Taxi To Paris Part 14

"I'm afraid that's not all true," I replied with a sigh. "Without me, for example, you wouldn't have to take a medicinal bath this afternoon."

She didn't allow herself to be distracted. "Without you, I wouldn't be in Paris."

"Probably not," I had to admit.

She wanted to laugh at my silly embarra.s.sment, but the pain kept her from doing so.

"You see," I came back. "If I weren't here, you could've avoided that pain just now."

"Please, make me the soup." She tried with great effort to keep from laughing. "Or else I'll have to admit that you're right."

I stood up and smiled down at her. Then I turned around and went to the kitchen.

I arranged everything on the breakfast tray again: soup, baguette, and orange juice with a straw, and brought it to her. As before, she had sat up by herself. But this time, she looked much more relaxed.

"I'm even hungry," she remarked in astonishment. What did she think, then? That her body had endless reserves?

"That's good," I joked. "They only had the soup in liter packages. There's still a bunch left."

She coughed, probably to avoid laughing again, but of course that caused her just as much pain at the moment. "Ow," she said softly. Then she looked at me. She said nothing. She took the straw and drank her juice. Then she ate her soup cautiously. She had great difficulty holding the spoon level. It kept shaking in her hand.

"Should I help?" I asked.

She shook her head and tried the next spoonful. It all landed back in the bowl. "Well, maybe," she admitted. "But please, don't say, *One bite for Mama, one bite for Papa...'."

I laughed. "Of course not!" She was truly on the way to recovery. I could have jumped for joy.

I took the spoon and fed her. When the bowl was empty, she said, "Under these circ.u.mstances, I'd rather pa.s.s on the rest of the liter. Do you mind?"

"No, not at all." I felt quite relieved. "I'm happy that you ate anything at all."

She leaned back and moaned a little.

"Does something hurt?" I asked fearfully.

"Something?" she asked back. "Everything! It feels like I've been put through a meat grinder." She looked that way, too. I wasn't going to ask, but my facial expression said everything.

"I don't want to talk about it." She closed herself off again.

"You don't have to," I rea.s.sured her. I understood. Who could ask that of her! I, too, would rather think about something else. "Would you like to sleep some more now, or would you prefer to go right for the bathtub torture?" I asked as cheerfully as if she had to choose between oysters and caviar.

She moaned - somewhat exaggeratedly. "Can't I take the bath tomorrow?" she suggested hopefully.

"If you do it today, you'll feel much better tomorrow."

She sighed. "I understand," she admitted. "But then right away. I've already slept enough anyhow."

She'd see that differently after her bath! "I don't want to cause you any unnecessary pain," I began. "Can you stand up by yourself? I'll support you then."

"Yes," she said heroically. "I'll try." She managed it, and with a little help from me, we made it to the bathroom. I opened the faucets. Water shot out in fountains.

I took off her pajamas and helped her into the tub. When the water touched her wounds, she groaned horribly. "You don't have to stay in long." I could almost feel her pain as though it were my own. "Only fifteen minutes. Can you tolerate that?"

She nodded with gritted teeth. The way it looked, I would've thought she had to tolerate a lot more than a bath.

After the bath was over and I'd put her to bed in a fresh pair of pajamas, she fell right back to sleep. And she thought she'd had enough sleep already!

She improved visibly. Her bruises changed color to green and then to a pale yellow. Fearfully, I had determined that she also had wounds on her face. She would have scars, if not terribly large ones. But I was worried about her self-consciousness. So much for her depended on her appearance. I wondered about myself. I was worried that she wouldn't be able to go back to work?

I sat in the small salon and read. Since she was doing better, I no longer needed to observe her constantly.

Unexpectedly, she suddenly appeared in the doorway. She even had her white robe on. She came in, smiling. She moved very slowly. Her graceful walk had not yet returned. With some effort, she sat down in the overstuffed chair. "Why are you sitting over there?" she asked.

I pointed to her book and her reading gla.s.ses. "That's obviously your spot," I explained.

She looked at me. Then she smiled again. It wasn't the same as before, but it was getting close. "I just wanted to see what you do while I sleep."

"You can see for yourself," I smiled. "I have wild orgies."

