The Cygnet And The Firebird Part 10

"Perhaps- I never understood his love of the Luxour."

"Your father's?"

"Rad." Blood streaked his face suddenly; he turned away from her, but she saw him tremble. She wondered uneasily what jagged edge of truth waited for him in Saphier. She dipped her fingers in orange-scented water, wiped them on a napkin, then pinned up a stray coil of hair. She said slowly, "I should tell my mother that I'm going."

"Will she let you go to a strange land?"

"Most likely she'll be so amazed I told her that she won't ask where. But I don't know how long it will take me to find Meguet, and I don't want her thinking I'm in danger."

"My father will protect you," he said swiftly. "Nothing will harm you in Saphier."

Absently she looked for her shoes, found them on her feet. She brushed a crumb off her skirt. "I'd better change. I can't wear silk shoes across a desert, if it forces me to walk."

"There will be no need for you to go. The mages will search the Luxour."

She stared at him- "A desert full of magic, and you expect me to sit in your father's house trying to watch my manners?"

He blinked. "I forget," he said, "how much freedom you have- You choose to come and go; my father's mages do his bidding. You also do things for love." His face closed abruptly, before she could question him. She said to his set profile, "I'll be back as soon as I speak to my mother."

His brow crooked anxiously. "It's late," he reminded her.

"I'll hurry. If Rad Ilex comes-"

"Do you expect-"

"No," she said quickly. "Though it would be worth this key and more to find Meguet here instead of there. If he comes, tell him to wait for me. Don't touch him. Don't let the firebird break out of you."

"How can I stop the bird?" he demanded.

"Find a way. Do anything to keep Rad Ilex here. The heart of sorcery is the clear and patient mind. So Chrysom says. I am trying to be patient and clearheaded, for once in my life. But if the mage vanishes again with Meguet, I am liable to lose my temper and do something impulsive."

"My father says the heart of sorcery is the fire that forges the dragon's heart."

"He does."

"So he teaches."

"Moro's eyes. Just don't fight."

She summoned one of the tower pages, sent him running to the Holder's chambers to request a few moments' privacy. Then she vanished, reappeared in front of her startled attendants, picking jewels out of her hair. She changed quickly, packed a few oddments of her own. She felt for the amber at her ear lobe, and tossed everything-earring and key and cloak, comb and little jewelled mirror, a few dried herbs-into an ivory ball so tiny it seemed invisible in her pocket. The key, now that she understood it, had consented, to her relief, to fit itself inside the ball, She didn't bother with stairs and towers; she simply appeared in front of her mother. The Holder had dismissed her attendants and was pacing; seeing Nyx she barely changed expression, as if what she frowned at were only an extension of her thoughts. She said, "Where is Meguet?"

"I believe, in a land called Saphier."

"Where is that?"

"I have no idea. It's not on any map I can find."

The Holder was silent. Her arms were folded tightly; she seemed too disturbed even to throw hairpins. "You said the mage would return for the key."

"So I thought," Nyx said.

"Then where is he?"

"I don't know."

"I have told the Holding Council that Meguet is guarding you, and that you are guarding Ro House against the return of the mage. Rumors are already-" She stopped, touched her eyes. "Rumors."

"They follow me, don't they?" Nyx said softly. "The bog-witch alone in the tower with a bird..." Her own arms were folded; she was frowning, reflecting her mother, but pensively, at the problem itself. "The mage slowed time and fought me for that key. It seemed most reasonable to think he would return for it."

"Then where is he? Surely he didn't find Meguet an adequate subst.i.tute!"

"I think-" Nyx hesitated, received the full brunt of the Holder's troubled, angry gaze. Her brows lifted a little; she said patiently, "If you are going to shout at me, shout. I'll listen."

"What I think," the Holder said tersely, "is that my youngest daughter and heir stays alone in that ancient, magic-riddled tower with a dangerous bird, waiting for the return of a very dangerous mage, and that my niece is lost in a country that exists on no map, and at the mercy of that mage. Shouting would hardly satisfy. Reducing the hearthstones to rubble with a poker might. Now. Tell me what you think."

"I think I can find my way to Saphier."

The Holder shouted, "What?"

"And I think I know why the mage has not returned."

"You are not going to Saphier,"

"I might have to search for Meguet."

"No- Absolutely not."

