The Kill Clause Part 32

A bouncer manned a maroon rope in front of the door. He was fit, half white, half Asian, and handsome as f.u.c.k. Tim disliked him instantly, blindly.

Tim approached and flicked his hand at the dark door, from which issued cigarette smoke and a tune heavy on beat and metallics. The bouncer kept his head tilted back as if in a constant state of boredom or appraisal. "Get in line please, pal."

Tim looked around at the empty entrance. "What line?"

"Over there." The bouncer pointed to a red roll-up carpet-some night promoter's brainchild-that stretched to the right of the rope. Tim exhaled hard and stepped over onto the carpet. He made for the rope, but the bouncer didn't move.

"You want me to wait here?"

"Yes."

"Even though there's no one in line?"

"Yes."

"Is this Candid Camera Candid Camera or something?" or something?"

"Man, you are clueless. clueless." Something vibrated on the bouncer's waist, and he took a long look at a row of colorful, belt-adhered pagers. He squeezed the banana yellow one and glanced at the backlit screen. "How'd you get your black eye?"

"Freak badminton accident."

The guy's head rolled to its usual back-tilted perch on his wide neck. "You gonna start trouble at my club?"

"If you keep me out here, I might."

The guy's laugh smelled like gum. "I like your style, pal." He unclipped the rope and stepped aside, but not far enough that Tim didn't have to lean to get past him.

Tim entered and spotted a stool at the bar. As he headed over, a guy in clay-colored jeans with endless pockets eyed him derisively. "Nice s.h.i.+rt, pops."

Behind the bar a translucent rise of shelves glowed phosph.o.r.escent blue. Tim ordered a twelve-dollar vodka on the rocks from an attractive redheaded bartender wearing a rubber vest with a zipper teased down to reveal cleavage.

A couple of girls were grooving up on a light box out on the dance floor. The crowd swelled and ebbed around them, wafting Tim's way the smell of designer cologne and clean sweat. A couple lay sideways in a booth, licking each other's faces, e-ravenous for sensation. The surge of s.e.x and exuberance charged the air, approaching-storm strong, and in the middle sat Tim, immobile and square, watching the proceedings like a chaperon at a mixer. He found his gla.s.s empty and gestured to the bartender for a fresh one.

A girl beside him leaned curve-backed, elbows propped on the bar, facing the noise. He accidentally caught her eye and nodded. She smiled and walked off. Two guys in rumpled s.h.i.+rts sidled up in her place, their faces ruddy and moist from the dance floor, and ordered shots of tequila.

"...my old boss Harry, you could smell the burnout on him. He was your cla.s.sic dump truck, barely followed up any leads for his clients. When I started in the public defender's office, he had a guy in custody for a murder two, said his alibi was this bartender he was. .h.i.tting on all night, a hot girl with red hair somewhere off Traction. Didn't know where. Harry stopped by a few places, found s.h.i.+t, they convicted his client the next week. Fifteen to life. A few months later we come in here-G.o.d knows why, Harry's brother-in-law invested in the joint or something-and guess what?"

The guy pointed behind the bar at the redhead in the zippered vest. "There she is. And she remembers the client. Only problem is, our boy got shanked in the yard at Corcoran two days before." He exhaled hard. "There's only justice for the rich. If you have a house to put up for ten percent of bail, can get your a.s.s out of custody and working on your own case, your alibi, you're all set. If you're broke and you can't remember, if your PD can't find the hot redhead bartender somewhere off Traction...well, then." He threw back another shot. "I come in here now, when I'm close to burnout. It reinvigorates me, inspires me to cover every d.a.m.n angle." The bartender served another round of shots, and he slid a once-folded twenty toward her. "She's my muse."

His friend said, "It's a stupid f.u.c.king job we do."

This declaration was followed by a clink of gla.s.ses, thrown-back shots, sour-faced head shakes. The talker caught Tim watching and leaned over to offer a sweaty hand.

"Name's Richard. Why don't you join us for a shot?" His slur was just noticeable above the pumping music.

"No thanks."

"No offense, but I don't see any better options around for you." Richard turned to his friend. "Oh, well, Nick, guess our friend here doesn't want to join us. Guess he's busy being his own man."

"I'm not big on public defenders." Alcohol had loosened Tim's tongue-he remembered anew why he rarely drank.

"Don't see why not. We get paid s.h.i.+t, we burn out young, and we represent mostly reprehensible p.r.i.c.ks. That's a pretty appealing package, no?"