She seemed to find my slightly sarcastic tone a bit indecent, but she smiled anyway. "Yes, I can see that." Her gaze wandered through the room. I had the impression that she only now fully understood where she was. She took in the room and its furnis.h.i.+ngs with loving recognition. I could tell she was truly at home here. She sat up straight. "I'm going to get dressed."

"You're still too weak!" I protested with dismay. "You have to stay in bed for another couple of days."

"No," she countered solidly. "Today I'll stay home, but tomorrow I want to see for myself that I'm in Paris."

She wanted to go out? I'd gotten so used to her not going out that I'd never have thought of it on my own. But here, in Paris, that prohibition of course did not exist. She didn't have any clients here. Here, she was free. I noticed that I'd never even thought about whether she worked while in Paris. When I learned that she had an apartment here, I might've a.s.sumed automatically that she did. I really should be ashamed of myself!

"You'll overexert yourself." I was honestly worried about her. She seemed to be so hungry for life. And she was still very weak, even if she didn't want to admit it.

She laughed. "You would pack me in cotton if you could!"

"Yes," I said, "I would."

"It doesn't have to be the Ritz, you know. The bistro around the corner would do as well. Would that make you feel better?"

"Yes." She hadn't really quite convinced me yet, and she knew it.

"If you really want to go to the trouble, you can accompany me everywhere I go," she suggested congenially.

I laughed. "I was planning on it. You're not going to get rid of me that easily. Not in your condition."

She smiled to herself. "To listen to you, I'd think I was about to give birth."

I looked at her with interest, imagining her in the latter stages of pregnancy. Even then, she'd look absolutely stunning.

"Tsk, tsk," she said, shaking her head. "You don't expect me to fulfill that wish, now, do you?"

"What wish?" I asked, irritated.

"Seeing me pregnant," she said, amused.

I looked away. "I think you're well enough." She'd barely gotten out of bed, and already she was making fun of me again!

She stood up laboriously. "I'm going to start getting dressed. I have to practice for tomorrow." She looked back at me. "Would you like to help me?" Impossible! She was flirting with me!

"No," I declined obstinately. "I think you can do that by yourself."

"Yes," she agreed jokingly. "But with you, I'd have a lot more fun for the pain."

"Have fun," I replied sourly.

Still smiling a little, she made her way slowly out. Who was I, then?

After a rather long while, she returned. Good thing I'd thought to pack loose clothing for her. She was wearing the blue s.h.i.+rt that I'd loved on her so much. I was sure she'd had the jeans for years. They conformed to her figure perfectly. That set a few things going inside me. I swallowed. She wasn't even halfway done recovering, and already I was thinking thoughts like that!

I eyed her face. The blue of the s.h.i.+rt actually brought out the changing colors of her bruises. She saw my expression. "Oh, that," she glossed over my impression. "That can be corrected with a little makeup."

Corrected with a little makeup? She looked remarkably like Frankenstein's monster. But of course I couldn't tell her that.

"If you think so," I said, with as little doubt in my voice as possible.

"Yes," she a.s.sured me harmlessly. "I have some experience with that."

I almost fell out of my chair. Experience? With what? With makeup, or with "correcting" the marks that the "tastes" of her customers had left behind? I knew so little about her life. Except for the one time, she'd never really talked about it. She had always spared me that. I thought about the handcuffs around her wrists. Were those also marks that she normally "corrected" with makeup?

She hadn't, thank G.o.d, been watching me; instead, she'd had to devote her full attention to sitting down in her overstuffed chair. "So, here I'll stay," she announced now.

I had to pull myself from my dreary thoughts. "Until tomorrow?" I tried to joke.

She was already excited about it. I could see that clearly. "If necessary. In any case, it's better than lying in bed. That was starting to get boring."

She was bored in bed? I could fix that! Just hang in there!

Against her best will, she had to admit that staying up for a long time still required too much effort for her. She excused herself. Hours later, when I went to bed, she was sleeping quietly for the first time in days. I watched her for awhile, until I could feel the love welling up inside me. She didn't need to use her body at all to make me melt. She was so unendingly lovable. If only she would believe that herself!

Then next morning, I woke early, but she was already up. When I went into the bathroom, I found her in the tub. I didn't know where she'd gotten this boundless energy. Three days before, she'd barely been able to lift a finger. I smiled and knelt down next to her. "Is it still worth it for me to make coffee, or are we going right to the bistro?"