"Mother, I may have no choice. From what Brand has said, Saphier is not the most hospitable place in the world. It sounds fierce, violent, power-ridden. The mage may be the least of Meguet's problems."

The Holder's tight grip of herself loosened suddenly; she pulled a net of gold thread and emeralds from her hair, flung it to the floor. She stared at Nyx, hair tumbling around her shoulders, her eyes night-dark, lined with pain. She said harshly, "I forbid you to leave this house. You said the mage will return. Wait for him. I will not lose both you and Meguet to some barbaric land beyond Ro Holding. Meguet is resourceful; she may be able to find her way back-"

"No." She gazed at her mother, her throat tight. Her face had lost color. "I won't let you sacrifice Meguet for me."

"You sacrificed her for a key."

"I-" She swallowed, unable to speak, then steadied her voice. "I make mistakes. Yes."

The Holder closed her eyes. "I'm sorry."

"I was careless." Nyx spoke carefully, her eyes wide, colorless as cloud. "But I'm not entirely without resources myself. Meguet fought for me. I owe her. I think I can find a way into Saphier."

"But why?" The Holder's voice rose again, dangerously. "Why must you go there if you expect the mage to come here?"

"I think he can't."

"Can't what?"

"Return. I think he was injured by the firebird."

"Moro's eyes," the Holder breathed. "Badly?"

"It's not a question of degree-"

"Do you think he's dead?"

"I have no idea."

"You saw him before he disappeared. What had the bird done to him?"

"It was enough," Nyx said slowly, "that the bird had done anything at all to him. If he had made the firebird, with all his formidable power he should have been able to control it. He never tried to harm it; it was trying to kill him- It drew blood; it lost a talon. That may have been enough to kill the mage."

"A bird claw? I don't understand."

"The spell itself. The sorcery that transformed the firebird. It might have been deadly to the mage."

The Holder stared at her. "I thought it was his spell."

"So did I, until I saw him wounded. I think Meguet may be somewhere in Saphier with an injured mage on her hands,"

The Holder was silent. She turned abruptly, found the nearest chair and sat. "Then whose spell is it? Are we to expect yet another mage who won't bother to use the gate?"

"I don't-" Nyx's voice shook suddenly with worry. "I don't know what to expect next." She leaned against the ma.s.sive fireplace, gazing down at her mother, and finding some comfort from the solid stones. "I've never asked your permission to leave the house before."

"I know."

"I've rarely even told you where I was going. I'm your heir, yes, but I'm also all you've got for a mage, and I must be free to work. Though I realize I've hardly given you much, these past months, to have faith in." The Holder s.h.i.+fted, gestured wordlessly, her ringed hands flas.h.i.+ng, falling. "All you've seen me do here is turn the Hold Signs back into embroidery and silence a bird, which rumor already told you I could do."

"Nyx-"

"All I seem to do with the firebird in the tower is to fail- It does seem a simple thing to do: change a bird back into a man, something any mage could do."

"It must," the Holder said, "be a very subtle sorcery."

"Oh, it is. Very subtle. And so stubborn, it seems to me at times that Brand himself cast the spell, masked himself behind the firebird, and refuses to relinquish it."

The Holder made a noise, staring at her daughter. "He enchanted himself?"

"I don't think so. But I am beginning to think he has some very powerful reasons to avoid becoming himself again. And I think the truth of the matter lies in Saphier. He cannot return on his own; the timepaths on his wrists have been damaged. I must take him."

"I don't like this," the Holder said. "A ruler's son, ensorcelled and exiled-it sounds dangerous. It's not your business to solve Saphier's problems."

"No. But Brand has given me no reason to believe his father won't want him back. If I were missing in a strange land, you would be grateful if someone brought me home,"

"Yes, but-"

"Also, there is Meguet. I can't leave her there."

"No. But-"

"But, why me? Because you have no one else who can do these things."

"You are my heir."

"I am your mage. This is what mages do."

"I don't like it." The Holder rose abruptly to pace again, down a woven path of flowers and ivy to its edge and then back again. "You are too much like me," she said abruptly. "Strong-willed and p.r.o.ne to wander. What if I lose you to Saphier? Where will I go to look for you? You can't even tell me where this land is, a.s.suming it exists now, at this moment and not some other, which occurs to me to wonder about since it doesn't exist on any map."

