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"But why? It is so good, so charming, so--so _true!_ You did it for your own amus.e.m.e.nt, then! But that was very selfish."
For answer Kendal caught up a tube of Indian red, squeezed it on the crusted palette, loaded a brush with it, and dashed it across the sketch. It was a feeble piece of bravado, and he felt it, but he must convince her in some way that the thing was worthless to him.
"Ah," she said, "that is a pity!" and she walked to the door. She must get away, quite away, and quickly, to realize this, thing, and find out exactly what it meant to her. And yet, three steps down the stairs she turned and came back again. John Kendal stood where, she had left him, staring at the sketch on the easel.
"I have come back to thank you," Elfrida said quickly, "for showing me what a fool I made of myself," and she was gone.
An hour later Kendal had not ceased to belabor himself; but the contemplation of the sketch--he had not looked at it for two months--brought him to the conclusion that perhaps, after all, it might have some salutary effect.
He found himself so curiously sore about it though, so thoroughly inclined, to brand himself a traitor and a person without obligation, that he went back to Norway the following week--a course which left a number of worthy people in the neighborhood of Bigton, Devons.h.i.+re, very indignant indeed.
CHAPTER XXII.
"Daddy," Janet said to her father a few days after their return to town; "I've been thinking that we might--that you might--be of use in helping Frida to place something somewhere else than in that eternal picture paper."
"For instance?"
"Oh, in _Peterson's_, or the _London Magazine_, or _Piccadilly_."
It was in the library after dinner, and Lawrence Cardiff was smoking. He took the slender stem of his pipe from his lips and pressed down the tobacco in the bowl with a, caressing thumb, looking appreciatively, as he did it, at the mocking buffoon's face that was carved on it.
"It seems to me that you are the influential person in those quarters," he said, with the smile that Janet privately thought the most delightfully sympathetic she knew.
"Oh, I'm not really!" the girl answered quickly; "and besides--" she hesitated, to pick words that would hurt her as little as possible--"besides, Frida wouldn't care about my doing it."
"Why?"
"I don't know quite why. But she wouldn't--it's of no use. I don't think she likes having things done for her by people anything like her own age, and--and standing."
Cardiff smiled inwardly at this small insincerity.
Janet's relation with Elfrida was a growing pleasure to him. He found himself doing little things to enhance it, and fancying himself in some way connected with its initiation.
"But I'm almost certain she would let you do it," his daughter urged.
"_In loco parentis_," Cardiff smiled, and immediately found that the words left an unpleasant taste in his mouth. "But I'm not at all sure that she could do anything they would take."
"My dear daddy!" cried Janet resentfully. "Wait till she tries! You said yourself that some of those sc.r.a.ps she sent us in Scotland were delicious."
"So they were. She has a curious, prismatic kind of mind--"
"Soul, daddy."
"Soul, if you like. It reflects quite wonderfully, the angles at which it finds itself with the world are so unusual. But I doubt her power, you know, of construction or cohesion, or anything of that kind."
"I don't," Janet returned confidently. "But talk to her about it, daddy; get her to show you what she's done--I never see a line till it's in print. And--I don't know anything about it, you know. Above all things, don't let her guess that I suggested it."
"I'll see what can be done," Mr. Cardiff returned, "though I profess myself faithless. Elfrida wasn't designed to please the public of the magazines--in England."
When Janet reflected afterward upon what had struck her as being odd about this remark of her father's, she found it was Elfrida's name. It seemed to have escaped him; he had never referred to her in that way before--which was a wonder, Janet a.s.sured herself, considering how constantly he heard it from her lips.
"How does the novel come on?" Mr. Cardiff asked before she went to bed that night. "When am I to be allowed to see the proofs?"
"I finished the nineteenth chapter yesterday," Janet answered, flus.h.i.+ng. "It will only run to about twenty-three.
It's a very little one, daddy."
"Still n.o.body in the secret but Lash and Black?"
"Not a soul I hope they're the right people," Janet said anxiously. "I haven't even told Elfrida," she added. "I want to surprise her with an early copy. She'll like it, I think. I like it pretty well myself. It has an effective leading idea."
Her father laughed, and threw her a line of Horace which she did not understand. "Don't let it take too much time from your other work," he warned her. "It's sure, you know, to be an arrant imitation of somebody, while in your other things you have never been anybody but yourself."
He looked at her in a way that disarmed his words, and went back to his _Revue Bleue_.
"Dear old thing! You want to prepare me for anything, don't you? I wonder whom I've imitated! Hardy, I think, most of all--but then it's such a ludicrously far-away imitation! If there's nothing in the thing but _that_, it deserves to fall as flat as flat. But there is, daddy!"
Cardiff laid down his journal again at the appealing note.
"No!" she cried, "I won't bore you with it now; wait till the proofs come. Good-night!" She kissed him lightly on the cheek. "About Elfrida," she added, still bending over him. "You'll be very careful, won't you, daddy dear--not to hurt her feelings in any way, I mean?"
After she had gone, Lawrence Cardiff laid down the _Revue_ again and smoked meditatively for half an hour. During that time he revolved at least five subjects which he thought Elfrida, with proper supervision, might treat effectively. But the supervision would be very necessary.
A fortnight later Mr. Cardiff sat in the same chair, smoking the same pipe, and alternately frowned and smiled upon the result of that evening's meditation. It had reached him by post in the afternoon without an accompanying word; the exquisite self-conscious ma.n.u.script seemed to breathe a subdued defiance at him, with the merest ghost of a perfume that Cardiff liked better. Once or twice he held the pages closer to his face to catch it more perfectly.
