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When he looked again the crowd had slunk away. Only Ahulah remained, her head bowed on her bare white arm. From the lateral chamber the priest still peered, the carbuncle glistening on his lip.
"Did none condemn you?" the Master asked.
And as she sobbed merely, he added: "Neither do I condemn you. Go, and sin no more."
To the elders this was very discomforting. They had failed to unmask him as a traitor to G.o.d, to Rome even, or yet as a demagogue defying the Law.
They did not care to question again. He had worsted them three times. Nor could they without due cause arrest him, for there were the Pharisees.
Besides, a religious trial was full of risk, and the cooperation of the procurator not readily to be relied on. It was that cooperation they needed most, for with it such feeling as might be aroused would fall on Rome and not on them. As for Pilate, he could put a sword in front of what he said.
In their enforced inaction they got behind that wall of prejudice where they and their kin feel most secure, and there waited, prepared at the first opportunity to invoke the laws of their ancestors, laws so c.u.mbersome and complex that the Romans, accustomed to the clearest pandects, had laughed and left them, erasing only the right to kill.
At last chance smiled. Into Jerusalem a rumor filtered that the Nazarene they hated so had raised the dead, that the suburbs hailed him as the Messiah, and that he proclaimed himself the Son of G.o.d. At once the Sanhedrim rea.s.sembled. A political deliverer they might have welcomed, but in a Messiah they had little faith. The very fact of his Messiahs.h.i.+p const.i.tuted him a claimant to the Jewish throne, and as such a pretender with whom Pilate could deal. Moreover-and here was the point-to claim divinity was to attack the unity of G.o.d. Of impious blasphemy there was no higher form.
It were better, Annas suggested, that a man should die than that a nation should perish-a truism, surely, not to be gainsaid.
That night it was decided that Jesus and Judaism could not live together; a price was placed upon his head, and to the blare of four hundred trumpets excommunication was p.r.o.nounced.
Of all of these incidents save the last Mary had been necessarily aware.
In company with Johanna, the wife of Herod's steward, Mary, wife of Clopas, and Salome, mother of Zebedee's children, she had heard him reiterate the burning words of Jeremiah, and seen him purge the Temple of its traffickers; she had heard, too, the esoteric proclamation, "Before Abraham was, I am;" and she had seen him lash the Sadducees with invective. She had been present when a letter was brought from Abgar Uch.o.m.o, King of Edessa, to Jesus, "the good Redeemer," in which the potentate prayed the prophet to come and heal him of a sickness which he had, offering him a refuge from the Jews, and quaintly setting forth the writer's belief that Jesus was G.o.d or else His Son. She had been present, also, when the charge was made against Ahulah, and had comforted that unfortunate in womanly ways. "Surely," she had said, "if the Master who does not love you can forgive, how much more readily must your husband who does!" Whereupon Ahulah had become her slave, tending her thereafter with almost b.e.s.t.i.a.l devotion.
These episodes, one after another, she related to Martha; to Eleazer, her brother; to Simon, Martha's husband; to anyone that chanced that way. For it was then that the Master had bade her go to Bethany. For a little s.p.a.ce he too had forsaken Jerusalem. Now and then with some of his followers he would venture in the neighborhood, yet only to be off again through the scorched hollows of the Ghor before the sun was up.
These things it was that paraded before her as she lay on the floor of the little room, felled by the hideousness of a threat that had sprung upon her, abruptly, like a cheetah in the dark. To Martha and to the others on one subject alone had she been silent, and now at the moment it dominated all else.
From the day on which she joined the little band to whom the future was to give half of this world and all of the next, Judas had been ever at her ear. As a door that opens and shuts at the will of a hand, his presence and absence had barred the vistas or left them clear. At first he had affected her as a scarabaeus affects the rose. She knew of him, and that was all. When he spoke, she thought of other things. And as the blind remain unawakened by the day, he never saw that where the wanton had been the saint had come. To him she was a book of ivory bound in gold, whose contents he longed to possess; she was a book, but one from which whole chapters had been torn, the preface destroyed; and when his increasing insistence forced itself upon her, demanding, obviously, countenance or rebuke, she walked serenely on her way, disdaining either, occupied with higher things. It was of the Master only that she appeared to think. When he spoke, it was to her as though G.o.d really lived on earth; her eyes lighted ineffably, and visibly all else was instantly forgot. At that time her life was a dream into whose charmed precincts a bat had flown.
These things, gradually, Judas must have understood. In Mary's eyes he may have caught the intimation that to her now only the ideal was real; or the idea may have visited him that in the infinite of her faith he disappeared and ceased to be. In any event he must have taken counsel with himself, for one day he approached her with a newer theme.
"I have knocked on the tombs; they are dumb."
Mary, with that grace with which a woman gathers a flower when thinking of him whom she loves, bent a little and turned away.
"Have you heard of the Buddha?" he asked. "Babylon is peopled with his disciples. One of them met Jesus in the desert, and taught him his belief.
It is that he preaches now, only the Buddha did not know of a heaven, for there is none."
And he added, after a pause: "I tell you I have knocked on the tombs; there is no answer there."
With that, as a panther falls asleep, his claw blood-red, Judas nodded and left her to her thoughts.
"In Eternity there is room for everything," she said, when he came to her again.
"Eternity is an abyss which the tomb uses for a sewer," he answered. "Its flood is corruption. The day only exists, but in it is that freedom which waves possess. Mary, if you would but taste it with me! Oh, to mix with you as light with day, as stream with sea, I would suck the flame that flickers on the walls of sepulchres."
She shuddered, and he saw it.
"You have taught me to love," he hissed; "do not teach me now to hate."
Mary mastered her revolt. "Judas, the day will come when you will cease to speak as you do."
"You believe, then, still?"
