your mother's restlessness."

"Or yours."

Come home to roost, as they say around here. Probably didn't bear too much thinking, what other prodigal chickens might have shown up, for J. T. or for her brother Donald.

I set my cup down and waved off Thelma's query, via raised eyebrows, as to another refill.

"I have to thank you for what happened back there, J. T. But I also have to ask why you're here."

There was this strange energy to her, this sense of contained intensity in everything she did. It was in her eyes now, in the way she canted forward in the booth.

"I wanted to meet my father," she said. "It really is that simple. I think."

"Fair enough. How much vacation's left?"

"I'm still in the first week."

"Any plans?"

She shook pepper sauce onto her last piece of toast and made it disappear. Good eater.

"Tell the truth, I've started thinking maybe I could hang out here. With you. If you don't mind."

"I think I might like that."

"Done, then." She reached across to spear my last piece of tomato with her fork.

J. T. was half asleep as we drove to the cabin. When we came to the lake, she opened her eyes and looked out the window, at the water s.h.i.+mmering with light. "It's like the moon's come down to live with us," she said. Despite protests I got her settled in, insisting she take the bedroom, and to the sound of her regular breathing called Val. I hadn't had a phone at first or wanted one. Working with Don Lee pretty much demanded it, though. So I had one now. And I had a pet, Miss Emily the possum, gender no longer in doubt since she'd recently given birth to four tiny naked Miss Emilies living in a s...o...b..x near the kitchen stove.

And I had a daughter.

"Apologies for calling so late," I said when Val answered. "Keep on the Sunny Side" by the Carter Family in the background.

"Any apologies you might conceivably owe me would be for not calling. How'd it go up there?"

I told her everything.

"Wow. You really cowboyed it."

"You okay with that, counselor?"

"As long as no warrants followed you home. Hope you didn't mind my telling J. T. where you were staying. She's there with you?"

"Asleep."

Strains of "The Ballad of Amelia Earhart" behind. There's a beautiful, beautiful field, far away in a land that is fair.

"So . . . Suddenly you have a family. Just like Miss Emily."

"I've had a family for a while now."

"Kind of."

"How's work been going?"

"Let's see. Yesterday the judge sent home a preteen whose older sister, eight years out of the house, submitted a deposition alleging long-term s.e.xual abuse from the father. Fourteen-year-old firesetter Bobby Boyd's gone up to the state juvenile facility, where he'll be flavor of the month and learn a whole new set of survival skills."

"Business as usual."

"Always."

"Still, you stay in there batting."

"Never a home run. But sometimes we get a walk."

I stood listening to Val's breath on the line. From the kitchen came a squeal. One of the kids as Miss Emily rolled onto it? Or Miss Emily herself, one of them having bitten down too hard on a teat?

"When am I going to see you?" Val asked.

"What do you have on for tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow's Wednesday, always heavy. Three, maybe four court dates, have to meet with a couple troopers at the barracks on upcomings."

"Any chance you could break away for dinner up this way?"

"I'd be late."

"We could meet you somewherea"that be better?"

"We, huh? I like that. No, I'll manage. Look for me by seven, a little after."

Moments pa.s.sed.

"Racking my brain here," I said, "but I can't recall the Carter Family's ever having banjo on their recordings."

"You caught me. I've got you on the speakera""

"Hence that marvelous fifties echo-chamber sound."

"a"and I'm playing along with Sara, Maybelle, and A.P. Some days this is the only thing that relaxes me. Going back to a simpler time."

"Simpler only because we had no idea what was going on. Not even in our own country. Certainly nowhere else. We just didn't know."

"Whereas now we know too much."

"We do. And it can paralyze us, but it doesn't have to." Silence and breath braided on the line. "See you tomorrow, then?"

"Sevenish, right. . . . Did you really say hence}"

"I admit to it. Makes up for your whereas."

She left the line open. I heard the stroke, brush, and syncopated fifth string of her mountain-style banjo, heard the Carters a.s.serting that the storm and its fury broke today.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN.

WE WERE SITTING to dinner the next night when the beeper went off and I went s.h.i.+t! I'd forgotten I had the thing. Dropped it on the little table inside the door when I got home the night before and hadn't thought of it since. There it sat as I'd gone in to pull the day s.h.i.+ft. There it still sat.

One of Miss Emily's babies was doing poorly when I got home. Seemed to be having difficulty breathing, muscle tone not good, floppy head, dark muzzle. Miss Emily kept carrying it away from the s...o...b..x and leaving it on the floor. I'd pick it up and put it back, she'd carry it off again. Val came in and immediately scooped it up, rummaged through the medicine cabinet until she found an old eyedropper, cleaned out its mouth and throat, blew gently into its nose. Then she put it in her s.h.i.+rt pocket "to warm." When she pulled it out a half hour later, it looked ready to take over the s...o...b..x and take on all comers.

"What can't you do?" I asked her.

"Hmmm. Well, world peace for one. And I'm still working on bringing justice to the Justice Department." She smiled. "Possums are easy. They're what I had for pets when I was growing up. You named these guys yet?"

It hadn't even occurred to me.

"Okay, then. That's Lonnie, that one's Bo, that one's Sam."

"The Chatmons."

"You have any idea how few people there are alive on this earth who would know that?"

"And the fourth one, odd man out, has to be Walter Vinson."