Janet had not mentioned the matter to him again; indeed, she had hardly thought of it. Her whole nature was absorbed in her fight with herself, in the struggle for self-control, which had ceased to come to the surface of her life at intervals, and had now become constant and supreme with her. Kendal had made it harder for her lately by continually talking of Elfrida. He brought his interest in her to Janet to discuss as he naturally brought everything that touched him to her, and Janet, believing it to be a lover's pleasure, could not forbid him. When he criticised Elfrida, Janet fancied it was to hear her warm defence, which grew oddly reckless in her anxiety to hide the bitterness that tinged it.
"Otherwise," she permitted herself to reflect, "he is curiously just in his a.n.a.lysis of her--for a man," and hated the thought for its touch of disloyalty.
Knowing Elfrida as she thought she knew her, Kendal's talk wounded her once for herself and twice for him. He was going on blindly, confidently, trusting, Janet thought bitterly, to his own sweetness of nature, to his comeliness and the fineness of his sympathies--who had ever refused him anything yet? And only to his hurt, to his repulse--from the point of view of sentiment, to his ruin. For it did not seem possible to Janet that a hopeless pa.s.sion for a being like Elfrida Bell could result in anything but collapse. Whenever he came to Kensington Square, and he came often, she went down to meet him with a quaking heart, and sought his face nervously for the haggard, broken look which should mean that he had asked Elfrida to marry him and been artistically refused. Always she looked in vain; indeed, Kendal's spirits were so uniformly like a schoolboy's that once or twice she asked herself, with sudden terror, whether Elfrida had deceived her--whether it might not be otherwise between them, recognizing then, with infinite humiliation, how much worse that would be. She took to working extravagantly hard, and Elfrida noticed with distinct pleasure how much warmer her manner had grown, and in how many pretty ways she showed her enthusiasm. Janet was such a conquest!
Once when Kendal seemed to Janet on the point of asking her what she thought of his chances, she went to a florist's in the High, and sent Elfrida a pot of snowy chrysanthemums, after which she allowed herself to refrain from seeing her for a week. Her talk with her father about helping Elfrida to place her work with the magazines had been one of the constant impulses by which she tried to compensate her friend, as it were, for the amount of suffering that young woman was inflicting upon her--she would have found a difficulty in explaining it more intelligibly than that.
As he settled together the pages of Miss Bell's article on "The Nemesis of Romanticism" and laid them on the table, Lawrence Cardiff thought, of it with sincere regret.
"It is hopeless--hopeless," he said to himself. "It must be rewritten from end to end. I suppose she must do it herself," he added, with a smile that he drew from some memory of her, and he pulled writing materials toward him to tell her so. Re-reading his brief note, he frowned, hesitated, and tore it up. The next followed it into the waste-paper basket. The third gave Elfrida gently to understand that in Mr. Cardiff's opinion the article was a little unbalanced--she would remember her demand that he should be absolutely frank. She had made some delightful points, but there was a lack of plan and symmetry. If she would give him the opportunity he would be very happy to go over it with her, and possibly she would make a few changes. More than this Cardiff could not induce himself to say. And he would await her answer before sending the article back to her.
It came next day, and in response to it Mr. Cardiff found himself walking, with singular lightness of step, toward Fleet Street in the afternoon with Elfrida's ma.n.u.script in his pocket. Buddha smiled more inscrutably than ever as they went over it together, while the water hissed in the samovar in the corner, and little blue flames chased themselves in and out of the anthracite in the grate, and the queer Orientalism of the little room made its picturesque appeal to Cardiff's senses. He had never been there before.
From beginning to end they went over the ma.n.u.script, he criticising and suggesting, she gravely listening, and insatiately spurring him on.
"You may say anything," she declared. "The sharper it is the better, you know, for me. Please don't be polite--be savage!" and he did his best to comply.
She would not always be convinced; he had to leave some points unvanquished; but in the main she agreed and was grateful. She would remodel the article, she told him, and she would remember all that he had said. Cardiff found her recognition of the trouble he had taken delightful; it was nothing, he declared; he hoped very particularly that she would let him be of use, if possible, often again. He felt an inexplicable jar when she suddenly said, "Did you ever do anything--of this sort--for Janet?"
and he was obliged to reply that he never did--her look of disappointment was so keen. "She thought," he reflected, "that I hoisted Janet into literature, and could be utilized again perhaps," in which he did her injustice.
But he lingered over his tea, and when he took her hand to bid her good-by he looked down at her and said, "Was I very brutal?" in a way which amused Her for quite half an hour after he had gone.
Cardiff sent the amended article to the _London Magazine_ with qualms. It was so unsuitable even then, that he hardly expected his name to do much for it, and the half-hour he devoted to persuading his literary conscience to let him send it was very uncomfortable indeed. Privately he thought any journalist would be rather an a.s.s to print it, yet he sincerely hoped the editor of the _London Magazine_ would prove himself such an a.s.s. He selected the _London Magazine_ because it seemed to him that the quality of its matter had lately been slightly deteriorating. A few days later, when he dropped in at the office, impatient at the delay, to ask the fate of the article, he was distinctly, disappointed to find that the editor had failed to approach it in the character he had mentally a.s.signed to him. That gentleman took the ma.n.u.script out of the left-hand drawer of his writing-table, and fingered, the pages over with a kind of disparaging consideration before handing it back,
"I'm very sorry, Cardiff, but we can't do anything with this, I'm afraid. We have--we have one or two things covering the same ground already in hand."