Anna Pigeon - Track of the Cat Part 6

"White wine would be nice," Christina replied, sounding genuinely delighted.

"You can sit." Like a traffic cop, Anna pointed to the armchair. Besides being the only chair, it had the advantage of being on the other side of the room from the desk. Not only was Anna unsure whether or not she wanted Christina to know she had found the pictures-if, indeed, it was Christina who had been in Drury's trailer searching-but there was something about Christina Walters that made Anna want to spare her any shock, any unpleasantness. Though they were of her, the snaps seemed too explicit for Christina's dark eyes.

Anna did an awkward dip scooping up the offending photographs, and retreated to the kitchen area. Hidden behind the refrigerator door, she stuffed them into the hip pocket of her Levi's. Shortly thereafter, she emerged with a liter bottle of wine. Hoping she looked innocent but managing only to look relieved, she said inanely: "I got it."

Christina laughed. "One gla.s.s will do for starters-I'm a cheap date."

"I doubt that." Words came before thought. Though they sounded harsh, Anna meant them as a compliment. She waited a second to see how Christina would take it.

The woman smiled easily, crossed her long legs. Piedmont jumped to the floor. Lovely as it was, it was not a good lap for curling up in.

Anna poured a gla.s.s of wine for her guest and, returning to the desk, she topped off her own. The bottle she set on the floor by the kerosene lamp.

"Light it," Christina said. It sounded like the eager request of a child and not an order.

Fumbling with matches, Anna lit the lamp.

Christina Walters dropped gracefully to the floor and began looking through the tape collection Anna kept in shoe boxes beneath the coffee table. Seemingly she had more poise sitting on a stranger's carpet than Anna could muster in a straight-backed chair in her own home.

As she read the spines of the ca.s.settes, Christina chatted comfortably of music. "I used to sing in the church choir when I was growing up in Tennessee," she said and she laughed. A nice round rich sound from somewhere deeper than nerves or politeness. "Momma thought I was such a devout little thing till she found out I only put up with all the talk about Jesus so I could have the music. There was a stop to choir after that, though not to church."

Anna smiled, handed Christina her wine. She took it in long tapered fingers, nails polished but not sharp or unkind-looking.

"To old friends and better days," Christina said. Sadness touched her face, warmed the brown eyes.

Anna felt her throat constrict. "Old friends," she repeated and drank to other dark eyes and lamplit nights.

"How about this? Sophistication in the wilderness. I love it." Christina held up Cole Porter's Anything Goes. Anything Goes.

"One of my favorites," Anna replied, pleased that Christina had chosen that instead of a modern popular musician. "I sing some of those songs to Gideon to keep us both awake on the trail."

"I'll bet he loves it." Christina dropped the tape in.

Anna suspected she was trying to put her at ease. What surprised her was how well it was working. "I think Gideon misses the good old days when rangers whistled 'The Streets of Laredo.' "

Piedmont, creeping along the sides of the room, skulking under the furniture, sprang out to pounce on the hem of Christina's dress. Putting her hand under the fabric, she moved it around creating a mole for him to kill.

It impressed Anna that she put Piedmont's amus.e.m.e.nt before the well-being of her garment.

"I want to get Alison a kitten," Christina said. "She needs to learn to be kind because she is bigger, more powerful than something. She needs to have some little life depend on her now. I don't expect she'll ever have a little sister to practice on."

Sadness weighed on Christina's voice and Anna, who'd never much cared for children, found herself wis.h.i.+ng Christina could have another. "Alison's the little blond girl on the pink tricycle, isn't she?" Anna asked and the other woman nodded, looking pleased Anna had noticed. "She's a pretty little girl."

Christina said nothing but there was something in her look that made Anna laugh at herself. "Listen to me," she said. "I'm carrying on the tradition. As if pretty were the best and most important thing a little girl could be."

Christina refilled her own gla.s.s, then poured Anna more wine. Anna accepted her taking the role of hostess as easily as Christina had a.s.sumed it.

"Let me try again," Anna said as she slid down on the floor, her back against the desk, her legs stretched out. "She looks like a sharp, determined, organized little girl. How's that?"