"Yeah, well, I've been on the other end of the equation you're b.i.t.c.hing about. Seen people walk free who shouldn't have."

"Lemme guess. You're a cop. Shoot first and ask questions later." Richard snapped off a drunken salute. "Well, Officer, I'll tell you, for however many cases you've seen go down wrong, Nick and I here have got you beat. I got a kid today-"

"I'm not interested."

"I got a kid today-"

"Take your hand off me, please."

Richard stepped back while Nick got busy securing their next round. "When this kid was sixteen, he broke into his cousin's house to steal a VCR." He held up a finger. "One strike. Goes to a high school football game, talks some s.h.i.+t after, tells a teacher's kid he's gonna beat the c.r.a.p out of him if he catches him talking to his girlfriend again. Strike two. Threat of immediate a.s.sault with intent to commit GBI. That's grievous bodily injury-"

"I know what GBI is."

"Now, the third strike, the third third strike, my friend, can be strike, my friend, can be any any felony. This kid goes into Longs Drugs and steals a toilet-paper holder-a G.o.dd.a.m.n toilet-paper holder. That's 666, petty theft with a prior. It's a wobbler, but they file it as a felony. Guess what? Strike three. Twenty-five to life. No negotiation, no judicial discretion, nothing. It's fascism." felony. This kid goes into Longs Drugs and steals a toilet-paper holder-a G.o.dd.a.m.n toilet-paper holder. That's 666, petty theft with a prior. It's a wobbler, but they file it as a felony. Guess what? Strike three. Twenty-five to life. No negotiation, no judicial discretion, nothing. It's fascism."

"His dad used to beat him. He didn't really really mean to shoot up his school." mean to shoot up his school."

Richard sighed. "Not so simple. Not so specious. But you do have to look at the individual. individual. Then the angles and distances between him and his surroundings become measurable. What those angles compose is what const.i.tutes perspective. And perspective is Then the angles and distances between him and his surroundings become measurable. What those angles compose is what const.i.tutes perspective. And perspective is exactly exactly what you need to pa.s.s judgment on an individual's actions." Though his words were running together drunkenly, Richard was still articulate as h.e.l.l. A practiced drinker. what you need to pa.s.s judgment on an individual's actions." Though his words were running together drunkenly, Richard was still articulate as h.e.l.l. A practiced drinker.

"How about pa.s.sing judgment on an individual individual?"

"Leave that to G.o.d. Or Allah, or karma, or the Great Pumpkin. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter if someone is evil. evil. It matters what they've done and how we deal with it." It matters what they've done and how we deal with it."

"But we have to carry out our judgment on individuals."

"Of course. So what determines the strictness of punishment? Irredeemability? Lack of contrition? Unfitness to partic.i.p.ate in society? No one so much as examined these factors for my client today. This kid is screwed. He's gonna have to punk for some g.a.n.g.b.a.n.ger for the rest of his life over a thirty-seven-cent f.u.c.king toilet-paper holder." Richard's voice wavered, either from rage or grief, and his face contorted once, sharply, presaging a sob that never came. Instead he grinned. "That's the reason for our little party tonight, my friend." He raised a shot gla.s.s. "Celebrating the system."

His buddy put a hand on his shoulder and steered him down onto the barstool.

"It goes both ways," Tim said.

Richard looked up, his eyes red-rimmed and drooping. "Yeah, yeah, it does."

"I've seen guys walk through loopholes I'd never even dreamed of. Chain of custody. Speedy trial motions. Search and seizure. It's not justice. It's bulls.h.i.+t."

"It is is bulls.h.i.+t. But why can't we have good procedure bulls.h.i.+t. But why can't we have good procedure and and justice? So the court spanks the cop for"-his hands fluttered, seeking a phrase-"illegal search and seizure or whatever, and justice? So the court spanks the cop for"-his hands fluttered, seeking a phrase-"illegal search and seizure or whatever, and next time around next time around the cop does his job right, with respect for civil liberties. The trial goes clean. Guy gets convicted, receives a fair sentence. Then it's right all the way around-we have our cake and eat it, too." the cop does his job right, with respect for civil liberties. The trial goes clean. Guy gets convicted, receives a fair sentence. Then it's right all the way around-we have our cake and eat it, too."