"The problem," Nyx said carefully, wondering herself, "may not exist either. It's not something to worry about until we must,"

"That," the Holder said explosively, "is the kind of muddy thinking that has led you into trouble before."

"Perhaps. But I've always found my way home. Somehow," She put her hand on her mother's arm. "Please," she said softly. "I didn't run away nine years for nothing. I am a sorceress. Let me do some sorcery."

The Holder came with her to the tower. The midnight bells had not yet rung; Brand, whirling mid-pace as the door opened, was still human. Nyx cast a glance around the room; he answered her unspoken question.

"No one came. No one that I could see."

"All right," she said tautly. "We'll go there." She turned, looked at the Holder a moment, wordlessly. She said with wonder, "I've never said goodbye to you before."

"Don't say it now," the Holder said fiercely. She touched an errant strand of Nyx's hair, then dropped her hand, stepped back- "Just go. Return Brand to his father, find Meguet, and come home. Nothing more complicated than that. Promise me."

"I'll come back as soon as I can." She drew the ivory ball out of her pocket, gazed into it. She could see the key floating in the dark; she touched it with her mind. Pages turned, time-paths wandered through them, through her thoughts, into me room itself- She was vaguely aware that Brand had knelt at the Holder's feet He said something, rose again through a misty net of silver. Something else happened as he stepped to Nyx's side and the room itself wavered, dreamlike, beyond the widening silver filigree: There were unexpected sounds, sudden movements. A door opened; faces appeared, then faded into a soft darkness that grew so deep it swallowed even me bright stars of candlelight Nyx, paths rus.h.i.+ng everywhere around her, struggled a moment to remember the faces. Not Meguet, though one had her hair. Not the mage. She was aware of Brand with her, a presence and a name, though he had moved behind her. Saphier, she said, and all the glowing paths around them froze and vanished. All but one ... She stepped onto it; it began to move. As she s.h.i.+fted the path to form the pattern that led to Saphier, elusive sounds, faces, drew urgently at her attention, demanding to be named. She pushed them away, concentrating, intent on accurately shaping the whorls and crooks of time and distance so that the path would end in Saphier and not in the middle of some sea. It was not until she had formed the final turn and something vast began to shape itself beyond the dark, that she relinquished her attention to memory, and the sounds, the faces, came suddenly clear.

A knock--. The Holder turned, and the bells began to ring. The door opened... The Gatekeeper, his face hard, white, as it was when he swallowed fear whole and tried to hide it in some private place ... The face beside him was so unexpected that for a moment she felt only amazement: dark-skinned, pale-haired, eyes as dark as the first night of the world- It was Meguet's kin, her unlikely shadow, as powerful and as powerless, standing under a roof that was not stars or light. And then she saw the warning in his eyes.

She felt the blood startle out of her face. The darkness ebbed, revealing a quiet, shadowy hall, a house at night, some time after, she guessed, the midnight bells had rung.

The firebird flew ahead of her toward a moving circle of light.

Ten.

Meguet picked her way across a dragon's spine. It pushed itself in a sharp, uneven ridge of red stone out of dry, weathered earth; it was not high, but too long to walk around and almost too steep to climb. Nothing grew on it. On the other side of it lay more of what she had already crossed: the Luxour with no perceptible horizon, s.h.i.+mmering with heat or with air disturbed by the flicker of dragon wings.

She had left Rad's village at dawn, sitting beside a young, straw-haired man on his cart. He was going to cut salt blocks, he had told her when she stopped him. There was a place he knew in the desert, a white pool of salt She needed to get to Draken Saphier's court, she said. He looked surprised, but offered her a ride as far as the first wall of stone.

"I go due north," he said, "to the dragon's backbone. Then I go west along that to the end, and there's the salt pond. You'll want to keep going north." He eyed her askance as she climbed onto the cart seat; an answer presented itself. "You'll be a mage, too, then. We were all wondering. Only mages cross the Luxour on foot."

"How do others get across?" she asked. He urged his donkeys forward.

"They ride. Mostly they go around to the east, then follow the river. Others come in caravans, on carts, well-supplied. Those who hunger after dragons. Most buy a heart and go home again." He ticked at the donkeys; his voice was good-humored, unhurried. "Some stay along the river, spend their lives looking for crystal bones. A handful stay on the Luxour itself."

"In the desert?" she said, startled.