Companions Of Paradise Part 13

"You are not going without me."

Ha.s.san stared at the Afghan. "But you cannot possibly go back to Kabul at this time of year. What of your kafila? What of your trade goods, your horses, your rubies and saffron?"

"Habibullah is here. He can do the necessary while I am gone. He knows what will happen to him if he steals from me. And that reminds me." Zulmai took a leather pouch from among his clothes. "I have brought you something." Without waiting for a reply, he withdrew a small gla.s.s vial from the pouch. "Musk," he said as he handed it to Ha.s.san.

"We must find a large kafila to join," he added, as Ha.s.san removed the vial's stopper causing the air around them to fill with dark sweetness.

"But that will take too long," Ha.s.san objected sharply. "There is no time to waste."

"To travel any other way would be madness." Zulmai jerked his chin toward Ha.s.san's Turkmen mare. "Think of your Gray Bird. Think of what your friend Yusuf would tell you. 'Yar,' 'Yar,' he would say to you, 'if you try to take her north without a strong guard, you will be dead within a day.' " he would say to you, 'if you try to take her north without a strong guard, you will be dead within a day.' "

Ha.s.san replaced the stopper on the vial, and laid a hand over his heart. "My friend," he said soberly, "if you choose to come with me, I will be most grateful." Then he turned his head and glanced at the street, his expression bleak and worried.

Ghulam Ali sighed as he watched Ha.s.san embrace Zulmai for the second time. As difficult as the return journey to Kabul would be for all of them, he, at least, would not be alone.

THAT SAME morning, as Safiya Sultana wheezed her way up the kitchen stairs, a thought struck her.

How could she have forgotten that when she was the same age as Saboor, she, too, had lost her appet.i.te?

Over the past week, the child's usual enthusiasm for eating had waned. He had chewed and swallowed his favorite foods dutifully, but without seeming to taste them, his eyes half closed, as if he were looking at something he did not want to see.

Some persistent worry had clearly robbed him of his appet.i.te, she decided, as she sat waiting for the afternoon meal. Whatever it was, it had also caused the thin cough that did not leave him, even now, as he leaned against her, staring into s.p.a.ce.

"Are you missing your An-nah?" she asked, surveying his broad, worried face.

He nodded. "I always think of Kabul, where she is."

"And what do you know of that place?" Taken by surprise, Safiya looked closely at him. "Who has told you stories of Afghanistan?"

"No one has told me, Bhaji. I have seen it in my dreams."

"And what stories do your dreams tell you?" she asked gently.

"They do not tell stories." He shook his head somberly. "In my dreams I see tall mountains and sharp rocks. When I see them, I feel sad."

When he looked into her face, she saw him suddenly not as a child, but as the man he would become.

"I feel sad that An-nah is far away, where the mountains are high and the rocks are very sharp. It looks so cold there."

He gave a small, unhappy cough.

"He is beginning to have visions," she told her brother that evening, when they were alone in her chamber. "He sees the mountains of Afghanistan. He says the very sight of them brings him sorrow. "

"Poor child." The Shaikh sighed. "He has been given the burden of seeing into the future."

"But he only sees what Allah Most Gracious allows."

"That is true. And since it is, his visions are important. Whatever Saboor is seeing, I hope it does not portend ill for this family."

November 1, 1841 The next morning, Mariana marched out onto the verandah where the tailor squatted, his scissors beside him.

"Ravi," she announced, pointing to a bolt of cotton that lay, half-unrolled, on the verandah floor, "I want you to make me a proper Afghan shalwar kameez. Have it ready by this evening."

It was time for her to return to the city, but without the enc.u.mbrance of a heavy, woolen riding habit beneath her chaderi.

You may visit me again, Haji Khan had told her. More than a month had gone by since their first strange meeting. He must be wondering if she had received the answer he had promised her.

Of course she had not. Eleven times each morning and eleven times each night for weeks and weeks she had recited her amended version of his durood. Nothing had happened. Furthermore, she was still unsure which question those verses were meant to address. Was it her paralyzing choice between Ha.s.san and Fitzgerald, or the other, mysterious query that had arisen in her heart as she sat in his crowded, stifling room?

Had Haji Khan even given her the correct roll of paper?

He certainly had never asked her what she wanted to know.

Before she could even consider what that second question might be, she must discover the truth about her future. When she thought about Fitzgerald, a wave of pleasure washed over her at the prospect of seeing him again, followed instantly by confusion and guilt.

How could she-a married woman-find Fitzgerald attractive? But how could she not? He was was attractive. attractive.

The only solution to her doubts was to revisit Haji Khan.