Nick slumped forward, his forehead thumping against the bar. Tim thought it had to be a joke, but Nick remained there. Richard didn't notice. He leaned in, his breath carrying a sickening combination of breath mints and tequila. "Lemme let you in on a little secret. PDs don't like their clients, generally. We don't want to see them go free. We want want them to get convicted." He held up a wobbly finger. "However. More important than that, we want tough guy cops like you and hard-on DAs to respect the Const.i.tution, the Penal Code, the Bill of Rights. And everyone chips away at them, these rights, slowly over time. Detectives, prosecutors, even judges. But not us. We're f.u.c.king zealots. Zealots for the Const.i.tution." them to get convicted." He held up a wobbly finger. "However. More important than that, we want tough guy cops like you and hard-on DAs to respect the Const.i.tution, the Penal Code, the Bill of Rights. And everyone chips away at them, these rights, slowly over time. Detectives, prosecutors, even judges. But not us. We're f.u.c.king zealots. Zealots for the Const.i.tution."

"Jews for Jesus," Nick muttered from his facedown slump on the bar.

"And we protect...we protect that thing, that stupid, distant, abstract f.u.c.king piece of parchment, despite the sc.u.m we represent, despite the crimes they may have committed or may commit after we get them off because some dumb-a.s.s cop doesn't fulfill the oral announcement of intent to search after the knock and notice and puts us in the f.u.c.kd.a.m.ned position of having to point it out and let some mouth-breathing reprobate walk out the f.u.c.king door, in all likelihood to do whatever he's done again."

Richard tried to stand but fell back onto the stool. Nick was making raspberry noises against the bar.

"We fight fascism in the petty details." Richard pivoted to face the bar, letting his hands slide up, covering his face. "And it's awful. And we lose sight of the prize, the aim, sometimes, because we just wallow in this...in this..." A jerking inhalation led to a sob, but when he lowered his hands, he was smiling again. "We need a shot. Another shot."

"Trying to break the Breathalyzer record and win a Kewpie doll?"

"What, are you gonna arrest me, Officer? Drunk and disenfranchised?"

"If I do, I'll be sure to Mirandize you."

"Funny, that's funny." Richard laughed hard. "You're okay. I like you. You don't talk much, but you're okay. I mean, for a cop." He leaned heavily on the bar, his s.h.i.+rtsleeve soaking up spilled alcohol. "Lemme let you in on a little secret. I'm leaving my office. Going across the street to federal-believe it or not, federal sentencing is even more draconian. I'm gonna go throw myself against that wall for a change."

"Why do you do it?" Tim asked. "If you hate it so much?"

Nick raised his head, and his face looked startlingly sober. "Because we're worried no one else will."

Richard drummed the bar with his forefingers. "And it makes us pretty unpopular. Didn't used to be that way, not with Darrow and Rogers. The greats. Now a PD's just a knee-jerk apologist. A pushover. A softie. Dukakis. We're Dukakises. Dukaki."

"And Mondale," Nick said. "We're Mondale, too."

"And guys like me feel like guys like you are running the show these days," Tim said.

"Are you kidding me?" Richard spun around on the barstool, twirling a full rotation before stopping himself. His head jerked back with a hiccup. He looked distinctly nauseous. "Have you been watching the news? This vigilante business-it's meeting with general societal approval."

"The people who have been executed are hardly-"

Richard bellowed out a bad imitation of a game-show buzzer, tilting from the stool onto his feet. "Wrong answer."

"Right. Just have faith in the system. The system you just described to me from your angle and I described to you from mine. Why should we hold on to that faith? Why shouldn't someone try something better? Take matters into their own hands?"

Richard clutched Tim's arm, and for the first time his voice was soft and cracked, not giddy or deadened with tired irony. "Because it represents such hopelessness. hopelessness."

He leaned over and vomited on his shoes.

A girl two stools over looked down at her splattered capris and screamed. The smell rose from the puddle, rank and heated. Richard grinned, his chin stained with puke, and raised his arms, Rocky style.

The bartender was cursing a blue streak, and a gym-enhanced security bozo was closing fast, barking into a radio. The bouncer from outside plowed through the crowd and grabbed Richard.

"All right, a.s.shole, I told you before, you get hammered in my club again, you're f.u.c.king finished." He threw a full nelson on Richard, bending his head forward and making his arms stick up like a scare-crow's. The other guy seized Nick's shoulder and jerked him back off the bar.