"Yes, surely; and so do you."
"The day will come," he muttered, "when you will cease to believe."
"And you too," she answered. "For then you will _know_."
The dialogue with its variations continued, at intervals, for months.
There were times, weeks even, when he avoided all speech with her. Then, abruptly, when she expected it least, he would return more volcanic than before. These attacks she accustomed herself to regard as necessary, perhaps, to the training of patience, of charity too, and so bore with them, until at last Jerusalem was reached. Meanwhile she held to her trust as to a fringe of the mantle of Christ. To her the past was a grammar, its name-To-morrow. And in the service of the Master, in the future which he had evoked, she journeyed and dreamed.
But in Jerusalem Judas grew acrider. He had fits of unnecessary laughter, and spells of the deepest melancholy. He quarrelled with anyone who would let him, and then for the irritation he had displayed he would make amends that were wholly slavish. His companions distrusted him. He had been seen talking amicably with the corrupt levites, the police of the Temple, and once he had been detected in a wine-shop of low repute. The Master, apparently, noticed nothing of this; nor did Mary, whose thoughts were on other things.
At Bethany one evening Judas came to her. The sun, sinking through clouds, placed in the west the tableau of a duel to the death between a t.i.tan and a G.o.d. There was the glitter of gigantic swords, and the red of immortal blood.
"Mary," he began, and as he spoke there was a new note in his voice-"Mary, I have watched and waited, and to those that watch how many lamps burn out! One after another those that I tended went. There was a flicker, a little smoke, and they had gone. I tried to relight them, but perhaps the oil was spent; perhaps, too, I was like the blind that hold a torch. My way has not been clear. The faith I had, and which, I do not know, but which, it may be, would have been strengthened, evaporated when you came.
The rays of the sun I had revered became as the threads of shadows, interconnecting life and death. In them I could see but you. In the jaw of night, in the teeth of day, always I have seen you. Mary, love is a net which woman throws. In casting yours-there! unintentionally, I know-you caught my soul. It is yours now wholly until time shall cease to be. Will you take it, Mary, or will you put it aside, a thing forever dead?"
Mary made no answer. It may be she had not heard. In the west both t.i.tan and G.o.d had disappeared. Above, in a field of stars, the moon hung, a scythe of gold. The air was still, the hush of locusts accentuating the silence and bidding it be at rest. In a house near by there were lights s.h.i.+ning. A woman looked out and called into the night.
Then, as though moved by some jealousy of the impalpable, Judas leaned forward and peered into her face.
"It is the Master who keeps you from me, is it not?"
"It is my belief," she answered, simply.
"It was he that gave it to you. Mary, do you know that there is a price upon his head? Do you know that if I cannot slake my love, at least I can gorge my hate? Do you know that, Mary? Do you know it? Now choose between your belief and me; if you prefer the former, the Sanhedrim will have him to-morrow. There, your sister is calling; go-and choose."
It was with the hideousness of this threat in her ears that Mary escaped to the little room where her childhood had been pa.s.sed and flung herself on the floor. From beyond came the sound of banqueting. Martha was entertaining the Lord, his disciples as well; and Mary knew that her aid was needed. But the threat pinioned and held her down. To accede was death, not of the body alone, but of the soul as well. There was no clear pool in which she might cleanse the stain; there could be no forgiveness, no obliteration, nothing in fact save the loss never to be recovered of life in the diaphanous hours and immaculate days of which she had dreamed so long.
For a little s.p.a.ce she tried to comfort herself. Perhaps Judas was not in earnest; perhaps even he had lied. And if he had not, was there not time in plenty? The desert was neighborly. She could follow the Master there, and minister to him till the sky opened and the kingdom was prepared. And the threat, coupled with that perspective, charmed, and for the moment had for her that enticement which the quarrels and kisses of children equally possess. She would warn him secretly, she decided, for surely as yet he did not know; she would warn him, and before the sun was up he could be beyond the Sanhedrim's reach, and she preparing to follow. For a moment she lost herself in antic.i.p.ation; then, the threat loosening its hold, she stood up, her face very white in the starlight, her eyes brave and alert.
Already her plan was formed; and, taking a vase that she had brought with her from Magdala, she hurried to the room below.
The Master; the disciples; Eleazer, her brother; Simon, her sister's husband, were all at meat. Martha was serving, and as Mary entered Judas stood up. She moved to where the Master was, and on him poured the contents of the vase. Thomas sniffed delightedly, for now the room was full of fragrance. The Master turned to her and smiled; the homage evidently was grateful. Mary bent nearer. Thomas and Bartholomew joined in loud praises of the aroma of the nard, and under cover of their voices she whispered, "Rabboni, the Sanhedrim has placed a price on--"
The whisper was drowned and interrupted. Judas had shoved her away. "To what end is this waste?" he asked; and as Mary looked in his face she saw by the expression in it that her purpose had been divined and her warning overheard.
"It is absurd," he continued, with affected anger. "Ointment such as that has a value. It might better have been saved for the poor."
Thomas chimed in approvingly; placed in that light it was indeed an extravagance, unnecessary too, and he looked about to his comrades for support. Eleazer and Peter seemed inclined to view the matter differently.
A discussion would have arisen, but the Master checked it gently, as was his wont.
"The poor are always with you, but me you cannot always have."
As he spoke he turned to Judas with that indulgence which was to be a heritage.
Could he _know_? Judas wondered. Had he heard what Mary said? And, the Master's speech continuing, he glanced at her and left the room.
The moon had mowed the stars, but the sky was visibly blue. Behind the shoulder of Olivet he divined the silence of Jerusalem, the welcome of the Sadducees, the joy of hate a.s.suaged. There was but one thing now that might deter; and as his thoughts groped through that possibility, Mary stood at his side.