She would start off early the following morning, before Aunt Claire or Uncle Adrian appeared for breakfast, leaving word that she had gone for an early ride. As soon as she arrived in Haji Khan's presence, she would screw up her courage and tell him plainly of her dilemma, ignoring as best she could his crowd of listening followers.

The time had come to stop waiting for Ghulam Ali's return. She must know now whether her future was with elegant, perfumed Ha.s.san or blunt, protective Fitzgerald; among Ha.s.san's strangely compelling family or among her own people.

When she had finished ordering her native clothing, she sent for Yar Mohammad.

"I will be leaving the house at seven tomorrow morning," she informed him. "Please be ready to take me to the mulberry garden. From there I will be going into the city with Nur Rahman."

"This time, Bibi," he replied, his bony face set, "you will ride your mare, and I I will accompany you." will accompany you."

EARLY THE next morning, before Aunt Claire or Uncle Adrian had emerged from their room for breakfast, Mariana slipped from the house. Beneath her chaderi she wore the long s.h.i.+rt, baggy, gathered trousers, and enveloping shawl of an Afghan woman. Her feet were encased in embroidered slippers, purchased from the cantonment's Indian bazaar. Her hair hung down her back in a single, curly plait.

The morning was cold. She s.h.i.+vered as she made her way to the stables, unwilling to be seen mounting her mare at the front door. There she found Nur Rahman standing in front of Yar Mohammad, retying his turban.

"You look better now," he announced. "Remember to point to your mouth if anyone talks to you. They will think you are deaf, or that someone has cut out your tongue."

The boy turned to Mariana. "I will have to tell him the way," he confided. "He has no idea where we are going."

What an odd group they were, she thought as they started off-a woman in Afghan clothes riding on an English sidesaddle, accompanied by a hill man from northern India and an Afghan boy dressed as a woman.

The road was busy as they approached the city, with groups of intent-looking men interspersed with the usual Uzbek and Tajik traders, wizened Hazara laborers with impossibly large loads on their backs, and boys with poles over their shoulders, carrying dripping cloth cones of yoghurt to the marketplace. Many of them glanced at Mariana, and frowned in surprise. One or two tried to engage Yar Mohammad in conversation, but lost interest when he did as Nur Rahman had told him.

After a short detour, to purchase a bottle of Bukhara honey, they arrived at Haji Khan's door.

"Guests have come," the old gatekeeper announced, as he had before.

"Enter." Haji Khan's rasping voice was unchanged. This time, Mariana noted, only one jezail, and no knives, had been left on the verandah.

The blind man raised his head as Mariana and Nur Rahman stepped inside and greeted him, leaving Yar Mohammad to tend the mare.

He held up a hand. "Where," he inquired, "is our third guest?"

"Oh," said Nur Rahman airily, "he is outside with the-"

"Send for him," Haji Khan snapped. "Such a man is not to be left standing in the courtyard."

Such a man. From the way Haji Khan spoke, Yar Mohammad was worth more than Mariana and Nur Rahman together. From the way Haji Khan spoke, Yar Mohammad was worth more than Mariana and Nur Rahman together.

As before, a filigreed copper lamp illuminated the far end of the blind man's windowless room, now unoccupied save for Haji Khan and a small, mild-looking person, presumably the owner of the jezail, who ran dark eyes over Mariana and her companions, greeted them, then fell into contemplative silence.

Mariana arranged herself on the straw stool, the honey ready in her hand, and looked about her. The room, with its wall hangings, was unchanged. The heavy perfume in the air smelled vaguely familiar.

Whatever it was, it seemed to have a power of its own, for she felt her breathing deepen.

"Well, Khanum," Haji Khan inquired, as she laid her offering beside him, "what have you to tell me? What have you learned?"

"Haji Khan, I have learned nothing." Mariana cleared her throat nervously. The confidence she had felt when she started off earlier had drained away when she stepped over his threshold. Once again, her concerns, so pressing at home, now seemed petty and unimportant.

"Did you recite the durood I have given you?"

"Not as it is written," she said, too loudly, then dropped her voice. "I am Christian, you see."

She heard the Afghan visitor s.h.i.+ft on the floor behind her.

"You, Khanum," Haji Khan snapped, "are a very very foolish woman. Islam is meant for all the people who roam the face of the earth. It acknowledges one G.o.d. It shares its laws and its faith with Jews and Christians. Why do you not know this? foolish woman. Islam is meant for all the people who roam the face of the earth. It acknowledges one G.o.d. It shares its laws and its faith with Jews and Christians. Why do you not know this?

"Have I asked you," he added irritably, "to recite the Shahada Shahada, the attestation of faith? Have I asked you to recite La illaha illa Allah, Muhammad Rasul Allah?" La illaha illa Allah, Muhammad Rasul Allah?"