"Perfect!" Christina said, and she actually clapped her hands. Somehow it wasn't phony or coy or childish or any of the things Anna might have thought had the gesture come from someone else. It was charming.

"Alison is terrifyingly organized and she's just turned four last month. Why did you say 'organized'? It's an odd word to describe a child."

"I can see her thinking," Anna explained. "See the little wheels and cogs and gears turning as she plots out her course through the houses."

"She is my light," Christina said. "Everything that is good and worthwhile about me has surfaced in that little person. All the bent and broken bits were left out. Alison means the world to me."

There was an edge of desperation-or determination-in Christina's voice that made Anna think now she was to hear the real reason for the visit. Disappointment-minor, Anna told herself-ached behind her sternum. She wished this had been just a social call. The ache deepened as she remembered the snapshots in her pocket.

The tape clicked to an end. Neither of them moved to turn it over. Christina was looking into Anna's face and, though Anna wanted to look away, she found she couldn't.

"You found the pictures, didn't you?" the woman asked softly.

"Inside the clothes rod in the bedroom closet," Anna replied.

Despite the situation, Christina laughed. "For Heaven's sake!" she said. "I'm impressed. You must be a regular Miss Marple."

She was impressed, Anna could tell. She liked it. And she felt a fool for liking it. "You... went into Ranger Drury's and looked through her collection."

"We broke in, yes."

"We?"

"Alison and I."

In spite of herself, Anna smiled. It hardly seemed a deadly duo, this gentle woman and her child. A thought struck Anna: "The dishes and the garbage. You cleaned up."

"The heat made it smell," Christina said simply, as if Sheila could come home and be offended by it.

Anna had more questions, but it seemed if she waited Christina would fill the awkward silences as she had been doing since she arrived. Truth or lies, Anna was curious to see what she would say.

As if I'd know the difference, Anna said to herself. But she thought she would.

"Could I see them?" Christina asked.

Wondering what kind of a cop she was to hand over her best and only evidence to the prime suspect, Anna took the snapshots from her pocket and gave them to Christina. Two women sitting companionably talking of children and music over a gla.s.s of wine: it seemed absurd to refuse a request on the grounds of suspected murder.

There were twelve pictures. Christina looked through them slowly. Her eyes filled with tears. Anna got to her feet and fetched a wad of toilet paper from the bathroom. When she came back she didn't settle again to her comfortable place on the carpet but perched vulture-like on the edge of the straight-backed chair. "I haven't any Kleenex," she apologized as she held out the tissue.

"This is fine. Thank you." Christina blew her nose. Anna was speculating whether or not she had murdered her lover, but when Christina looked up there was such loneliness in her brown eyes Anna found herself saying with honesty as well as compa.s.sion: "Those are beautiful photographs."

The simple kindness seemed to undo Christina and the trickle of tears became a river. Anna knew from experience that tears made men nervous. Though she certainly enjoyed them less, they bothered her no more than laughter.

In a minute or two the sobs subsided. Christina took a deep drink of her wine and sighed as if she were breathing out her very soul.

"I thought maybe she was blackmailing you," Anna said. "Though who'd care these days is beyond me. But maybe you wanted to go to seminary, become an Episcopal priest, run for Congress, or Mrs. America. Was she?"

Christina shook her head. "She threatened sometimes. Half kidding you know, wanting to make me 'come out of the closet.' I like it just fine in the closet. But Sheila'd never have done it."

"Because she loved you?"

"No. I don't know that she did love me. Because she was a very ethical person. Painfully so. She used to boast-and it was true in a lot of ways-that she had no morals but she did have ethics. To tell someone else's secrets would not have been an ethical thing to do."

"Why did you break in, search her picture collection?"

"I was afraid if the pictures turned up in her effects they might be made public in some way. Then Erik would find out like he finds out everything. He would use them to prove I was an unfit mother. He'd take Alison from me."

"Erik is Alison's father?"

"Legally."

Anna looked at her questioningly. It had nothing to do with Drury or lions, and she couldn't bring herself to voice mere curiosity.