"Take it easy," Tim said. The bouncer slammed Richard against the bar. Tim's hand shot out and grabbed the bouncer's thick neck, thumb digging into his sternal notch. The bouncer gagged out a sound and froze. "It wasn't a suggestion," Tim said.

He waited for the bouncer to release Richard. The other guy let go of Nick and stepped wide, eyes on Tim, looking for an angle. Several people were watching, but for the most part loud music covered the sound of the commotion. The dance floor remained a swirl of oblivious motion.

Tim removed his hands, holding them up in a calming gesture. The bouncer took a quick step back, coughing.

Tim said, "I don't much like to fight, and I'm sure you could kick my a.s.s anyway, so what do you say we just do this the easy way. These guys are going to pay their tab-" he nodded at Nick, who fumbled a few bills out of his pocket and onto the counter "I'll walk my acquaintance out of here, and you'll never hear from us again. Sound good?"

The bouncer glowered at him.

"Okay." Tim shouldered Richard and half dragged him to the door, Nick scurrying close behind. They stepped outside, and the cool air hit them like a chest-high wave.

"That a.s.shole," Richard slurred, rubbing his elbow. "Why didn't you badge him?" He fumbled in his pocket for his valet ticket, but Tim dragged him to the curb and hailed a pa.s.sing cab. He deposited Richard inside and stepped back to let Nick slide in.

Richard opened his mouth to say something, but Tim rapped the window with his knuckles, and the cabbie pulled away. Tim headed back to the valet stand and handed off his ticket. The bouncer was back at his post by the rope, rubbing the raised red mark on his neck. "You all right?" Tim asked.

"You'd better get the f.u.c.k out of here. Fast."

They stood in tense silence, waiting for Tim's car to be pulled around.

30.

TIM SAT ATOP the playground slide at Warren Elementary, a few blocks from his old house, his feet pointed downward on the aluminum slant, clutching a bottle of vodka loosely in his lap. The small, unadorned merry-go-round sat still and silent, a flipped spider with bunched metal legs. Swings rattled in the night breeze; a tetherball bounced against its post. The air smelled of tanbark and asphalt.

He'd been here last on a lazy Sunday when Ginny had interrupted his edging the back lawn to make him walk her over, hand in hand, so she could again study the monkey bars that she was too afraid to swing across. They'd stood there silently, father and daughter, while she circled the bars, examining them from all angles, like a horse she was planning to mount. When he'd asked if she wanted to try, she shook her head, as always, and they'd walked back home, hand in hand.

Tim was s.h.i.+vering, though he wasn't the least bit cold. He found himself walking, studying the ground at his feet. He found himself on his porch, ringing his doorbell.

Some commotion, then Mac answered. It took Mac a moment to recognize him and take his hand off the b.u.t.t of the Beretta stuffed into the waistband of his sweats. Behind him, even through the thickening haze of his grief and anger, Tim could see the blanket and bed pillow on the couch from which he'd been roused.

"I want to see Ginny's room," Tim said.

Mac's body swayed, as if he'd taken a step, but he hadn't. "Look, Rack, I don't know if this is such a-"

Tim spoke low and calm. "You see that pistol in your hand?"

Mac nodded.

"You'd better step aside or I'm gonna take it from you and ram it down your f.u.c.king throat." His voice wavered hard.

Mac's mouth pulsed in a half swallow, half gulp before smoothing back into a handsome inscrutability. "Okay."

Tim pushed open the door, and Mac stepped back. Dray was coming down the hall, knotting her bathrobe, her mouth slightly agape. "What are you-?"

He lowered his head when he pa.s.sed her and shoved into Ginny's room, locking the door behind him.

He heard the sound of Dray and Mac talking down the hall, but he was too drunk to shape the sounds into words. He took in the room blurrily, the mound of stuffed animals in the corner, the pleated shade crowning the pink porcelain lamp on the diminutive desk, the inane glow of the Pocahontas night-light. Only when he curled up on Ginny's bed did he realize he still held the vodka bottle. The last thing he remembered before dozing off was setting it gently on the floor so it wouldn't spill.

*When he awakened, it took him a few moments to remember where he was. He'd curled into the fetal position to fit on the small bed. He scooted up against the headboard, rubbed his eye, and felt the pinch of crust against his lid. Dray was sitting across the room, back to the wall, facing him. The faint gray light of early morning, split by the slats of the venetian blinds, fell across her face.

He glanced at the now-unlocked door, then at her. She had an unbent bobby pin in her mouth, angled down over her plump lower lip.