"No," she said in a small voice.

"Then I have not asked you to embrace Islam. You have more to decide than who is to be your husband," he went on. "If you recite the durood exactly as it is written, you will receive the answers you seek. If you do not, you will have wasted my time. In any case, I have no more to say about it."

"Haji Khan," Nur Rahman called eagerly from the doorway, "speak to us of Paradise."

The blind man did not reply. Instead, he lifted his head, as if searching for someone. "Third visitor," he commanded, "speak to us. Tell us of the key to Paradise."

Yar Mohammad's resonant voice came from a shadowy corner of the room. "It is peace," he said.

"And what is the key to life?"

"It is ishq ishq, the Essence of Love," Yar Mohammad responded, without hesitating. "When a man has peace and love in his heart, he will travel far toward the Goal."

Mariana breathed in. She should have known he was more than a simple groom.

Haji Khan sighed gustily. "It is so good to hear these words. Truly, brother, your murs.h.i.+d murs.h.i.+d is a great man. Or, I should say, your two murs.h.i.+ds, for you, unlike most men, have the good fortune to have more than one great teacher. Yes," he continued. "You are blessed with guidance from both Shaikh Waliullah Karakoyia of Lah.o.r.e, and Shafiuddin Khan, the great interpreter of dreams. It has given me signal pleasure to sit so many times with my friend Shafi over these past months." is a great man. Or, I should say, your two murs.h.i.+ds, for you, unlike most men, have the good fortune to have more than one great teacher. Yes," he continued. "You are blessed with guidance from both Shaikh Waliullah Karakoyia of Lah.o.r.e, and Shafiuddin Khan, the great interpreter of dreams. It has given me signal pleasure to sit so many times with my friend Shafi over these past months."

Shafiuddin Khan? But that was Muns.h.i.+ Sahib's real name. No one had told Mariana of those visits. How many times had he come?

"And now," Haji Khan said, "I only lack the joy of meeting Shaikh Waliullah."

"But what is is the Goal Yar Mohammad speaks of?" Nur Rahman's voice came from the back of the room. the Goal Yar Mohammad speaks of?" Nur Rahman's voice came from the back of the room.

"It is to see the face of the Beloved," Yar Mohammad and Haji Khan responded in unison.

Nur Rahman sighed rapturously. "In the Garden?"

"Yes," responded Haji Khan.

The room around Mariana, with its embroidered hangings and heavy, scented air, seemed to alter. In her imagination, it was no longer a dark and windowless chamber, but a gateway, leading to another world. It almost seemed that, past the string bed where blind Haji Khan sat motionless in the light of his copper lamp, a door had opened. Beyond it lay a vista shrouded in fog, its only visible feature a path leading away to another, more beautiful world.

Gate and path beckoned to her.

Mariana's unasked question returned. It tugged urgently at her, demanding to be asked.

"What must I I do," she blurted out, "to attain the Garden, and see the face of the Beloved?" do," she blurted out, "to attain the Garden, and see the face of the Beloved?"

The image disappeared. Light-headed, she imagined Papa in his vicar's robes, and her mother dressed for church, both their faces filled with horror.

But why should she not call G.o.d the Beloved? Why should she not aspire to Paradise? Everyone knew Eden had been a garden. Besides, this was her her life, life, her her adventure. adventure.

Haji Khan's rasping voice brought her back to reality. "Only do as I have said. Recite-"

"Listen!" The silent guest spoke for the first time. Mariana turned and saw him sitting bolt upright, his face alert, a hand raised for silence.

Outside, faint shouting arose. It grew louder, as if a large, triumphant crowd were approaching.

Something in the quiet man's face frightened Mariana.

"What is it?" she asked. "What is wrong?"

"I fear, Khanum," Haji Khan said gently, "that your Mr. Alexander Burnes is in grave trouble. You have chosen," he added, "a difficult day to enter the city."

"But why? What has he done?"

Before the words had left Mariana's throat, her hand was over her mouth. All the hints that Burnes, Macnaghten, and the others had ignored came rus.h.i.+ng back to her-the closing of the pa.s.ses to India; the fighting in the north; Akbar Khan's movements around the country; the fighting that Fitzgerald had met with on the road from Kandahar.

Each time they come back, Fitzgerald had said, there are more of them. there are more of them.

The Kabulis must know of Burnes's drinking, of the women he lured into his house. Who knew what else he had done to cause hatred to spread like poison through the city?

Living here, within reach, he was an easy target.

"What will they do to him?" she asked, and immediately regretted her question.

No one replied.