"After Erik and I had been trying a while we found out his sperm count was too low-practically nil-and what few little guys there were were pretty poor swimmers. 'Weak specimens' the doctor called them. Alison's daddy is the turkey baster. High tech, though. We had it done in a fancy clinic in San Raphael."

"I take it it was not an amicable divorce," Anna ventured and Christina laughed bitterly.

"No. Erik was having an affair with his corner office and his mahogany desk at an investment banking firm in San Francisco, and I was having an affair with the woman who came to do the stenciling in the nursery.

"Erik had been pretty upset over the sperm count thing even though it really didn't matter much to me. I guess having his wife run off with another woman was more than he could take. He even threatened to kill her. He actually waited at her off-ramp and rammed Linda's car with his Toyota. He was just trying to scare us, I think. It worked. Linda moved to Seattle. I lost touch with her after a while."

"Why didn't he get Alison then?"

"He tried but I went on the stand and lied my way out of it. There wasn't any proof. And I guess I didn't look like the judge's idea of one of 'them.' He'll never give up, though."

"He loves Alison that much? Or hates you?"

"Both in his way, I guess. But what he really loves is winning and what he can't stand is losing."

A moment pa.s.sed in silence. Christina looked through the pictures again but this time there were no tears. When she'd finished, she held them out to Anna.

"Keep them," Anna said.

"You loved somebody!" Christina sounded faintly surprised.

"Did you think of me as the Snow Queen, a heart of ice?"

Christina was quiet so long, Anna thought she wasn't going to reply.

"I suppose I did," she said finally. "You seem so tough, so together, lifting heavy weights and driving big trucks. It's easier to believe other people are tough-unfeeling-then you don't have to be careful of them. You can go right on along being careful only of yourself. If you have a heart," Christina said gently, "it's made of gold." She held the corner of the bundle of pictures over the chimney of the lamp. Flames bloomed green and blue from the developing chemical.

"It's a shame," Anna said. "They were really the only pictures Sheila ever took that were worth a d.a.m.n."

Christina left at nine-forty; eleven-forty New York time. Anna decided to risk Molly's displeasure, gambling she'd still be up watching Jay Leno.

For this call, Anna went to the pay phone down the road half a mile at the Pine Springs Store. The laundry room in the Cholla Chateau was too public.

"It's me. Did I wake you up?" Anna asked.

"Nope. This is the City That Never Sleeps. Tonight I know why. The people in 3C won't let it. I knew I should have moved when they took up clog dancing." There was a sudden silence in the listening darkness of the phone lines, a hushed breath, a sense of palpable relief.

"Still smoking?" Anna asked.

"Still drinking?" Molly returned.

"Like a fish."

"Like a chimney."

"By sixty-two you'll be dead of emphysema like Aunt Gertie."

"By seventy-four you'll fall drunk in the upper pond and drown like Gramma Davis."

"Come to West Texas. At least mix your smoke with some real air," Anna said and, as always, she felt a fluttering of hope that this time Molly would say yes. And wouldn't cancel out at the last minute.

"Too many crazy clients," Molly said with a laugh.

"Speaking of crazy," Anna blurted out, "I think I may be gay."

"Woman to woman love? Politically correct. Low risk of disease. High chance of getting grant money for artistic endeavors. That'll be a hundred and forty-five dollars."

"Molly ..."

"You're serious. Okay." There followed a silence through which Anna could hear her sister changing gears, dropping the banter. Now they would talk. Relief welled up like a warm spring.

"And Rogelio?" Molly asked.

"Rogelio is..." Anna searched for the words that would sum up the man who had appeared in and disappeared out of her bed for the last eight months. "Rogelio is every inch a man."

"Nine," Molly said dryly.

"Give or take."

"Your occasionally torrid past indicates a degree of heteros.e.xuality that I, as a licensed psychiatrist, cannot overlook," Molly said.

"Tonight I think I felt myself leaning toward a torrid future with Christina."

"Christina?"

"Every inch a woman. Christina Walters. She's the clerk-typist here." Anna heard Molly sigh-or light a cigarette. "What?" she demanded.

Two beats of black silence pounded through the phone wires. "What do you feel about all this?" her sister asked.

The doctor was IN.

"Mostly confusion."

"Okay. Tell me about Christina."