"I'm afraid it's still worth it," she stated rather remorsefully. "It'll be awhile before I'm done with all my preparations in here."

I stood up. "OK, then I'll be in the kitchen." I went out. Much longer in there and I wouldn't have been able to resist her - despite the bubble bath!

While I drank my coffee in the kitchen, I heard her rattling around; first in the bathroom and then in her bedroom. When I was working on my second cup, she came into the kitchen. She'd really pulled it off. Her face looked like it had never been injured. The most one might have suspected is that she'd just spent a rather pa.s.sionate night somewhere.

"How do I look?" she asked, displaying her work.

"Breathtaking!" I was truly impressed.

"Thank you," she replied politely, "but that isn't quite what I meant." She smiled.

Why did we have to go out at all? "I can't see anything," I a.s.sured her honestly.

She was satisfied. "I had that impression also." She looked at my cup. "Can we go?"

I nodded.

It was a pleasure to watch how she handled herself so confidently and so freely in this neighborhood. She didn't quite have her flexibility back, so she walked rather stiffly yet. Had it not been for that limitation, she would've been the embodiment of liveliness. I kept feeling like I had to put the brakes on for her. She sparkled with joy.

I just walked next to her in complete astonishment. The nearest bistro really was right around the corner. She entered casually and greeted everyone. She was obviously a regular here. What a difference from the carefully guarded hiding I'd seen her in before!

The man behind the counter greeted her with genuine pleasure. "Bonjour, Madame! Back in Paris again?" I could tell by looking at him that he appreciated the gift of her beauty as much as I did.

"Bonjour, Jean," she replied cheerfully. The pleasure was visible in her as well.

He'd already put a cafe noir in front of her. He looked at me politely. "Madame?" I took the same.

I was totally fascinated by the playing out of her connections with this world. Like all regular customers - here, that word had an uncomfortable aftertaste - she simply stood at the counter, stirring sugar into her coffee and conversing in brilliant French with the barkeep. They didn't talk about anything special - the weather, prices, the barman's children. But the whole thing held an unusual attraction for me. Here, she was a completely normal woman; here, she was at home.

She'd forgotten about me completely. I looked over at her and wished that I should never experience her any other way. After awhile, it occurred to her that she hadn't come in alone. She turned to face me.

"I'm sorry," she apologized with a guilty smile. "It's always like this when I come here. I didn't mean to -".

I interrupted her. "You don't need to apologize. It's just wonderful here." I continued softly, with a glance at the barman, "Does he understand German?"

She looked at me, confused. "Not a word."

"You are wonderful," I said.

If she hadn't been completely covered with a thick layer of makeup, I would've seen how red she turned. Instead, I could only guess. She turned back to the barman and let loose an extremely interesting torrent about the weather. He jumped in and helped her overcome the embarra.s.sment he hadn't even noticed.

I sat on one of the nice barstools and observed her a little more. This could take some time. The other regulars - so I a.s.sumed - had gathered around, and the whole thing was one big conversation full of laughter.

I looked out the window and watched the bustling street traffic pa.s.s by.

Now and then, someone else came in, greeted her and the others, conversed with them or didn't, stayed or left.

Obviously, there were differences in degree of intimacy. One greeted her with a handshake, another in the typical Roman style with a kiss right, kiss left, kiss right on the cheeks. She must've been coming here a long time.

Why didn't she just stay here? Why did she torture herself by leaving this place of love and friends.h.i.+p in her life to go back there?

While I was wondering that and watching her, she caught my eye. She dodged the protests of the others charmingly, such that everyone said their friendly goodbyes, and came over to me at my table.

"I'm sorry," she said again. "I'm sure you expected this to go quite differently."

Actually, I hadn't expected anything. I just wanted to look out for her. "It's very interesting," I smiled at her rea.s.suringly. "I love sitting in a bistro in Paris and watching you at your best. You couldn't bring me any greater joy."

She was upset again. I wanted to calm her and reached for her hand. She pulled away. Oh, boy, she didn't want that! I grinned. So that was one thing that this new environment required.

"Don't be afraid," I promised. "I'll be very good."