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"Surely, dearest, as long as you will. I could not leave you now, my poor stricken one! Let me a.s.sist you to your room. You are completely worn out, and must take some rest."
"My poor children--" she faltered.
"For their sakes you must take care of yourself," he said. "Your mamma is here. She and I will take charge of everything until you are able to resume your duties as mother and mistress."
He led her to her apartments, made her lie down on a couch, darkened the room, and sitting down beside her, took her hand in his.
"Papa, papa!" she cried, starting up in a sudden burst of grief, "take me in your arms, take me in your arms and hold me close as you used to do, as he has done every day that he lived since you gave me to him!"
"My poor darling, my poor darling!" he said, straining her to his breast, "G.o.d comfort you! May He be the strength of your heart and your portion forever! Remember that Jesus still lives, and that your beloved one is with Him, rejoicing with joy unspeakable and full of glory."
"Yes, yes, but oh, the learning to live without him!" she moaned. "How can I! how can I!"
"'When thou pa.s.sest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee; when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned, neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. For I am the Lord thy G.o.d, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour,'"
he repeated in low, moved tones. "'Behold I have refined thee, but not with silver; I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.' Dear daughter, my heart bleeds for you, and yet I know that He who has sent this sorrow loves you far better than I do, and He means it for good.
'Faith is the better of the free air and of the sharp winter storm in its face. Grace withereth without adversity.'"
"Yes, yes," she whispered, clinging to him. "Go on, dear papa, you bring me comfort."
"What so comforting as the love of Christ!" he went on; "the a.s.surance that 'in all our afflictions He is afflicted!' My darling, 'the weightiest end of the cross of Christ, which is laid upon you, lieth upon your strong Saviour!'"
"And He will never let me sink," she said. "Oh what love is His! and how unworthy am I!"
Never very strong, Elsie was, as her father plainly perceived, greatly exhausted by the combined influence of the fatigue of nursing, overwhelming sorrow and the constraint she had put upon herself to control its manifestations while her husband lived.
She must have rest from every care and responsibility, must be s.h.i.+elded from all annoyance, and as far as possible from every fresh reminder of her loss.
For several days he watched over her with unceasing care and solicitude, doing all in his power to soothe, to comfort and console, allowing only short interviews with Rose and the children, and keeping every one else away except her old mammy.
Never had father and daughter seemed nearer and dearer to each other than in these sorrowful days. To lay her weary head upon his breast while his arms folded her close to his heart, gave some relief--more than could anything else--to the unutterable longing to feel the clasp of those other arms whose loving embrace she could never know again on earth.
But her nature was too unselfish and affectionate to allow of long indulgence in this life of inactivity and nursing of her grief. She could not resist the anxious, pleading looks of her children. She, their only remaining parent, must now devote herself to them even more entirely than had been her wont. Grandma Rose was kind as kind could be, but mamma's place could be filled by no one but herself.
"Dear papa," she said when three days had pa.s.sed, "I am rested now, and you must please let me go back to my duties. My dear little ones need me; the older ones too. I cannot deprive them of their mother any longer."
"Would it not be well to give yourself one more day of rest?" he asked, gazing sadly at the wan cheeks and the mournful eyes that looked so unnaturally large. "I do not think you are strong enough yet for anything like exertion."
"I think the sweet work of comforting and caring for my darlings--his children as well as mine," she said with a tremble in her voice, "will do me good."
"It is partly for their sakes that I want you to take care of yourself,"
he said, putting his arm about her, while her head dropped on his shoulder. "Would it not have been _his_ wish? were you not always his first care?"
She gave a silent a.s.sent, the tears coursing down her cheeks.
"And he gave you back to me, making you doubly mine--my own darling, precious child! and your life, health and happiness must be my special charge," he said, caressing her with exceeding tenderness.
"My happiness? Then, papa, you will not try to keep me from my darlings.
My dear, dear father, do not think I am ungrateful for your loving care.
Ah, it is very sweet and restful to lean upon you and feel the strong tender clasp of your arm! but I must rouse myself and become a prop for others to lean upon."
"Yes, to some extent--when you are quite rested. But you must bear no burdens, dear daughter, that your father can bear for you."
She looked her grat.i.tude out of tear-dimmed eyes.
"G.o.d has been very good to me, in sparing me, my father," she said. "And my children, my seven darlings--all good and loving. How rich I ought to feel! how rich I do feel, though so sorely bereaved."
The tears burst forth afresh.
"You will let me go to them?" she said when she could speak again.
"To-morrow, if you will try to rest and gain strength to-day. I am quite sure it is what he would have wished--that you should rest a little longer. The children can come to you for an hour or two to-day."
She yielded for that time, and the next day he withdrew his opposition and himself led her down to the breakfast parlour, where all were gathered to partake of the morning meal.
CHAPTER V.
"Weep not for him that dieth, For he hath ceased from tears."
--_Mrs. Norton._
There was much unselfish love for their mamma and for each other displayed by the young Travillas in those sad days immediately following the death of their dearly loved father.
Every heart ached sorely with its own burden of grief--excepting that of little Walter, who was too young to understand or realize his loss, yet was most solicitous to a.s.suage that of the brothers and sisters, but especially to comfort and help "poor, dear, dear mamma."
They were filled with alarm as they saw their grandfather almost carry her to her room, then close the door upon them.
"Oh," cried Violet, clinging to her older sister, and giving way to a burst of terrified weeping, "I knew it would be so! mamma will die too.
Oh mamma, mamma!"
"Dear child, no!" said Rose, laying a caressing hand on the young weeper's arm; "do not be alarmed; your dear mother is worn out with grief and nursing--she has scarcely slept for several days and nights--but is not ill otherwise, and I trust that rest and the consolations of G.o.d will still restore her to her wonted health and cheerfulness."
"O grandma," sobbed Elsie, "do you think mamma can ever be cheerful and happy again? I am sure she can never forget papa."
"No, she will never forget him, never cease to miss the delight of his companions.h.i.+p; but she can learn to be happy in the thought of his eternal blessedness and the sure reunion that awaits them when G.o.d shall call her home; and in the love of Jesus and of her dear children."
Rose had thrown one arm about Elsie's waist, the other round Violet, and drawn them to a seat, while Edward and the younger children grouped themselves about her, Rose and Walter leaning on her lap.
They all loved her, and now hung upon her words, finding comfort in them, though listening with many tears and sobs.
She went on to speak at length of the glory and bliss of heaven, of the joy of being with Christ and free from sin; done with sorrow and sighing, pain and sickness and death; of the delight with which their sister Lily, their Grandmother Travilla, and other dear ones gone before, must have welcomed the coming of their father; and of the glad greeting he would give to each of them when they too should reach the gate of the Celestial City.
"Yes, grandma, papa told us all to come," said little Rosie.
"I know he did, dear child; and do you know the way?"